A/N: Ok chappy #2, enjoy!
Roger's Pov:
"Jesus, so much has happened in the last year," Roger thought, "Why? Why can't it just happen slowly- or why not just not happen at all? Damn't!!!!!! I always just find myself sitting here- drooping over things that are in the past- why can't I just get over them, no day but today."
"Oh God, I miss Mimi so much. I really thought things were getting better, (with the exception of Angel's death), everyone seemed to be moving on with their lives. Especially me, I started to except that April was dead and that she wasn't coming back, I started to care about others before myself, I didn't ponder about me and my messed up life. Immediately after Mimi got better Maureen and Joanne moved, which was fine with me...I couldn't stand them- well not them just...Maureen. She just drove me out of my mind! But- she will always be my family, so I guess I'll just have to deal with her- just like you have to deal with a baby sister."
"But then it happened, about one month after Mimi got better, things just started to go down hill- it was Collins. I remember Mark calling me. God I was so scared for that phone call. I told myself it was all a lie- I told myself that Collins would never do that, that it had to be just a big lie. But- I was wrong."
"I felt so guilty- even though I knew it wasn't my fault- I knew I should have been more of a friend to him. He was always there for me, every freaking time I needed help, no matter what crap he was involved in- he would come rushing over to me. What the hell was I thinking all this time? I mean- was I just like a master to him, was he like my slave? I never figured out the meaning of a "true-friend" all this time- until, until the real "true friend" was gone."
"About two months later, Mimi- she- she- she got sick. Oh God, sicker than I've ever seen her. It wasn't fair, after Collins was gone- I made sure I treated her every day- nursed her every need; I made sure she wouldn't leave me. But then of course she just decides to get sick and die on me! What the hell Mimi? Why did you do that to me?"
"I haven't cried so much in my entire life compared to this year. I don't understand why this happens to me, why when I get happy does shit like this come between me and my life? It is so fucking unfair! I mean, what the hell should I do, there is nobody here- nobody! FUCK!!!!!! I'm just alone, in my bed- thinking about my life that lies before me, not knowing what the fuck to do about anything- and yet this seems familiar...why should this- no person should be doing this. It is just a huge waist of time- it gets you nowhere. Am I just a waste of time?"
Roger's Pov:
"Jesus, so much has happened in the last year," Roger thought, "Why? Why can't it just happen slowly- or why not just not happen at all? Damn't!!!!!! I always just find myself sitting here- drooping over things that are in the past- why can't I just get over them, no day but today."
"Oh God, I miss Mimi so much. I really thought things were getting better, (with the exception of Angel's death), everyone seemed to be moving on with their lives. Especially me, I started to except that April was dead and that she wasn't coming back, I started to care about others before myself, I didn't ponder about me and my messed up life. Immediately after Mimi got better Maureen and Joanne moved, which was fine with me...I couldn't stand them- well not them just...Maureen. She just drove me out of my mind! But- she will always be my family, so I guess I'll just have to deal with her- just like you have to deal with a baby sister."
"But then it happened, about one month after Mimi got better, things just started to go down hill- it was Collins. I remember Mark calling me. God I was so scared for that phone call. I told myself it was all a lie- I told myself that Collins would never do that, that it had to be just a big lie. But- I was wrong."
"I felt so guilty- even though I knew it wasn't my fault- I knew I should have been more of a friend to him. He was always there for me, every freaking time I needed help, no matter what crap he was involved in- he would come rushing over to me. What the hell was I thinking all this time? I mean- was I just like a master to him, was he like my slave? I never figured out the meaning of a "true-friend" all this time- until, until the real "true friend" was gone."
"About two months later, Mimi- she- she- she got sick. Oh God, sicker than I've ever seen her. It wasn't fair, after Collins was gone- I made sure I treated her every day- nursed her every need; I made sure she wouldn't leave me. But then of course she just decides to get sick and die on me! What the hell Mimi? Why did you do that to me?"
"I haven't cried so much in my entire life compared to this year. I don't understand why this happens to me, why when I get happy does shit like this come between me and my life? It is so fucking unfair! I mean, what the hell should I do, there is nobody here- nobody! FUCK!!!!!! I'm just alone, in my bed- thinking about my life that lies before me, not knowing what the fuck to do about anything- and yet this seems familiar...why should this- no person should be doing this. It is just a huge waist of time- it gets you nowhere. Am I just a waste of time?"