Bittersweet Partings.
By: Icy Blossom
Author's notes:
Hiyaz mina! Before I blab on about disclaimers and such I'd really like to thank Sailormoonjoy, natalieo1990 and Haruka_bc, your reviews really meant a lot to me and I'm dedicating this chapter to you guys..thanks again.. =^-^= Now..the usual disclaimers apply and I'd just like to remind you that this chapter is in Haruka's POV..that's about all I think. I guess I'll see you all next time.. Ja ne..and please review!!!
Icy Blossom
Chapter 3:
Escaping the harsh reality..that's a nice way of writing it down in my diary.. But the truths? Well..I ran away..both from the heartbreaking reality and from the one that I've loved from the longest time. How I wished I had stayed instead and told her just how I felt about things when she told me then and there..but..
The only thing that crossed my mind at that moment was to run, run away where I just might escape reality and seek protection in solitude.
How can I make my intentions clearer and show just how much I care? I've done so much thinking yet I still haven't managed to find a close to perfect answer.
I care so much about her and yes..I know that she cares for me too and that I should try to be more considerate to the feelings of others but these emotions are overwhelming me. I've done so much thinking lately, but the answer just refuses to come to me..
Am I really not good enough for Michiru.. I know that she's both talented and beautiful but am I really not good enough? Really? Just what does that Tokiya have that I do not? I've given so much thought to that and yet..
Suddenly the answer appeared clearly before me and I realized..as the awful truths hits me once again, like an icy blast of wind..
Tokiya..he was a real guy..
That was something that I could never change and there is nothing that I can do to compare with that..there was only one thing that I could do to change that but knowing Michiru, she would be disgusted if I carry through with it.
Michiru, do you know how much I've wanted to tell you my feelings..how much I wished that you would say those three special words to me..to me and no one else.
But in reality? You would despise me and be disgusted and disappointed..
If you do then I guess there is no more that I can do to make you love me but at lease I will live on..
Live on knowing that I've told the special light in my life about how strongly I felt and then walk away wishing her all the happiness in the world with the special one that she truly loved.
That all sounds wonderful to me right now but deep down, I know that I will not be able to handle it at all.
I will not be able to bear the fact that she's in this very same world and belonged to somebody else..my life can't be the same without her.
A part of me wants to take her away from Tokiya but the other part of me refuses to do that..
"How selfish of you Haruka..how can you do this to Michiru?" the sane half of me asked. I hate to admit it but my conscience is right and I know that I would never be able to do this to Michiru because..
She means so much to me, I've just got to see her happy if I'm not the one to bring happiness to her. I don't really know what her reactions will be when I tell her but I've got to do it as I'm already losing the most important part of me.
Her reactions would mean so much whether she realizes or not..it would decide whether we'll be together for the rest of time.
To be continued.
AN: Did that go okay? This story is getting a lot longer than I expected..still I will keep writing and see how things unfold.. Don't worry all you Haruka/Michiru fans I won't disappoint you.. Neways..I guess I won't even need to write this as I've already bugged you guys so many times but to those that are a little slow *gomen ne* here it is again..please review and keep reading..
By: Icy Blossom
Author's notes:
Hiyaz mina! Before I blab on about disclaimers and such I'd really like to thank Sailormoonjoy, natalieo1990 and Haruka_bc, your reviews really meant a lot to me and I'm dedicating this chapter to you guys..thanks again.. =^-^= Now..the usual disclaimers apply and I'd just like to remind you that this chapter is in Haruka's POV..that's about all I think. I guess I'll see you all next time.. Ja ne..and please review!!!
Icy Blossom
Chapter 3:
Escaping the harsh reality..that's a nice way of writing it down in my diary.. But the truths? Well..I ran away..both from the heartbreaking reality and from the one that I've loved from the longest time. How I wished I had stayed instead and told her just how I felt about things when she told me then and there..but..
The only thing that crossed my mind at that moment was to run, run away where I just might escape reality and seek protection in solitude.
How can I make my intentions clearer and show just how much I care? I've done so much thinking yet I still haven't managed to find a close to perfect answer.
I care so much about her and yes..I know that she cares for me too and that I should try to be more considerate to the feelings of others but these emotions are overwhelming me. I've done so much thinking lately, but the answer just refuses to come to me..
Am I really not good enough for Michiru.. I know that she's both talented and beautiful but am I really not good enough? Really? Just what does that Tokiya have that I do not? I've given so much thought to that and yet..
Suddenly the answer appeared clearly before me and I realized..as the awful truths hits me once again, like an icy blast of wind..
Tokiya..he was a real guy..
That was something that I could never change and there is nothing that I can do to compare with that..there was only one thing that I could do to change that but knowing Michiru, she would be disgusted if I carry through with it.
Michiru, do you know how much I've wanted to tell you my feelings..how much I wished that you would say those three special words to me..to me and no one else.
But in reality? You would despise me and be disgusted and disappointed..
If you do then I guess there is no more that I can do to make you love me but at lease I will live on..
Live on knowing that I've told the special light in my life about how strongly I felt and then walk away wishing her all the happiness in the world with the special one that she truly loved.
That all sounds wonderful to me right now but deep down, I know that I will not be able to handle it at all.
I will not be able to bear the fact that she's in this very same world and belonged to somebody else..my life can't be the same without her.
A part of me wants to take her away from Tokiya but the other part of me refuses to do that..
"How selfish of you Haruka..how can you do this to Michiru?" the sane half of me asked. I hate to admit it but my conscience is right and I know that I would never be able to do this to Michiru because..
She means so much to me, I've just got to see her happy if I'm not the one to bring happiness to her. I don't really know what her reactions will be when I tell her but I've got to do it as I'm already losing the most important part of me.
Her reactions would mean so much whether she realizes or not..it would decide whether we'll be together for the rest of time.
To be continued.
AN: Did that go okay? This story is getting a lot longer than I expected..still I will keep writing and see how things unfold.. Don't worry all you Haruka/Michiru fans I won't disappoint you.. Neways..I guess I won't even need to write this as I've already bugged you guys so many times but to those that are a little slow *gomen ne* here it is again..please review and keep reading..
