A/N:  OY, soooo sorry it took me sooo long to finally get this chapter up.  I apologize greatly to any fans of the story I actually have.  The thing was is that I've been writing this solely on my computer, but my computer got really messed up for a while and I wasn't able to use it and I'd completely forgotten what I'd already written of this chapter so I could like out of the blue write it over again since I'd forgotten what I'd wrote, so I waited till I finally got my computer fully fixed so that I could finish writing this chapter and here it finally is… so sorry to all who've been waiting for me to update.  I love you are and am dearly sorry, please forgive me.

Randomness of the Moraco:  Too much sugar and caffeine is both a good thing and a bad thing

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Hard To Explain

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Chapter 9

All Things Said

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            "Yes?"  Lily asked.

            "I really shouldn't be the one to tell you," James said.  "Sorry I even brought it up."  He got up from the couch and went up the stairs to the dormitory where Remus and Sirius both were.  The both looked at him as entered.  "Remus, I think there's something I need to talk to you about," he said.

            Remus stood from the bed where he was sitting.  "What is it, Prongs?"

            "It's about Lily."

            "Lily.  Did something happen to her?  What's wrong?"

            "You kissed her Remus," James said.

            "What?" Remus and Sirius both chorused.

            "That's what happened before she knocked you out Remus."

            Remus looked down at his feet attempting to recover his memory from what was going on before Lily knocked him unconscious.  He then looked up at James and shrugged his shoulders.  "I have no idea what you're talking about."

            "She said that it didn't seem as though you were under the influence of anything.  She said that it was like you were reverting to some sort of primitive frame of mind," James explained.

            "Sounds like nonsense to me," Sirius said.

            "No," Remus whispered.

            Sirius, who was still sitting looked up at Remus, who looked as though he were about to cry a river.  "Remie, what is it?  What's wrong?"

            "Not again," Remus whispered.  He sunk down to sit on his bed and tears came running down his face.

            "What are you talking about?"  James sat down on the bed beside him.

            "Sometimes,' Remus began to explain, "when my emotions are at a mix between anger and sadness,  I don't know exactly what happens.  I can never remember quite what I do.  Sort of like, when I transform into a wolf, I can never remember what happens because in my mind, I'm sad about what happens to me, and angry at whatever spiritual being decided to curse me and my life with lycanthropy."

            "Remie."  Sirius took Remus into his arms.

            "Remus, I think you should tell Lilly,' James said.

            "James he can't," Sirius said.  "The less people that know the better, and you know that.  Besides Lilly's a girl.  Girls gossip."

            "Lilly wouldn't tell everyone if that's what you're insinuating," James said through clenched teeth.  James of course was a little offended that his best friend would say that about his girlfriend.

            "How can you be so sure?"

            "She won't," Remus whispered.  "I know she won't.  She's like a sister to me.  I'm a little ashamed of myself that I haven't told her before." Remus looked up at Sirius.  "She needs to know.  I've kept it from her for too long."

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            A few weeks passed and Remus finally once again asked Lily if he could talk to her alone.  He told her the whole story about the lycanthropy and how he didn't know about what happened and that he kissed her.  She took it surprisingly well.

            "I knew something was different about you," Lily said.

            "Oh how lovely, I'm different."

            "I didn't mean it like that.  I find it to be an interesting experience, being the friend of a werewolf.  I wouldn't trade you for all the friends in the world Remus."  Lily gave Remus a big hug.

            "Thank you Lily."  He returned the hug and when they broke it he held her hands and smiled.  He felt a something on her finger.  *Lily doesn't wear rings.*  He looked down at her left finger which bared a silver ring encrusted with heart shaped diamonds.  "Lily?" He asked insinuating the ring.

            "Oh," she said.  "James asked me to marry him."

            Remus smiled.

            "After we both get out of school of course, but I can't believe it.  I'm going to marry the man I love."

            "I'm so happy for you Lily.  Sirius and I were wondering when he'd finally ask you.  He's had the ring for months," Remus told her.

            "Well, I'm happy you told me what you've been keeping from me."

            "I'm happy I told you too.  I feel so much better having to keep it from one less person, who's okay with it."  Remus smiled.

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A/N:  It's really weird writing on this story some more because I'd nearly forgotten where I was going with it and am still fully trying to remember but I've accomplished some stuff I'd planned to get done in it so that's a big yay.  Hope you guys are enjoying it so far and I'm still super sorry it took me so long to finally update.  Please drop me some reviews and let me know what all of you think because I love reviews and I cherish all of my dear reviewers. I love you all.