I think ppl know by now that I'm not a part of the company that makes this
show........Neh. Only one day left of
freedom......ack. school...*shudders*
Identity Thief and BladerSINbad: Nope! That wasn't the end...but it might be soon, so yeah. Heres the next chappie, and thanks! Wait a minute.....jello? Isn't that stuff the same as jelly? Oh well. If it's jiggly and squishy, to me it's jelly. Sorry...but it is!
Ruriko Minamino: Thanks. And I'm not sure. Well, I thought about it, and since tala seemed so much older than he really is, and so much of a bastard, I thought that there should be a reason, and that somewhere, there should be a little bit of him that realizes he's a bastard. Then that part grew a mind of it's own on me and is thinking about killing himself.....do you know how many of my friends have said not to kill him?
bey-girl-nicky: mmmm....pizza...for breakfast would be nice *raids fridge in search of leftovers* damn. No pizza. *settles on a packet of 2 minute noodles* mmmm.....gomen bout that. Brilliant? I don't know about that. Me? A good author? Why do ppl say that?! I'm nowhere near as good as some ppl. Far out, one of my friends wouldn't let me read a fic she wrote and printed to show me cause she thought I was too good at writing. I'm not good I tell u! I just put down a whole bunch of words and hope they make sense!
On with the fic! (Is that becoming like, my trademark line or something?)
Kai was only doing this because Rei was so forgiving. If it was up to him, he would most likely let Tala jump off a cliff for all he cared. But Rei seemed to think that he could change. [Well, he thought you could change and you did...] said a small voice in his head. [Shut up you.] He stopped thinking.
Ahead of them, Tala was running. He was sure of what he was doing, and had to go through with it. He remembered how painful it looked when his parents had been killed, but followed his only instinct, to get rid of himself. He didn't deserve to live any longer. Why should he inflict pain upon others? The pain inside him was big enough. No emotion, but the pain of knowing that he had to kill HIMSELF. No one could do it for him; he couldn't let himself be murdered. He had to do it now or never.
Running all the way to the river, more memories came back. He sat down on the bank, soon almost frozen in the cold.[Good, numbing....but then, does that defeat the purpose?] Staring across, he could see nothing but the falling snow and the occasional car drive past. But he was sitting too low on the bank, no one would see him.
******
"Rei, are you sure about this? I mean, it's almost as dangerous as letting Tyson loose in a restaurant." Kai muttered once they had stopped. They were standing a few meters behind Tala, watching him hesitate.
"Kai....ok, I'm not sure. I'm never sure of myself though. Look at when you first kissed me. I had no idea weather you really liked me or not back then, so I hesitated. I wanted to kiss you back, but I wasn't sure if you wanted me to. He's not sure weather he really wants to kill himself. He does, but he's not sure."
Kai was surprised that Rei knew so much about human nature, and the way people thought. He had always thought of Rei as an innocent, shy and sensitive guy. But right now, he seemed to have completely changed, or maybe it was because now Kai knew a lot more about his past. [Or maybe, the chemicals affected him more than first thought....] He couldn't help thinking. As Kai watched him, he realized the usually cheerful face had been replaced by a face of determination, one that Kai only ever saw during BeyBattles.
"Rei, why are you so dead set on stopping him kill himself? I know you said that he might change, but how can we be sure?"
"Kai, this isn't about who he is, weather I care if he dies or not! I really couldn't care less about a person like him!"
This confused Kai.
"Then why are we here?"
"Kai, I never told you, but when I was younger, I saw someone kill themselves. I won't say who, but I saw the whole thing. He stabbed himself. I saw his pain, and how everyone reacted. I had to tell them what he had done! Do you have any idea how hard it was? I was only five. I saw something like this happen. So you see, I really couldn't care less about Tala, but I'm scared of having to explain, and go through the confusion, and chaos of it all. This is different, since I don't care who he is, but last time.....it was.....ok, I'll say. He was my only real friend. He was only six! And he killed himself! I still wonder why, but I'm over it, I have you now, and I love you more than anyone."
Kai was speechless. Rei had only ever had one true friend before him? Well, he couldn't talk. Rei was his only friend, and he was more than that. [But six? No wonder he's so sensitive about suicide. He watched it all happen.]
"Shit, I didn't -" Kai was cut off by Rei placing a finger over his lips.
"Don't worry about it. We talk later."
