Somewhere In Between
Prologue
Authors: CCC and Robbie ( wooksrus@yahoo.com )
Spoilers: Up to and including the Season 8 finale "Lockdown."
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Disclaimer: Carter & Abby are the property of the big shots at NBC, Warner Brothers, Amblin Productions etc … However Dylan is my own creation.
Sara's Author's Notes: The part was written by me but, I must say a *huge* thanks to Robbie for her creative input and beta'ing.
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On a day like today I'm happy to hear my baby Dylan fusing because that means that I'm alive and I'm ok. It means I've made it through all the trials in my life and finally found happiness. And what better to show for all the struggles than this beautiful baby boy? He's what helped me keep it together, because without him I never would have had a reason to take control.
Still sometimes, I find myself thinking of everything I went through to achieve this peace in my life. I remember my vulnerable moment when Carter's lips locked with mine and he turned my life upside down. Nothing made sense anymore. I didn't like the chaos my life had become. Battling my alcoholism had taken the back burner in my life. I felt myself slipping back into my alcoholic ways and it scared me.
Back then I was questioning my feelings for Carter. If you asked me today how I feel I'd tell you I love him. I'd show you the ring on my finger and the slight bulge of my stomach. All the more proof of my love and a living testimonial that today I'm sober and in control.
Then…then was a totally different story. I knew that maybe I did still love him, but too much had happened. I was too vulnerable to start a relationship, because of the off chance that something would go wrong. I know I'd begin a downward spiral into the darkness that was my addiction. Little did I know just how right I was.
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TBC …
