CastingSoulEyes
June 22, 2003
Hidden Love
~ Chapter 10 ~ Friends Again
II cannot believe what has befallen over me. First my family, its house and everyone with in it. I am saddening at the thought of what is happening and going on. Mom, Dad, Bill, Charlie and Percy have all gone to fight the war with those with in the Order, four weeks ago. While I am tucked away safe in my room in my home. Did I not fight Death Eaters in my fourth year? Do they seem to forget I was the youngest there? I was there when Harry fought to save his godfather Sirius Black. Rest in Peace Sirius. I battled against them, along side him and Ron! I did well I had thought, hell I suffered a broken ankle that was it. Was it not ME who was taken under control of Tom Riddle through the use of a diary! I was held in that monster's hands I was his pawn, I have seen into his mind somewhat. Why am I stuck here at home, under Fred, George and Ron's protection?
What pisses me off even more is Ron! How dare he interrupt things and strike at Harry, what kind of best friend is he to Harry if he strikes him because he kissed me? I thought Ron wanted us together? I don't know what to think any more.
Speaking of Harry all he has done since then is avoiding me. As if he is scared to be around me or scared to upset Ron. Its like I am the plague to him or something. Oh well I have breakfast to make, and a house to clean.
I really do wish mom was around to help, oh well at least Hermione will be here today to help out!/I
She got up and got dressed in a pink summer dress, she then tugged her red hair into a tail and headed down stairs. She set about burning eggs and toast for everyone, which naturally when they came downstairs, groaned about it. She felt bad she did not pay more attention to cooking but she was learning. After giving Harry his plate she watched as her three older brothers laid eyes on him. She turned around and set to doing the cleaning.
After everyone else had cleared out minus Harry she turned around to look at him and softly toed the tile. "Yes Harry?" She looked up at him with her blue eyes, as her hands wiped dry on a towel.
"I." He was going to say something but as he looked away from her, over her outside into the garden he looked away.
Outside Ron was fighting with a gnome, which had locked its teeth onto Ron's hand as he tried to de-gnome it from the vegetables. Naturally he was getting angry and shaking his hand trying in vain to dislodge the little beast from him.
"Never mind!" He hurried outside to assist Ron.
She watched him leave like that and sighed. Turning she walked out of the kitchen and headed upstairs to her room, she'd wait until lunch when Hermione got there to come back down. She could not bare the pain and frustration of it anymore. She could not figure out why he'd kiss her then pull away. Then kiss her again some other time. She did not understand why he was worried about her, why he cared so much for her and yet still run away at every turn. It was as if the tables had been turned. In the beginning it was her running from him, and now he was running from her.
Tears of frustration rolled down her cheeks as she buried her face into her pillow. She wanted it to stop. She had tried to be with others but none of them were whom she wanted. All Harry wanted though was Cho, and then Cho tool not only Harry from her but also Michael and even dared to take Dean over the summer. She hated it, all she wanted was some word from Harry, some reassurance he cared for her truly.
Harry took out his wand as he slipped outside, pointing it towards the gnome. "IAccio, Gnome/I!" He flicked his wand and the gnome flew right off Ron's hand, taking a chunk of flesh with it. Harry quickly had it bagged and was literally swinging the bag in the air over his head like a cowboy with his rope. Soon he let go of the bag and watched it Gnome and all take a flying toss away from the garden.
Harry looked to Ron who was holding his bleeding hand, but smiling. "Alright, Ron?"
Ron was smiling, in fact he found the situation amusing above all things. "I'm alright!" He chuckled as he looked to Harry.
Harry had missed his friend so when he saw Ron smiling he smiled back, but the stopped and started to say something. "Ron, about that day."
Ron cut off Harry before he could say another word. "Harry I am sorry I punched you in the face and kicked you. It was really none of my business what you were doing with Ginny."
He stopped Ron this time. "Of coarse it is, you are her older brother Ron!"
