If I owned Inuyasha, Sango would be the star! But she's not because I'm not
the owner. ;_;
Tsuki no Ai
By Youkai Huntress
Himitsu
The taijiya was starting to feel nervous. She had been looking for the houshi for almost an hour and there was no sign of him.
Sango (Where are you Houshi-sama?)
She stared at the great number of trees that were in front of her, it seemed as if they had decided to block her way and not let her get close to the houshi.
(He's so close and so far, all at the same time. I know I have a great trouble at opening to people but he doesn't make it easier for me, one minute he's giving me everything, the next time he's enamorating another girl. We push each other apart as much as we struggle to get close. I feel like if there is always something that separate us. The only difference is that this time are the trees who are doing it.)
She stopped thinking about it, after all, there was nothing she could do, at least not now, her duty and principal interest was to bring peace to the soul of her Ototo. No time could be wasted on thinking about her relationship with that houshi. So the demon huntress continued wandering in expectance to hear or see him. Her patience was wearing off and the landscape was starting to get repetitive.
(Maybe he was attacked by a youkai and needs help.)
Her heart started beating fast at the thought of Miroku being hurt. If that was the case, she neeeded to find him soon. She put all her concentration on her surroundings hoping to locate anything that leaded her to the houshi. Her effort was rewarded as she picked up the sound of giggling.
(Who am I kidding? It's for sure he's been flirting all this time while I get all worried about him. He's so going to regret it when I found him)
She directed her steps to where she supposed the playboy and his victim were. Her blood boiled and she felt how anger took hold on her as she approached. Whatever the houshi was saying, it really made the girl happy. When she was a few steps away, she prepared hiraikotsu for another round with the lecherous monk.
She tiptoed to where the "happy couple" was ready to hit Miroku with all her strength, but stopped as soon as they turned to see her and she saw that actually the man wasn't the one she believed. The unknown persons just stared at her like if she was crazy, after all, How often do you see a woman carrying a giant boomerang ready to strike you while you're in the middle of a date?.
"Gomen Nasai"
Sango whispered and ran as fast as she could, not even once she turned her face back in fear of seeing the couple again.
(I had just made a fool of myself. This kind of accident wouldn't happen to me if Houshi-sama weren't a pervert. Now I am really going to give you the beating of your life!)
Suddenly she spotted his staff, it looked like if he was laying against a tree.
"Houshi-sama!"
As soon as she called his name, she heard some branches be broken and the sound of steps. She hurried to the place where she believed the monk was, to find it empty.
Sango (Is he running away from me? What did you do this time Houshi-sama, that you don't want me to find you?)
He should know her better, there was no way she would stop there wondering what happened. So she ran towards the direction where the houshi had disappeared. She didn't stop running until he finally give up and remained in one place. She approached carefully, so he wouldn't have no time to react and start the chasing again. There he was laying in a tree as if he had been there the whole time. Her mind told her to confront him immediately but to let his own lies trap him.
"Houshi-sama, there you are! I've been looking for you all over the forest. Didn't you hear I was calling your name? Why didn't you answer me back?" "Sorry, Sango I was concentrated on my meditation."
Sango (He's sweating, not to mention the fact I sensed him moving whenever I got close. I sincerely doubt he can actually meditate while being chased by me)
"What is happening?" "What do you mean Sango?"
Sango (He doesn't want to tell me. Even if I'm angry at him I shouldn't not force him to tell me but..)
She sat near him but her eyes were fixed in the horizon. Her hands were playing one with the other due to her anxiety. After all what could be so bad that the houshi didn't trust in her as to confess it.
"I think there's something bothering you but I also think you won't tell me what it is. So all I can do is to let you know that if you need anything you can count on me."
His eyes darkened for a minute then he smiled as he always did.
"You don't know how much I appreciate your words, Sango-chan."
His hand was ready and waiting for the daily gropping her but this time before he touched her, she grasped his hand. He made the motion to recover his hand but this time she didn't let go off it.
