Hi, and welcome back to Chapter 2. I'm your host for this story, Sil Sil. A lot of you were wondering if the first chapter was just a one-shot, of if I was going to make a second chapter. Well, here's the second chapter for you.
Lets recap- Shesshomaru and Inuyasha got into another battle, but this time Kikyo AND Kagome were involved. Shesshomaru hurt Kagome and Inuyasha ran to her side, therefore "choosing" her over Kikyo. Shesshomaru grabbed Kikyo and was going to kill her, but she told Shesshomaru that she would rather kill herself then be killed by him. So she let loose all the stolen souls and her body was pretty much empty except foe the part of the soul she still had left over from Kagome. Not having enough power to call her soul snatchers, and Inuyasha not wanting to have to give Kikyo the remainder of Kagome's soul, she died. The soul went back into Kagome. Miroku and Sango appear after Shippo ran to fetch them. They take Kagome to the village to be healed.
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Past vs. Future: Inuyasha's love
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Chapter 2: Lost in Thought
"That should do it," the healer said whipping his hands on his legs. He stood up. "Your leg should be fully healed in about two weeks, but you should be able to stand within the next two days or so."
Kagome nodded. "Thank you."
Miroku also nodded to the healer. "Now lets talk about payment, shall we? When we arrived I sensed a dark cloud of evil..." Miroku's voice trailed off as the old man and the monk walked through the door to discuss business.
Kagome, Sango, and Shippo sweat dropped.
"He's at it again," Sango sighed.
"Yah, but at least its free food, housing, and he did fix my leg!" Kagome replied happily. Her happy wide eyes narrowed as she turned her head away. She didn't want to Sango to see that she was actually sad.
*Inuyasha...* Kagome's eyes dulled over and little sparkles of tears seeped out from the corners. *Inuyasha... where are you?*
"Kagome," Sango said softly, sensing her friend's sad figure. "Want to talk about it?"
Kagome nodded. "When Miroku comes back. I'll tell you guys everything."
Sango nodded. "Why don't you get some rest now? Dinner will be served shortly."
Kagome nodded. "Thanks Sango." She tried to smile for the older girl.
Sango only nodded. "Kirara, stay here with Kagome, ok?" Her little cat friend nodded. "Come on Shippo. Lets go see about dinner."
The kitsune nodded. He bounded to the door then turned to look at Kagome. "You're going to be alright here with Kirara, Kagome?"
Kagome nodded with a smile. "I'll be fine Shippo. I think I'm just going to rest."
"Ok. We'll be back soon then." Sango lifted the flap that was the door and the two exited.
"Well, Kirara, it's just you and me now."
Kagome reached over to pat the little demon on the head. She made her little squeaky sounds then started to purr. She laid down beside Kagome her tails wrapped around her little body. Kagome smiled and laid down to rest.
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*She loves you...like I once did.* Kikyo's words echoed through Inuyasha's head. Those were her last words.
It was getting dark. Inuyasha sat in a tree over looking the village that the others had gone to take refuge at. He could smell Kagome's scent and knew she was asleep. He no longer smelled fresh blood, which was a good sign.
*Kagome* Inuyasha folded his hands inside is Fire-rat kimono. He just starred down his clothed hands, thinking.
*Do you really love me, Kagome? Was the love Kikyo had for me also reincarnated into you?*
*If Kikyo's soul was reincarnated into Kagome, then Kagome is Kikyo, right? She looks like Kikyo, smells kinda like Kikyo, but... her attitude is not like Kikyo's* he reminded himself.
He was fighting a war in his head he wasn't sure if he could win.
*I did love Kikyo once. She was the only one who ever treated me like an equal. She wanted me to be a part of her life.*
*But she also wanted you to use the Shikon Jewel to become human* he argued. *She didn't accept you for what you were. Kagome does.*
*That's.... true.* A single statement. *She doesn't care that I'm a half demon. Kikyo... she said Kagome loves me, then does she love me as a half demon that I am?*
*Do I love Kagome? Kikyo and Kagome may look similar, but both are completely different! Kikyo was always distant and quiet. She never took things to the extreme. Kagome, on the other hand, is always cheerful and full of life. Nothing like Kikyo's was*
*And remember, Kikyo's gone for good now. Only Kagome remains.*
*Only Kagome...* Inuyasha raised his fist and slammed it against the tree, shaking the leaves off so they fell around him and to the ground.