"Fine then. But can we get this over with. I'm starting to think that if he doesn't kill himself soon, I'm going to do it for him."
"Kai," Rei warned, raising an eyebrow.
******
Sitting in silence. He was really going to die in silence, they way he lived for so long. Alone and scared.
[Wait? Is that why I let myself torture people? Because I was scared of what would happen to me? Well, that won't be able to happen again. But why? Why did they kill my parents? Why me?! Why did Voltaire choose my parents to murder?]
Finally he came to the decision that made him truly believe why. His parents had been helping him, hadn't they? They had done something wrong, and he had been taken to finish their work, hadn't he?
Reaching into his pocket, he pulled out a small pocket knife. Twirling it in his fingers a few times, he finally seemed to have come to the decision to go through with it. With a sigh, he closed his pale eyes for a minute before mumbling something that sounded like 'I'll soon be with you again'. Opening his eyes, he searched the knife for the blade. When he found it, he pulled at it, the knife flinging back, ready to slice something. Running his finger along the blade lightly, it was only when a small drop of blood oozed out that he realized he had actually cut himself. Grinning before he realized it, he then mentally told himself off for it. Holding the knife in his left hand between his thumb and forefinger, he was about to do it. He was going to slice himself open, and no one would probably find his body for days. Right before he could reach down and slit his own wrist, he felt a cold hand grab his left arm.
"Hiya. So, thinking about slitting your wrist?" Rei said, trying to sound casual as he held the wrist, the blade only inches from his own.
"I told you to leave and I wouldn't have to say anything!" Tala hissed.
"Well, it seems that Rei had the idea you might change. So if you kill yourself now, what good will it do?" Kai said, steeping up behind Rei.
"And now that you've been this close, won't it really hurt that you couldn't finish it?" Rei muttered.
"But why? I told you, I'm a bastard and I deserve to die. Now let go!" Tala cried.
"Drop the knife." Was all Kai said.
"What?"
"I said, drop the knife now. If you don't, I'll have to kill you, that'll save you the trouble won't it?"
"Why are you both doing this?"
"Because I saw someone kill themself when I was five, ok? It's harder to watch than murder. It's like they have no faith in themself, and that they've had it hard, and that they think they deserve it. No one does though. Not even fucking bastards like you. No one. Look, I did the same thing. I was only six, a year after my friend did. I kept remembering what he did, and then why he did. The last thing he ever said was to me, and he said, 'I don't like it here. I'm going to a better place'. I wondered why, but got over it. I don't want to kill myself anymore, and haven't for years now, not since that time. So get a grip. Think about a good reason. Then tell yourself that it's not good enough."
While Rei had been talking, Kai had called the police on his mobile. They arrived only minutes later, by which time Rei had managed to talk Tala into putting the knife down.
The cop pocketed the knife after putting Tala in the front seat. Kai realized where they were going, and suddenly found himself feeling kind of sorry for him.
They pulled up in front of the hospital.
"Here?" Tala whispered.
"Sorry, kid. But from what we know, you need counselling. You'll have to stay here for a while, and then we'll figure something out for you."
"But..." Tala stepped out of the car, staring at the ground. He was clearly scared again, but now he was scared of what was going to happen to him. He had thought he would be slowly bleeding to death by now, not about to be admitted to a hospitals psychiatric ward for who knows how long.
Kai and Rei watched him being led inside. He was taken to the desk, where he was given an armband and then taken to an elevator.
"You know, I kinda feel sorry for him." Rei murmured to Kai.
"I know, but I guess that it's better than having to drag a bloody body into the river."
"Kai!"
"Just messing around. Don't worry. I guess it's all your fault he's here."
"Nah. I give you credit. You rang the police."
"Ok then." Kai whispered, kissing Rei's head.
The cop got back into the car, and starting the engine, asked where they had to go.
"BioVolt Stadium, please." Rei said, huddling against Kai.
Owari.
Ok! Soooo...whaddaya think? I think there's one chappie left after this so yeah. Hmm....so, not saying Tala's mental or anything! Don't hurt me for that! *gets ready to defend head once objects start flying*
kai: so, ur almost finished?
e.t: yep! And I also got u more milo!
kai: yummy.
rei: what bout me? *looks upset*
kai: hey, I never said I forgot about you. ok then, ur yummy to.
rei: *grins*
e.t: guess they dun even realize I'm still here. *creeps out*
freedom......ack. school...*shudders*
Identity Thief and BladerSINbad: Nope! That wasn't the end...but it might be soon, so yeah. Heres the next chappie, and thanks! Wait a minute.....jello? Isn't that stuff the same as jelly? Oh well. If it's jiggly and squishy, to me it's jelly. Sorry...but it is!