"Yeah, I know I am. It's just, well I always thought you two would get together one day. Then you started swooning over Cho and she was with Michael Corner then Dean Thomas. I started to get this impression since you kept letting her date all these other people you thought Ginny was not good enough for you." He was admitting to WHY exactly he was upset. "Then when I saw you to kissing, I was worried you were just using her."
"Using her? Ron I would NEVER use your sister, nor do I think she is not good enough for me! In fact I was thinking the opposite. That maybe I was not good enough for your sister or that maybe your parents would not think I was good enough for her. Or that you would hate me for it. I mean honestly Ron, I think since last year after seeing her bravery I was falling for her. She has this fiery spirit that's masked within her. She is brave and has the guts to take on Death Eaters, become a Seeker and be well at it. Hell I was slightly attracted to her watching her play Quidditch." He was blushing
He was realizing at the moment, that Harry DID care for Ginny in the way he had always hoped he would. "Did you tell her any of this yet Harry?"
"WHAT?! NO! I did not tell her, I-I I can't Ron. What if she does not care for me? I don't think I can live with your sister's rejection. I would rather remain her friend than be rejected by her!" He stammered his answer out.
"Harry James Potter! I am seriously ashamed of you! I mean do you hear what you are saying? You would rather be miserable and NOT tell her, than tell her and take a chance at being rejected OR accepted. You the one who fights of V-V, He-Who-Should-Not-Be-Named, Arcomantulas, Trolls, Giants, Death Eaters and so much more, are scared to tell a girl you like her?" He slapped his forehead. "The great Harry Potter: Boy-Who-Lived is a git! You should just TELL her the truth Harry!" He looked away and saw that the shadows on the ground were showing it would be noon soon. "I am going inside and waiting for Hermione, she is coming in by Floo! You had better tell her Harry or someone else may snatch her up!"
So it was like that that Harry was left outside stuttering at Ron's words. He could not believe that Ron would scold him, and poke fun at him. All because he was scared to come out and say he liked Ginny. Speaking of Ginny the girl had not heard a single word of Harry's confession. No she was to busy crying into her pillow at all her troubles.
II cannot believe what has befallen over me. First my family, its house and everyone with in it. I am saddening at the thought of what is happening and going on. Mom, Dad, Bill, Charlie and Percy have all gone to fight the war with those with in the Order, four weeks ago. While I am tucked away safe in my room in my home. Did I not fight Death Eaters in my fourth year? Do they seem to forget I was the youngest there? I was there when Harry fought to save his godfather Sirius Black. Rest in Peace Sirius. I battled against them, along side him and Ron! I did well I had thought, hell I suffered a broken ankle that was it. Was it not ME who was taken under control of Tom Riddle through the use of a diary! I was held in that monster's hands I was his pawn, I have seen into his mind somewhat. Why am I stuck here at home, under Fred, George and Ron's protection?
What pisses me off even more is Ron! How dare he interrupt things and strike at Harry, what kind of best friend is he to Harry if he strikes him because he kissed me? I thought Ron wanted us together? I don't know what to think any more.
Speaking of Harry all he has done since then is avoiding me. As if he is scared to be around me or scared to upset Ron. Its like I am the plague to him or something. Oh well I have breakfast to make, and a house to clean.
I really do wish mom was around to help, oh well at least Hermione will be here today to help out!/I
She got up and got dressed in a pink summer dress, she then tugged her red hair into a tail and headed down stairs. She set about burning eggs and toast for everyone, which naturally when they came downstairs, groaned about it. She felt bad she did not pay more attention to cooking but she was learning. After giving Harry his plate she watched as her three older brothers laid eyes on him. She turned around and set to doing the cleaning.
After everyone else had cleared out minus Harry she turned around to look at him and softly toed the tile. "Yes Harry?" She looked up at him with her blue eyes, as her hands wiped dry on a towel.
"I." He was going to say something but as he looked away from her, over her outside into the garden he looked away.
