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Well here we are chaper 5

Blood Pain and Forgiveness

The sun shine threw the windows and the singing of birds could be heard. The soft feel of the bed and the smell of food, it was all so surreal after the hell of last night. Chris lay in bed, looking up at the celling and trying not to think of her fight with Hugo.

It was so much like the morning after every fight or battle. When your brian tells you what happened but you don't want to believe it, the blood, pain, death and you think you'll never get over it. As a knight Chris had many mornings like this.

It was only when Cecile entered the room that Chris sat up in bed. Cecile was wearing armor but it was different form her armor of three years ago. Cecile was growing up and filling out into a beautiful woman and her old armor just didn't fit her anymore. Cecile's new armor was not that different form Chris's in that it was made for women's body.

Cecile smiled happy and set a tray of curry in front of Chris. Good morning Lady Chris. I was hoping you wake up today.

Chris made the effort to get out of bed but Cecile pushed her back down. Sorry malady but you need rest and well... ... ... ... ... ... your not decent.

Chris blushed and pulled the blankets around herself. Of chores, they have to remover my clothing to get at my wounds and heal them. Still I don't feel to happy about it.'

Don't worry malady your clothes are being washed and mended, I have them brought up to you when there finished. If there's anything I do for you just ask.

Ok, could you get me a robe and you know me so you can call me by my name and not

No problem Chris, I'll get that robe for you but first you should eat. Cecile then handed Chris a bowl of curry. Don't worry, Thomas made it so it's very mild.

The curry was nothing to shout about. In fact Chris's taste buds where not to pleased but her stomach could digest it, and that's what mattered. Chris was far more hungry then she thought and finished the curry in no time.

I should tell Thomas how much you like his cooking.

How are things with you and Master Thomas?

Cecile tuned away slightly with a hint of a blush. Well you know he runs the Castle and I guard the gate but now with more guards so I have more time to myself. I've been reading more Books as of late.

Chris intrepid Cecile quickly to make a point. Books? would they be the kind of books with hero's who yell the name of they lover as they charge into battle.

Cecile was taken back by that, it was exlacly the kind of books she been reading. How did you know?

Chris smiled knowingly. You yelled out Thomas name when your charged me and Hugo last night.

A look of dread covered Cecile's faces. No I must have gotten carried away again. I hope Thomas didn't hear that, I'd die if he knew.

What you and Thomas haven't become a couple yet?

Goddess no! What would give anyone that idea?

But you do love Thomas though, right?

Cecile sat down on Chris's bed. I do, But It's more completed then just that.

Well Cecile just think of me as a big sister and I'll help you, with your love problems.

Cecile's smile could have lighten up a cave, she looked so happy. Thanks ... ... ... ... ... ... sis. Chris and Cecile shard a collective giggle at that.

Both Chris and Cecile grow up with out much of a woman's influence in their life. Nether knew their mother at all and they where never around girls there own age when growing up. Chris always had the other Knights to talk too if she need help but there are something you can only talk about woman to woman.

Cecile's love problem is that she feel's that it be inappropriate as caption of the castle guards to love the castle master. This made a lot of sense to Chris, who knew that loving a someone you work with will create a lot of friction.

So Chris what do you think I should do?

Chris thought on it and remember all the times she gave up on someone, just because of her duties as a knight. It had left her very much alone and even a bit bitter. Cecile I truly think you should go for it.



I'm sure Thomas loves you to and I know everyone else here will support you two. Besides love is always more important then what other people think what is or isn't proper.

Yes I think your right Chris, I just needed to hear someone say it. Thank you.

No problem but I'm sure you have enough trouble on your hands. Hugo's must be raising hell and here I am stuck in bed.

Cecile's looked puzzled. You mean you didn't see Hugo? He's in the bed to your left.

Chris careful look over too her left and the sight of Hugo almost broke her heart.

Hugo was unconscious but not asleep, he took in deep labored berths of air as if he was working in the summer sun. Hugo's blanks were thinner and only came up too his waist. Hugo looked so pale as if he where wasting away just sleeping.

Chris was beside herself, she almost got up out of bed but Cecile held her down.

Chris please there's nothing you can do for him. Hugo's wounds healed but he has a bad fever. We checked him twice for infections but we think the trouble is with his true fire rune. No one here can help him, if Hugo's going to pull throw this he most do it himself.

Tears fell form Chris's eye's. but... .... ... there must be something.... ... ... ... ... ... someone. I mean you cant just do nothing!

Pleas Chris your not helping Hugo or yourself, besides it's not your fault.

Cecile tucked Chris into her bed and headed out the door. Chris turned away form Hugo and whispered to herself. But it is my fault. She then fell into a restless sleep.

