THE FIRST YULE BALL (December 25, 1974)
Dear Diary,
I have not written in a couple of years. Well not anything truly important. Just everyday magic, and stories about me lusting after James. James and I have obviously matured a lot in the past 3 years. I am now thirteen, and James turned fourteen about a month ago. I still fancy James, but I must keep it at a minimal level, for he is dating Mattie, Sirius' sister. Mattie is very sweet, so I am not rude to her in my jealousy. James is still adorable, and he flirts with me everyday. James is a rather flirtatious guy, and it has caused many girls to dump him in the past. Fortunately for him, Mattie understands and accepts his rather annoying nature. The worst part is James flirts with me a lot, and it makes me all giddy, and I feel like I am revealing to the world that I would gladly take Mattie's place any day.
Tonight will be my first Yule Ball at Hogwarts. You must be a 5th year student to attend for the first time. I am very anxious to arrive, and I do hope James will dance with me at least once, to save me from the embarrassment of being seen without a date. You see I am rather shy around most boys so they ignore me, and no one asked me to accompany them to the ball. Of course it would be much too frightening for me to ask them. I am wearing an emerald green gown that Anise insists makes me look "drop dead gorgeous". Personally I don't think that is possible. Well I need to get ready for the ball, I will write more later.
LATER: James flirted with me atrociously tonight. It was terrible, because Mattie began to be annoyed with me, and I was completely embarrassed. James certainly knows how to make me reveal that I am languishing after him. When the first slow song began to play, I was looking longingly at him as he approached Mattie. I remember his last comment to me. He said teasingly, "Jealous Lils?" before he escorted her to the dance floor. I blushed scarlet, and I hated James for it.
Later, James felt bad for me being all alone, so he asked me to dance once. The band was playing one of my favorite songs but I barely noticed, because I was so close to James. His arms around me made me feel young, and alive, and I nearly forgot that we were "just" friends. And he kept on grinning at me with that old lopsided grin which has never ceased to make my heart skip a beat. And his eyes, they are indescribably arousing. I felt like they were penetrating my soul, and I felt like I was revealing my innermost secrets to him, without thought or embarrassment, as his blue depths gazed into my own eyes. After the song ended and James returned to Mattie, I began to feel extremely envious of her, and I had to restrain myself from glaring in her direction. I wish James couldn't make me feel this way. If he didn't we could just go on being friends, nothing would stand in our way.
Lils
Dear Diary, December 26, 1974
I had a nightmare last night. It was this recurring one about Voldemort killing my family, and I wake up just as he is in the process of finishing me off. I woke up screaming, and all of the girls tried to calm me down, but they knew that only James would be of any help. Before they could send for him he was there beside me, holding me close, murmuring words of reassurement. I cried in his arms for a couple of minutes, then James drew the curtains around my bed to give us privacy. Then James told me not to worry about Voldemort, and he charmed my pillow with an anti - nightmare spell which he had been working on for years. I recall James yawning, and I begged him to go back to sleep, as it was the wee hours of the morning, but James insisted on waiting until I fell asleep. I was still a bit shaken from my dream, and was clinging to his shoulders when I realized that his face was barely a hairs length from mine. I felt his breath warming my mouth, and then his lips brushing against mine. Suddenly I felt this new sensation that I had never felt before. It made my heart beat uncontrollably, and I held back a moan. I longed to deepen the kiss, but I knew I could not reveal to James how I truly felt about him. Thus I pulled away before the temptation to kiss him senseless overpowered my mind. James looked at me, and muttered "sorry about that, just wanted to make sure you were okay." Then he flashed me his killer grin and I felt myself go weak. "Goodnight James," I gasped, with my eyes I pleaded him to go before I grew even weaker, and lost all control over my raging hormones.
Lils
Dear Diary,
I have not written in a couple of years. Well not anything truly important. Just everyday magic, and stories about me lusting after James. James and I have obviously matured a lot in the past 3 years. I am now thirteen, and James turned fourteen about a month ago. I still fancy James, but I must keep it at a minimal level, for he is dating Mattie, Sirius' sister. Mattie is very sweet, so I am not rude to her in my jealousy. James is still adorable, and he flirts with me everyday. James is a rather flirtatious guy, and it has caused many girls to dump him in the past. Fortunately for him, Mattie understands and accepts his rather annoying nature. The worst part is James flirts with me a lot, and it makes me all giddy, and I feel like I am revealing to the world that I would gladly take Mattie's place any day.
Tonight will be my first Yule Ball at Hogwarts. You must be a 5th year student to attend for the first time. I am very anxious to arrive, and I do hope James will dance with me at least once, to save me from the embarrassment of being seen without a date. You see I am rather shy around most boys so they ignore me, and no one asked me to accompany them to the ball. Of course it would be much too frightening for me to ask them. I am wearing an emerald green gown that Anise insists makes me look "drop dead gorgeous". Personally I don't think that is possible. Well I need to get ready for the ball, I will write more later.
LATER: James flirted with me atrociously tonight. It was terrible, because Mattie began to be annoyed with me, and I was completely embarrassed. James certainly knows how to make me reveal that I am languishing after him. When the first slow song began to play, I was looking longingly at him as he approached Mattie. I remember his last comment to me. He said teasingly, "Jealous Lils?" before he escorted her to the dance floor. I blushed scarlet, and I hated James for it.
Later, James felt bad for me being all alone, so he asked me to dance once. The band was playing one of my favorite songs but I barely noticed, because I was so close to James. His arms around me made me feel young, and alive, and I nearly forgot that we were "just" friends. And he kept on grinning at me with that old lopsided grin which has never ceased to make my heart skip a beat. And his eyes, they are indescribably arousing. I felt like they were penetrating my soul, and I felt like I was revealing my innermost secrets to him, without thought or embarrassment, as his blue depths gazed into my own eyes. After the song ended and James returned to Mattie, I began to feel extremely envious of her, and I had to restrain myself from glaring in her direction. I wish James couldn't make me feel this way. If he didn't we could just go on being friends, nothing would stand in our way.
Lils
Dear Diary, December 26, 1974
I had a nightmare last night. It was this recurring one about Voldemort killing my family, and I wake up just as he is in the process of finishing me off. I woke up screaming, and all of the girls tried to calm me down, but they knew that only James would be of any help. Before they could send for him he was there beside me, holding me close, murmuring words of reassurement. I cried in his arms for a couple of minutes, then James drew the curtains around my bed to give us privacy. Then James told me not to worry about Voldemort, and he charmed my pillow with an anti - nightmare spell which he had been working on for years. I recall James yawning, and I begged him to go back to sleep, as it was the wee hours of the morning, but James insisted on waiting until I fell asleep. I was still a bit shaken from my dream, and was clinging to his shoulders when I realized that his face was barely a hairs length from mine. I felt his breath warming my mouth, and then his lips brushing against mine. Suddenly I felt this new sensation that I had never felt before. It made my heart beat uncontrollably, and I held back a moan. I longed to deepen the kiss, but I knew I could not reveal to James how I truly felt about him. Thus I pulled away before the temptation to kiss him senseless overpowered my mind. James looked at me, and muttered "sorry about that, just wanted to make sure you were okay." Then he flashed me his killer grin and I felt myself go weak. "Goodnight James," I gasped, with my eyes I pleaded him to go before I grew even weaker, and lost all control over my raging hormones.
Lils