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Title: Nan de o?
Author: EC-Chan
Chapter Title: Comfort
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Disclaimer: This is like McDonald's tea cups- you'd think that when you order HOT tea it'd be self explanatory that it was hot, but I guess it's not cuz they hafta write 'Caution hot' around the top. I mean it's pretty obvious that there's no way I could be Akira Toriyama isn't it? Do I hafta actually say so?
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AN: This is going to be more chappies then I expected;; I'm not very good at judging these things and I thought that I would write longer chappies but since I'm not..it's going to be a few more chappies (not that that's a bad thing..right?;;;;; *looks hopeful*) Sorry for the long wait too;;; damn research paper that I won't have finished for more then another month )(
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The front door was unlocked when I finally made my stumbling way to it. I didn't care- I was too busy trying to reach asylum. Tears had been long since coursing down my face, and I slammed the door roughly behind me, leaning back on it. I couldn't go any further..it was too hard.
I felt myself crumble to the floor in an uncontrolled fashion. Only Goten was here- only Goten would see me. It just showed how much I trusted him, allowing him to see my weak battered soul. But in the same manner I didn't want him to come anywhere near me- I didn't want his comfort at the moment. I didn't deserve it.
I was behaving like a child. A sulky revolting child who had been chastised for doing something wrong..and I had. I had no right to talk to my father that way- I had not right to tell him what to do. He had only reminded me of that. This is what I told myself as I tried to regain control of myself, but on a very deep level I knew that this was no it at all. My father had been out of line. He had no right to say something like that to me.
He knew how much it would hurt me- even if it is true. And I suppose that it must be since he had said it and he seemed to have wanted to have said it for a long time. To think that I had gone to him trying to get him to accept Goten! He didn't care. The only reason why he would would be because of Kakkarott's bloodline. But beyond that what I did meant nothing to him. And now that he renounced me..
I couldn't help it- suddenly new tears sprang into my eyes. I was weak and he had just proven it. He had a right to be disgusted with me- to hate me..be annoyed with me. I had done nothing to prove myself worthy to him, because I was completely worthless. I didn't deserve Goten.
Footsteps and a gentle head pressed soothingly on my back slowly brought me back to reality. It wasn't Goten's hand. Slowly I looked up, reluctant to show my tear streaked face, but even more reluctant not to. Even in my weakened state I would stare at whoever had dared to come near me boldly- my pride would allow no less.
"I'm..sorry."
It was her.
I stood up abruptly, quickly wiping away the evidence tears as best as possible, my eyes freezing over. My suddenly icy expression made the girl pause momentarily, sizing me up and then she sighed.
"You don't even know the situation and yet you judge me without thought," Pan frowned.
"I walked in on you and my father fucking," I stated blankly. "I think that gives me every reason to "judge" you."
"No it doesn't," Pan frowned. "You could at least listen to our reasons."
"I went there today to see what he had to say about it," I smirked at her, not really knowing why she was admitting this. "I think my answer was clear enough. 'Stay out of me and the Onna's way. Both of them," She mimicked. "And the fact that you're randomly here in MY apartment doesn't really help with THAT aspect."
"He SAID that?" She was seriously shocked.
"What- you think it was too nice?" I raised an eyebrow. "I suppose you LIKE it when he whispers things like that into your ear when he's on top of you."
Pan stared at me in aghast, "He..Bura..this is all just one big misunderstanding!"
"How can it be?" I bit out. "I saw you with my own eyes- and it was pretty damn obvious!"
"It was just a couple time thing!"
I stared at her. "Are you fucking insane? How does that make it any more RIGHT whether you fuck him one time or fifty? Get the hell out of my house!"
"It was the moon."
"RIIIIIIIIIGHT."
"You don't understand," Pan said, looking at the ground, blushing profusely. "He..was my first."
"Oh dear Dende!" I feinted a shock tone. "Little Panny's finally grown up!"
"This isn't going as I wanted it to."
"Did you think I would seriously make this easy on you?" I raised an eyebrow. "You had no right to come here."
"I have a right to see my uncle," She replied stoically.
"I have a right to not have my family disrupted by the likes of YOU!" I shouted at her and left her standing in the doorway this time, stalking towards my room. I slammed the door, locking it, and flung myself on my bed. I didn't want to be bothered with this crap ever again.
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Princess M-Chan: LOL- "but if he really feels that way *shrugs*". Thanks for reviewing both chappies ^^; Sorry for the long wait.
Pan-Chan: I'm glad you likes ^^; I dun know how Bura is in GT, but from what I read online (since I can't get any of the damn episodes to work )( ) this is what I came up with;;; I'm probably completely wrong but I like her this way (too;)..
