The Diary Series: Book One: Bobby Drake

Summary: Bobby writes about his life in the mansion. He writes about his friendships and his troubles. Most of all he writes about Marie, the girl whom he is sure will become more than just a friend to him.

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Last night I woke up in the middle of the night. I heard this big commotion down the hall. Everyone was talking above eachother and I could hear Cyclops trying to figure out what the hell was going on. Jean was telling him to calm down, to let the others who were still asleep, sleep. I looked over to John's bed to see that he was gone too. He must have gone to find out what was happening. I went to join them. I found myself in front of a bedroom. I saw Rogue pull away from Logan. She had obviously drained him or whatever. I didn't see it.

"It was an accident."

She looked like she was about to cry. I think she did. She raced past everyone and didn't look back. I wanted to follow her but I didn't. Something in me wouldn't let me. It wasn't her fault. She didn't mean to hurt anyone.

"What the hell did she do," demanded Kitty.

"I thought you didn't like the man," said John sarcastically.

"I never said I didn't."

"She didn't mean to hurt anyone," I said.

"That's probably true. Let's go to bed," said Jubilee as she tried to calm Kitty down.

I layed awake for awhile. I knew she hadn't meant it. Rogue wouldn't do that. She wouldn't. I just knew she would never intentionally hurt someone. Then I fell asleep. I would talk to her tommorow to see if she were okay *******************************

It has been two days since I have written in this thing. It's been two days since I have seen Rogue and god do I miss her. I didn't know it was possible to miss someone this much. We were supposed to meet for lunch but she never showed up. I found out later that she had ran away. No one knew exactly where she had gone. I tried not to be hurt. She had left and she hadn't even taken the time to say goodbye. I try to convince myself I don't miss her but I know that's not true. God I miss her. I hope with everything in me that she will come back. I talked to Jubilee during lunch yesterday.

"Wow, Bobby. I thought you didn't date."

"I don't."

"Okay, so you're not dating her but you like her. You go out of your way to be nice to her and you make her ice roses. Yeah, you really consider her a friend."

"I don't know what I consider her, okay?"

"Do you think she's cute."

"Yeah."

"I knew it!" she shouted.

She earned a few glances from other students so she quieted down. She turned back to me with a smile on her face.

"Don't worry. She'll be back."

"How do you know?"

"I just do okay?"

I'm counting on that. I hope to god that she comes back. I hope so with everything in me that she does. I haven't quite ever liked a girl the way I like her.

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I can't believe it has been a week since I have written in this. Jubilee was right. She did come home. She was out of it for a day. I went to go visit her in her room. She was laying in bed and when she saw me she seemed less than thrilled to see me.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. Why would you care? You're the one who told me to leave in the first place," she said with bitterness in her voce.

I was very confused. What the hell was she talking about? When had I ever told her to leave? I wouldn't do that.

"What are you talking about? I wouldn't do that."

"Save it for somebody who cares. I'm tired."

"I didn't tell you leave but goodnight."

I left her room. For days I saw the hurt in her face. I didn't know how to make it up to her or to even make her believe me. For days I felt this sense of loneliness at the institute I didn't know existed. I didn't know it existed until I had met Rogue. I talked to Jubilee. I seem to be doing that a lot lately.

"I study hard, really hard so people think I try to be this know it all, but I don't, okay? Kitty goes to the mall at every given opportunity so people see her as an airhead but we're not like that, really. I know you care about her. I see the way you look at her. Pull her aside and tell her. You don't have to tell her you like her, if you do that is, but just be honest with her. Be real. It's your best feature. It's what everyone likes the most about you."

"Thankyou. I'll try to talk to her. Do you believe me?"

"Yes. I know you would never tell her to leave because you care. You knew she didn't mean to hurt Logan that night. So, yes, I believe you.

I'm not going to go into detail of what happened. All you need to know is that I talked to her and that I got her to believe me. Things between Rogue and I are very good. I hope it stays that way.

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Today we had free time after school so John, Rogue, and I were playing fosse ball in the recreation room. Rogue has become quite good. She's become so good she beat John and I. She beat us twice, all on her own. So, we switched places. It was Rogue and I against John. We were playing and having fun until she looked up to see Logan watching her. She left our game to go talk to him. After awhile she left to her room looking really sad. John looked at me.

"You okay?"

It was weird question, coming from John.

"Yes, I'm fine. He left but he'll be back though."

I couldn't help the jealousy I felt. He had hurt Rogue by leaving and that wasn't okay with me.

"And what will you do," asked John.

"Nothing. There's nothing I can do."

I couldn't be too mad at Logan because he had saved her life. I guess that's what made me mad in the first place. I couldn't hate Logan no matter how much I wanted to. I really couldn't I don't now.