A/N: HUZAH! I finished another chapter! And only within a few days too! So go ahead and read. I know I already got a couple reviews that were telling me to write more after the first chapter. Hope this is somewhat enjoyable considering the not so cheerful content of it.
Randomness of the Moraco: JAMES IS SUCH A MAN WHORE!
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Hard to Explain
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Chapter 2
Discussions
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In the Headmaster's office the three boys, Black, Potter, and Snape, sat in three chairs placed in front of the Headmaster's desk while Dumbledore took his own seat behind the desk giving the them an indescribable look. It was not one of anger or one of his usual cheerfulness. "It has come to my attention from Mr. Snape, that you Mr. Black tried to kill him, though Mr. Potter here saved his life as it sounds even though those are not his exact words," the Headmaster spoke.
"It was merely a prank, Headmaster," Sirius said. "I wasn't trying to kill him, just scare him."
"If I am understanding you correctly, Mr. Black, you were trying to scare Mr. Snape at the expense of exposing one of your best friends?"
"Um- "
"Oh I'm sure the werewolf was in on it to. All of them and their little clique always trying to make my life miserable," Severus said.
"Leave Remus out of this! He didn't know a thing about it and neither did I," James shouted.
"This is between you and me Snape, leave everyone else out of it." Sirius sneered at the pale faced greasy haired boy sitting in the chair next to him, while restraining himself from pounding ever ounce of guts out of Snape.
"Boys settle down!" The three boys looked at Dumbledore who looked very displeased. "I have heard the story and I will be questioning Mr. Lupin about this incident later. You are all very lucky that none of you are being expelled, especially for as many rules as you have broken. 100 points each will be taken from your houses. Explanation will be being out on school grounds after hours if anyone is to ask. Mr. Black and Mr. Potter I respect that the two of you will not share the secret your friend holds, and Mr. Snape if I hear any talk about Remus Lupin being a werewolf from anyone and it comes back to you, I will see personally that Slytherin house loose all points it has and that you are expelled from Hogwarts."
James and Sirius exchanged glances and Severus sunk down into the chair in which he was sitting paler than he had ever been.
"Now go about your business for the rest of the day as if nothing has happened," Dumbledore told them as he motioned for them to leave the office.
Once outside Dumbledore's office Snape scuttled off leaving James and Sirius in the corridor alone.
"Sirius Black I can't believe you," James said with an angry hushed voice.
"What?"
"It was you! You told Snape! It's your fault the whole thing happened! How could you do that to us?! Better yet, how could you do that to Remus?!"
"I-"
"You didn't think? Is that it?" James grabbed Sirius by the shirt collar and shoved him into the wall. "He loves you! We all thought you loved him to."
"I do," Sirius said.
James backed away so angry that he began to cry. He couldn't think of anything else to say. He ran off in the direction of Gryffindor Tower.
Sirius sank down to his against the wall and pulled his knees to his chest and began to cry himself. *How did I do it?* he thought. *Stupid, stupid me! How could I not think? That stupid git had just made me so angry I-…. Oh god, how will Remus ever forgive me?* Sirius sat and cried with these thoughts swimming in his head. He sat and cried for a good hour and then finally headed back to Gryffindor Tower.
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Saturday passed and it was now Sunday. James and Sirius had not spoken a word to each other since after their punishment in Dumbledore's office and James had told Peter so Peter was no longer talking to Sirius either.
Lily sat down in the common room reading a book when Remus walked through the portrait hole, back from visiting his sick mother (or so Lily thought). She put down her book and walked over and gave him a hug.
"Why thank you Lily," Remus said. "What have I done to deserve that?"
"You're back," she replied. "And just in time too. Sirius and James aren't talking to each other and Peter's not talking to Sirius either. They won't tell me why but I know with you back it'll all get sorted out and be back to normal."
"I'm happy you have such confidence in me Lily, but I don't even know the problem nor do I know if I, of all people, would be able to fix it," he replied.