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Title: Nan de o?
Author: EC-Chan
Chapter Title: Comfort
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Disclaimer: This is like McDonald's tea cups- you'd think that when you order HOT tea it'd be self explanatory that it was hot, but I guess it's not cuz they hafta write 'Caution hot' around the top. I mean it's pretty obvious that there's no way I could be Akira Toriyama isn't it? Do I hafta actually say so?
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AN: This is going to be more chappies then I expected;; I'm not very good at judging these things and I thought that I would write longer chappies but since I'm not..it's going to be a few more chappies (not that that's a bad thing..right?;;;;; *looks hopeful*) Sorry for the long wait too;;; damn research paper that I won't have finished for more then another month )(
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The front door was unlocked when I finally made my stumbling way to it. I didn't care- I was too busy trying to reach asylum. Tears had been long since coursing down my face, and I slammed the door roughly behind me, leaning back on it. I couldn't go any further..it was too hard.
I felt myself crumble to the floor in an uncontrolled fashion. Only Goten was here- only Goten would see me. It just showed how much I trusted him, allowing him to see my weak battered soul. But in the same manner I didn't want him to come anywhere near me- I didn't want his comfort at the moment. I didn't deserve it.
I was behaving like a child. A sulky revolting child who had been chastised for doing something wrong..and I had. I had no right to talk to my father that way- I had not right to tell him what to do. He had only reminded me of that. This is what I told myself as I tried to regain control of myself, but on a very deep level I knew that this was no it at all. My father had been out of line. He had no right to say something like that to me.
He knew how much it would hurt me- even if it is true. And I suppose that it must be since he had said it and he seemed to have wanted to have said it for a long time. To think that I had gone to him trying to get him to accept Goten! He didn't care. The only reason why he would would be because of Kakkarott's bloodline. But beyond that what I did meant nothing to him. And now that he renounced me..
I couldn't help it- suddenly new tears sprang into my eyes. I was weak and he had just proven it. He had a right to be disgusted with me- to hate me..be annoyed with me. I had done nothing to prove myself worthy to him, because I was completely worthless. I didn't deserve Goten.
Footsteps and a gentle head pressed soothingly on my back slowly brought me back to reality. It wasn't Goten's hand. Slowly I looked up, reluctant to show my tear streaked face, but even more reluctant not to. Even in my weakened state I would stare at whoever had dared to come near me boldly- my pride would allow no less.
"I'm..sorry."
It was her.
I stood up abruptly, quickly wiping away the evidence tears as best as possible, my eyes freezing over. My suddenly icy expression made the girl pause momentarily, sizing me up and then she sighed.
"You don't even know the situation and yet you judge me without thought," Pan frowned.
"I walked in on you and my father fucking," I stated blankly. "I think that gives me every reason to "judge" you."
"No it doesn't," Pan frowned. "You could at least listen to our reasons."
"I went there today to see what he had to say about it," I smirked at her, not really knowing why she was admitting this. "I think my answer was clear enough. 'Stay out of me and the Onna's way. Both of them," She mimicked. "And the fact that you're randomly here in MY apartment doesn't really help with THAT aspect."
"He SAID that?" She was seriously shocked.
"What- you think it was too nice?" I raised an eyebrow. "I suppose you LIKE it when he whispers things like that into your ear when he's on top of you."
Pan stared at me in aghast, "He..Bura..this is all just one big misunderstanding!"
"How can it be?" I bit out. "I saw you with my own eyes- and it was pretty damn obvious!"
"It was just a couple time thing!"
I stared at her. "Are you fucking insane? How does that make it any more RIGHT whether you fuck him one time or fifty? Get the hell out of my house!"
"It was the moon."
"RIIIIIIIIIGHT."
"You don't understand," Pan said, looking at the ground, blushing profusely. "He..was my first."
"Oh dear Dende!" I feinted a shock tone. "Little Panny's finally grown up!"
"This isn't going as I wanted it to."
"Did you think I would seriously make this easy on you?" I raised an eyebrow. "You had no right to come here."
"I have a right to see my uncle," She replied stoically.
"I have a right to not have my family disrupted by the likes of YOU!" I shouted at her and left her standing in the doorway this time, stalking towards my room. I slammed the door, locking it, and flung myself on my bed. I didn't want to be bothered with this crap ever again.
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Princess M-Chan: LOL- "but if he really feels that way *shrugs*". Thanks for reviewing both chappies ^^; Sorry for the long wait.
Pan-Chan: I'm glad you likes ^^; I dun know how Bura is in GT, but from what I read online (since I can't get any of the damn episodes to work )( ) this is what I came up with;;; I'm probably completely wrong but I like her this way (too;)..
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