Ruriko Minamino: Thanks. And I'm not sure. Well, I thought about it, and since tala seemed so much older than he really is, and so much of a bastard, I thought that there should be a reason, and that somewhere, there should be a little bit of him that realizes he's a bastard. Then that part grew a mind of it's own on me and is thinking about killing himself.....do you know how many of my friends have said not to kill him?
bey-girl-nicky: mmmm....pizza...for breakfast would be nice *raids fridge in search of leftovers* damn. No pizza. *settles on a packet of 2 minute noodles* mmmm.....gomen bout that. Brilliant? I don't know about that. Me? A good author? Why do ppl say that?! I'm nowhere near as good as some ppl. Far out, one of my friends wouldn't let me read a fic she wrote and printed to show me cause she thought I was too good at writing. I'm not good I tell u! I just put down a whole bunch of words and hope they make sense!
On with the fic! (Is that becoming like, my trademark line or something?)
Kai was only doing this because Rei was so forgiving. If it was up to him, he would most likely let Tala jump off a cliff for all he cared. But Rei seemed to think that he could change. [Well, he thought you could change and you did...] said a small voice in his head. [Shut up you.] He stopped thinking.
Ahead of them, Tala was running. He was sure of what he was doing, and had to go through with it. He remembered how painful it looked when his parents had been killed, but followed his only instinct, to get rid of himself. He didn't deserve to live any longer. Why should he inflict pain upon others? The pain inside him was big enough. No emotion, but the pain of knowing that he had to kill HIMSELF. No one could do it for him; he couldn't let himself be murdered. He had to do it now or never.
Running all the way to the river, more memories came back. He sat down on the bank, soon almost frozen in the cold.[Good, numbing....but then, does that defeat the purpose?] Staring across, he could see nothing but the falling snow and the occasional car drive past. But he was sitting too low on the bank, no one would see him.
******
"Rei, are you sure about this? I mean, it's almost as dangerous as letting Tyson loose in a restaurant." Kai muttered once they had stopped. They were standing a few meters behind Tala, watching him hesitate.
"Kai....ok, I'm not sure. I'm never sure of myself though. Look at when you first kissed me. I had no idea weather you really liked me or not back then, so I hesitated. I wanted to kiss you back, but I wasn't sure if you wanted me to. He's not sure weather he really wants to kill himself. He does, but he's not sure."
Kai was surprised that Rei knew so much about human nature, and the way people thought. He had always thought of Rei as an innocent, shy and sensitive guy. But right now, he seemed to have completely changed, or maybe it was because now Kai knew a lot more about his past. [Or maybe, the chemicals affected him more than first thought....] He couldn't help thinking. As Kai watched him, he realized the usually cheerful face had been replaced by a face of determination, one that Kai only ever saw during BeyBattles.
"Rei, why are you so dead set on stopping him kill himself? I know you said that he might change, but how can we be sure?"
"Kai, this isn't about who he is, weather I care if he dies or not! I really couldn't care less about a person like him!"
This confused Kai.
"Then why are we here?"
"Kai, I never told you, but when I was younger, I saw someone kill themselves. I won't say who, but I saw the whole thing. He stabbed himself. I saw his pain, and how everyone reacted. I had to tell them what he had done! Do you have any idea how hard it was? I was only five. I saw something like this happen. So you see, I really couldn't care less about Tala, but I'm scared of having to explain, and go through the confusion, and chaos of it all. This is different, since I don't care who he is, but last time.....it was.....ok, I'll say. He was my only real friend. He was only six! And he killed himself! I still wonder why, but I'm over it, I have you now, and I love you more than anyone."
Kai was speechless. Rei had only ever had one true friend before him? Well, he couldn't talk. Rei was his only friend, and he was more than that. [But six? No wonder he's so sensitive about suicide. He watched it all happen.]
"Shit, I didn't -" Kai was cut off by Rei placing a finger over his lips.
"Don't worry about it. We talk later."
