AUTHOR'S NOTES:This is Part 1 of Chapter 3 of 'When you're gone..'. Thoughts are in italics, and you'll see some 'switching times' between Kagome's time and the Feudal Period; these are all divided by sections ok?^_^So don't get confused!! Erm, there'll also be some dream sequences in this, and they'll be in.....uh....italics as well, and don't forget, the thoughts during the dream sequences are in normal text!!! This chapter isn't as dark as the last one was, so you can put away some of the tissues for now!!Thank you for all the people who've reviewed my story and loved it!^_^Thank you so much!!You don't know how much it means to me!! Now then, on with the story~!(It is vital that you read the Author's Notes in this chapter, as you may get confused with what are thoughts, and which are in dream sequence!!!Please read them carefully!)
Chapter 3: In your dreams Part 1
Kagome sat at the bottom of the Bone-Eater's well in her world, back heaving as heavy sobs blocked out the sound of her fervent digging at the earth. Her heavy tears plopped to the ground, a steady stream, never even stopping for a second. Her nails scratched hard at the ground, mindless of all the rocks that had caused her hand to bleed a small stream of blood from her palms.
I have...to get back...I need to see him!!Please...open damnit!!!She rubbed her eyes to get the tears out of her vision, and then continued digging again, desperately.
She suddenly seemed to remember that the Shikon no Tama was around her neck, and she paused in her digging to hold it.
Can I....use it to go back?Is it possible?I've got to try it!!!Please...work...this is my last hope....Kami-sama...please grant me this....
She closed her eyes tightly, still holding the jewel, waiting for something to happen.
Nothing happened.
She opened her eyes again, and the tears fell harder this time, her sobs louder, and harsher, leaving her trembling as each sob passed.
"No....no....I can't go back...I need to go back...I have to see him..."she whispered brokenly, voice coarse from crying.
"Inuyasha...."
Her voice rose to a scream, pain and anguish evident in it.
"INUYASHAAAAAAA!!!!!"
A short while later, footsteps and wooden sandals could be heard clacking across the tiles outside the well. Kagome's grandfather and her younger brother appeared at the top of the well, gasping, and were shocked at the sight of her crying brokenly at the bottom of the well, not even looking up at them to acknowledge them.
"Nee-chan..."Souta whispered worriedly.
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Rain poured down from the heavens heavily in the Feudal Ages, as if mourning the loss of Kagome. Inuyasha was at the Goshimboku tree, his head bowed, as he stared blankly and silently at nothing, as the rain fell through the trees and into his hair, drenching him completely. The loss of Kagome was still raw in his mind, still painful to him, and he didn't want to do anything about it; he had been sitting in the same position for 3 days. Right after Kaede had finished reading Kagome's letter, he had left the small house immediately, deaf to Miroku's and Sango's yells for him to come back, and had made his way to the Goshimboku tree, where he finally dropped onto the ground from a large branch high above; he didn't care anymore, Kagome was gone and he couldn't do anything to bring her back, and as long as she was gone, he would remain like this. His appearance was in bad form, he hadn't bothered to change or do anything to his robes after he had killed Kikyo, and he was still dirty, and his hair was starting to get tangled.
Kagome...he thought, I need you so much...he replayed the scene of embracing her four nights earlier, wishing that she was in his arms once again, as he fell into a restless sleep, a single tear falling from his eye as he closed them, hidden by the pouring rain.
He suddenly found himself in Kagome's room, and saw her sitting up in her bed, in her pajamas, and staring with an empty gaze at her blankets.
"Kagome?"He approached her bed, but she gave no indication of having heard him, and continued to stare at her blankets.
The door to her Kagome's room creaked open slightly, and he saw her mother step in with a tray of food, and her brother right behind her mother. Kagome didn't even look up at them. Her mother put the tray on Kagome's desk, and then sat on Kagome's bed. Souta stood nervously at the door, watching his sister and his mother.
