June 2 - 10, 1971
Dear Diary, June 2, 1971
Today is my first day at home. Yesterday was terrible and it would have been worse if James hadn't been there. Yesterday I lost my sister forever. First of all she was not at all pleased to see me when I arrived, and then I went upstairs to my bedroom and she had completely trashed it. I was so angry that I am afraid of what James thinks of me now, he's never seen me that infuriated. Well I want Petunia to clean my room but she refuses to. I spoke to Mum, but she did not console me. She only defended Petunia by insisting that she is just a bit jealous of me, is having a tough time in Algebra, and just broke up with her boyfriend Kevin. Well I say that's just too bad for her. She didn't have to take it out on me.
James helped me organize my room, it was embarrassing because he saw some of my underclothes. James did not say anything though. James also told me that I should be upset about what Petunia did, because she was only being an immature brat. I agree completely.
Last night I had a nightmare. It was about the evil wizard Voldemort murdering my family, and then placing the fatal curse on me the second before I woke up. I was crying for a couple of minutes when James heard me and wanted to know what was wrong. He held me for a couple of minutes, and told me not to worry about Voldemort killing anyone in my family. My crying eventually subsided but the dream has left a lasting mark of fear in my life. James felt guilty because it was his idea to take me to see Hagrid the day I was nearly attacked by a Death Eater. I told him that it was not his fault, but he refused to listen. I hate it when he is angry at himself for doing nothing. I told him so, and he hugged me tightly to him, telling me that I am the best friend he's ever had, and ever will have. I was so happy, and overall my summer vacation has come off to a good start.
Lils
Dear Diary, June 10, 1971
James is leaving today. I am sad because I will be away from him and all of my close friends, for more than two months. I can hardly wait until school starts up again. Anise will be pleased to see me, and I her. She has written to me nearly everyday since our last day of school. She is incredibly annoyed with her brother Remus right now because he hasn't told his friends James and Sirius his big secret. Anise told me yesterday that Remus is a werewolf. I do hope James will still be friends with him, because it is not Remus' fault. I hope he doesn't pity him either, because I know Remus. He won't want pity, he'll want social acceptance.
In an hour James will be leaving. I wish he could stay here for the entire summer. We would have so much fun. Oh no I am already beginning to cry, I hope James doesn't see me, he made me promise that I would not get all depressed when he left. I am incapable of keeping some promises, clearly. Oh well, at least he can be sure that I am not pleased to see him go. Now James will be coming in soon to finish packing his suitcase, I will have to leave the room when he does so, because I couldn't bear watching him prepare to leave.
LATER:
I did stay and watch James pack, except I also helped him, which wasn't quite as painful as just sitting there looking on. James chided me for crying over him, because my eyes were bright red when he returned to my room. James hates it when I cry, because he says it makes him feel miserable as well. When he said that I laughed and cheered up a bit while we tried to shove all of his belongings into one tiny bag.
James is gone now and I am all alone, sitting in my room, desperately trying to the think of something to do, other than write in this journal. Not that that is dull or anything, it just doesn't make me feel any better about being away from all of my friends for two months. Well I will write a little bit more about one happy thing that happened today. When James' car pulled up in our driveway I began to cry again, and James kissed me quickly. I hope when we are older we can be a couple.
Sincerely, Lils
Dear Diary, June 2, 1971
Today is my first day at home. Yesterday was terrible and it would have been worse if James hadn't been there. Yesterday I lost my sister forever. First of all she was not at all pleased to see me when I arrived, and then I went upstairs to my bedroom and she had completely trashed it. I was so angry that I am afraid of what James thinks of me now, he's never seen me that infuriated. Well I want Petunia to clean my room but she refuses to. I spoke to Mum, but she did not console me. She only defended Petunia by insisting that she is just a bit jealous of me, is having a tough time in Algebra, and just broke up with her boyfriend Kevin. Well I say that's just too bad for her. She didn't have to take it out on me.
James helped me organize my room, it was embarrassing because he saw some of my underclothes. James did not say anything though. James also told me that I should be upset about what Petunia did, because she was only being an immature brat. I agree completely.
Last night I had a nightmare. It was about the evil wizard Voldemort murdering my family, and then placing the fatal curse on me the second before I woke up. I was crying for a couple of minutes when James heard me and wanted to know what was wrong. He held me for a couple of minutes, and told me not to worry about Voldemort killing anyone in my family. My crying eventually subsided but the dream has left a lasting mark of fear in my life. James felt guilty because it was his idea to take me to see Hagrid the day I was nearly attacked by a Death Eater. I told him that it was not his fault, but he refused to listen. I hate it when he is angry at himself for doing nothing. I told him so, and he hugged me tightly to him, telling me that I am the best friend he's ever had, and ever will have. I was so happy, and overall my summer vacation has come off to a good start.
Lils
Dear Diary, June 10, 1971
James is leaving today. I am sad because I will be away from him and all of my close friends, for more than two months. I can hardly wait until school starts up again. Anise will be pleased to see me, and I her. She has written to me nearly everyday since our last day of school. She is incredibly annoyed with her brother Remus right now because he hasn't told his friends James and Sirius his big secret. Anise told me yesterday that Remus is a werewolf. I do hope James will still be friends with him, because it is not Remus' fault. I hope he doesn't pity him either, because I know Remus. He won't want pity, he'll want social acceptance.
In an hour James will be leaving. I wish he could stay here for the entire summer. We would have so much fun. Oh no I am already beginning to cry, I hope James doesn't see me, he made me promise that I would not get all depressed when he left. I am incapable of keeping some promises, clearly. Oh well, at least he can be sure that I am not pleased to see him go. Now James will be coming in soon to finish packing his suitcase, I will have to leave the room when he does so, because I couldn't bear watching him prepare to leave.
LATER:
I did stay and watch James pack, except I also helped him, which wasn't quite as painful as just sitting there looking on. James chided me for crying over him, because my eyes were bright red when he returned to my room. James hates it when I cry, because he says it makes him feel miserable as well. When he said that I laughed and cheered up a bit while we tried to shove all of his belongings into one tiny bag.
James is gone now and I am all alone, sitting in my room, desperately trying to the think of something to do, other than write in this journal. Not that that is dull or anything, it just doesn't make me feel any better about being away from all of my friends for two months. Well I will write a little bit more about one happy thing that happened today. When James' car pulled up in our driveway I began to cry again, and James kissed me quickly. I hope when we are older we can be a couple.
Sincerely, Lils