"Fine then. But can we get this over with. I'm starting to think that if he doesn't kill himself soon, I'm going to do it for him."
"Kai," Rei warned, raising an eyebrow.
******
Sitting in silence. He was really going to die in silence, they way he lived for so long. Alone and scared.
[Wait? Is that why I let myself torture people? Because I was scared of what would happen to me? Well, that won't be able to happen again. But why? Why did they kill my parents? Why me?! Why did Voltaire choose my parents to murder?]
Finally he came to the decision that made him truly believe why. His parents had been helping him, hadn't they? They had done something wrong, and he had been taken to finish their work, hadn't he?
Reaching into his pocket, he pulled out a small pocket knife. Twirling it in his fingers a few times, he finally seemed to have come to the decision to go through with it. With a sigh, he closed his pale eyes for a minute before mumbling something that sounded like 'I'll soon be with you again'. Opening his eyes, he searched the knife for the blade. When he found it, he pulled at it, the knife flinging back, ready to slice something. Running his finger along the blade lightly, it was only when a small drop of blood oozed out that he realized he had actually cut himself. Grinning before he realized it, he then mentally told himself off for it. Holding the knife in his left hand between his thumb and forefinger, he was about to do it. He was going to slice himself open, and no one would probably find his body for days. Right before he could reach down and slit his own wrist, he felt a cold hand grab his left arm.
"Hiya. So, thinking about slitting your wrist?" Rei said, trying to sound casual as he held the wrist, the blade only inches from his own.
"I told you to leave and I wouldn't have to say anything!" Tala hissed.
"Well, it seems that Rei had the idea you might change. So if you kill yourself now, what good will it do?" Kai said, steeping up behind Rei.
"And now that you've been this close, won't it really hurt that you couldn't finish it?" Rei muttered.
"But why? I told you, I'm a bastard and I deserve to die. Now let go!" Tala cried.
"Drop the knife." Was all Kai said.
"What?"
"I said, drop the knife now. If you don't, I'll have to kill you, that'll save you the trouble won't it?"
"Why are you both doing this?"
"Because I saw someone kill themself when I was five, ok? It's harder to watch than murder. It's like they have no faith in themself, and that they've had it hard, and that they think they deserve it. No one does though. Not even fucking bastards like you. No one. Look, I did the same thing. I was only six, a year after my friend did. I kept remembering what he did, and then why he did. The last thing he ever said was to me, and he said, 'I don't like it here. I'm going to a better place'. I wondered why, but got over it. I don't want to kill myself anymore, and haven't for years now, not since that time. So get a grip. Think about a good reason. Then tell yourself that it's not good enough."
While Rei had been talking, Kai had called the police on his mobile. They arrived only minutes later, by which time Rei had managed to talk Tala into putting the knife down.
The cop pocketed the knife after putting Tala in the front seat. Kai realized where they were going, and suddenly found himself feeling kind of sorry for him.
They pulled up in front of the hospital.
"Here?" Tala whispered.
"Sorry, kid. But from what we know, you need counselling. You'll have to stay here for a while, and then we'll figure something out for you."
"But..." Tala stepped out of the car, staring at the ground. He was clearly scared again, but now he was scared of what was going to happen to him. He had thought he would be slowly bleeding to death by now, not about to be admitted to a hospitals psychiatric ward for who knows how long.
Kai and Rei watched him being led inside. He was taken to the desk, where he was given an armband and then taken to an elevator.
"You know, I kinda feel sorry for him." Rei murmured to Kai.
"I know, but I guess that it's better than having to drag a bloody body into the river."
"Kai!"
"Just messing around. Don't worry. I guess it's all your fault he's here."
"Nah. I give you credit. You rang the police."
"Ok then." Kai whispered, kissing Rei's head.
The cop got back into the car, and starting the engine, asked where they had to go.
"BioVolt Stadium, please." Rei said, huddling against Kai.
Owari.
Ok! Soooo...whaddaya think? I think there's one chappie left after this so yeah. Hmm....so, not saying Tala's mental or anything! Don't hurt me for that! *gets ready to defend head once objects start flying*
kai: so, ur almost finished?
e.t: yep! And I also got u more milo!
kai: yummy.
rei: what bout me? *looks upset*
kai: hey, I never said I forgot about you. ok then, ur yummy to.
rei: *grins*
e.t: guess they dun even realize I'm still here. *creeps out*
