I hold my breath as this life starts to take it's toll.
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds.
I was always hiding from you. You, the only one I had ever truly loved. I could never show anything for you. Though I had so many feelings for you, I never have the heart to tell you. If only you knew... hiding these emotions gets harder and harder everyday.
But Oh God I feel as if I've been lied to and lost my faith in the things I have achieved.
I keep lying to myself. Lying so I don't have to show anything but the ever- present smile that I fake. Didn't you know? Everyone has their own mask they hide behind.
And I... I've woken now to find myself in the shadows of the lie I've created.
I walk slowly to practice, watching as Kikumaru and Oishi happily make their way towards the courts ahead. They don't know, no one does. Why? I'm afraid of the shadows I've spun for myself, the shadows of lies and rejection.
I'm longing to be lost in you.
Won't you take me away from me?
You stand there as if nothing is out of place. You can't sense the battle I'm waging with myself. I feel my legs weaken as you come closer, there is a cloud of worry written on your face unnoticable to the eye not searching for it. You sense something you can't place, and I'm afraid you'll find out if you look at my eyes. The worry is replaced by your mask when I smile. My mask won't leave for just a moment, one moment to tell you how I feel.
Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins.
I look into myself but my own heart has been changed.
A disease is what I would use to describe this. This disease of doubt building a wall around my heart. My mind is drugged by it and I try to look for any traces of courage as you stand next to me, but the wall of doubt is too high now.
I can't go on like this, I know what I've become.
Lost in a dying world, I reach for something more.
I have grown so weary of this lie I live in.
No words pass through my lips, none at all. You are walking away, but you can't, you have to save me from the lie I've made for my life. But you can't possibly know how to save me unless I tell you, but no words will come.
I want you now to help find myself in the shadows of the lie I've created.
"Tezuka," the words pass my lips from a piece of broken hope I had managed to hold onto. You turn and your mask disappears, there is shock written on your face as tears stream down my face. I feel so weak and vulnerable. My heart pounds and knees shake to give out under me, sobs escape through my lying mouth.
I'm longing to be lost in you.. Away from me.
You kneel beside me, cradling me and you whisper in my ear. "I know," you say as I feel your hand on my face, wiping away my tears. You tilt my head up and lower your face until our lips meet for a brief moment. As I look into your eyes after we part, I know you have taken me away from my shadows at last.
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds.
I was always hiding from you. You, the only one I had ever truly loved. I could never show anything for you. Though I had so many feelings for you, I never have the heart to tell you. If only you knew... hiding these emotions gets harder and harder everyday.
But Oh God I feel as if I've been lied to and lost my faith in the things I have achieved.
I keep lying to myself. Lying so I don't have to show anything but the ever- present smile that I fake. Didn't you know? Everyone has their own mask they hide behind.
And I... I've woken now to find myself in the shadows of the lie I've created.
I walk slowly to practice, watching as Kikumaru and Oishi happily make their way towards the courts ahead. They don't know, no one does. Why? I'm afraid of the shadows I've spun for myself, the shadows of lies and rejection.
I'm longing to be lost in you.
Won't you take me away from me?
You stand there as if nothing is out of place. You can't sense the battle I'm waging with myself. I feel my legs weaken as you come closer, there is a cloud of worry written on your face unnoticable to the eye not searching for it. You sense something you can't place, and I'm afraid you'll find out if you look at my eyes. The worry is replaced by your mask when I smile. My mask won't leave for just a moment, one moment to tell you how I feel.
Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins.
I look into myself but my own heart has been changed.
A disease is what I would use to describe this. This disease of doubt building a wall around my heart. My mind is drugged by it and I try to look for any traces of courage as you stand next to me, but the wall of doubt is too high now.
I can't go on like this, I know what I've become.
Lost in a dying world, I reach for something more.
I have grown so weary of this lie I live in.
No words pass through my lips, none at all. You are walking away, but you can't, you have to save me from the lie I've made for my life. But you can't possibly know how to save me unless I tell you, but no words will come.
I want you now to help find myself in the shadows of the lie I've created.
"Tezuka," the words pass my lips from a piece of broken hope I had managed to hold onto. You turn and your mask disappears, there is shock written on your face as tears stream down my face. I feel so weak and vulnerable. My heart pounds and knees shake to give out under me, sobs escape through my lying mouth.
I'm longing to be lost in you.. Away from me.
You kneel beside me, cradling me and you whisper in my ear. "I know," you say as I feel your hand on my face, wiping away my tears. You tilt my head up and lower your face until our lips meet for a brief moment. As I look into your eyes after we part, I know you have taken me away from my shadows at last.