"Damnit! Why can't I think straight!"
"Inuyasha," Miroku said walking up.
Inuyasha looked down in surprise at the monk. He didn't even sense he was coming. "What do you want?"
"To talk," Miroku stated simply.
"I don't want to talk." Inuyasha folded his hands together again and turned his head away from Miroku.
Miroku sighed. He sat down against the tree trunk and rested his staff over his legs. "If you don't wish to talk, then at least listen to what I have to say."
Inuyasha "pfft" but didn't say anything.
Miroku closed his eyes and went ahead, knowing Inuyasha would listen. "Kagome told us what happened. I'm sorry, Inuyasha." He was quiet for a few moments, then he continued. "What happened throughout Kikyo's life has been nothing but a tragedy."
Inuyasha interrupted. "Pfft... you think?"
Miroku ignored him. "It was because of Naraku that all this has happened. He planned Kikyo's death, but if she hadn't died, then Kagome would never have born as who she is today. She would never have come to this time to search for the fragments of the jewel, and you wouldn't have fallen in love with her."
Inuyasha was silent, so Miroku continued.
"It was the fault of this witch-demon that Kikyo's body was revived from clay, and also her fault that she took Kagome's soul and put it inside of Kikyo. It was because Kikyo still lived that your feelings for the both of them rose.
"You owed your life to Kikyo because her life was taken from her, but, on the other hand, she was reborn as a different person. Kikyo would have still had her life, inside of Kagome, and she would have been free to love you as Kagome, if she had never been resurrected.
"But things never work out how we want them. Kikyo lived and so did Kagome. You had to protect Kagome to get the shards. But Kikyo could also have easily helped you, but instead, you wanted Kagome to be there, and not Kikyo."
Inuyasha growled. "That's because Kikyo was trying to take me to hell with her. She should have never been reborn, she should have never been resurrected. She should have stayed dead."
"And you should have remained pinned to a tree," Miroku pointed out. "Everything happens for a reason, but we also try to fix or solve the situation to suit us better." Miroku sighed. "Inuyasha. We all know how much you care for Lady Kagome. You may try to hide it, but we still see it. Kagome on the other hand, still thinks you're in love in Kikyo, and that's all who you can ever love.
"When she told us what happened, she broke down in tears. She told us that instead of taking care of her injuries, you turned and tried to comfort Kikyo, then went a and buried her body, leaving Kagome alone. She understood that you needed to do it, but it doesn't lift the pain off her shoulders. She thinks you cared more for Kikyo then her."
Inuyasha looked down at the monk. "You mean she was crying because she thought I didn't care? Well I came back for her, didn't I?"
Miroku nodded. "She knows, and she feels bad for feeling that way. But, Inuyasha, you have to understand. Any woman would feel that way if the man they loved left them on the side of the road injured, to take care of his past love." Miroku paused. "Is any of this making since to you?"
Inuyasha nodded and glanced up at the house Kagome slept in. "Are you saying she loves me, and that's why she cried?"
Miroku nodded, then sighed. "How many times have you seen Kagome cry, or saddened, or hurt, because you did something she thought was wrong?"
Inuyasha winced. "I dunno.. a lot, I guess."
"Whenever you were with Kikyo, Kagome hurt. Whenever you got hurt in battle trying to protect her, she got hurt. You try to protect her, but in the end, she's always hurt. Maybe not physically, but mentally.
"Is she not the one that broke you out of Kikyo's spell when she tried to take you to hell with her? Is Kagome not the one that sent us all out on this journey for the shards? Does she not help you in battle? Everything Lady Kagome does is because of you. She could turn around and go home and never return. But she doesn't. She always comes back to look for the shards. To help you, Inuyasha, become the full demon that you keep telling us you want to be."
Miroku took a deep breath. He waited for Inuyasha's response.
Minutes went by without anyone saying anything. Finally, Inuyasha spoke up. "Kagome hurts because of me, because she loves me." It wasn't a question, but a statement.
