Bittersweet Partings.

By: Icy Blossom

Author's notes:

Hiyaz everyone.. first of all, gomen nasai.. I won't even try to explain why this chapter is so late..so many things have happed but I guess you guys really wouldn't want to know. Neways.. I'll stop my blab so you'll all be able to get on with Chapter 4.. in case you didn't know, this chapter is written in Michiru's POV. I guess that's about it.. ja ne and please remember to review.

Icy Blossom

Chapter 4:

You always hut the one you love.. such a cliché ne? As often as I've head it used in speech, romance novels and such, I never truly understood its meaning..

That is until today.. I am always thinking of you, yet I've never really known what to think of you as.. are you my best friend? Fellow senshi?

Those words seem alien to me as I repeat them in my head. Those words do not come close to describing our relationship..

Relationship? That's hardly the word to use.. there is a strong bond between the two of us Haruka.. you were always there for me.. you mean more to me than just a friend.

I may have taken you for granted at times.. Isn't it stupid.. I realize that I love you now, after telling you that we weren't mean to be, after hurting you so mercilessly..

Now I realize that I've done two very stupid things.. deceive myself into believing that I loved Tokiya and hurting you..

Haruka, I really cannot bear the thought of hurting you.. yet how can I be so heartless as to tell you that we weren't meant to be? You have no idea how much I regretted saying those words and hurting you.

Coming home with Tokiya in his car after school feels so different.. and wrong.. I miss you Haruka, that might sound queer as I see you everyday but your smile and body language is so different.. your eyes no longer glitter and your smile no longer light up your beautiful face.

I want to talk to you Haruka, I broke up with Tokiya today. After seeing the look that you gave me in the hallway that day, I can't seem to concentrate on anything.. that look you gave me, it breaks my heart in two.

That look tears at my heart, I see it every time I close my eyes. I cannot ear or sleep knowing that you are hurting.. hurting because of me.

I wanted to tell you about my feelings today.. I'd planned the entire speech but I guess it's too late as you've probably decided to keep you distance.

I know that you wouldn't hate me because we'll never be able to hate each other but I wouldn't be able to bear it if I never shared the same precious moments with you again.

Haruka.. I've just realized something..

I've finally awakened from my illusion, you are the one I love, the only one that I'll ever be able to love and share my memories with..

I'm sitting here on the couch waiting for you to return Haruka, I'm waiting to see you and to apologise for all the pain that I've caused you.

Please come back soon, it is unbearable.. sitting here and reading my own painful book of revelations.

I await your return and I will not be give up until you know the deep secrets in my heart.

To be continued.

AN: That's all for Chapter 4 mina.. I hoped that you enjoyed, sorry that it wasn't very long. I promise that I will try to update ASAP this time but please give me some encouragement to continue and review. ja ne..