Malik Chan: ^_^ here's the follow up fic to whisper!
Seto: Its not anther song fic is it?
Malik Chan: -.-+ NO!
Seto: Kay just making sure
Malik" If you haven't read Whisper yet GO READ IT!!! (Holds up rod)
Malik Chan: MINE! (grabs rod)
Malik: -.-;;
Seto: Get Use to it…. she's nuts…
Malik:… I...see…(Looks at rod longingly)
Malik Chan: The parting here is Malik/Yugi don't like the paring don't read it! If you flame me I well print out your flames and use them for my hamster to piddle on! ^_^
Seto: She named that rodent after me… -.-;;;
Malik: HAHAHAHAHA
Malik Chan: If I had gotten two I would have named the other after you Malik.
Malik: O.o;
Seto: ANYWAY! On with the fic already…
Somewhere I BelongChapter 1: I feel So Numb
I have that dream again…. I'm running through the desert, the sand coming up past my ankles making it hard to run…. Just what am I running from? I'm running from my Yami…Just to make this running though the desert even more fun…. I'm in the middle of a sand storm… I look behind me and there he is with that smug look on his face the soft sand seeming not a problem for him. DAMN! Nothing can go in my favor can it? I just want to leave him behind and move on…but he isn't about to give up that easy no of cores not…what made me think he would… Then as I turn around to continue my feeble attempt to run I see someone standing to no surprise to me (seeing my luck) on the furthers sand dune in my eye site and let me remind you kiddies I'm still in the sand storm. My Yami is about to grab me. Gods do not let him take me over again! I beg you please do not let him take me again! The gods seem to be on my side because just as Yami is about to grab me he disappears…. and the figure who was standing so far away is now on front of me but the sand hides their identity…With that the dream ends…I still haven't managed to see who it is…
I sat up to fast and as the result of this my head spins madly giving to the hints of the begin of a headache. I looked around the room to see just where I was and am. I'm confused when I see Yugi looking at me. Yugi read the confusion in my eyes…
"Jonouchi bring you home."
"Honda helped too!" Jonouchi threw in
Honda looked at me as if I tried to kill someone… well okay I DID try…but I didn't…. that should count for something….
"How yah feeling?" Jonouchi asked
How am I feeling? If I knew I would tell you but right now my mind is trying to comprehend every thing that's happened, and most importantly trying to find what is to happen to me now that he is gone… and is he really gone? Or will he just wait for the right moment then say, "HERE I AM YOU CAN NEVER ESPCAP ME!!!!!!!!!" I only hope that he doesn't come back.
"How can you trust him?"
How baka Honda… I'm right in front of you…
"He was manipulated by his Yami!" Yugi protests
Manipulated? It makes sense… He did use my father's death as my source of anger. This now makes me wonder if I had been able to get the millennium puzzle, what would he have done?
Yugi's attempt to justify what I did isn't going to make them trust me…No Honda and Anuz won't forgive me that easy…but why dose Jonouchi trust me? After all I've did… Most importantly why dose Yugi?
"Malik?" Jonouchi whispered
"Hmm?"
"I asked you how are you feeling?"
"Confused…"
Honda is still looking at me as if I'm going to kill everyone in the room, he doesn't seem to think that my confusion isn't real that I'm playing them like I did before…though how can I blame Honda? I don't think I would trust me ether…
Jonouchi smiled at me "everything will be okay!" Jonouchi said patting me on the back.
Honda just walks out…
"Jonouchi is right!" Yugi says with a bright smile
Well I guess the good thing now is that I'm not alone. But if I'm not alone how come it feels like I am? Maybe because I feel so numb… this is the first time in seven years that I haven't felt anger, hatred, or even revenge…. no only this empty nothingness…
Jonouchi and Yugi leave the room as I lay back to stare at the ceiling. Lost in my own thoughts but nonetheless not wanting to be alone. I don't say anything I don't think I could even get anything out if I needed to.
