A/N: This is something I felt that I wanted to write to help me deal with
"the death". Again- please do not read if you have not read OOTP!
I never had a father- At least, Not one I could remember.
You Were the closest thing That I had ever known.
I always knew That I was different.
But now, More than ever, I wish I wasn't.
Because I've learned That different Is not the same as Good.
Because of who I am, I grew up without a mother.
Because of who I am, I never had a father.
Because of who I am, Cedric Diggory died.
Because of who I am, I lost you.
I can still see, In my mind's eye- Your face.
I can see your expression, As clearly, As if it were happening Right now. And I can feel the guilt.
If you were here, I know what you'd say.
You'd say It isn't my fault- And maybe it isn't, But I still feel The guilt.
When people Look at me All they see Is "Harry Potter".
Famous for something I don't even remember.
Famous for causing My parents to be killed.
And what kind of fame is that?
Certainly not the kind That I want.
But I have to do What is expected of me.
I have to show A brave face to the world.
Because no one really cares About what happens to me, So long as I defeat Him.
They don't want to hear Of my pain, or sorrow, or guilt.
So I will do What they all expect.
I will kill him Or die trying.
And if I do die, I will come to you And I will beg For your forgiveness.
Forgiveness, Which I know You will say, I do not even have to ask for.
Yet the guilt is driving me insane.
The darkness inside threatens to someday Overpower me.
But I won't let it.
I'll fight it, and I will remain strong, I'll do that For you.
I never meant For any of this To happen.
I never wanted Any of this.
But I have it.
It is my destiny.
And I must face it - alone.
I never had a father- At least, Not one I could remember.
You Were the closest thing That I had ever known.
I always knew That I was different.
But now, More than ever, I wish I wasn't.
Because I've learned That different Is not the same as Good.
Because of who I am, I grew up without a mother.
Because of who I am, I never had a father.
Because of who I am, Cedric Diggory died.
Because of who I am, I lost you.
I can still see, In my mind's eye- Your face.
I can see your expression, As clearly, As if it were happening Right now. And I can feel the guilt.
If you were here, I know what you'd say.
You'd say It isn't my fault- And maybe it isn't, But I still feel The guilt.
When people Look at me All they see Is "Harry Potter".
Famous for something I don't even remember.
Famous for causing My parents to be killed.
And what kind of fame is that?
Certainly not the kind That I want.
But I have to do What is expected of me.
I have to show A brave face to the world.
Because no one really cares About what happens to me, So long as I defeat Him.
They don't want to hear Of my pain, or sorrow, or guilt.
So I will do What they all expect.
I will kill him Or die trying.
And if I do die, I will come to you And I will beg For your forgiveness.
Forgiveness, Which I know You will say, I do not even have to ask for.
Yet the guilt is driving me insane.
The darkness inside threatens to someday Overpower me.
But I won't let it.
I'll fight it, and I will remain strong, I'll do that For you.
I never meant For any of this To happen.
I never wanted Any of this.
But I have it.
It is my destiny.
And I must face it - alone.