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Title: Nan de o?
Author: EC-Chan
Chapter Title: Musings
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Disclaimer: This is like McDonald's tea cups- you'd think that when you order HOT tea it'd be self explanatory that it was hot, but I guess it's not cuz they hafta write 'Caution hot' around the top. I mean it's pretty obvious that there's no way I could be Akira Toriyama isn't it? Do I hafta actually say so?
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I let myself into my apartment, trying to contain my tears for just a few seconds longer. It wasn't like me to cry. I never cried! I mean the last time I think I even shed a tear was when I was fourteen and that was only to get my dad to do something! The last time I Ireally/I cried was..well when I broke up with Saun.
Perhaps because that's the first time (and the last for a very long while) that I ever Bhave/B loved someone. After him I simply stopped myself from feeling anything towards men- I go through the motions to keep up appearance. Kami knows all I am is appearances.
Until I met him.. Well met isn't actually the word I should use. I knew him when I was younger, when I was fifteen. But at that time he was so involved with Paresu, and with everything going on I wasn't paying much, if any, attention to him. Besides being annoyed by the fact that he let Pan go up into space.
It was last year when we met again- my mother had thrown a "reunion" party, her mind going back to a different era where she wasn't anywhere near her prime. All of her adventures with Gokou, whom Bura tried so hard not to remember.
That bastard had created such a whole in what had been a close-knit group of family and friends that after he disappeared everyone eventually split ways. I haven't talked to Pan at all in the last ten years! And I had actually found that girl interesting at the time, though I'm not really about to openly admit it. At least that was before today, I frowned furiously at the floor, blinking back newly sprung tears.
But the reunion had been surprisingly boring. Most of the people there were a couple generations older then me and Pan was..well different. Even Marron, whom I vaguely remember from before and had looked up to her, was different- she was too involved in shamelessly flirting with my brother then to talk to pay anyone else mind. Pan..I didn't really see her much and had decided that she was much like my father..
When it came down to it I was so bored that I picked the only guy that looked about my age out (there were some other guys there, because Trunks had invited some work people over under my mother's insistence), and it just so happened that he was the hottest guy in the room. He was kind to me, nervous obviously. I thought it was endearing. He was endearing.
While Marron and my brother made out on the other side of the room, he refused to touch me. He was so sweet. By the end of the night we knew everything about each but our names. It seems weird, but we were so comfortable with each other that we just simply forgot about that part. Or at least he had and I was so used to not caring that when I did, I was taken by surprise.
That's what interested me about him- he took me completely by surprise. I thought I had myself figured out. I thought that I would hide forever, and then he comes along and let's me out.. I frowned, slowly placing my bag down on the table, still deep in thought.
Our relationship was an awkward start- I was relearning love and he was..well he said he was getting over Paresu.. I never question him on that explanation, though I have a feeling there's a lot more to that story. But then there's a lot more to all stories. I think I might have been in denial at the time, trying to tell myself that I wasn't just a rebound girlfriend.. That he actually did love me. And up until now he has done nothing to shake that belief.
"Bura? You home?" He appeared in the hallway, staring at me questioningly. I smiled and nodded. "I thought you were going to be out all night- I made dinner."
I turned to see that yes indeed the oven was on, and frowned at it. Why would he think that? Oh yeah I had wanted to eat at mom and..dad's. Though I guess I can't really call it that. I continued to smile at him. "Yeah..I decided not to."
"Bura..what's wrong?" He asked, suddenly incredibly concerned.
"Nothing.." I started to say, the slight swishing of fabric alerting me of his approach. I looked up at him with a sigh. "Everything."
"Tell me what happened," He said gently, wrapping one of his arms around me and using the other to gently stroke my cheek.
"It's.." I nervously licked my lips. "I..I found them in the gravity room. He was..they were.. Goten.."
"Who?" His question was consoling even though it was one she didn't want to hear at the moment. I frowned, looking away, but he gently lifted my face back up with his light touch. "Who Bura? Who was there?"
"Pan," I sighed, knowing that this would be an extremely hard thing for him to hear. I had gone there with the purpose of telling him about me and Goten. I went there, determined to tell my father about me and Goten. And although I hadn't told Goten the purpose of my visit, he knew I had something important to say to them. But to..find him like that! And with that girl of all people! "I walked in on her and my dad..Goten.. she's a year younger then me and she's screwing my father!"
