A/N: I've changed this to Ellaris' POV for this bit, Enjoy.
I look down at the brightly-lit city below and sigh. This is what I hate about being mortal, everything hurts; it feels like my whole body is just struggling to exist, the pain I'm in doesn't help. Kai's ignoring me, right when I need him most; thankfully Tyson's gotten the hint and has begun to leave me alone. I know that it was Saffron who made him think he was in love with me, she's the only one out of the group who can curse mortals.
I close my eyes to block out the hash lights from below and Kai's face swims out of the blackness towards me, my eyes snap open, I can't bear to think of him.
But I can't help it.
Last time I left him because he cared more about winning than me and I had to show him he was wrong, my message got through though. I thought I was in pain then. True, I didn't want to leave Kai then, or ever, but I could manage; I kept busy and led a normal life and tried to stay out of beyblading. But then out of the blue he showed up again and convinced me to join his team; I knew I couldn't beyblade, I'd forgotten how.
Just like I'd tried to forget him.
But I was only kidding myself; you can never forget someone like Kai. But I want to leave this pain in my heart behind, we were actually happy; we were both in love and then this all happened. How could he love me if he could put me through this agony?
I slide off of the edge and walk over the roof and sit down in a corner, my eyes prickle with tears. I try to resist but hot tears escape and run down my face and I begin to cry quietly.
***
Kai's POV
I pace restlessly around my room, a glance at the clock on the wall tells me it's around three in the morning; I punch the wall angrily, why can't I sleep? But I already know. I miss her; I keep denying it but I know it's true. I'm in love with her. I hadn't realised how much I cared for her until this while thing with Tyson came up.
I walk to the bathroom and look in the mirror, I'm all there, my amber eyes look back at me with a hollow expression. It's strange that I appear to be all there in the mirror; because I feel like half of me is missing. I turn on the shower and instantly turn it off again; I can never make up my mind anymore.
I wander out of the room resisting the urge to smash anything that I come across; I sit down in a chair and immediately jump up like I've been electrocuted. But this time it's not because I can't make up my mind. I stand still and listen carefully. there! I walk around the room trying to tell what the sound I can hear is and where it's coming from. I walk by my bed and freeze.
I look up and to my right and see an air vent; the noise of someone crying echoes down it. I walk up to the roof thinking that must be there the noise is coming from. I freeze as I open the door there is the very reason that I can't sleep at night. Ellaris is huddled up in the corner sobbing uncontrollably, I debate on whether on not to go over there.
Unfortunately my body doesn't care about what my mind thinks and has ordered my feet to take me over to her. I stop in front of her and she looks up at me her damp face a mixture of emotions.
"I heard you crying." I say quietly unable to think of anything else to say.
"I'm sorry." She whispers looking down and pulls her knees tighter towards her, as a little sob escapes my knees give way and I'm keeling on the floor next to her. She looks over at me, her eyes shining with tears.
"I'm sorry Kai, I really messed things up. It's all my fault, I should have paid more attention to what was going on - I." She babbles at me as tears choke her throat to limit her voice. I sit there in shock. Have I done this to her? Have I turned the happy, brave, headstrong and beautiful girl into this emotional wreck I see before me? Her words turn into barely audible whimpers as more tears fight their way to the surface.
I throw all reason out the window and follow my gut instinct and kiss her to quieten her, she begins to gush out apologies again.
"Shh." I whisper to her wiping her tears away, it kills me to see her like this. She looks at me confused, worried and scared to be happy.
"I'm the one who's sorry. I didn't realise how much I needed you until I lost you, and it sacred me." I admit to her.
"What?" She asks me as her tears beginning to slow down.
"It scared me how much I needed you. I wanted to try and prove that I didn't need you by staying away from you. But I can't. I just can't stay away from you; I care about you too much to leave you." I whisper softly pulling her into my lap.
"I didn't realise that I could have this much of an affect on you El. I'm sorry." I apologise.
"I hate you, you bastard!" Ellaris sobs thumping her hard on the shoulder, I'm speechless and hurt; was I wrong, doesn't she love me at all?
"I didn't want to fall in love with you Kai! I care about you too much to fall in love with you but you made me! Every guy I've ever fallen in love with has left me or died or broken my heart and I don't want to have you do that to me!" She snaps glaring at me.
"I can't bear to lose you Kai." She sniffs, her face softening.
"I'm not going anywhere El, I promise." I tell her honestly.
"You damn well better not." She threatens softly as she snuggles into my chest; I smiled and kiss her again happily.
I open my eyes and dazzling sunlight blinds me, I growl angrily, how dare the sun wake me up?! I had been having such a wonderful dream. I look over to my clock but don't pay attention to what time it is, something far more fascinating has caught my eye.
The smooth form of Ellaris is lying before me, one arm is behind her and the other is softly holding on to the edge of my pillow. She looks so peaceful as she is lying in my bed sleeping. I don't dare to blink unless this vision of paradise disappears. I reluctantly blink as my eyes start to water and she's still lying there asleep. I'm overjoyed that this wasn't all a dream.
El sighs as she opens her eyes groggily, seeing my sitting there staring at her she grabs my shoulder and pulls me back down to her.
"You woke me up." She murmurs resting her head on my bare chest.