"I don't understand" "What is it that you don't understand, Sango? "You.Sometimes you say or do things that are stunning, that make me think and feel that I'm someone special to you. .then you ruin the moment by trying to touch me. However even that makes me think you like me, in your own wear way of course.But you rather to ask women you have never seen before to bear your child than asking me." "Do you want me to ask you?"
He looked at her with a lecherous grin, the grin she hated so much because it separated her from the real houshi.
"I NEVER SAID THAT!.. I'm just curious."
The grin remained in his face and his hand was now holding her hand tightly.
Sango (Your wrong if you think I'm going to wait for you to grope me. If you don't want tp explain then don't)
She stood up angry and started walking back to the clearing, if he wanted to act like that well, he would have to look for another woman who wished to be the second plate.
"The reason why I have never asked you.it's because since the first instant I saw you, I knew it would be so easy to fall in love with you."
Sango opened her eyes, for some odd reason she couldn't close her mouth, the beating of her heart stopped for a second then started working ten times above the normal. Her brain ordered her legs to turn around but they wouldn't listen.
"That's why I can't be with you, that's why you can't be the mother of my child.Because I can't allow myself to love you. Not when this curse is still on my hand."
Her breathing fastened, her mind was shocked by his words, she felt like if she were seeing the scene from far away, she wished she were. Her body couldn't respond to any of her orders. It was one of those strange moments when the taijiya felt defenseless.
"I don't want to cause pain to you..A few moments of happiness, that is all I could give you, it wouldn't be enough to make it up for an entire life of pain and fear, because even when you would get over my death, you still would have to face the one of your child."
". or to me, I have spent all my life wondering what would my future be if the void sucks me in. I have detached myself from several things but if I acted upon my feelings, I know there wouldn't be any comfort to ease my pain. It would become impossible to accept death. I don't want to act as a hopeless loser who fights against every second just to spend more time with you."
"If I don't ask you Sango, is for yours and my own sake."
She thought her soul couldn't feel more pain of what she already have, his words proved her wrong. She felt sad for him, now she knew what the smile hid and she felt sorry for her, even if she couldn't tell why. She was crying but in silence, as if her tears had already resigned to lose the houshi to that cruel destiny.
"Then why do you keep on asking other women?"
Sango (Give me a reason to be angry, I don't want to feel sorry for me, keep my mind off your pain by angering me, I know it's selfish but I can bear to lose another person for who I care, not again)
"I have a duty to my family and I can't turn my back on it. I have two options, defeat Naraku by myself or leave a heir to carry my mission on." "Are you saying you're just doing it for your family, not because you're interested in them?" "I won't lie to you, I do find them attractive and beautiful .but I don't like them not even a half as much as I like you."
Sango (Why is my heart so happy about the fact that I'm more special to him than the other women? My reason keeps on telling me that I shouldn't feel pleased for that.)
"Have you decided to act on your feelings or why are you confessing me this?" "Don't get me wrong Sango-chan, my mind hasn't changed not even one little bit. I just told you this because you needed to know it, or you wouldn't have asked in the first place." "What now?" "Just pretend this conversation never happened, forget about this hour, keep it on the deepest part of your soul and just bring it back the day WE defeat Naraku, since when that day arrives, I will no longer have a reason to not give you my soul."
While saying this his hand caressed his cheek, she wondered how long he had been standing in front of her, she didn't even notice when he moved from his former spot.
"But." "There's nothing else we can do, Sango-chan. A few moments ago you wondered what I felt for you; in addition to your doubts about me, you don't even know what your feelings for me are."
Sango (How can he know me so well? Why do I feel sometimes that I don't know him at all?)
"I assume the rest of the group sent you for me, didn't they Sango?. We should return to where they are.
He started walking not without checking Sango was following him, what she did after looking at the sky, as if it held the answer she was looking for.
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I hope you liked it! If you did please inform me at youkai_huntress@yahoo.com.mx Also if you found a mistake, please report it to me.
