Thanks to anyone who gave me a review, it really motivated me to write the next chap…sorry for the long wait, I had to figure out the basic plot of the story before I could continue, this is also all kind of new for me b/c most of the other fan fiction I've written has been on paper then onto the comp so please bear with me for the wait…thanks again and as always enjoy…

Ties Together

Session 2~Not My Fault

Lucky Star

"buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and hidden in the public eye.
such a stellar monument to loneliness.
laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by,"
~Dashboard Confessional

The door to Faye's room creaked open as Spike peered in. He didn't know why he was doing it; just something inside wanted to make sure she was all right. He couldn't see in the darkness so he moved in further and in the pale light of space he saw Faye sitting on the floor, her knees pulled up to her chest and her head resting on them. He couldn't see her face and wondered if she had been crying. He looked at her for a minute and tried to find words but there weren't any so he turned around to leave but Faye's voice stopped him.

"Its not my fault. I never asked for this Spike. I just got it," the words she spoke slurred a little and Spike knew what had happened to the case of beer in the fridge.

"Faye, I don't want to have this discussion right now. You're obviously tired and need your rest."

"I didn't have a choice Spike," her voice much stronger now

"Don't give me that Faye, everyone has a choice when they go into a syndicate, that's the only way you get in, by choice. No one is forced into the syndicate."

"I was, I didn't have a choice," she looked up at Spike, the tearstains visible now.

"Stop it Faye, I don't want to hear it," he stepped closer to the door.

"Turns out the lab that unfroze me, Spike, was run by the syndicate. I don't know what interest the syndicate would have with a cryogenic freezing lab but they did. I ran and tried to live a normal life, but they caught me. It didn't take 'em long to figure out I had a way with cards. They sent me to different casinos run by rival syndicates and I played cards, and won. I cheated of course but I won none the less. Did you really think that I could lose that much money when they call me Poker Alice," she laughed, but it was dry and short showing just how much she had drunk.

"Faye, you can't expect me to believe that," he leaned against the wall by the door and then continued, "Why didn't you just take the money and run? I mean I've seen you do it before. Don't tell me that you couldn't find a way out."

"I didn't want out. He had something I wanted, I needed. He knew about my past. He even had pictures of my family. Everything and anything I wanted. As long as I did what he and the syndicate wanted I would get everything on my past." she leaned her head back, her eyes open and looking at the ugly blue color of the ceiling.

He looked at her, maybe she was telling the truth.

"Why didn't you get your past?"

"Its really quite funny, I did everything he wanted and all I got was slapped around and left on the street when I got caught. He didn't give me anything on my past and he left all the debts on me. I never saw a penny of the money I stole and now I get what I deserve. I wish I had used some of that money. At least then I wouldn't feel so crappy about having debt collectors after me."

She could feel his eyes move her to the floor and then back up.

"Who was it Faye?" It all seemed so real yet he found it hard to grasp that all this had happened to her. If he knew a name he could really believe her. In the syndicate your word was all you had, there were very few people in syndicates who didn't keep their word, if he knew name it would be more real.

"That's my secret, Spike. My secret," she got up, her legs shaking beneath her and lied down on top of her bed, "sweet dreams Spike, sweet dreams."

He stood there for a moment, trying to take in all he had learned and then turned and walked out. He was even more confused than before.