"You could at least try. They're like brothers, and I hate to see them fighting like this," she told him.
"Then I will try nothing but my very best," Remus smiled. He headed up the stairs to the dormitory which he shared with his fellow marauders. "Hello," he said entering.
"Welcome back Mooney," Peter said.
"Good to have you back with us," James said.
Remus then looked at Sirius bed, in which the curtains had been drawn. "Is he in there?"
"I wouldn't know," James replied. "I've completely blocked him and his entire existence out of my mind."
Remus frowned at James' response. He then walked over to Sirius' bed and pulled one of the curtains back to look inside in which he saw Sirius sleeping, but it wasn't like usual. Sirius was scrunched up in a ball and his eyes were red. It looked as though he had been crying. Remus' face saddened at the sight. He got into Sirius' bed and lied down behind his boyfriend, wrapping his arms around his waist and burring his face in Sirius' neck
The contact startled Sirius awake. He turned over to face Remus, who he immediately kissed.
"Well, hello to you too." Remus smiled.
Sirius eyes welled up with tears and he began to cry again and turned back over facing away from Remus.
"Siri, what's wrong?"
"Nothing," Sirius replied.
"You're Sirius Black. You don't just out of the blue cry about nothing. Now tell me what' wrong?"
Sirius just sniffled and did not reply.
"Is it something James did? Something I did?"
Sirius shook his head. "It's all my fault," he said
"What? What's all your fault?"
"I'm not ready to tell you," Sirius replied.
"Okay then," Remus said. "I'll leave you to it then. And when you're ready to tell me, please tell me. Don't keep something that's got you in such anguish a secret from me forever." Remus gave Sirius a kiss on the cheek and then left Sirius' bed for his own.
Remus sat on his bed and sighed. He got up from his bed and went over to Peter's on which Peter was doing his homework. "Why is Sirius crying?"
"Probably because we're not talking to him and would quite prefer not to even mention him right now," Peter replied.
Remus was taken aback by this. They were, all four of them, the best of friends and to have a wall of ignorance build around one of them was unheard of amongst the marauders. He then went over to James. He didn't ask him anything, he just looked at him.
"Something you need Moony?"
"I'm sorry," Remus said.
"For what?"
"I gave you quite a bit of a scratch didn't I?"
"Oh that," James said. "Don't worry about it."
"I never saw you come to the infirmary to have it treated," Remus said.
"That's because I didn't go to the infirmary to have it treated. There's no way I'm going to try and explain something like that to Pomefrey," James replied.
"So you haven't done anything to it?"
"No. It was scabbed over by morning so I just left it." Remus reached down and poked James in the side where he had scratched him. "Ow!" James jumped back in his bed, putting his hand over the spot that had been poked. "What was that for?"
"It only hurts so much because you probably got it infected," Remus explained. "I think I've got something that will help." Remus went back over to his own bed and opened his trunk and began fumbling through it. He finally pulled out a small tin box. He then got up and proceeded back over to James' bed.
Sirius got up from his curtained shelter of a bed and began walking toward the dormitory door. "I'm going to go take a bath," he said. Then he left without another word as Peter and James scowled at him and Remus looked with a simply worried expression.
"I was wondering when he'd finally get up and leave," Peter said.
"Why's that Pete?" James asked.
"I was only sticking around here to make him feel worse. I need to go down to the library and look a few things up so I can finish this paper I'm working on," Peter explained. He then got up from his bed gathering his homework papers and placing them in his bag and then left the dormitory for the library.
"Hmmm, sometimes Peter really does think like a Rat," James commented.
Remus opened up his small tin box to reveal a few bottles, some gauze, cotton balls, bandages, and various other first aid type things. He grabbed one of the bottles and a few cotton balls. "I need you to take your shirt off," he told James.
"Okay," he replied. James removed his shirt.
