Disclaimer: Hey, minna! It's the BloodRose! Welcome ta my new shortfic, 'Justify My Pain'! Now, don't expect a happy ending (not that I think you would), cuz ya ain't gonna get one. Okay, now on ta the legal stuff. Sailor Moon's mine! It don't belong ta anyone else. Just me. Well, that's that! On ta the fic!
(From outside)
Orderly: "She's at it again!"
Doctor: "Dammit! You know what to do!"
Orderly: "Yes sir! C'mon, men!"
BloodRose (Eyes wide): "They can't be at it again..."
(Orderlies burst into room, led by Doctor)
Doctor: "GET HER!"
BloodRose: "Holy sh--"
(Orderlies dog-pile BloodRose)
BloodRose: "AAAUUUUUGGGHHHHH!"
Doctor: "Now then. (Turns to audience) Sailor Moon belongs to Takeuchi Naoko, Kodansha & Toei Animation Ltd. All rights reserved. Please, enjoy the story."
This's based on the anime. Yes, while I hate the Usagi-Mamoru "break up" thing to no end, I decided I haven't read any alternate endings to it where Usagi just blows Mamoru off. So, naturally, I decided ta throw my own into the mix.
A BloodRose Creation@}-;-
Justify My Pain
Dear Chiba Mamoru-san:
I know you don't want me to call you Mamo-chan anymore. So I wont. I'm writing this because there are a few things that aren't clear.
We've loved each other for a millennium. We've died, been reborn & found each other again, against all odds. After I finally found you, I lost you again. I've fought for you, I've died for you......
But now you tell me you don't love me.
I've begged & pleaded for you to forgive me for whatever it was that made you stop loving me. I've screamed & cried, but you didn't listen. I've thought & mulled for hours over what it was that I could have done or said to make you hate me. And do you know what I found? I found nothing. I've done nothing but love you with all my heart, & you repay me with cold indifference. I've been trying to make things right...
And you've found yourself another girl.
So tell me, Mamo-chan, why I should continue loving you. I try to make things right, you make them worse. I try to talk to you, you push me away. I tell you I love you... you walk away. So tell me why I should love you, when all I get is nothing. I've tried time & again, but I get nothing back. So tell me why I should keep trying. Tell me why I should continue to endure this nameless torment, Mamo-chan. Tell me why I shouldn't just give up.
Justify my pain.
Tsukino Usagi
* @}-;- *
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As he read the last line over again, Chiba Mamoru dropped to his knees, tears cascading down his cheeks in silent rivers. He began trembling uncontrollably as his tear-blind eyes stared at the letter in his hand. He had lost her. He had lost the only girl he ever loved, all because he was too scared to tell her what was wrong. And now he could never make it right. He crumpled into a ball on the lush carpet of his apartment, sobbing brokenly as the full moon rose in the sky.
'Justify my pain'
The End
BloodRose (In full Hannibal Lector regalia): "Well, minna-chan. What'd ya think? Sad, huh? Good! Anime Mamoru sucks! The true Mamoru would never do that to Usagi! Anime Mamoru's a yutz! Well, that's all, minna-chan. I'll see ya next time, I guess. Just a few things before ya go, kay?
All questions, comments, whatever can be sent to nasty311@netzero.com
Or, to my new email bleeding_rose12986@yahoo.com
All flames will be used to roast the marshmallows.
Ja matta, minna-chan! Come visit again soon!"
Started & Completed March 10, 2003
