~~Song is "Hold On" by Sarah McLachlan
*Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell.*
As soon as Brian entered Michael's apartment he was greeted with kisses from Michael. God, he'd miss this.
"Michael, can we please talk."
"Yeah sure." Michael answered happily "What's the problem?"
Brian sat next to Michael on the couch.
"Michael, I really....fuck I really didn't think this would be so hard."
"Just tell me what's going on"
"I can't do this, I can't sit here and tell you I don't want to be with you, when that's all I want" Brian choked out.
"Is that it Brian, you were going to tell me we should end this?"
"Yes, I know you don't understand, shit I hardly understand myself."
"Then why?" Michael asked
*Hold on
Hold on to yourself.
You know that only time can tell*
what is it in me that refuses to believe
this isn't easier than the real thing.*
"Because, I want it to end with us having been happy. I don't want it to end with me hurting you"
"You won't Brian. You said you wouldn't"
"I know Mikey, I know, please believe me when I say this is the most terrible thing I've ever had to do in my life"
"Brian, please don't do this."
"I have nothing to give you Michael, except maybe some pain later on"
*My love
you know that you're my best friend.
You know that I'd do anything for you
and my love
let nothing come between us
my love for you is strong and true.*
"Do you love me?"
Brian moved closer and took Michael's face in his hands.
"I will never love anyone like I love you. You know that. I know that, and I will die knowing that."
He kissed Michael. It was a bittersweet kiss filled with love and goodbye.
*Am I in heaven here or
am I...
At the crossroads I am standing.*
Ending the kiss Brian stood up. He looked away from Michael who was crying. He couldn't bear to see him cry.
"I will always be waiting for you, you know that right." Brian nodded "I love you, Brian"
*So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow
and will see another day
and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
across your face.*
Brian walked out the door leaving Michael alone.
Michael lay back and tried to forget him as soon as possible. The tears flowed as Michael thought of Brian. How he always loved to wake up before him so he could see him so peaceful, gleaming in the sunlight.
*Oh god
if you're out there won't you hear me.
I know we're never talked before*
Maybe it was a joke, a sick, cruel, horrible joke.
Michael laughed at the patheticness of that notion.
*and oh god
the man I love is leaving
won't you take him when he comes to your door.*
He would just have to accept the fact that Brian was gone. And try not to cry every time he thought back to when.
*So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow
and we will see another day
and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
across your face*
Brian was doing just as bad. He couldn't stop the tears, and he couldn't stop whispering 'I love you' to someone who wasn't there.
He'd have to be strong and get through this
*Hold on
hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell.*
Maybe if he could actually sleep things would be better.
TBC..............
*Hold on
Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell.*
As soon as Brian entered Michael's apartment he was greeted with kisses from Michael. God, he'd miss this.
"Michael, can we please talk."
"Yeah sure." Michael answered happily "What's the problem?"
Brian sat next to Michael on the couch.
"Michael, I really....fuck I really didn't think this would be so hard."
"Just tell me what's going on"
"I can't do this, I can't sit here and tell you I don't want to be with you, when that's all I want" Brian choked out.
"Is that it Brian, you were going to tell me we should end this?"
"Yes, I know you don't understand, shit I hardly understand myself."
"Then why?" Michael asked
*Hold on
Hold on to yourself.
You know that only time can tell*
what is it in me that refuses to believe
this isn't easier than the real thing.*
"Because, I want it to end with us having been happy. I don't want it to end with me hurting you"
"You won't Brian. You said you wouldn't"
"I know Mikey, I know, please believe me when I say this is the most terrible thing I've ever had to do in my life"
"Brian, please don't do this."
"I have nothing to give you Michael, except maybe some pain later on"
*My love
you know that you're my best friend.
You know that I'd do anything for you
and my love
let nothing come between us
my love for you is strong and true.*
"Do you love me?"
Brian moved closer and took Michael's face in his hands.
"I will never love anyone like I love you. You know that. I know that, and I will die knowing that."
He kissed Michael. It was a bittersweet kiss filled with love and goodbye.
*Am I in heaven here or
am I...
At the crossroads I am standing.*
Ending the kiss Brian stood up. He looked away from Michael who was crying. He couldn't bear to see him cry.
"I will always be waiting for you, you know that right." Brian nodded "I love you, Brian"
*So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow
and will see another day
and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
across your face.*
Brian walked out the door leaving Michael alone.
Michael lay back and tried to forget him as soon as possible. The tears flowed as Michael thought of Brian. How he always loved to wake up before him so he could see him so peaceful, gleaming in the sunlight.
*Oh god
if you're out there won't you hear me.
I know we're never talked before*
Maybe it was a joke, a sick, cruel, horrible joke.
Michael laughed at the patheticness of that notion.
*and oh god
the man I love is leaving
won't you take him when he comes to your door.*
He would just have to accept the fact that Brian was gone. And try not to cry every time he thought back to when.
*So now you're sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray
that you'll be strong tomorrow
and we will see another day
and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile
across your face*
Brian was doing just as bad. He couldn't stop the tears, and he couldn't stop whispering 'I love you' to someone who wasn't there.
He'd have to be strong and get through this
*Hold on
hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell.*
Maybe if he could actually sleep things would be better.
TBC..............