Death is Not the End
By Anime Queen
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So sorry for the long wait, you guys, but here it is!! The latest chapter for your enjoyment!!!
Disclaimer: I did not, do not, and never will own anything Card Captor Sakura, yall got that? So don't sue, I'm poor. I couldn't afford a lawyer. *sobs*
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Chapter 2
. thoughts
Syaoran's POV:
"Meilin?" I held her lifeless body, feeling as if my own life force was slipping through my fingers. "Meilin!"
This can't be happening.
"Li?"
I turned away and looked through the smoke to make out some shapes running towards me. With one last look at Meilin's face, I set her gently down.
It wasn't my fault, I couldn't see. I tried to make up excuses, but the truth remained - I killed her. I killed the person I loved.
"Li, what's going on here?"
"Nothing, Mr. Yashi, they got away."
My boss looked over my shoulder at Meilin's body and then looked back at me.
"What happened to her?" he asked gruffly.
"They got her, sir," I replied, trying to make myself believe that it's true. In a way, those arsonists might as well have done it. If it wasn't for all that smoke they made, then I wouldn't have hit her. I wiped at my eyes at the first sign of tears, but I guess Mr. Yashi already saw them.
"Someone you know?" he inquired in a slightly softer voice. I nodded once.
"Well I'm sorry kid," he grabbed me by my shoulders and turned me away as the paramedics lifted the body onto a stretcher and carried it away. "But there's nothing you can do for her now."
The clean-up crews arrived and the fire was put out. I still couldn't get over Meilin's sudden death. I didn't even resolve our fight, and I didn't even get to say anything to her before she died. It had hurt, she died in pain. I couldn't forget her pale face in those final moments. I've loved her dearly, but in the end I couldn't protect her. My only consolation now was that maybe she's in a better place, away from me, and, hopefully, away from the pain that came with me.
I walked out of the now smoldering building, allowing Mr. Yashi to propel me by the shoulders. I figured my Judgment Day has come already, and this was my eternal punishment. Mr. Yashi released me to go home, and as soon as I got there, I crashed into bed.
My night was dreamless; all I could hear was Meilin's voice screaming at me, myself screaming back. Then everything went quiet, and her final worlds echoed,
"It hurts."
First I cried, and then I screamed her name over and over.
"Meilin! Meilin!"
But her echo kept getting quieter and quieter, until all was dark, but I continued to scream.
"Meilin!" I yelled, and suddenly found myself in my room. The bed sheets were thrown aside, and I lay in my pajamas, soaking with sweat, my cheeks streaked with fresh tears.
She's gone.
I finally fell asleep, only to have the alarm clock wake me again at seven a.m. I let it ring for a couple of minutes before turning it off. The ringing and the screaming from the night mixed into a siren wailing in my head, giving me one serious headache.
"Have to. go to work," I told myself firmly and pushed out of bed. I showered briefly and grabbed some coffee on the way out. As I approached the building, I felt slightly nauseous, but attributed that to my lack of sleep.
My headache was getting worse, and I popped two Advil's in my mouth. Looks like it was going to be a long day. Mr. Yashi was good enough to let me get away with a warning, but I really have been skipping my shift. I stepped through the front door and headed to the door marked "Employees Only". I passed the door to the parking lot, and someone just entered thought it. I couldn't help but look inside, and that's when the screaming started again.
The new noises elevated the dull pain in my head to a violent throbbing, and I reached for another Advil.
Why won't it work? Extra strength my ass!
I heard a faint whisper,
"It hurts."
Meilin. I hurt you once a gain. Why must I always be like this?
I grabbed the wall for support, and shifted my weight from one leg to another.
I have to get my ass into that office. I have to stop thinking about Meilin.
It made my head ache more, of course, trying to erase my mind of everything crowded in there. And then I felt a sick sensation in the pit of my stomach, and almost doubled over from the pain.
People were staring at me now, and I guess I was somewhat of a sight, holding onto the wall and sort of gasping for air. I felt like I was underwater, and it was getting harder to breathe. All I could think about was Meilin and the horrible way she had to die. I could still hear her whispering her last words to me.