Remus looked at the marks he had left on his friend. "You know, you're very lucky I didn't bite you. Something like this is one of the reasons I never wanted all of you to be there with me."
"But it helps a lot to have us around doesn't it?"
Remus smiled and looked at his friend. "That's one of the reasons I'm happy you guys never listen to me."
They both sat and laughed for a few moments.
Remus soaked a cotton ball in the liquid that he had a the bottle of in his hand and began stroking it across James' wounds. James' face scrunched up in pain. "I know it hurts," Remus told him, "but trust me, you'll feel a lot better in the morning."
"Okay I believe you."
"So, what exactly did Sirius do that's got you and Peter so angry at him?"
"Do you really want to know?"
"Of course I want know," Remus said. "I mean, I think I have a right to know why I come in to find my boyfriend has cried himself to sleep and my other two best friends are mad at him."
"I know you have a right to know and I guess if he were going to tell you himself what he did, he would have already done it," James said. "You remember that Snape was there? At the shack?"
Remus nodded as he finished up with the first part of James' treatment.
"Someone told Snape to come. Someone who didn't like the thought of you consorting with Snape, even as partners in potions class. Someone who was a bit jealous I'd say. Someone told Snape to come to the Shrieking shack and how to get there if he wanted to find out what you really were," James said. He was looking at Remus with a very intense expression, that nearly took over the expressions of pain from what Remus had just finished doing.
Remus looked up at James with a most pleading look in his eyes, knowing who he thought James was hinting at, but he didn't want to believe it. "Not- not…" Remus stammered.
"Sirius," James said.
Remus continued with what he'd been doing, putting away the bottle he had held and getting some gauze and bandages.
"But- but he wouldn't!"
"Remus," he said to the boy who was kneeling on the floor bandaging him, "I wouldn't lie to you. Not about something as severe as this. I don't even think I'd lie to you about anything. You're one of my best mates."
Remus finished with James' bandage and closed his tin box and stood up to take it back to his trunk, beginning to cry. Remus placed the box back into his trunk and then sat down on his bed, still crying.
James got up from his own bed and went over to Remus' and sat down next to the boy.
"How? How could he?" Remus' amount of tears doubled.
James pulled Remus to him, giving the boy a shoulder to cry on. "It's okay Remus. Let it all out. Everything is going to be okay," James said trying to comfort his friend. He then gave him a small kiss on the forehead.
Remus turned his head up looking at James, their faces only inches apart. He leaned up and pressed his lips to those of James.
* I can play along with this,* James thought. * If this'll make him feel better, he sure does need it* James leaned into the kiss and it seemed to him that Remus was starting to calm down a bit.
The dormitory door closed as silently as it had opened only mere seconds before. Sirius leaned against the wall and then sank to the floor pulling his knees to his chest crying more than he had the night before.
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A/N: Oh boy, that was a rather dramatic/angsty chapter wasn't it? I never thought I could write stuff like that. Oh well I guess that's where having a bad day gets you. I was writing most of this chapter on a very bad day. I don't know what I had done to make the powers that be angry but it sure must have been a something and most of this is a product from that such day. Hopefully I will have some brighter days…..as a comment to my earlier randomness, okay James isn't that much of a man whore…I just like to say that cause he's going round kissing with boys again…actually the whole man whore comment comes from what I thought when I was looking at an HP doujinshi (Japanese fan comic) I bought off of ebay in which from what I can tell James likes Severus, and Sirius is madly in love with Remus, but James kisses Sirius for a reason that I can't figure out cause I can't read Japanese, and I was talking on the phone with my friend when I was looking through it and I said all of a sudden out of the blue "James is such a man whore!"…I had a bit of explaining to do to my friend on the other end of the phone….ha ha ha, I think I'm gonna use that as one of my favourite phrases from now on…oh well that's all for now so please give that little button down there a click and let me know what's going through your brain about this whole fic so far.