Again we meet to read the rest of the story. However this is not the last chapter in the story. The rest of the story is back to the good old PG rating. And again to the story. If you've forgotten by now I'm still Wolfsong. And any song I've used in any chapter does not belong to me. Same with the characters. I am not sure if Nige's parents are dead or not.

Quick summary: we left off with Nigel giving Sydney with a decision. Let's see how she decides.

Chapter 5: Emotions and Fears

Standing there, alone, scared and unsure. The one man that she could confide in was gone. She felt so ashamed and ugly. She had just hurt the one person who had always stood by her. How could she let this happen? Why couldn't she tell him that she would choose him? Maybe she just couldn't find the words. That was a lie, and she knew it. She knew that the words there, she just couldn't let them out. What was she afraid of? Could he be right? Was she really that afraid of commitment?

It felt like ages passed before she shut the door and curled up in bed. She hated herself for not saying anything. Hated the fact that tomorrow she would have to face him at work. She began to cry. Soon she fell asleep, her head resting in a puddle of emotions and fears.

The next day, Sydney waited all morning to see if Nigel came in. She had asked Karen to send him to her if she was in class when he came. No calls from Karen. She couldn't take it any longer. When the next passing period came, she headed to the attendance office. The clerk said that he hadn't called in or anything. She began to worry.

Three days later, no one had seen or heard from Nigel. More people were starting to worry. No one knew where he was. No one knew how much this was killing Sydney. She was constantly worrying that he had gone off and died thinking she didn't love him. She couldn't think of anything. She had called his brother, but Preston was no help. Something finally struck her. She quickly called the office, informed them that she was going to be gone, and headed to the airport.

She was just flying on a hunch, but she had to see it through. When the airplane landed, she got off the plane, and quickly hailed a cab.

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Alone in the cold, only his thoughts to comfort him. He remembered how she felt in his arms. So soft and warm, and light. The way her fingers would linger over his back. The way her soft lips caressed his skin. Her small body pressing against his. Her heart beating with his. He truly believed that she loved him.

"How did I ever think I could be so lucky?" he asked himself aloud. His mind was still racing as he turned the tiny gold object in his hands. Suddenly he heard foot steps behind him. He thought that it might be the Bobby that he greeted him at the entrance coming to check on him. Before he could turn around, the person spoke.

"This should have been the first place I thought of." Her voice played games in his ears. He turned to see Sydney standing behind him.

"Obviously it was your last." he barked softly.

"I was worried. You didn't show up for work. No one knew where you were."

"Do they know where you are?"

"They knew that I was going to be gone." she answered. "Why did you run, Nigel? You've never run before." she asked starting towards him, visibly shaking. Her body wasn't use to the cold of England.

"Sometimes you have to run to see if anyone will follow." he said moving closer to her, hands in his jacket pockets.

"I'm here." she tried to convince him.

"Yes, but when are you going to run again?" he asked, still feeling hurt. He had long stashed the tiny gold object in his pocket, but had kept a hold of it.

"Nigel," she started moving even closer to him. "I'm sorry I hurt you. You were right. I was afraid to commit. When Gray called, I didn't think. I didn't think of how it would affect you. I feel awful for that. I didn't lie to you when I said I love you. When you walked out, it felt like I had lost you for good. I almost lost you once." she said recalling the morning in Dallas. She slowly pulled out a little notebook and held it in her hands. "This has every name, number, and address of the guys I've dated. That's not including the one night stands."

Nigel didn't say anything, he just nodded his head.

"These...these don't mean anything to me. I've been doing this job for a long time. I've uncovered a lot of untold treasures. But..." She began to cry. "Out of every thing, the greatest reward has been being able to know you. You're the only thing that matters now. With you it feels like I've finally found my peace." She couldn't go on anymore. Her tears were over whelming her. She was able to udder one last word before she was completely consumed by her tears. "You."

"What?" Nigel was lost, and the line from that song came back with a vengeance.

For all we've got to lose, there's so much to gain. If we come this far and leave it behind. There's only you and me to blame.

Then it hit him. When he had stormed out, he had given her the choice of not committing or himself. Could she be answering his question now? He walked closer to her, raised his hand to her face, and wiped away a tear that was running down her cheek. He took her in his arms and softly cradled her.

Several minutes passed, and Nigel stepped back. He took her face in his strong hands, and looked her straight in the eyes. "Sydney,..." he started, keeping lock on her. "I'm sorry. I know I blew up at you. I should have let you explain. I was just...just so scared that my worst fear had happened."

She took her hands and placed one on his shoulder cupping his neck; and the other played with his hair. "What fear was that?" she asked softly crying.

"That we would finally be together, and something would take you away. When I saw you kissing Gray I...I panicked. I..."

"Nigel, I understand. When you walked out, it felt like I had lost you for good. I was so scared. I never want to hurt you like that. I love you too much."

"Syd, you don't know how good that makes my heart feel. I love you so much. I would give my life for you."

"You almost have several times." Sydney said smiling. He mirrored the smile.

"Serious. I would give anything to protect you and make you happy. Will you forgive me?"

"Yes, but I should be the one asking for forgiveness. Will you forgive me?"

"Of course. Always." He looked at the woman in front of him, the woman he loved so dear, and said, "I wanted to do this the other night, and I know it's not the most romantic place, but Mum and Dad are here. And I want to do this right." He took her hand, and though the ground was wet, he knelt; and held out the small gold object. "Sydney Fox, when I first met you I had no idea what I was getting myself into. But all that aside. These past six years working with you, I've found myself falling for you. And I'm still falling for you. Everyday that passes I want to be with you, and I want to be with you until the Good Lord takes me home. I promise that I will always take care of you. I might not be the bravest guy around, but whenever you need strength, I'm here for you." His heart was beating so fast and he was starting to loss feeling in his legs. "Sydney Fox, would you honor me by becoming my wife?" He looked up at her lovingly. "Will you marry me?"
I know, evil ending, just keeping reading. The more reviews, the faster I post.