Author: Sita
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Post 7.22- It's been five years, and the night Spike died still haunts Buffy's dreams. But what happens when she gets a phone call from L.A. and comes face to face with no other than Spike? What will she do? B/S
Spoilers: Post 7.22 "Chosen"
Disclaimer: Insert standard disclaimer here.
Distribution: Want. Take. Have. Just tell me where it's going first.
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You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But do you're still with me
I've been alone all along
~Evanescence~
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AN: First and importantly I'd like to say 52 friggin reviews?! You guys rock! I mean.... one measly little chapter and I get all of that. Thank you! You guys are the best!
Also, thanks to the person who told me it was "resonating life" instead of mind.... I just got the lyrics off of letssingit.com.... but I like when I have the lyrics right :-)
This chapter is also kinda short.... but I felt I couldn't add anything else to make it perfect you know? I'm gonna try to make the next one longer.
Part Two
He had insisted to come to L.A. with her, Andy that is. She had at first been reluctant to agree when he had said he wanted to come along, but she had eventually given in, dragging him along with Giles and Dawn on the plane boarding to L.A.
The main reason Buffy had let Andy come had been that he had a sister that had become a slayer when Willow had triggered that spell all of those years ago. Believe it or not, the two had met in a graveyard when Buffy had the sudden urge to kill something one night. Andy had been following his sister and the two had run into each other. They had been together ever since.
Though he wasn't gorgeous at first appearance, Andy had fair features, dark brown wavy hair, pale blue eyes, and was of average weight and height. Though most importantly, he was human.
She loved the fact that she could actually have another relationship with a human being. Sure, she wasn't in love with him yet, but that didn't mean she'd never fall in love with him. Yet, he could never replace the deep feelings of love she had felt for Spike.... or even Angel. But, he was stable and a good man, and that's what she needed right now.
"Are we almost there?" Buffy moved in the uncomfortable plane seat, turning to look at her ex-watcher and little sister who sat in the seats behind her.
Giles glanced quickly at his watch, "According to the schedule, we should be landing in about thirty minutes."
She nodded, turning back around as a feeling of sudden nervousness overcame her. She hadn't seen Angel in four years. What would he act like? Would he act like the jealous ex-boyfriend again once he met Andy?
Buffy sighed and closed her eyes, trying to sooth her nerves. Breathing deeply in and out, she wasn't even aware she had drifted off to sleep.
But she didn't rest.
She could never rest.
She was aware of this when she sat up straight from her plane seat, gasping for air as hot tears streamed down her cheeks.
"Are you okay?" Andy asked. "Is it another nightmare?"
She just nodded. It had been the same one as always. Buffy wondered if they'd ever stop. What was this? Was something or someone trying to blame her for Spike's death? Or was it her own unconscious mind that was doing it? Because, whoever or whatever it was.... it was working. She blamed herself for everything.
Andy left her alone while she cried, knowing she wouldn't want comfort. After her nightmares, she never wanted anyone or anything to touch her. She blocked herself out from the world for hours.
The flight attendant announcing over the speakers that their flight would be landing momentarily made Buffy tense up more. For some reason, she wished she wasn't coming to L.A., and she hadn't called Angel back and agreed to come. She wasn't ready for this.
The impact of the plane startled the blonde, and she held on to the seat in front of her while the plane landed. Soon everyone was unloading, and Buffy followed the crowd, her hand in Andy's as she walked out to meet Angel.
He looked the same. He always did. But why would a vampire change anyway?
He nodded when he saw her, and drew her into a brief hug, before reaching to hug Dawn also.
He nodded to Giles, not even acknowledging that Andy was beside her. She figured this was his way of not threatening to get into her new boyfriend's faces. She really didn't care about the immaturity of it all at this point. She just wanted to know why Angel had wanted her here to urgently. Was he in trouble? Was the world ending again?
She didn't speak though; afraid she'd burst into tears once more if she opened her mouth. The dream was still fresh in her mind, and usually after having it she'd be alone for hours. This time she couldn't. So she didn't utter a single word as Angel led the four of them to pick up their luggage, than to his car.
It started raining as soon as they arrived at the old Wolfram & Hart law firm building, now known as Angel Investigations, and Buffy didn't bother to grab a jacket as she followed Angel out of the car.
The night was starless and black. Just like it had been the night Spike died.... Her mind wouldn't stop tormenting her, and she desperately tried to hold back the tears that were now threatening to fall from her eyes.
The three followed Angel as he walked into the building and into a large elevator. As soon as they got out of the elevator, he walked down a narrow corridor, stopping at the first door on his right. His hand shook slightly as he opened the doorknob.
The room was pitch black, darker than it was outside, and the brunette vampire switched on the light switch, revealing someone very familiar yet unconscious in the bed in the middle of the room.
Buffy thought she felt her heart stop as when she saw him. It was a sight she had yearned for every since that day five long years ago.
And the blonde dropped to her knees beside the bed, the tears finally falling from her eyes, as she uttered a single word:
"Spike?"
TBC....
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