Miroku nodded. "So what are you going to do about?"
Inuyasha sighed. "Mine and Kikyo's love was 50 years ago. That's past. Kagome is here and now, but also the future."
Miroku nodded again. He noticed that he had done a lot of that that evening.
"Miroku?"
The monk opened one eye and looked up at Inuyasha. "Hmm?"
"Kagome is FROM the future. Even if we wanted to be together, how could we?"
"Miroku sighed and stood up facing him. "I see only three things can come of this. It is a very delicate situation, one you will have to work out with Lady Kagome." He paused. "You, Inuyasha, after the jewel pieces are collected, can do whatever you want with the jewel. Kagome is collecting them for you, after all. You can become a full demon, or you can become human, or you can do something else.
"If you choose to become demon, who knows what will happen. Like I've said before, I think you wouldn't be able to control yourself and eventually become like Shesshomaru.
"If you choose to do something else with the jewel, then you might be able to persuade Kagome to stay here in our time with you. I don't know how well she would take that, though, seeing her family is back in her time.
"And if you do choose to use the jewel to become human, you can go to Kagome's world where there are no demons and live with her there."
Inuyasha pondered everything the monk had told him. "And.. what if she doesn't love me?"
Miroku smacked himself in the forehead. "If that is true, and me and Sango, and Kaede are wrong about her, then we will just collect the rest of the jewels and Kagome will go home to her own time."
Inuyasha nodded. He understood everything.
"It's getting late. I think I'll be heading back now. Good Night, Inuyasha."
Inuyasha nodded to the monk and Miroku walked back to the village.
Inuyasha sighed and leaned against the tree. "Kagome... I'm sorry... for always hurting you. I didn't know." A single tear slid down his cheek as he looked up at sliver of the crescent moon.
A few more days and it would be a New Moon. He would confront her then.
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Well... ? What did you guys think? I know.. no action in this one.. but a lot of things were sorted out for Inuyasha. I think he's gotten over Kikyo now, don't you?
Where is this story going?? I honestly don't know. So if you have any ideas, let me know. Otherwise I think I'll keep writing gibberish just to make the story longer.
R&R Please!!
Lets recap- Shesshomaru and Inuyasha got into another battle, but this time Kikyo AND Kagome were involved. Shesshomaru hurt Kagome and Inuyasha ran to her side, therefore "choosing" her over Kikyo. Shesshomaru grabbed Kikyo and was going to kill her, but she told Shesshomaru that she would rather kill herself then be killed by him. So she let loose all the stolen souls and her body was pretty much empty except foe the part of the soul she still had left over from Kagome. Not having enough power to call her soul snatchers, and Inuyasha not wanting to have to give Kikyo the remainder of Kagome's soul, she died. The soul went back into Kagome. Miroku and Sango appear after Shippo ran to fetch them. They take Kagome to the village to be healed.
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Past vs. Future: Inuyasha's love
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Chapter 2: Lost in Thought
"That should do it," the healer said whipping his hands on his legs. He stood up. "Your leg should be fully healed in about two weeks, but you should be able to stand within the next two days or so."
Kagome nodded. "Thank you."
Miroku also nodded to the healer. "Now lets talk about payment, shall we? When we arrived I sensed a dark cloud of evil..." Miroku's voice trailed off as the old man and the monk walked through the door to discuss business.
Kagome, Sango, and Shippo sweat dropped.
"He's at it again," Sango sighed.
"Yah, but at least its free food, housing, and he did fix my leg!" Kagome replied happily. Her happy wide eyes narrowed as she turned her head away. She didn't want to Sango to see that she was actually sad.
*Inuyasha...* Kagome's eyes dulled over and little sparkles of tears seeped out from the corners. *Inuyasha... where are you?*
"Kagome," Sango said softly, sensing her friend's sad figure. "Want to talk about it?"
Kagome nodded. "When Miroku comes back. I'll tell you guys everything."
Sango nodded. "Why don't you get some rest now? Dinner will be served shortly."
Kagome nodded. "Thanks Sango." She tried to smile for the older girl.