Normal POV:
"Yug you sure about this?" Jonouchi asked
"YES, he needs me Jonouchi! He needs to know that someone is there for him!" Yugi whispered desperately
" That's what I like about you Yug!" Jonouchi said with a smile
Malik's POV
DAMN! This dream! It never fails as soon as I fall asleep it comes to take me over… What is this dream trying to tell me? That if I really want to stay free from my Yami I have to find this person who makes him go away forever… Whatever the reason the dream always ends at the same point I never find out who it is….
Yugi's POV
Malik seems so sad…I wish there was something I could do…but with him not letting me in closer I can't do anything… I went back to try to talk to him again.
"If you need anything I'm here for you…" I whispered softly but he just lies there staring at the ceiling. So I leave again.
Malik's POV
Why do I keep doing this? All he wants to do is help me but I keep pushing him away…I need to let him help because I believe he can help make me human again…to feel again… I no longer want to be this hollow shell of a person…
He comes in again but I just pretend to be asleep. He gently touches my cheek. The warmth of his hand is almost too much for me because I can feel his love IN that touch.
"Let me in Malik…let me love you…"
Is he saying he loves me? How can he? Can I even love? Will I be able let him love me? So many questions running tough my head. I've never felt like this before…what is this I'm feeling? Is this love? All I know is that right now I don't want him to leave…I fight the impulse to fight his touch. This comes with being alone for so long, and my Yami… I want this never to end I want his touch! I want him to love me, and to teach me TO love…sleep is taking over me…NO I want to stay awake and to feel his love! But no sleep takes hold and for the first time since my Yami's death I sleep a dreamless sleep.
Yugi's POV
For once he doesn't seem to be fighting some inner demon only he can see. No he seems to be at peace for the moment…He needs to sleep… I bend over, kiss him gently on his cheek, and leave him to dreams.
Malik's POV
When I wake up I'm all alone again. I can hear the TV on in the living room but I can also hear the faint sound of rain. I look out the window at the inky darkness. What time is it? I look at the clock and its red numbers tell me its 8: 00 pm. Wow I didn't think I slept that long…
I mange to pull myself out of bed and walk to the bathroom by some miracle I find. I look at myself in the mirror. Now I can see the same lonely and confused eyes Yugi sees. I touch my cheek; yes my eyes no longer hold that deep anger that they once did… For that I'm Thankful but all that lies in my lilac eyes now is…this deep emptiness…
Walking into the living room I see him…my little angel that saved me… when he sees me he gives me that warm smile. I weakly smile back. As I sit down Yugi looks at me with surprise but I didn't pay any mind tell I sat down… I sat as close to him without sitting in his lap…DAMN! That was awkward… =-.-=; He doesn't even know I like him and I did that…I just run back to my room and lock the door, and lay down on the bed again. Taking out the CD player Jonouchi let me borough I lose myself in the music. I do this because after making an ass of myself Yugi is going to try to talk to me and frankly I just want to be by myself after that…
I'm so lost in the songs that seem to so well tell how I feel…Evanescene seems to do that to me… I've lost count of how many times I've listened to "Bring me to Life" and "Whisper" but the one that seems to lose me completely is "Fields of Innocents" now this song wasn't on the Fallen CD no Jonouchi found the song off the internet and put it to a CD for me. This is my favorite song… It just seems to call to me and just so clearly depicts how I feel…
Some how Jonouchi picks the lock to my room and lets himself in. This kinda makes me mad seeing I just wanted to be alone! But he doesn't seem to care; he then closes the door, and to my surprise locks it again!
"What happened out there?" He whispered softly
"I don't want to talk about it…" I said angrily
"You like him don't you?" Jonouchi says in that same soft tone
I just sit there lost in though. I more the simply like Yugi, fuck I love him but I just can't seem to get past my head… my heart tells me to love but hearing it now after all this time its hard to listen to it.
"Just give yourself time to heal. He'll be there for you. He's crazy about you but doesn't want to move to fast. Well I'll just leave you to your music…" Jonouchi whispered
He walks back to the door and unlocks it. "Oh and one more thing Malik…. I'm here for you too..." He said and walked out. I can hear him relocking my door. Then I just go back to my music…. I want to block everything and everyone out.
Malik Chan: Sorry for all the POV changes… -.-