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Chris awoke suddenly in the middled of the night. She was breathing hard and looked around to make absolutely sure it was a nightmare and not real. Moon light flooded the room and some lamps lit small pools of light in the corers. The effete left the room covered in shadows of blue and black rather then any real light.

Chris sat in her bed and sighed. Brass Castle was not attacked and Louis was not dead. It still bugged Chris on how real the dream was, Karayans attacked Brass Castle as she and Louis where returning form Vinay del Zexay. They saw fire and Louis ran ahead of her, he was only gone for a second before he. Chris didn't what to remember the rest but the memories came anyway.

Louis saw Hugo leading troops into battle but then Louis charged Hugo wildly out of anger. It was just Hugo's well trend instincts but he kill Louis in one quick strike, Louis didn't even see it coming. She ran to Louis but all life had left him. Hugo just turned his back on them and when Chris asked why he just answered. The unwanted always die on the battlefield too. You should grow up and face that realty of war.

The dream played out like her memory of the attack on the Karayan village. This time the however Chris could see how cold and unemotional she was. This dream was a reflection of herself one that day and Chris hated what she saw.

Is that why you fought with me Hugo? Was it my uncaring, or was it the way I acted like that was not my fault?' Chris looked over at Hugo still unable to find peace or rest.

Did you just want me to show that I didn't mean it? What good would that have done then or now. Yet I think your right, I do owe you an apology, for you and Lulu.'

Chris found the robe Cecile had left for her folded neatly on the shelf to her right. It was no more then a bathroom robe but it was soft and coved Chris well enough. The night's rest did nothing for Chris mind but her body was much better and she could move around.

Chris walked over to Hugo's bed and sat down next to him. Sweat beaded form Hugo's forehead down his chest and his skin was pale. Chris ran her hand throw Hugo's hair and sweat fell form it like morning dew off grass. Chris didn't know if Hugo could hear her or not, but she was going to apologize him. This maybe the last time she could.

Hugo, I don't know what to say to you that could ever make you forgive me but I have too try. I'm sorry Hugo, I'm sorry I killed Lulu. The death of the innocent on the battlefield is unavoidably but still a tragedy. I should have told you that but you where angry and my fellow knights would have looked down on me for it. Now you could die as well because of me.

Chris now stated to cry. Goddess Hugo you can't die too, everyone would miss you. Thomas, Cecile, Lucia, Luce, Aila everyone would miss you... ... ... ... ... ... ... and I'd miss you. You mean so much to me Hugo, your heart, stragth, spirit and even your stuben personally. I'd miss You too much.

As if hoping that fairytals are true Chris lend over Hugo to kiss him. Like a knight too save princes charming with a kiss to break an evil spell. Chris's closed her eyes as her soft lips meet Hugo's. It was a soft kiss but tender and Chris hoped against hope that Hugo would wake up. Hugo berthed in, exhaled and ... ... ... ... ... that was it, he berthed no more.

Chris waited for Hugo to berth but every second felt like years and she broke down sobbing into his chest. No goddess pleas don't tack Hugo, anything but him, pleas?' Inside Chris a dam that held back years worth of tears broke losses and flooded her soul and poured out of her eyes. If Chris didn't have her face bared in Hugo's chest, she could have seen his teal eye's open and try to adjust to the darkness of the room.

Hugo head every word Chris had said too him and that only made him fight harder to regain conscious. Hugo was very surprised to find Chris mourning, even crying over him, truth be told her tears moved him more then any words could. He tried to speck but found his throat too dry too form words. Clearing his throat Hugo spoke with barely a whisper. It's all right Chris, I've forgiven you a long time ago.

Chris raised her head to see that it was Hugo specking and not her mind playing tricks on her. Hugo gave her a weak. Chris Jumped to her feet and turn her back too Hugo. She also wiped the tears form her eyes.

Oh Hugo It's good to see you awake. ... ... ... ... I'm sorry you had to see me like this, I must have beem embarrassing you.

It's Ok Chris. Hugo still looked faint and weak, his voice still just a whisper.

Chris walked over too Hugo and placed her right hand on his forehead but something odd happened. Her true water rune glowed with soft blue light. As she touched Hugo his fever stated to break. Hugo looked much better and with a solid voice said. Well I guess this means your have a healing touch.

Chris nodded. Can you sit up Hugo?

No, I don't think so.

Then I'll help you. With only that explanation given, Chris sat on the other side of the bed and lifted Hugo up into a sitting position. Then she pulled Hugo into arms. They where facing that same way so Hugo's back was leaning against Chris front and only a thin robe keep their bodes apart.