"Sorry." I whisper happily as I run a hand through her dark hair.
I look down at the brightly-lit city below and sigh. This is what I hate about being mortal, everything hurts; it feels like my whole body is just struggling to exist, the pain I'm in doesn't help. Kai's ignoring me, right when I need him most; thankfully Tyson's gotten the hint and has begun to leave me alone. I know that it was Saffron who made him think he was in love with me, she's the only one out of the group who can curse mortals.
I close my eyes to block out the hash lights from below and Kai's face swims out of the blackness towards me, my eyes snap open, I can't bear to think of him.
But I can't help it.
Last time I left him because he cared more about winning than me and I had to show him he was wrong, my message got through though. I thought I was in pain then. True, I didn't want to leave Kai then, or ever, but I could manage; I kept busy and led a normal life and tried to stay out of beyblading. But then out of the blue he showed up again and convinced me to join his team; I knew I couldn't beyblade, I'd forgotten how.
Just like I'd tried to forget him.
But I was only kidding myself; you can never forget someone like Kai. But I want to leave this pain in my heart behind, we were actually happy; we were both in love and then this all happened. How could he love me if he could put me through this agony?
I slide off of the edge and walk over the roof and sit down in a corner, my eyes prickle with tears. I try to resist but hot tears escape and run down my face and I begin to cry quietly.
***
Kai's POV
I pace restlessly around my room, a glance at the clock on the wall tells me it's around three in the morning; I punch the wall angrily, why can't I sleep? But I already know. I miss her; I keep denying it but I know it's true. I'm in love with her. I hadn't realised how much I cared for her until this while thing with Tyson came up.
I walk to the bathroom and look in the mirror, I'm all there, my amber eyes look back at me with a hollow expression. It's strange that I appear to be all there in the mirror; because I feel like half of me is missing. I turn on the shower and instantly turn it off again; I can never make up my mind anymore.
I wander out of the room resisting the urge to smash anything that I come across; I sit down in a chair and immediately jump up like I've been electrocuted. But this time it's not because I can't make up my mind. I stand still and listen carefully. there! I walk around the room trying to tell what the sound I can hear is and where it's coming from. I walk by my bed and freeze.
I look up and to my right and see an air vent; the noise of someone crying echoes down it. I walk up to the roof thinking that must be there the noise is coming from. I freeze as I open the door there is the very reason that I can't sleep at night. Ellaris is huddled up in the corner sobbing uncontrollably, I debate on whether on not to go over there.
Unfortunately my body doesn't care about what my mind thinks and has ordered my feet to take me over to her. I stop in front of her and she looks up at me her damp face a mixture of emotions.
"I heard you crying." I say quietly unable to think of anything else to say.
"I'm sorry." She whispers looking down and pulls her knees tighter towards her, as a little sob escapes my knees give way and I'm keeling on the floor next to her. She looks over at me, her eyes shining with tears.
"I'm sorry Kai, I really messed things up. It's all my fault, I should have paid more attention to what was going on - I." She babbles at me as tears choke her throat to limit her voice. I sit there in shock. Have I done this to her? Have I turned the happy, brave, headstrong and beautiful girl into this emotional wreck I see before me? Her words turn into barely audible whimpers as more tears fight their way to the surface.
I throw all reason out the window and follow my gut instinct and kiss her to quieten her, she begins to gush out apologies again.
"Shh." I whisper to her wiping her tears away, it kills me to see her like this. She looks at me confused, worried and scared to be happy.
"I'm the one who's sorry. I didn't realise how much I needed you until I lost you, and it sacred me." I admit to her.
"What?" She asks me as her tears beginning to slow down.
"It scared me how much I needed you. I wanted to try and prove that I didn't need you by staying away from you. But I can't. I just can't stay away from you; I care about you too much to leave you." I whisper softly pulling her into my lap.
"I didn't realise that I could have this much of an affect on you El. I'm sorry." I apologise.
"I hate you, you bastard!" Ellaris sobs thumping her hard on the shoulder, I'm speechless and hurt; was I wrong, doesn't she love me at all?
"I didn't want to fall in love with you Kai! I care about you too much to fall in love with you but you made me! Every guy I've ever fallen in love with has left me or died or broken my heart and I don't want to have you do that to me!" She snaps glaring at me.
"I can't bear to lose you Kai." She sniffs, her face softening.
"I'm not going anywhere El, I promise." I tell her honestly.
"You damn well better not." She threatens softly as she snuggles into my chest; I smiled and kiss her again happily.
I open my eyes and dazzling sunlight blinds me, I growl angrily, how dare the sun wake me up?! I had been having such a wonderful dream. I look over to my clock but don't pay attention to what time it is, something far more fascinating has caught my eye.
The smooth form of Ellaris is lying before me, one arm is behind her and the other is softly holding on to the edge of my pillow. She looks so peaceful as she is lying in my bed sleeping. I don't dare to blink unless this vision of paradise disappears. I reluctantly blink as my eyes start to water and she's still lying there asleep. I'm overjoyed that this wasn't all a dream.
El sighs as she opens her eyes groggily, seeing my sitting there staring at her she grabs my shoulder and pulls me back down to her.
"You woke me up." She murmurs resting her head on my bare chest.
"Sorry." I whisper happily as I run a hand through her dark hair.