Outside Ron was fighting with a gnome, which had locked its teeth onto Ron's hand as he tried to de-gnome it from the vegetables. Naturally he was getting angry and shaking his hand trying in vain to dislodge the little beast from him.
"Never mind!" He hurried outside to assist Ron.
She watched him leave like that and sighed. Turning she walked out of the kitchen and headed upstairs to her room, she'd wait until lunch when Hermione got there to come back down. She could not bare the pain and frustration of it anymore. She could not figure out why he'd kiss her then pull away. Then kiss her again some other time. She did not understand why he was worried about her, why he cared so much for her and yet still run away at every turn. It was as if the tables had been turned. In the beginning it was her running from him, and now he was running from her.
Tears of frustration rolled down her cheeks as she buried her face into her pillow. She wanted it to stop. She had tried to be with others but none of them were whom she wanted. All Harry wanted though was Cho, and then Cho tool not only Harry from her but also Michael and even dared to take Dean over the summer. She hated it, all she wanted was some word from Harry, some reassurance he cared for her truly.
Harry took out his wand as he slipped outside, pointing it towards the gnome. "IAccio, Gnome/I!" He flicked his wand and the gnome flew right off Ron's hand, taking a chunk of flesh with it. Harry quickly had it bagged and was literally swinging the bag in the air over his head like a cowboy with his rope. Soon he let go of the bag and watched it Gnome and all take a flying toss away from the garden.
Harry looked to Ron who was holding his bleeding hand, but smiling. "Alright, Ron?"
Ron was smiling, in fact he found the situation amusing above all things. "I'm alright!" He chuckled as he looked to Harry.
Harry had missed his friend so when he saw Ron smiling he smiled back, but the stopped and started to say something. "Ron, about that day."
Ron cut off Harry before he could say another word. "Harry I am sorry I punched you in the face and kicked you. It was really none of my business what you were doing with Ginny."
He stopped Ron this time. "Of coarse it is, you are her older brother Ron!"
"Yeah, I know I am. It's just, well I always thought you two would get together one day. Then you started swooning over Cho and she was with Michael Corner then Dean Thomas. I started to get this impression since you kept letting her date all these other people you thought Ginny was not good enough for you." He was admitting to WHY exactly he was upset. "Then when I saw you to kissing, I was worried you were just using her."
"Using her? Ron I would NEVER use your sister, nor do I think she is not good enough for me! In fact I was thinking the opposite. That maybe I was not good enough for your sister or that maybe your parents would not think I was good enough for her. Or that you would hate me for it. I mean honestly Ron, I think since last year after seeing her bravery I was falling for her. She has this fiery spirit that's masked within her. She is brave and has the guts to take on Death Eaters, become a Seeker and be well at it. Hell I was slightly attracted to her watching her play Quidditch." He was blushing
He was realizing at the moment, that Harry DID care for Ginny in the way he had always hoped he would. "Did you tell her any of this yet Harry?"
"WHAT?! NO! I did not tell her, I-I I can't Ron. What if she does not care for me? I don't think I can live with your sister's rejection. I would rather remain her friend than be rejected by her!" He stammered his answer out.
"Harry James Potter! I am seriously ashamed of you! I mean do you hear what you are saying? You would rather be miserable and NOT tell her, than tell her and take a chance at being rejected OR accepted. You the one who fights of V-V, He-Who-Should-Not-Be-Named, Arcomantulas, Trolls, Giants, Death Eaters and so much more, are scared to tell a girl you like her?" He slapped his forehead. "The great Harry Potter: Boy-Who-Lived is a git! You should just TELL her the truth Harry!" He looked away and saw that the shadows on the ground were showing it would be noon soon. "I am going inside and waiting for Hermione, she is coming in by Floo! You had better tell her Harry or someone else may snatch her up!"
So it was like that that Harry was left outside stuttering at Ron's words. He could not believe that Ron would scold him, and poke fun at him. All because he was scared to come out and say he liked Ginny. Speaking of Ginny the girl had not heard a single word of Harry's confession. No she was to busy crying into her pillow at all her troubles.
