ALMOST SANE
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CHAPTER ONE
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HALF-WAY GONE
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The stars shone bright upon the shallow banks of the shore, and the deep grey nothingness deeper into the lake echoed it's reflection back to the moon. The only thing that was there was the breeze, moon, and stars. The moon was full tonight,as the calendar and weather channel had predicted, but the clouds hid the moon so it looked as if it were half-way gone. I was half-way gone. I just gazed into the sky, imagining that i was up there with the gods and angels. I wished i was up there. I am sure that there are no troubles or problems up there. I was lost in my imagination and i have lost track of the time. Should i leave? I looked down at my watch. Quarter to three in the morning. Yes, im afraid that i must go, mr. moon, fellow stars. I cannot wait to be up there with you, free.
I walked in the front door. As quiet as possible, i closed it behind me. good, i thought, nobody is awake. I walked up the stairs to my bedroom, hoping that the steps do not creak like they usually do. I reached my room, slowly opening my door. A dark room. A nice, cool breeze entered my room through an open window that i crawled out of. I walk over to shut it, and hear a rustle over by my bed. Afraid of what it might be, i freeze and stare into the darkness. I rush over and turn my small metal touch-lamp on low. And i see my foster mother's pale face staring at me.
oh boy, i think to myself. I'm in trouble now. This has got to be the worst predicament i have ever gotten myself into now...well, one that my foster parents have caught me...
" Where were you? " My foster father, Riikki walked out of the bathroom from behind me. MY bathroom.
" honey, we were worried sick..." My foster mother, Romma ran over to me and squeezed me tightly. I think im going to be sick
" Now Romma, let me handle this, i think it is best if you wait downstairs..." he says sharply and sternly. This is scaring me. Why is he telling her to leave and go downstairs?
" whatever you have to say to her, you can say in front of me..." she didn't finish because he raised his eye brow and his pointer finger towards the door.
" I SAID I CAN HANDLE IT." He raised his voice, but trying not to be too loud.
Romma left out the door and i cried inside...Please Romma, don't leave me here with this man...I said to myself inside of my head.
But as soon as she left downstairs he started.
" WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU?!" he shouted. now he was getting loud.
"I..i.." I stuttered, but i couldn't finish. The next thing i know is that i am left with a bleeding nose and laying on the floor next to my gerble cage. They are sleeping...
I crawl to my knees and i dart my eyes around the room, searching for him...i hear him talking to Romma downstairs.
" everything is fine now, i dont think she will do it again." I heard him say softly. I heard the click of their bedroom light turning off. Soon enough i heard Romma snoring and Riikki's too. I knew it was safe to move around again. I pull my pillow to my floor and flopped my head onto it, facing my window. I nevermind my bleeding and i gaze into the sky. and again...I am half-way gone.
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CHAPTER ONE
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HALF-WAY GONE
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.1.
The stars shone bright upon the shallow banks of the shore, and the deep grey nothingness deeper into the lake echoed it's reflection back to the moon. The only thing that was there was the breeze, moon, and stars. The moon was full tonight,as the calendar and weather channel had predicted, but the clouds hid the moon so it looked as if it were half-way gone. I was half-way gone. I just gazed into the sky, imagining that i was up there with the gods and angels. I wished i was up there. I am sure that there are no troubles or problems up there. I was lost in my imagination and i have lost track of the time. Should i leave? I looked down at my watch. Quarter to three in the morning. Yes, im afraid that i must go, mr. moon, fellow stars. I cannot wait to be up there with you, free.
I walked in the front door. As quiet as possible, i closed it behind me. good, i thought, nobody is awake. I walked up the stairs to my bedroom, hoping that the steps do not creak like they usually do. I reached my room, slowly opening my door. A dark room. A nice, cool breeze entered my room through an open window that i crawled out of. I walk over to shut it, and hear a rustle over by my bed. Afraid of what it might be, i freeze and stare into the darkness. I rush over and turn my small metal touch-lamp on low. And i see my foster mother's pale face staring at me.
oh boy, i think to myself. I'm in trouble now. This has got to be the worst predicament i have ever gotten myself into now...well, one that my foster parents have caught me...
" Where were you? " My foster father, Riikki walked out of the bathroom from behind me. MY bathroom.
" honey, we were worried sick..." My foster mother, Romma ran over to me and squeezed me tightly. I think im going to be sick
" Now Romma, let me handle this, i think it is best if you wait downstairs..." he says sharply and sternly. This is scaring me. Why is he telling her to leave and go downstairs?
" whatever you have to say to her, you can say in front of me..." she didn't finish because he raised his eye brow and his pointer finger towards the door.
" I SAID I CAN HANDLE IT." He raised his voice, but trying not to be too loud.
Romma left out the door and i cried inside...Please Romma, don't leave me here with this man...I said to myself inside of my head.
But as soon as she left downstairs he started.
" WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU?!" he shouted. now he was getting loud.
"I..i.." I stuttered, but i couldn't finish. The next thing i know is that i am left with a bleeding nose and laying on the floor next to my gerble cage. They are sleeping...
I crawl to my knees and i dart my eyes around the room, searching for him...i hear him talking to Romma downstairs.
" everything is fine now, i dont think she will do it again." I heard him say softly. I heard the click of their bedroom light turning off. Soon enough i heard Romma snoring and Riikki's too. I knew it was safe to move around again. I pull my pillow to my floor and flopped my head onto it, facing my window. I nevermind my bleeding and i gaze into the sky. and again...I am half-way gone.