Sango only nodded. "Kirara, stay here with Kagome, ok?" Her little cat friend nodded. "Come on Shippo. Lets go see about dinner."
The kitsune nodded. He bounded to the door then turned to look at Kagome. "You're going to be alright here with Kirara, Kagome?"
Kagome nodded with a smile. "I'll be fine Shippo. I think I'm just going to rest."
"Ok. We'll be back soon then." Sango lifted the flap that was the door and the two exited.
"Well, Kirara, it's just you and me now."
Kagome reached over to pat the little demon on the head. She made her little squeaky sounds then started to purr. She laid down beside Kagome her tails wrapped around her little body. Kagome smiled and laid down to rest.
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*She loves you...like I once did.* Kikyo's words echoed through Inuyasha's head. Those were her last words.
It was getting dark. Inuyasha sat in a tree over looking the village that the others had gone to take refuge at. He could smell Kagome's scent and knew she was asleep. He no longer smelled fresh blood, which was a good sign.
*Kagome* Inuyasha folded his hands inside is Fire-rat kimono. He just starred down his clothed hands, thinking.
*Do you really love me, Kagome? Was the love Kikyo had for me also reincarnated into you?*
*If Kikyo's soul was reincarnated into Kagome, then Kagome is Kikyo, right? She looks like Kikyo, smells kinda like Kikyo, but... her attitude is not like Kikyo's* he reminded himself.
He was fighting a war in his head he wasn't sure if he could win.
*I did love Kikyo once. She was the only one who ever treated me like an equal. She wanted me to be a part of her life.*
*But she also wanted you to use the Shikon Jewel to become human* he argued. *She didn't accept you for what you were. Kagome does.*
*That's.... true.* A single statement. *She doesn't care that I'm a half demon. Kikyo... she said Kagome loves me, then does she love me as a half demon that I am?*
*Do I love Kagome? Kikyo and Kagome may look similar, but both are completely different! Kikyo was always distant and quiet. She never took things to the extreme. Kagome, on the other hand, is always cheerful and full of life. Nothing like Kikyo's was*
*And remember, Kikyo's gone for good now. Only Kagome remains.*
*Only Kagome...* Inuyasha raised his fist and slammed it against the tree, shaking the leaves off so they fell around him and to the ground.
"Damnit! Why can't I think straight!"
"Inuyasha," Miroku said walking up.
Inuyasha looked down in surprise at the monk. He didn't even sense he was coming. "What do you want?"
"To talk," Miroku stated simply.
"I don't want to talk." Inuyasha folded his hands together again and turned his head away from Miroku.
Miroku sighed. He sat down against the tree trunk and rested his staff over his legs. "If you don't wish to talk, then at least listen to what I have to say."
Inuyasha "pfft" but didn't say anything.
Miroku closed his eyes and went ahead, knowing Inuyasha would listen. "Kagome told us what happened. I'm sorry, Inuyasha." He was quiet for a few moments, then he continued. "What happened throughout Kikyo's life has been nothing but a tragedy."
Inuyasha interrupted. "Pfft... you think?"
Miroku ignored him. "It was because of Naraku that all this has happened. He planned Kikyo's death, but if she hadn't died, then Kagome would never have born as who she is today. She would never have come to this time to search for the fragments of the jewel, and you wouldn't have fallen in love with her."
Inuyasha was silent, so Miroku continued.
"It was the fault of this witch-demon that Kikyo's body was revived from clay, and also her fault that she took Kagome's soul and put it inside of Kikyo. It was because Kikyo still lived that your feelings for the both of them rose.
"You owed your life to Kikyo because her life was taken from her, but, on the other hand, she was reborn as a different person. Kikyo would have still had her life, inside of Kagome, and she would have been free to love you as Kagome, if she had never been resurrected.
"But things never work out how we want them. Kikyo lived and so did Kagome. You had to protect Kagome to get the shards. But Kikyo could also have easily helped you, but instead, you wanted Kagome to be there, and not Kikyo."
Inuyasha growled. "That's because Kikyo was trying to take me to hell with her. She should have never been reborn, she should have never been resurrected. She should have stayed dead."