"She..Pan would never do that?" He shock his head in disbelief, letting me go.
I stepped back, suddenly extremely upset. "I didn't think she would either but that doesn't change anything! She was! And to think that I had gone there to beg him to accept you!"
"You were?" He asked, a large pleased smile suddenly appearing on his face.
"Yes!" I frowned at him. Kami he has a very short attention span. Did he just not get the disturbing level of that scene?
"B-Chan," He whined. "I would have gone with you if you told me."
"Which is why I didn't tell you," I rolled my eyes at him. "My dad would kill you as it is- it wouldn't help if you were in a ten mile radius. You're so.. impossible!"
Goten blinked. "What? Why?"
"Do you know how disturbing it would be for me to walk in on my dad with Ianyone/I but my mom, let alone BPan/B?" I asked him, waving my arms around in a halfway attempt to explain. I pounded my head into his chest. "And you just go on to the next conversation as if everything's peachy. My dad's having a fucking affair!"
"With Pan," Goten added, blinking at me.
"You're not helping," I warned him.
"I'm sorry," He said, trying to calm me down. "It's just I can't.. visualize it. Pan and Vegeta? How could that work? Pan's just a little girl."
"Watch it," I frowned. "She's only a year younger then me."
"But that's different," He frowned. "You're so mature.. Panny's," he laughed, "Just Panny!"
"You've spent way too much time around her to judge that," I frowned at him. "Think about it- if we grew up really close then we'd probably never have gotten together. You'd've thought that I was just a little kid, too."
"No! Never," Goten shook his head vehemently and I couldn't help but laugh. He was just so damn cute! "You know I'll always love you B-Chan- now and forever."
"Yeah?" I said, smiling at him. "Well I'll always love you more then."
He smirked, opening his arms and I entered them quickly, resting my head against his chest. If only I could stay like this forever..shielded from the world by his powerful gripe. I felt him rest his head on mine and could barely hear him whisper, "Just leave what happened between Vegeta and Pan to me. I'll deal with it tomorrow."
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OI;;; I'm really tired when I wrote this so I don't know if I'm making much sense right now -.-; There'll only be like a chapter or two more. Just needed to get this idea down. ^^;
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Title: Nan de o?
Author: EC-Chan
Chapter Title: Musings
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Disclaimer: This is like McDonald's tea cups- you'd think that when you order HOT tea it'd be self explanatory that it was hot, but I guess it's not cuz they hafta write 'Caution hot' around the top. I mean it's pretty obvious that there's no way I could be Akira Toriyama isn't it? Do I hafta actually say so?
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I let myself into my apartment, trying to contain my tears for just a few seconds longer. It wasn't like me to cry. I never cried! I mean the last time I think I even shed a tear was when I was fourteen and that was only to get my dad to do something! The last time I Ireally/I cried was..well when I broke up with Saun.
Perhaps because that's the first time (and the last for a very long while) that I ever Bhave/B loved someone. After him I simply stopped myself from feeling anything towards men- I go through the motions to keep up appearance. Kami knows all I am is appearances.
Until I met him.. Well met isn't actually the word I should use. I knew him when I was younger, when I was fifteen. But at that time he was so involved with Paresu, and with everything going on I wasn't paying much, if any, attention to him. Besides being annoyed by the fact that he let Pan go up into space.
It was last year when we met again- my mother had thrown a "reunion" party, her mind going back to a different era where she wasn't anywhere near her prime. All of her adventures with Gokou, whom Bura tried so hard not to remember.
That bastard had created such a whole in what had been a close-knit group of family and friends that after he disappeared everyone eventually split ways. I haven't talked to Pan at all in the last ten years! And I had actually found that girl interesting at the time, though I'm not really about to openly admit it. At least that was before today, I frowned furiously at the floor, blinking back newly sprung tears.
But the reunion had been surprisingly boring. Most of the people there were a couple generations older then me and Pan was..well different. Even Marron, whom I vaguely remember from before and had looked up to her, was different- she was too involved in shamelessly flirting with my brother then to talk to pay anyone else mind. Pan..I didn't really see her much and had decided that she was much like my father..
When it came down to it I was so bored that I picked the only guy that looked about my age out (there were some other guys there, because Trunks had invited some work people over under my mother's insistence), and it just so happened that he was the hottest guy in the room. He was kind to me, nervous obviously. I thought it was endearing. He was endearing.