And then I felt sick of myself. No matter how many excuses I made, I still killed Meilin. I was her murderer. It was my fault I felt this way. I deserved to suffer. Heck, even death would have been a blessing right now. I would at least be free of these thoughts. I really did deserve to suffer like this. I -
I didn't have time to finish my thought before my stomach seemed to turn inside out, and I began to feel the taste of the sour mass in my throat. My strength left me, and I couldn't make an effort to stop it from falling out of my mouth and onto the carpeted floor. My legs gave under me, and I blacked out before I even hit the floor.
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The following after-scenes are for comic relief purposes due to the (supposedly) serious nature of the fic:
Syaoran: Well that was embarrassing. you just HAD to make me throw up for all to see, didn't you??? *starts to advance on Anime Queen with a crowbar*
Anime Queen: *hurriedly calls 911 while trying to hit Syaoran in the head with a baseball bat* Stay away!!! It *swing* has to *swing* go with the *swing* story!!! *swings a couple of times more, and misses* Pant, pant.
Syaoran: Muahahahahahaha!!! You'll never get me!!! I'm the indestructible one!!! *throws up the crowbar and it lands on his head* Ouchies!
Anime Queen: *sweat drops* Now that really WAS embarrassing. I guess that's what you get when you let all the excitement of being the POV narrator in the fic get to you head!!! ^_^
Syaoran: Don't flatter yourself. *mutters about evil authors*
Anime Queen: What was that? *gets suspicious*
Syaoran: *nervous laughter* I'll just be going now, getting ready for the next chapter!! ^_^U tee-hee.
Anime Queen: *shakes head* Actors!!! Well, anyways, hope you enjoyed it, please REVIEW!!!!! ^_^ Oh, and I would really appreciate any comments regarding my writing, as in how I could make it better, more readable, etc. And I tried to make this chapter portray the feelings Syaoran had, so any comments on that?? Again, please review!!!
By Anime Queen
************************************************************************
So sorry for the long wait, you guys, but here it is!! The latest chapter for your enjoyment!!!
Disclaimer: I did not, do not, and never will own anything Card Captor Sakura, yall got that? So don't sue, I'm poor. I couldn't afford a lawyer. *sobs*
**********************************************************************
Chapter 2
. thoughts
Syaoran's POV:
"Meilin?" I held her lifeless body, feeling as if my own life force was slipping through my fingers. "Meilin!"
This can't be happening.
"Li?"
I turned away and looked through the smoke to make out some shapes running towards me. With one last look at Meilin's face, I set her gently down.
It wasn't my fault, I couldn't see. I tried to make up excuses, but the truth remained - I killed her. I killed the person I loved.
"Li, what's going on here?"
"Nothing, Mr. Yashi, they got away."
My boss looked over my shoulder at Meilin's body and then looked back at me.
"What happened to her?" he asked gruffly.
"They got her, sir," I replied, trying to make myself believe that it's true. In a way, those arsonists might as well have done it. If it wasn't for all that smoke they made, then I wouldn't have hit her. I wiped at my eyes at the first sign of tears, but I guess Mr. Yashi already saw them.
"Someone you know?" he inquired in a slightly softer voice. I nodded once.
"Well I'm sorry kid," he grabbed me by my shoulders and turned me away as the paramedics lifted the body onto a stretcher and carried it away. "But there's nothing you can do for her now."
The clean-up crews arrived and the fire was put out. I still couldn't get over Meilin's sudden death. I didn't even resolve our fight, and I didn't even get to say anything to her before she died. It had hurt, she died in pain. I couldn't forget her pale face in those final moments. I've loved her dearly, but in the end I couldn't protect her. My only consolation now was that maybe she's in a better place, away from me, and, hopefully, away from the pain that came with me.
I walked out of the now smoldering building, allowing Mr. Yashi to propel me by the shoulders. I figured my Judgment Day has come already, and this was my eternal punishment. Mr. Yashi released me to go home, and as soon as I got there, I crashed into bed.