"And you should have remained pinned to a tree," Miroku pointed out. "Everything happens for a reason, but we also try to fix or solve the situation to suit us better." Miroku sighed. "Inuyasha. We all know how much you care for Lady Kagome. You may try to hide it, but we still see it. Kagome on the other hand, still thinks you're in love in Kikyo, and that's all who you can ever love.
"When she told us what happened, she broke down in tears. She told us that instead of taking care of her injuries, you turned and tried to comfort Kikyo, then went a and buried her body, leaving Kagome alone. She understood that you needed to do it, but it doesn't lift the pain off her shoulders. She thinks you cared more for Kikyo then her."
Inuyasha looked down at the monk. "You mean she was crying because she thought I didn't care? Well I came back for her, didn't I?"
Miroku nodded. "She knows, and she feels bad for feeling that way. But, Inuyasha, you have to understand. Any woman would feel that way if the man they loved left them on the side of the road injured, to take care of his past love." Miroku paused. "Is any of this making since to you?"
Inuyasha nodded and glanced up at the house Kagome slept in. "Are you saying she loves me, and that's why she cried?"
Miroku nodded, then sighed. "How many times have you seen Kagome cry, or saddened, or hurt, because you did something she thought was wrong?"
Inuyasha winced. "I dunno.. a lot, I guess."
"Whenever you were with Kikyo, Kagome hurt. Whenever you got hurt in battle trying to protect her, she got hurt. You try to protect her, but in the end, she's always hurt. Maybe not physically, but mentally.
"Is she not the one that broke you out of Kikyo's spell when she tried to take you to hell with her? Is Kagome not the one that sent us all out on this journey for the shards? Does she not help you in battle? Everything Lady Kagome does is because of you. She could turn around and go home and never return. But she doesn't. She always comes back to look for the shards. To help you, Inuyasha, become the full demon that you keep telling us you want to be."
Miroku took a deep breath. He waited for Inuyasha's response.
Minutes went by without anyone saying anything. Finally, Inuyasha spoke up. "Kagome hurts because of me, because she loves me." It wasn't a question, but a statement.
Miroku nodded. "So what are you going to do about?"
Inuyasha sighed. "Mine and Kikyo's love was 50 years ago. That's past. Kagome is here and now, but also the future."
Miroku nodded again. He noticed that he had done a lot of that that evening.
"Miroku?"
The monk opened one eye and looked up at Inuyasha. "Hmm?"
"Kagome is FROM the future. Even if we wanted to be together, how could we?"
"Miroku sighed and stood up facing him. "I see only three things can come of this. It is a very delicate situation, one you will have to work out with Lady Kagome." He paused. "You, Inuyasha, after the jewel pieces are collected, can do whatever you want with the jewel. Kagome is collecting them for you, after all. You can become a full demon, or you can become human, or you can do something else.
"If you choose to become demon, who knows what will happen. Like I've said before, I think you wouldn't be able to control yourself and eventually become like Shesshomaru.
"If you choose to do something else with the jewel, then you might be able to persuade Kagome to stay here in our time with you. I don't know how well she would take that, though, seeing her family is back in her time.
"And if you do choose to use the jewel to become human, you can go to Kagome's world where there are no demons and live with her there."
Inuyasha pondered everything the monk had told him. "And.. what if she doesn't love me?"
Miroku smacked himself in the forehead. "If that is true, and me and Sango, and Kaede are wrong about her, then we will just collect the rest of the jewels and Kagome will go home to her own time."
Inuyasha nodded. He understood everything.
"It's getting late. I think I'll be heading back now. Good Night, Inuyasha."
Inuyasha nodded to the monk and Miroku walked back to the village.
Inuyasha sighed and leaned against the tree. "Kagome... I'm sorry... for always hurting you. I didn't know." A single tear slid down his cheek as he looked up at sliver of the crescent moon.
A few more days and it would be a New Moon. He would confront her then.
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Well... ? What did you guys think? I know.. no action in this one.. but a lot of things were sorted out for Inuyasha. I think he's gotten over Kikyo now, don't you?
Where is this story going?? I honestly don't know. So if you have any ideas, let me know. Otherwise I think I'll keep writing gibberish just to make the story longer.
R&R Please!!