The Past - August 2007
Chapter Forty-Six
"So, you going to break it off then?" Angel quietly asked his friend.
"I have to mate. It's been over a year and a half. She's all healed. She'll be fine." Spike replied just as quietly.
"Are you prepared for this?" Angel asked seriously.
"Yeah, I know she'll hate me, probably as much as her sister does I reckon."
"Will, you have no idea how Buffy feels about you. You've never really talked about it."
"No, she gave me the big shove off. It's over, I'll never get her back. I should have never let Dawn kiss me that night." Spike said miserably.
"No you shouldn't have."
"Thanks for the support you poof." Spike said, suddenly angry.
"Don't get pissy with me because you don't know how to handle your women." Angel said defensively.
"Yeah, you're one to talk. Let's see, you were Darla's pathetic lap dog for a couple centuries, then you drove a future nun insane. And there was Buffy, whom as soon as you got a happy you stalked her and tried to kill her. Cordelia's the most normal of the bunch and he can't get the guts up to tell her about your past." Spike replied smugly.
The two men were standing practically nose to nose by this point. Fred looked on nervously behind the desk of the lobby. She didn't like where this was heading.
"Yeah Will, you've done such a great job yourself. Talking about lap dogs, what about Dru? It was pathetic how you helped Buffy just to get your girlfriend back, which she always liked me better by the way."
"There's a good argument you stupid wanker. I helped save the world while you were trying to end it."
"Sometimes I think you're getting a little too big for you britches. Maybe I should beat you back down in them." Angel growled.
"There's a fair fight. Now you want to kick my ass, when I can't defend myself." Spike said, throwing in the last part in quietly.
"I could kick your ass a hundred years ago." Angel said.
"That's not the only thing you did with it." Spike growled back before he realized what he was saying.
"Bugger." He threw in.
Angel looked back at him guiltily. Spike was right though. Angelus had raped him over and over again when Spike would get out of line. Angel still couldn't explain why he had done it, perhaps because at the time that was the only way to curb the smaller vampire's defiance.
"Will, I'm sorry." Angel said, putting a hand on the smaller man's shoulders.
"Hey, it's no biggie. Always been everyone else's bitch, why not yours too?" Spike said lightly, not wanting Angel to let on how much he was actually hurting.
Fred just stood there, frozen. In the last few minutes she had heard enough to scar her for the rest of her life. An unpleasant mental picture popped into her head featuring the large vampire over the small one. She shuddered and decided to go into Wesley's office, anywhere had to be better than where she was at.
"You know that's not true. Dawn adores you." Angel finally said.
"Yeah, just my luck. I find this amazing woman that loves me unconditionally and it's to the point now that I get cold chills from her touching me. I just don't how to tell her."
"You just have to find the right time, Will. Honestly at this point it really doesn't matter if you do it this second or if you wait until Christmas." Angel said in earnest.
"I know. God I know, I just wish we could've been happy together." Spike said, running his hands through his hair in frustration.
Angel just smiled at his former childe sadly. He wished that there was something he could have done to have rectified the situation Spike had gotten himself into. But there was nothing that could have been done.
The two shook hands in truce and left the hotel to go pick up Julia for the weekend
"So, you going to break it off then?" Angel quietly asked his friend.
"I have to mate. It's been over a year and a half. She's all healed. She'll be fine." Spike replied just as quietly.
"Are you prepared for this?" Angel asked seriously.
"Yeah, I know she'll hate me, probably as much as her sister does I reckon."
"Will, you have no idea how Buffy feels about you. You've never really talked about it."
"No, she gave me the big shove off. It's over, I'll never get her back. I should have never let Dawn kiss me that night." Spike said miserably.
"No you shouldn't have."
"Thanks for the support you poof." Spike said, suddenly angry.
"Don't get pissy with me because you don't know how to handle your women." Angel said defensively.
"Yeah, you're one to talk. Let's see, you were Darla's pathetic lap dog for a couple centuries, then you drove a future nun insane. And there was Buffy, whom as soon as you got a happy you stalked her and tried to kill her. Cordelia's the most normal of the bunch and he can't get the guts up to tell her about your past." Spike replied smugly.
The two men were standing practically nose to nose by this point. Fred looked on nervously behind the desk of the lobby. She didn't like where this was heading.
"Yeah Will, you've done such a great job yourself. Talking about lap dogs, what about Dru? It was pathetic how you helped Buffy just to get your girlfriend back, which she always liked me better by the way."
"There's a good argument you stupid wanker. I helped save the world while you were trying to end it."
"Sometimes I think you're getting a little too big for you britches. Maybe I should beat you back down in them." Angel growled.
"There's a fair fight. Now you want to kick my ass, when I can't defend myself." Spike said, throwing in the last part in quietly.
"I could kick your ass a hundred years ago." Angel said.
"That's not the only thing you did with it." Spike growled back before he realized what he was saying.
"Bugger." He threw in.
Angel looked back at him guiltily. Spike was right though. Angelus had raped him over and over again when Spike would get out of line. Angel still couldn't explain why he had done it, perhaps because at the time that was the only way to curb the smaller vampire's defiance.
"Will, I'm sorry." Angel said, putting a hand on the smaller man's shoulders.
"Hey, it's no biggie. Always been everyone else's bitch, why not yours too?" Spike said lightly, not wanting Angel to let on how much he was actually hurting.
Fred just stood there, frozen. In the last few minutes she had heard enough to scar her for the rest of her life. An unpleasant mental picture popped into her head featuring the large vampire over the small one. She shuddered and decided to go into Wesley's office, anywhere had to be better than where she was at.
"You know that's not true. Dawn adores you." Angel finally said.
"Yeah, just my luck. I find this amazing woman that loves me unconditionally and it's to the point now that I get cold chills from her touching me. I just don't how to tell her."
"You just have to find the right time, Will. Honestly at this point it really doesn't matter if you do it this second or if you wait until Christmas." Angel said in earnest.
"I know. God I know, I just wish we could've been happy together." Spike said, running his hands through his hair in frustration.
Angel just smiled at his former childe sadly. He wished that there was something he could have done to have rectified the situation Spike had gotten himself into. But there was nothing that could have been done.
The two shook hands in truce and left the hotel to go pick up Julia for the weekend