Malik Chan: This fic goes back to Malik's POV and will stay that way unless noted other wise.
Seto: Are you going to do a song fic? You know you want to….
Malik Chan: I m getting there! ^. ^ This one is KINDA a song fic but not really
Seto: ….
Malik Chan: but then it dose go into a song fic at the end! ^~^
Seto: -.-;
Somewhere I BelongChapter 4 Let Me Stay
Its still raining out…. and that only makes this loneliness that much more worse. As I watch the rain the words of a song come to my mind. Yes I think I've been lessoning to Evanesces too much…
" I linger in the doorway of alarm clocks screaming monsters call my name. Let me Stay!"
Now here comes the part that rain brought up
"Where the wind will whisper to me, where the rain drops as their falling tell a story…"
"That's a pretty song…" Yugi whispered
Was I thinking out loud? Damn…
"…Um…thanks…it's a song off of the CD Jonouchi let me barrow."
"The one
his pen pal sent him?"
"Yeah…"
I keep my gaze out the window, watching the rainfall, and wonder if the rain really did tell a story. And if it did who's…. where they telling mine because the rain seems to show how I feel.
Outside the world lights up as lighting strikes across the sky in its fork like patter that makes the outside world light for a brief moment. Then fallowed by the lighting comes the thunder…I jump as a loud clap of thunder booms. I can't believe I'm this jumpy…
I feel Yugi's hand on my shoulder and relies I'm shaken badly.
"Are you aright?"
"Yeah…"
My gaze is still out the window it seems like my mind is telling me that I should why my hear tells me to turn to Yugi and tell him how I feel. My mine wins this round…only because I'm still not use to hearing my heart. Give me time heart I'll hear you soon!
With out knowing I'm doing it I sing the song out loud again.
"In my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby
Remember kiddies this is ALL in front of Yugi…He knows I've let my guard down and so he just loves this…He knows if he says anything I'll close back up…
"I lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me."
I do this sept my sky isn't purple no it's a deep crimson
"Don't say I'm out of touch with this rampant chaos-Your reality"
Funny thing reality…Like most things its all up to interruption. Like what I find reality to be is VERY different then say what Yugi thinks reality or even Jonouchi thinks to be reality.
"I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge the nightmare I build my own world to escape."
I like my little world…I'm not seen as a psychopath, I never had a Yami, I never tried to or killed anyone, and I'm with Yugi. I'm in his warm embrace and I'm happy… This part being with Yugi can become reality if I only find it within me to let him love me and become human.
"In my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby I lay inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me"
The rain is still falling and is only getting worse. The thunder booms then the lighting lights up the dark world for a brief moment then everything is dark again.
Now with the next line I'm about to sing gives little Yugi a look into my soul…
"Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear of silent nights. Oh how long for the deep sleep dreaming the goddess of imaginary light"
I say this is a look into my soul because I fear being alone and with that I fear the silence. The silence is the reminder that I'm all alone and I don't want the think about that. I stop singing and so dose the rain.
Yugi steps forward and my hear races as he lays a gentle hand on my shoulder. My heart races even faster as he speaks…
Malik…I…um…I…love…you…" Yugi whispered shakily
I go pale... I mean I knew how he felt he just never told me face to face and now that he has I don't know what to say. My heart tells me to confess my love to him as well, but its voice is still small… My mind tells me to run that I'll only get hurt… and my mind wins again…
Mind: 2 Heart: 0!
I run because I'm confused and my head is swimming I just don't know what to say… I don't know what to do!
Chapter 5: Where Has My Heart Gone?
(A/N the song use in this fic is "Fields of Innocents" by Evanescence)
** I still remember the world from the yes of a child.
Slowly those feelings were clouded by what I know now **
I stare up at the inky sky it seems to want to cry again. Yes the sky wants to cry just like I do. I want to go back to when I was young before everything happened…but then what good would that do? Everything would still play out like to the way it was meant to be written.
** Where has my heart gone?
I want to dream for the real world
Oh I, I want to go there to
Believing everything
Not knowing nothing at all **
I've often wondered what happened to my heart and lately it has begun to come back. I still run I don't want to stop because if I do I have to face everything, and running back is not what I want to do. Then what DO I want?
** I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Some how it seems colder now **
I want that warmth back. I want Yugi to hold me close. I want him to make me warm. To make this bitter cold to go away before it kills me.
** Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger!
I want go back to Believing in everything! **
This whole time Iv felt like a stranger to myself but now I've begun to feel again …and I feel normal.
** Oh I, I want to go back to believing in everything
Oh where, where as my heart gone? **
Yugi finally caught up to me and grabbed my wrest. The tears finally come and at the same time the sky cries as well.
"All I've ever wanted was to be…loved " I whispered softy the rain washing away much more then just my tears
** Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I, I want to go back to believing in everything
I still remember…**
"I need someone to help me to show me how to love because I'm afraid I've forgot how to…" I whisper
"Will you let me be the one? The one to show you how to love again?" Yugi asked
I think he knew I was crying…just some how I knew he knew I was crying…
"I want you to be. No I NEED you to be the one Yugi…I want nothing more then to simply be held in your arms and to hear you say that you love me…"
I sink to my knees sobbing. Yugi pulled me close into his warm embrace.
"It's going to be alright…" Yugi whispered in my ear
He was holding me like he did that first time. I'm so tried now…I laid my head on his shoulder. Yugi kissed my forehead softly.
"So then will you let me love you?" Yugi asked
"If you still want to…" I whispered hoarsely
He gives me his answer as he takes my chin gently in his hand then kissed my lips. Never did I believe that I could be this happy or want anthers touch as much as I did now. I wanted his touch and no others. I just wanted him. To be in his arms, to be kissed by him and to be his…I kiss him back with all my heart
The rain is still falling, as are my tears, but theses tears are no longer tears of pain but tears of joy.
"I love you Yugi," I whispered breathily
" I love you too Malik…"
Chapter 6: You Are the Life Among the Dead
Once I thought I didn't need anyone, but now I can't even being to imagine being alone. Yugi is my whole world. Never have I felt so loved and truly happy as I do now.
I've found my heart and I don't think I could have ever found it without Yugi's love. I' am very grateful for all he has done to help me. For I believe if it had not been for him I wouldn't be the person I am now or even be here. Thank you my love for everything you've done for me!
We walk home in the rain. It falls and as it doses it tells my story of pain and my rise to love. The rain also washing away the shame I felt for so long. Now I can truly be human again and most importantly I can love and be happy.
We're home now and all I want to do is sleep. I kiss my new lover goodnight, go to my room, and change out of my wet closes. I lay on the bed and almost at once fall asleep my world I've dreamed of had now come true….
I have the dream again… I'm still running though the sand in the middle of a sand storm my Yami chasseing me. I see the person on the sand dune then the person sending my Yami away and now standing in front of me. The sand begins to fall away and now I can finally see who it is who has saved me. The person is Yugi I should have known this but I needed to let myself heal before I could love but now I've healed and I've let myself love and most importantly BE loved
Malik Chan: ^~^ I hoped you liked it!
Seto: ^.^ I did!
Malik Chan; good~ Now that I have this done keep an eye out for "Unbreak My Heart" my Seto/Duo fic! Thos of you who have read it EVERYTHING will be explained in Chapters 7 and 8 ^__^ along with some twists and turns! Until next time~ R&R