Return to Innocence

Disclaimer: I do not own FF7, Squaresoft, blah blah blah.. Evil lawyers cant get my pocketchange!

I am cold on the inside, I wreck havoc in hearts of men
I act optimistic, bright, cheery, on the out to hide my feelings,
My doubt, my heart, my soul, my mistakes.
I am envious, envious of the pure souls whom walk, oblivious to the chaos around them.
I am jaded, tired, worn out.
I cannot stand being a puppet, I curse the gods for my path…
But it is the path that I chose.
I hated a man, who loved me so much.
I played with his heart. I acted along, acted that I loved him… So then I married a man I couldn't stand…
Just for the sake of prosperity.
And I put this man through a icy hell, a prison of which he could not exit.
Love.
Yes, I am a monster. I am a monster more then he is- An angel, compared to me.
I cannot show my true self…
Why? I am afraid.
My hands are stained, but not with the coppery substance.
No, my hands are stained with much worse then blood-
Tears.
No, not my tears. The man whom loved me…
I deluded him. I showed him bittersweet romance.
They say redemption is the key.
They say if you try to fix your problems and turn back to yourself.
Return to Innocence.
But what I wish to ask is-
How can one return to innocence…
If it was never even there.

This is my first poem on FF.net. I wish to know how this poem was- please give me your thoughs. Kudos to you if you know which FF7 character this is!