My night was dreamless; all I could hear was Meilin's voice screaming at me, myself screaming back. Then everything went quiet, and her final worlds echoed,
"It hurts."
First I cried, and then I screamed her name over and over.
"Meilin! Meilin!"
But her echo kept getting quieter and quieter, until all was dark, but I continued to scream.
"Meilin!" I yelled, and suddenly found myself in my room. The bed sheets were thrown aside, and I lay in my pajamas, soaking with sweat, my cheeks streaked with fresh tears.
She's gone.
I finally fell asleep, only to have the alarm clock wake me again at seven a.m. I let it ring for a couple of minutes before turning it off. The ringing and the screaming from the night mixed into a siren wailing in my head, giving me one serious headache.
"Have to. go to work," I told myself firmly and pushed out of bed. I showered briefly and grabbed some coffee on the way out. As I approached the building, I felt slightly nauseous, but attributed that to my lack of sleep.
My headache was getting worse, and I popped two Advil's in my mouth. Looks like it was going to be a long day. Mr. Yashi was good enough to let me get away with a warning, but I really have been skipping my shift. I stepped through the front door and headed to the door marked "Employees Only". I passed the door to the parking lot, and someone just entered thought it. I couldn't help but look inside, and that's when the screaming started again.
The new noises elevated the dull pain in my head to a violent throbbing, and I reached for another Advil.
Why won't it work? Extra strength my ass!
I heard a faint whisper,
"It hurts."
Meilin. I hurt you once a gain. Why must I always be like this?
I grabbed the wall for support, and shifted my weight from one leg to another.
I have to get my ass into that office. I have to stop thinking about Meilin.
It made my head ache more, of course, trying to erase my mind of everything crowded in there. And then I felt a sick sensation in the pit of my stomach, and almost doubled over from the pain.
People were staring at me now, and I guess I was somewhat of a sight, holding onto the wall and sort of gasping for air. I felt like I was underwater, and it was getting harder to breathe. All I could think about was Meilin and the horrible way she had to die. I could still hear her whispering her last words to me.
And then I felt sick of myself. No matter how many excuses I made, I still killed Meilin. I was her murderer. It was my fault I felt this way. I deserved to suffer. Heck, even death would have been a blessing right now. I would at least be free of these thoughts. I really did deserve to suffer like this. I -
I didn't have time to finish my thought before my stomach seemed to turn inside out, and I began to feel the taste of the sour mass in my throat. My strength left me, and I couldn't make an effort to stop it from falling out of my mouth and onto the carpeted floor. My legs gave under me, and I blacked out before I even hit the floor.
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The following after-scenes are for comic relief purposes due to the (supposedly) serious nature of the fic:
Syaoran: Well that was embarrassing. you just HAD to make me throw up for all to see, didn't you??? *starts to advance on Anime Queen with a crowbar*
Anime Queen: *hurriedly calls 911 while trying to hit Syaoran in the head with a baseball bat* Stay away!!! It *swing* has to *swing* go with the *swing* story!!! *swings a couple of times more, and misses* Pant, pant.
Syaoran: Muahahahahahaha!!! You'll never get me!!! I'm the indestructible one!!! *throws up the crowbar and it lands on his head* Ouchies!
Anime Queen: *sweat drops* Now that really WAS embarrassing. I guess that's what you get when you let all the excitement of being the POV narrator in the fic get to you head!!! ^_^
Syaoran: Don't flatter yourself. *mutters about evil authors*
Anime Queen: What was that? *gets suspicious*
Syaoran: *nervous laughter* I'll just be going now, getting ready for the next chapter!! ^_^U tee-hee.
Anime Queen: *shakes head* Actors!!! Well, anyways, hope you enjoyed it, please REVIEW!!!!! ^_^ Oh, and I would really appreciate any comments regarding my writing, as in how I could make it better, more readable, etc. And I tried to make this chapter portray the feelings Syaoran had, so any comments on that?? Again, please review!!!
