Evanescent
Chapter 1
Okay, I seriously wasn't sure if I should post this at all or not…but I finally decided to. It's really dark and angsty and stuff, and after this chapter, I'm gonna change the rating to R, just so you know. Um, I really don't have much more to say right now, I'll tell more in the next chapter and things will be explained as it goes. Okay…
Sometimes I wonder
If they even care
If they'd even notice
If I wasn't there
If I'm really invisible
Or just transparent to the world
If I left tomorrow
Would they even know
Sometimes I wonder if they even care at all. If they'd even notice if I just said fuck it all and locked myself in here forever. How long would it take before they noticed. How long before someone came to see if I was okay. Or if they're so selfish and caught up in their own lives that they'd never notice.
But it's not their fault that they're selfish. That's just the way that people are. It's instincts. Raw, animal, survival-of-the-fittest instincts. You matter. First and foremost, take care of yourself. The weak can't survive, hey, it sucks for them, but that's their problem. They can't cut it, it's not any of your problem. You can make it, why let them drag you down as well?
So I guess I'm not one of the strong ones.
And I still wonder if they'd even give half a shit if I wasn't here at all. If they'd even miss me. How long it'd take to notice. Who'd realize it first. Would they even care.
So why, you may ask. Why stay, just to put up with all this shit? The heartache, the backstabbing, the betrayal, the pain…Why?
Yeah…That's what I keep wondering, too.
Why?
Tbc…
Okay, um, review and don't judge me too much, lol. And tell me who's talking…and what she/he is talking about…if you know…or just take a stab at it…and tell me if I should keep going…if not, I can just delete this and we'll pretend like it never existed, sound good?