Himitsu means secret
Domo Arigato!
Tsuki no Ai
By Youkai Huntress
Himitsu
The taijiya was starting to feel nervous. She had been looking for the houshi for almost an hour and there was no sign of him.
Sango (Where are you Houshi-sama?)
She stared at the great number of trees that were in front of her, it seemed as if they had decided to block her way and not let her get close to the houshi.
(He's so close and so far, all at the same time. I know I have a great trouble at opening to people but he doesn't make it easier for me, one minute he's giving me everything, the next time he's enamorating another girl. We push each other apart as much as we struggle to get close. I feel like if there is always something that separate us. The only difference is that this time are the trees who are doing it.)
She stopped thinking about it, after all, there was nothing she could do, at least not now, her duty and principal interest was to bring peace to the soul of her Ototo. No time could be wasted on thinking about her relationship with that houshi. So the demon huntress continued wandering in expectance to hear or see him. Her patience was wearing off and the landscape was starting to get repetitive.
(Maybe he was attacked by a youkai and needs help.)
Her heart started beating fast at the thought of Miroku being hurt. If that was the case, she neeeded to find him soon. She put all her concentration on her surroundings hoping to locate anything that leaded her to the houshi. Her effort was rewarded as she picked up the sound of giggling.
(Who am I kidding? It's for sure he's been flirting all this time while I get all worried about him. He's so going to regret it when I found him)
She directed her steps to where she supposed the playboy and his victim were. Her blood boiled and she felt how anger took hold on her as she approached. Whatever the houshi was saying, it really made the girl happy. When she was a few steps away, she prepared hiraikotsu for another round with the lecherous monk.
She tiptoed to where the "happy couple" was ready to hit Miroku with all her strength, but stopped as soon as they turned to see her and she saw that actually the man wasn't the one she believed. The unknown persons just stared at her like if she was crazy, after all, How often do you see a woman carrying a giant boomerang ready to strike you while you're in the middle of a date?.
"Gomen Nasai"
Sango whispered and ran as fast as she could, not even once she turned her face back in fear of seeing the couple again.
(I had just made a fool of myself. This kind of accident wouldn't happen to me if Houshi-sama weren't a pervert. Now I am really going to give you the beating of your life!)
Suddenly she spotted his staff, it looked like if he was laying against a tree.
"Houshi-sama!"
As soon as she called his name, she heard some branches be broken and the sound of steps. She hurried to the place where she believed the monk was, to find it empty.
Sango (Is he running away from me? What did you do this time Houshi-sama, that you don't want me to find you?)
He should know her better, there was no way she would stop there wondering what happened. So she ran towards the direction where the houshi had disappeared. She didn't stop running until he finally give up and remained in one place. She approached carefully, so he wouldn't have no time to react and start the chasing again. There he was laying in a tree as if he had been there the whole time. Her mind told her to confront him immediately but to let his own lies trap him.
"Houshi-sama, there you are! I've been looking for you all over the forest. Didn't you hear I was calling your name? Why didn't you answer me back?" "Sorry, Sango I was concentrated on my meditation."
Sango (He's sweating, not to mention the fact I sensed him moving whenever I got close. I sincerely doubt he can actually meditate while being chased by me)
"What is happening?" "What do you mean Sango?"
Sango (He doesn't want to tell me. Even if I'm angry at him I shouldn't not force him to tell me but..)
She sat near him but her eyes were fixed in the horizon. Her hands were playing one with the other due to her anxiety. After all what could be so bad that the houshi didn't trust in her as to confess it.
"I think there's something bothering you but I also think you won't tell me what it is. So all I can do is to let you know that if you need anything you can count on me."
His eyes darkened for a minute then he smiled as he always did.
"You don't know how much I appreciate your words, Sango-chan."
His hand was ready and waiting for the daily gropping her but this time before he touched her, she grasped his hand. He made the motion to recover his hand but this time she didn't let go off it.
