First thing before starting this chapter, I would like to thank all of the reviews I got from you. I especially thank the ones that make me see that I'm writing the characters names wrong {Big oh ho} So thank you guys a lot. And I hope you will continue to review and help me fix my mistakes ^^" {Where as I probably have a lot}

I decided to make this fic a Haru and Kyou get together so this is the last episode. Oh And 10x a lot to F. Scorpio how help!!

-Do it wrong-

I think my brain stopped working or was working faster than usual, I couldn't think straight; my thoughts were interfered with all those new feelings that Haru gave me. I was suddenly very aware of what exactly his mouth was doing, Very aware that his body was now almost over me. I was very aware of myself too, how every little movement of his tongue against my lower lip made me shiver. How every time he brushed the hair on the back of my head so I couldn't resist but moan under his lips.

I tore my lips away from his mouth after a few long seconds panting for air. He looked down at me and smiled softly.

I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do, I just kissed him so I guess I should say something. "Don't take that the wrong way," I said, my tone of voice kind of cold. "So how should I take it?" he said, why does he have to be such a smart ass?? "You should stay the hell away from me!!" I yelled, not controlling my temper or my words. "Wait, that's not what I meant!" I said before the puzzled look in his eyes will change to a hurt look. "Let me make it easier for you Kyou." he said and stood up looking down at me. "I'll leave you for now, just think about what you've done and why you did it" he started to climb down the ladder his long coat making rustling noises.

I didn't want him to leave, I wanted to explain myself, but how can I explain to him something that I don't even know the answer? I suddenly find myself being sick of this roof or this place in general. Everything was so complex up here.

I sat on the roof thinking about Haru, I didn't know what to think. Everyone knew about the kind of partners that he liked, am I like that kind too? I wasn't scared from this though. In the Souma family this was a common thing, for guys to like each other. I mean just look at Ayame and Shigure, they were all over each other {and sometimes even on Hatori} and no one seemed to care about the fact that they are two guys {we care more about the fact that they was so damn hentai!}.

And beside the fact that Haru was a guy, did I even liked him that way? Hell, did I even like him? He did help me with Kagura, And he did try to cheer me up a little. "I hate this!" I mumble under my breath and sat straight looking out at the trees, I looked at the shadows of the trees for a moment when the shadows of Yuki and Tohru came closer and closer. I lay down again. If they notice me, at least they'll think I'm sleeping or something.

I heard them whispering and giggling a little, I felt sick of this. The mental image of Haru came to my mind. Do I love Tohru? His explanation sounded so logical, but feelings are not a logical thing.

I couldn't take thinking about it any longer. It made my head hurt and I was freezing outside. I stepped into the house and went to the kitchen without turning on the lights. I opened the fire in the stove and shoved my hands against the flames. It felt warm and nice.

"So, you thought about it?" asked a soft voice behind me. I turned around really fast, my face red with anger, "You dumb cow!!!!! You almost gave me a heart attack!!!" How come I didn't notice him sitting there?! "Wow Kyou, breath a little" he said with a big smirk on his face.

"Well? Did you?" he asks again. I turned around again and put my hands near the flames, "Yes" I said my voice sounded different, like it wasn't even mine; I guess that without my usual anger tone I sound different.

"Do I really need to ask you for details or will you just tell me?" Asked Haru I heard the chair that he sat in drag back, he must be standing now.

"Well sorry for not knowing what you want to hear" I said again losing my temper, I felt him walk towards me.

"The point here is not what I want Kyou, the point is what you want," he said. I felt a strong hand on my shoulder that spun me around so that I was facing Haru. His other hand went forward and closed the fire. "Now,,, tell me" he demand. "I don't know, ok?" I yelled at him, I hate to be like that, to lose my temper to something that small.

"So you don't know. how surprising" he said. I didn't answer. "Well Kyou I know what I want, and I am not afraid to say it," he said, looking down at me. Does he have to be so tall?? "I am not afraid!! If I know what I want I would tell you! And beside that! Don't you like that damn rat?" I suddenly sounded very scared, stupid voice. "I did like Yuki even more than like, but he found his happiness. So I am still searching for mine," he said, his gaze not leaving mine. "So you think I am your source for happiness?" I sneered. Haru looked away, his gaze fall on one of Shigure's novels, what's it doing here? Don't tell me Tohru read it. "Look at the cover Kyou," said Haru, grabbing the book. On the cover was a picture of a man and a woman, The woman was sitting in the man's lap and they both hugging with their eyes closed. I looked at the cover and then back at Haru.

"Don't you want something like this?" he asked, putting the book down. "I guess I do," I said. Haru's hands came up and touch the back of my neck and back. He pulled me to him in a close embrace, just like in the picture on the cover. I felt warm and safe like this; I put my hands on his lower back and buried my head in his chest listening to his calm heart beating.

"I want," I said softly, I didn't know my voice can be soft, "But,," I couldn't help I must ask. "What if I'm wrong? What if. what if everything will go bad and all of this ends, leaving me miserable?" I heard Haru breath deep. "Don't be afraid to do things wrong Kyou, we learn from our mistakes. And I will never let this end badly. Even if it will end, I won't let you be miserable" I didn't answer, I was thinking about the things he said. About my worse fear of being left alone, I held Haru close to me. Yuki would never be able to do this with Tohru, to hear her heart beat in a steady rhythm.

I looked into Haru eyes. He again smiles at me, and I wonder if his face hurt from smiling all the time.

His lips touched mine, and that felt good. It didn't feel wrong and I didn't feel miserable or even alone. So maybe it wasn't such a bad idea.

The big clock in Shigure's study rang twelve times. "Merry Christmas Kyou," whisper Haru into my ear. Maybe this year. I will get presents.