While Marron and my brother made out on the other side of the room, he refused to touch me. He was so sweet. By the end of the night we knew everything about each but our names. It seems weird, but we were so comfortable with each other that we just simply forgot about that part. Or at least he had and I was so used to not caring that when I did, I was taken by surprise.
That's what interested me about him- he took me completely by surprise. I thought I had myself figured out. I thought that I would hide forever, and then he comes along and let's me out.. I frowned, slowly placing my bag down on the table, still deep in thought.
Our relationship was an awkward start- I was relearning love and he was..well he said he was getting over Paresu.. I never question him on that explanation, though I have a feeling there's a lot more to that story. But then there's a lot more to all stories. I think I might have been in denial at the time, trying to tell myself that I wasn't just a rebound girlfriend.. That he actually did love me. And up until now he has done nothing to shake that belief.
"Bura? You home?" He appeared in the hallway, staring at me questioningly. I smiled and nodded. "I thought you were going to be out all night- I made dinner."
I turned to see that yes indeed the oven was on, and frowned at it. Why would he think that? Oh yeah I had wanted to eat at mom and..dad's. Though I guess I can't really call it that. I continued to smile at him. "Yeah..I decided not to."
"Bura..what's wrong?" He asked, suddenly incredibly concerned.
"Nothing.." I started to say, the slight swishing of fabric alerting me of his approach. I looked up at him with a sigh. "Everything."
"Tell me what happened," He said gently, wrapping one of his arms around me and using the other to gently stroke my cheek.
"It's.." I nervously licked my lips. "I..I found them in the gravity room. He was..they were.. Goten.."
"Who?" His question was consoling even though it was one she didn't want to hear at the moment. I frowned, looking away, but he gently lifted my face back up with his light touch. "Who Bura? Who was there?"
"Pan," I sighed, knowing that this would be an extremely hard thing for him to hear. I had gone there with the purpose of telling him about me and Goten. I went there, determined to tell my father about me and Goten. And although I hadn't told Goten the purpose of my visit, he knew I had something important to say to them. But to..find him like that! And with that girl of all people! "I walked in on her and my dad..Goten.. she's a year younger then me and she's screwing my father!"
"She..Pan would never do that?" He shock his head in disbelief, letting me go.
I stepped back, suddenly extremely upset. "I didn't think she would either but that doesn't change anything! She was! And to think that I had gone there to beg him to accept you!"
"You were?" He asked, a large pleased smile suddenly appearing on his face.
"Yes!" I frowned at him. Kami he has a very short attention span. Did he just not get the disturbing level of that scene?
"B-Chan," He whined. "I would have gone with you if you told me."
"Which is why I didn't tell you," I rolled my eyes at him. "My dad would kill you as it is- it wouldn't help if you were in a ten mile radius. You're so.. impossible!"
Goten blinked. "What? Why?"
"Do you know how disturbing it would be for me to walk in on my dad with Ianyone/I but my mom, let alone BPan/B?" I asked him, waving my arms around in a halfway attempt to explain. I pounded my head into his chest. "And you just go on to the next conversation as if everything's peachy. My dad's having a fucking affair!"
"With Pan," Goten added, blinking at me.
"You're not helping," I warned him.
"I'm sorry," He said, trying to calm me down. "It's just I can't.. visualize it. Pan and Vegeta? How could that work? Pan's just a little girl."
"Watch it," I frowned. "She's only a year younger then me."
"But that's different," He frowned. "You're so mature.. Panny's," he laughed, "Just Panny!"
"You've spent way too much time around her to judge that," I frowned at him. "Think about it- if we grew up really close then we'd probably never have gotten together. You'd've thought that I was just a little kid, too."
"No! Never," Goten shook his head vehemently and I couldn't help but laugh. He was just so damn cute! "You know I'll always love you B-Chan- now and forever."
"Yeah?" I said, smiling at him. "Well I'll always love you more then."
He smirked, opening his arms and I entered them quickly, resting my head against his chest. If only I could stay like this forever..shielded from the world by his powerful gripe. I felt him rest his head on mine and could barely hear him whisper, "Just leave what happened between Vegeta and Pan to me. I'll deal with it tomorrow."
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OI;;; I'm really tired when I wrote this so I don't know if I'm making much sense right now -.-; There'll only be like a chapter or two more. Just needed to get this idea down. ^^;
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