"Kagome, are you feeling alright?"her mother asked her softly. When she got no reply, she continued.
"I've made your favourite oden, and its on your desk alright? Eat it while its hot." she kissed her daughter's forehead and left the room, Souta closing the door behind him and following suit.
Only after the door was closed and the last footsteps gone did she lose her wooden stare, and bowed her head to cry silently. Inuyasha watched her cry sadly, and he sat on her bed, his heart wrenching with pain every time a tear dropped. He reached a claw out, and caught one of her tears on it, and moved to touch her face. He moved his hands through her hair and held her close to him, but he stopped when he realized that she was still crying.
He moved back from her and looked into her face.
"Kagome?"he whispered.
She didn't even look at him.
What's going on here?he thought silently. Or could it be that she doesn't want to see me?Pain gripped his heart at the possibility of her not wanting to see him.
"She can't see you."A new voice said.
He whirled around from his position on the bed, eyes narrowing as he saw who it was.
"Kikyo.."his voice seethed with anger and undiluted hate.
She smiled sadly "I put a curse on you..and her...in the last moments before I died my second 'death'. My hate drove me to curse you to be able to see her in her time, but she won't be able to see you. Simple irony, is it not?"
"You..."he raced towards her form, and clawed at it, but she disappeared.
"I am already dead, Inuyasha, and this is the last time that I will see you. I just wanted to get my revenge."Her voice echoed around him. "And now I have it."
Kuso...he clenched his hands into fists hard, his claws drawing blood, but promptly stopped when he heard Kagome speak.
"Inuyasha...where are you now?"It hurt him so badly to hear her voice so broken, in so much pain, so unlike her usual voice, full of warmth and happiness; it was now filled with pain and loss.
A gray mist suddenly surrounded him, taking him away from Kagome.
"Don't do this...please....don't do this to us, Kami-sama!!KAGOME!!!!!!!!" his voice rose in volume with every word, as he moved further and further away from Kagome.
He awoke with a start from the dream, chest heaving heavily.
Kagome...he thought, remembering the dream. I saw her...is that what's really happening in her time now?...I--I don't want her to see her this sad...I want her to smile, like she used to....I hate seeing her cry...did I do this?
As he thought, he was flying through the forest again, back to the village, his body powered automatically towards Kaede's house, and sat himself down in the small room the second he reached it.
Miroku sat in a corner of the room, back turned towards everybody else in it. Sango and Shippou were on Kagome's sleeping back, Shippou sleeping in Sango's arms, while she acknowledged Inuyasha with a nod, sadness in her eyes. Kaede was brewing something in a pot, and she looked up as he came in.
"Kaede-baba," he moved closer to her as he spoke. "I...I dreamt that I saw Kagome..."At the mention of Kagome's name everyone but Shippou, who was still sleeping, started to listen to Inuyasha intently.
"She was crying...for me...and I tried to comfort her, and stop her crying...I thought it was real for a moment...but she couldn't see me...and then Kikyo appeared.."his posture stiffened for a moment, and then relaxed again as he went on with his story.
"She told me that it was just a dream, and that Kagome couldn't see me, and that she'd put a curse on me and Kagome...that I'd be able to watch Kagome when I dream, but Kagome wouldn't be able to see me, no matter what I do."
He looked up at Kaede expectantly, the light of hope shining in his eyes.
"Can you do something about it?"
Kaede was already muttering to herself about it. "A curse...you can see her, but she can't see you...how?"
She got up from where she was sitting, and went through a make-shift curtain which seperated the room that they were in now, from another in the back of the small hut.
Inuyasha's gaze fell into the fire burning, countless thoughts entering his mind, and he was startled out of his thinking when somebody tapped his shoulder. He turned around to see Miroku, smiling sadly.
"You'll be able to see Kagome-sama again, Inuyasha. So don't worry about it."
Inuyasha smiled, his first smile through all the tears in five whole days which felt like eternity.
