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!!!Author's note!!!: I've realized that these are more poetic musings than actual poems. Please excuse my word choice in the summary. I will attempt to fix that later.
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Children I Can Never Have ~~~Sydney
I've raised children before
Though they have never truly been my own
Jarod, the prodigal son who I was forced to turn away from
Ms. Parker, the lonely little girl who I couldn't shield
Angelo, the tortured child whom I still can't understand
And Nicholas, my own flesh and blood who I must watch from the sidelines
So many mistakes, so many failures
They needed me so much
They longed for security that I couldn't provide
And they were forced to move on
To learn to live without the comfort
Or the safety they required from me
As Ms. Parker so bitterly puts it, 'they survived'
Yes, survival is the main point isn't it?
Jarod survived
And now runs nonstop
Afraid to stay in one place too long
Or to love someone,
In fear that they will be hurt because of it
Ms. Parker survived
And is now a cold and unreachable woman
A beauty that tries to numb her pain
In bottles of wine, and countless beds
Angelo survived
In the way that only Angelo can,
And now travels forever in the darkness of vents
Watching, listening, never really participating
Feeling everyone else's emotions, but not truly able to understand his own
And Nicholas Survived
Raised by another man, a stranger
Forced to believe a lie
He'll never truly know me, nor I him
But perhaps it's better this way for all of them
For I don't deserve their love, nor their kindness
I, who had forsaken them,
I, who had deserted them,
I, who distanced to protect,
Knowing the pain it would cause
I, who now must go through every day and week,
Watching children I can never have.
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