Uncomfortable Silences - March 2009

Chapter Three

Buffy and Spike sat across from each other at their corner table. Buffy ordered a tequila sunrise and Spike ordered a draft beer. The pair managed to stare at anything but each other. While Buffy was counting the ceiling tiles, Spike glanced over to sneak a peek at the mother of his child. She was still beautiful and no matter how much he wanted to, he could not be angry with her. Buffy looked down and noticed him staring at her. She blushed slightly like they were two teenagers on their first date. His head was cocked to the side as if he was looking at her for the first time. It appeared like he was still trying to figure her out. She smiled a little as the waitress brought their drinks. Then she caught the waitress eyeing Spike, right in front of her. Suddenly her face flushed, was she becoming jealous? She immediately shook the thought from her head.

"I get to retire in a year and half." Buffy suddenly said wanting to relieve the tension. "The WC is bringing in a new Slayer to train next month."

"That's great luv." Spike responded politely. "The WC is going to publish some of my work in The Watcher's diaries next month. Museum wants me to go to Rome in June. Actually I kind of wanted to ask you if Jules could go. I already invited Dawn."

"I don't see a problem with that if Dawn's going too. Actually before we get any deeper in the polite conversation, I wanted to talk to you about my plans after I retire. I've been offered a position in Baltimore. With the homicide department, and I was going to teach criminal law at the community college there. It's a great opportunity. I just don't know what to do about Julia. Neither of us see her enough as it is. I know that you love her as much as I do." Buffy quickly lied. She knew she shouldn't, but she had to see if he even cared.

"Yes pet, I do. Love her almost as much as I love you. And I am not going to lose her too. Already lost one thing that meant the world to me" Spike said, not even attempting to be cryptic about his feelings. He then gingerly reached over and took one of her hands.

Buffy just stared into his deep blue eyes. She could still remember the days when she could lost in those eyes for hours. He would look at her and she would melt, and then he would lovingly kiss her, and she would love him. If only for seconds at a time.