"Thank you, Miroku."
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She wiped the tears from her eyes with the back of her hand. Her supply of tears for the day had seemed to dry up, but the empty hollow feeling remained with her, and her throat felt dry.
"Kagome"
For an instant, she thought that she heard Inuyasha's voice, and she looked around the room, desperately in the hope that he would be there. She smiled sadly as she looked at her room. It was dark and familiar, and morning light was starting to pour in as the sky outside reached dawn. She got out of bed and rummaged through her closet for clothes and a towel; she wanted to try and wash off the pain in the hope that she would actually feel even slightly better after a bath.
She left her room and entered the toilet, undressing, and turning on the hot water. While the water ran into the tub, she stared at her own image in the face mirror, and saw a lost, pained expression staring back at her. She tried to smile at the image, but only managed a grimace, and she wasn't really feeling up for it, considering what she had gone through in the past few days.
As the bath filled, she turned of the water and stepped into it, the past flooding back to her. She drew her knees up to her chest, and remembered skinny-dipping in cold lakes and complaining about not having a proper bath and hot running water.
She smiled ironically to herself, wishing that she was back in the Feudal Ages again, where Inuyasha was.
The pain in her heart throbbed again, and her tears returned. She went under the water as the sobs racketed her body, and she remembered the night that Inuyasha held her, telling her not to go, and to stay, and be his. She would have gladly left everything in this time for him, even her family, because she loved him so much, that it hurt.
"I-I don't want you to go. Would you...stay here?And...be mine?... "His voice echoed in her ears.
I never got to answer you then, Inuyasha....but I would....I would!
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Kaede was searching through the numerous scrolls in the back of the room.
"Where is it?"she muttered to herself, turning a scroll, and squinting at another. She finally found what she wanted, after a long search of ten minutes, and went back out into the small room where Inuyasha and the others were anxiously waiting.
One look at her face calmed down Inuyasha's anxiousness, as he saw a small smile on her face.
Thank you, Kami-sama!
"What does it say, Kaede-baba?"All of them crowded around as she unrolled the scroll.
"It's an incantation to break a barrier between two people."She grunted." I suppose that it would apply to you and Kagome, Inuyasha, but I don't think that anything can be done about the seal on the well, although I'll have to try it some time." She was happy to see Inuyasha's face light up like a child's face does, when they have been given a special present.
He's changed so much because of Kagome, she thought to herself, smiling. He must really love her, even more than he did my sister.
"So do the spell already!"he said impatiently, a trace of his old arrogant self returning for the moment, and it was all he could do not to jump up and down for joy. Sango and Miroku both shared an amused look at his antics.
She'll be able to see me, she'll be able to see me, she'll be able to see me!!He thought to himself giddily, ignoring the looks that Sango and Miroku were giving him.
"But."Kaede's firm voice brought him back to his senses again. "I cannot guarantee that the spell can work, especially since it was my sister who cast it, and her magic is particularly strong."
At this, Inuyasha's heart dropped to the bottom of his feet again.
At his expression, Kaede smiled slightly "But, the fact still remains that Kagome removed the seal that my sister put on you, Inuyasha, so we have to believe that her love for you is strong enough to break the curse." She looked amusedly at Inuyasha's sudden blush.
"Let's get on with it then!" Inuyasha walked out of the house, still blushing, but regaining some of his composure.
Hang on Kagome!!!I'll be seeing you soon!!!
AUTHOR'S NOTES: There ya go!!That's part one of this chapter!^_^There, at least, there's some hope and some happy, not like the last 2 dark/sad/lonely chapters, huh?Stay tuned for the next part of this chapter!!!It's gonna be up by tomorrow, I'll do my best to finish this fic ASAP too ^_^ So that you guys can finally have a full story!!In the meantime, please be patient!!^_^
In the next part of 'When you're gone..'
"Don't leave me..."
"Love you...always have, always will...."