My Godfather Sirius Black

You were the meaning of my life
You made everything worth while
Now that you're gone I'm totally lost
Still remembering you're first true smile

You can't be here when I cry
You'll never be by my side
Everything I did was totally wrong
Everything I feel cannot be denied

Sitting there on my bed
Random thoughts going through my head
Is in that moment in time and space
That the one I lost took his place

There he stood beside my bed
Exactly how I remember him in my head
He looked at me with a sad smile
Looking at me with pride while he said

I know you think it's all you're fault
Had you not cared, I'd be alive
But please remember who I am
And my tendencies to be wild

It's not your fault that I've passed on
It's not your fault you were a pawn
It's not you're fault you'd not seen the signs
The responsibility is all mine

It is true that I cannot be a ghost
It is true that I can't always be by your side
I'm by you're side more than most
But for now I'm here to say goodbye

No more tears from my eyes
Now that I now you're by my side
If only I knew all along
That there would only be a goodbye

No more tears
No more fears
No more sanity
Nothing but sanctuary

~Waiting for A Life Long Friend~