"I don't understand" "What is it that you don't understand, Sango? "You.Sometimes you say or do things that are stunning, that make me think and feel that I'm someone special to you. .then you ruin the moment by trying to touch me. However even that makes me think you like me, in your own wear way of course.But you rather to ask women you have never seen before to bear your child than asking me." "Do you want me to ask you?"
He looked at her with a lecherous grin, the grin she hated so much because it separated her from the real houshi.
"I NEVER SAID THAT!.. I'm just curious."
The grin remained in his face and his hand was now holding her hand tightly.
Sango (Your wrong if you think I'm going to wait for you to grope me. If you don't want tp explain then don't)
She stood up angry and started walking back to the clearing, if he wanted to act like that well, he would have to look for another woman who wished to be the second plate.
"The reason why I have never asked you.it's because since the first instant I saw you, I knew it would be so easy to fall in love with you."
Sango opened her eyes, for some odd reason she couldn't close her mouth, the beating of her heart stopped for a second then started working ten times above the normal. Her brain ordered her legs to turn around but they wouldn't listen.
"That's why I can't be with you, that's why you can't be the mother of my child.Because I can't allow myself to love you. Not when this curse is still on my hand."
Her breathing fastened, her mind was shocked by his words, she felt like if she were seeing the scene from far away, she wished she were. Her body couldn't respond to any of her orders. It was one of those strange moments when the taijiya felt defenseless.
"I don't want to cause pain to you..A few moments of happiness, that is all I could give you, it wouldn't be enough to make it up for an entire life of pain and fear, because even when you would get over my death, you still would have to face the one of your child."
". or to me, I have spent all my life wondering what would my future be if the void sucks me in. I have detached myself from several things but if I acted upon my feelings, I know there wouldn't be any comfort to ease my pain. It would become impossible to accept death. I don't want to act as a hopeless loser who fights against every second just to spend more time with you."
"If I don't ask you Sango, is for yours and my own sake."
She thought her soul couldn't feel more pain of what she already have, his words proved her wrong. She felt sad for him, now she knew what the smile hid and she felt sorry for her, even if she couldn't tell why. She was crying but in silence, as if her tears had already resigned to lose the houshi to that cruel destiny.
"Then why do you keep on asking other women?"
Sango (Give me a reason to be angry, I don't want to feel sorry for me, keep my mind off your pain by angering me, I know it's selfish but I can bear to lose another person for who I care, not again)
"I have a duty to my family and I can't turn my back on it. I have two options, defeat Naraku by myself or leave a heir to carry my mission on." "Are you saying you're just doing it for your family, not because you're interested in them?" "I won't lie to you, I do find them attractive and beautiful .but I don't like them not even a half as much as I like you."
Sango (Why is my heart so happy about the fact that I'm more special to him than the other women? My reason keeps on telling me that I shouldn't feel pleased for that.)
"Have you decided to act on your feelings or why are you confessing me this?" "Don't get me wrong Sango-chan, my mind hasn't changed not even one little bit. I just told you this because you needed to know it, or you wouldn't have asked in the first place." "What now?" "Just pretend this conversation never happened, forget about this hour, keep it on the deepest part of your soul and just bring it back the day WE defeat Naraku, since when that day arrives, I will no longer have a reason to not give you my soul."
While saying this his hand caressed his cheek, she wondered how long he had been standing in front of her, she didn't even notice when he moved from his former spot.
"But." "There's nothing else we can do, Sango-chan. A few moments ago you wondered what I felt for you; in addition to your doubts about me, you don't even know what your feelings for me are."
Sango (How can he know me so well? Why do I feel sometimes that I don't know him at all?)
"I assume the rest of the group sent you for me, didn't they Sango?. We should return to where they are.
He started walking not without checking Sango was following him, what she did after looking at the sky, as if it held the answer she was looking for.
Thanks for reading so far.
I hope you liked it! If you did please inform me at youkai_huntress@yahoo.com.mx Also if you found a mistake, please report it to me.
Himitsu means secret
Domo Arigato!