Being held like that in Chris's arms with the aura of the true water rune running over him. The only way Hugo could descried the feeling would be siting under a waterfall. It felt cool and refreshing as if cleansing his soul. So Hugo made no move to stop Chris and she didn't let him go. They where like that for quit some time.

So Chris, how much...?



A smile crossed Hugo's face.You said I mean too much to you, So how much do I mean to you? How close am I too your heart. Hugo was hoping for a good responds from Chris but was unpaired for the one he got.

Chris let Hugo go and got out of bed so fast that Hugo couldn't get his balance and hit his head ageist the headboard. Rubbing the back of his head Hugo got another shock as Chris slapped him hard across the face.

I should have known better then tell my feelings to a boy who wouldn't understand. Your such a child Hugo, I can't believe you'd use my sorrow over you dying to make a joke! You ungrateful little wretch!!

bu... ... ...but... ... ... I ... ....

You must have used that line on Lilly and goddess knows how many other girls and they probly all bought it too. Well let me tell you something Mr-thinks-He's-the-goddess's-gift-too-woman, I'm not falling for it.

I never did... .... .... ... ... or mean too.

Well then you tell me Mr. hotshot how close am I too your heart.

... ... .... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

I'm waiting Hugo.

Hugo was not about to be talked down too so he was going to tell Chris exactly how he felt about her.

When I see you in your Zexen armor I can't help but hate your guts. I see you like a animal that was captured and had it's soul broken. I think you have no heart or compassion for anything and you only care about killing for you Zexen masters.

Hugo's words where harsh and came from his heart, they where to passionate to be fake.

However Chris when I see you with out that armor and with your hair down, like in Chisha Village or now, I think your perfect in every way. Your cute when your angry, prettier when your sad and on the few times I see you smile in joy your absolute the most beautifully stunting thing I have ever seen. I love your heart, your sense of justice, rational thinking and I just love you, ... ... ... ... There I said it. I Love you Chris Lightfellow but I hate your sliver maiden' persona.

Chris didn't move, didn't say a word and didn't even blink. She just stood there with a look of discuss still on her faces. With her voice full of venom Chris answered.

Well now then Hugo. I should tell you how I fell about you. I think you stubborn, childish and a braggart. You don't tack anything seriously and you never lison to reason. Well to be totally honest with you, your a good six inches too short to be even a decent lover too me.

If Hugo's libido had arms and a katana, it would be committing seppuku' about now.

Chris's look of anger turn into a playful smile at the shocked expression on Hugo's face. She keep on talking with almost a sensual ring in her voice.

I must say however that your stubbornness is part of your charm and you are very charming. Your childness puts you in a good middle ground between macho guys like Borus or a pretty boys' like Percival. You may not be tall but your dark and ungodly hansom. I Like your passion and the way you care about everyone, even your old foes. I've started falling in love with you Hugo and lastly... ... ... ...

Chris undid the knot that held her robe close. The robe fell from Chris's shoulders, stopped for a second on her hips and finely landed on the floor.

It was a sin, an absolute sin too keep such a body in armor, even if the armor was of gold it would not even compare to Chris. Hugo's mouth went dry and his heart stated to races. The sight of Chris covered only with the pal blue light of the moon was almost too much for Hugo.

Chris climbed into Hugo's bed and crawled slowly up too him. The feeling of Chris's skin against Hugo's had a different effect then last time, now her touch sent a burring feeling of desire threw him. Chris kissed Hugo's neck with little butterfly kisses going up to his ear, then she just whisper. Even if your a bit short I think you can be a grate lover.

Hugo's hands traveled down Chris's back feeling her smooth but firm skin. Yet some part of Hugo held back as he spoke between his and Chris's kisses. Chris you know I never done anything like this before.

Neither have I Hugo but you have to sometime and I'd like you too be my first.

Well get hell for this in the morning.

Chris kissed Hugo ounces more and said. Then we can worry about that tomorrow. Let's just enjoy the monument now.

The inter battle in Hugo of his heart vise his better judgment had ended. All the doubts and worries where washed away by a great feeling of love for Chris and he guessed she was right. They really didn't care what happen tomorrow.

The world moved that night, years of conflict and loneliness ended in a love.



Authors Notes.
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God what have I done, This is now Blood, pain and bad teaser lemon. Do you think I made them move too fast or did I make Chris look cheap. This could all have been so simple if I just killed one of them. well it's too late now.

There will be one more chapter to rap this would thing up. I beat you think it's going to be all happily every after don't you? Too bad, The real world of their duties as Knight of Zexen and Chief of Karaya will crush there one night of love like a grape.