Heres chapter 2!! Thanks for all the nice reviews guys ^^
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Jimmy held Cindy's lifeless body in his arms. He squeezed her tightly and couldn't stop crying, he cried and cried and cried.
And then all of a sudden he awoke in a cold sweat. He sat up in his bed. He was having that dream again. The one that came back to haunt him every night, well, every night since the accident at least. Actually, it wasn't a dream, it was a nightmare. Jimmy was wide awake. He looked over to his clock which read "3:04" in big digital, lime green, blinking numbers, gleaming through the darkness of his room. He put his head in his hands and touched his face, he realized he was really crying, he let the tears stream down his face. He got out of bed and walked downstairs to the kitchen, Jimmy opened the fridge door and got out the only thing he considered "help" when he had this dream, this problem, this memory. The horrible memory that his nightmare beheld. That night, the worst night of his life, was replayed again and again and again in his sleep, haunting his unconcious mind. He slowly trudged over to the table with a six pack in his hands. He slunk down in the seat and popped open the first can, drinking it quickly and then opening another. Jimmy continued this until he was finishing his fifth one and became drowsy. He sluggishly walked over to the fridge again and put what was left of the six pack back inside. He made his way back up the stairs and to his room where he quietly cried himself to sleep.
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At 6:00 AM
Jimmy looked over to his beeping clock. His slammed his fist down on the top of it to get it to stop making the infernal noise. He grogely opened his eyes all the way. He didn't want to get up. He didn't want to go to school or get ready. But despite what he wanted in about ten minutes he stood up from his bed and walked over to his dresser to get a pair of clothes. But before he knelt down to open the little cabinet he stopped when he saw his reflection in his vanity mirror. He looked disgusted at himself, if anybody else had looked they would have seen a young seventeen year old boy, with bedhead hair, slightly tired, in the midst of a beginning hangover, with an unusual scar near his left eye, but instead Jimmy saw a monster. He took his attention off what he was looking at and grabbed an outfit. He made his way to the bathroom and got ready. After he had showered and gotten ready he made he way down the stairs to the kitchen.
He could smell breakfast cooking , the smell filled the entire house making it seem warm and cheery.
Judy: "Good morning, sweetheart" his angelic mother said with a big smile on her face as she saw her son enter the room she placed a big plate of scrambled eggs in front of his seat at the table.
Jimmy just looked at his mother without expression. No smile, no frown, just a blank expression. He sat in his eat and started eating, he decided to pour himself a glass of milk, but then started drinking it out of the carton.
Judy: "Honey, please say something"
Jimmy: "What do you want me to say?" he said still not seeming happy, his voice hinted annoyance
Judy: "Jimmy, you know what I mean." "You've barely said anything since...well..you know"
Jimmy bayed her no response and she just let out a sigh. After that Jimmy went from solem to rage filled and stood up in his chair, he stood up quickly making the room spin because of the "few" drinks he had that night.
Jimmy: "What is it mom?!" "What is it!?" "Hmmmmm?!" "What do you want me to do?!" "Huh?!"."I mean I can't concentrate!..I can't think strait!.All I can think about is the acci.." Jimmy started to choke on the word "accident", because of the sensitivity of the subject, but he regained his confidance and struggled to finish his statement. "Is the accident!" "Mrs.Vortex won't even look me in the face anymore!" "I...I.just don't know what to do,..I...I...wish.it where me."
Judy got angry when he son said that. She walked over to him and pushed him down so he was sitting in the chair again.
Judy: "I never want to hear you say that again!" "Don't you dare" "Ever, is that clear James?" "You should be happy and grateful that you are okay!" "It was not your fault, I know that, the Vortex's know that, your father does, Jimmy just try to not think about it, try to move on, you can't live your life this way, I just want you to be happy dear"
Jimmy's eyes began to water but he refused to cry in front of his mother again, instead of tears came more anger to his mothers surprise, more than before.
Jimmy: "Be happy? He said slightly confused "You want me.to be...happy?" then he got an angry tone again as he stood up from his chair and started to shout. "I CAN'T be happy!!" "I can't!.and I won't ever be!!" "Ever!!" "I mean, who do you think you are telling me to go off and "be happy"?!" "HUH!?"
Judy stood shocked at her sons tone
Judy: "Jimmy, don't you ever talk to me that way again" she said giving him a look "The Vortex's are happy you are okay honey!" she said becoming a little more sympathetic. "It was not you fault" "Did you hear me?" she said making sure they were making eye contact. "It was not you fault" she said slowly
Jimmy's wide blue eyes that were looking at hers narrowed and his voice became cold
Jimmy: "You just don't understand mom" "And you NEVER will" he got up from the table and grabbed his things and left out the backdoor slamming it when he turned away, without so much as a goodbye.
He walked around the house to the front of the yard, he looked across the street and saw Rhonda Vortex heading to her car. By chance she happened to look up and see him, Jimmy attempted to smile at Cindy's mom, but before he even could crack his lip, she quickly looked away from him and fastly opened her car and got in. Jimmy looked to the ground sadly and just started the long walk to Retroville High. It was a cold morning, the air was nippy and Jimmy could see his breath. It had been months since that early warm summer night, when the accident had happened. He would have loved to have his car right now, even if the heater where broken at least he would have been inside something, but after the accident the damage done to Jimmy's already dilapidated car was not worth paying to fix. And he couldn't afford anything new.
Eventually Jimmy made it to the entrance to the school, relieved he could exit the cold, he started up the steps, but before he could reach the top he was stopped by two familiar voices calling after him.
Sheen: "Jimmy! Yo Jimmy!" "Wait up man!" Sheen yelled as he jogged up to get to Jimmy's side
Carl: "Hey, Wait for me Sheen!" he said as he trudged up to them both
Sheen: "You look cold Jimmy"
Carl: "No, I think Jimmy is nice Sheen"
Sheen: "I meant, he looked like he was feeling cold"
Carl: "Oh.Well, Jim, you know I'll drive you to school if you want, I mean, all you have to do is call"
Jimmy: "Thanks Carl...it's just.well..I.I just felt like walking today"
Carl: "Whatever"
All three of them entered the big doors that lead to the lobby of Retroville High School they departed in three different directions walking to their lockers.
Jimmy walked to the hall that lead left, he walked by everybody who was busy talking with friends, finishing homework and getting things from their locker, but when he came to the bend in the hallway where he would have turned right he saw Nick and his gang. He started to walk faster hoping that they wouldn't see him. But sure enough, just when he thought he passed them, Nick shouted out to him.
Nick: "Hey look guys, there goes the murderer"
Jimmy stopped in his tracks and turned around
Jimmy: "I am not a murderer Nick." He said as he turned around to face Nick and his posse
Nick: "What do you mean your not?..."he said as he made his way through the guys around him up to Jimmy, Nick hadn't changed much over the years, except his purple lollipop had changed to a cigarette.
Jimmy: "I am not, and you know it"
Nick: "I don't think so Nerdtron, did you ask Cindy's permission to kill her?" "Because unless you did, then you are a murderer in my book"
Jimmy simply stood there.
All of Nicks gang started yelling things out to Jimmy like "Hows it feel to kill your own girlfriend?" and "Isn't it nice to know you completely ended someone's life?" Jimmy tried his best to ignore them but the comments pierced their way to Jimmy's heart.
Nick: "So tell me Neutron, What where Cindy's last words...right before she died?" he said trying to make Jimmy uncomfortable as his gang watched and laughed.
Nick: "What'd look like?" "Huh?" he said quickly, making Jimmy feel awkward.
Nick: "Why arn't you answering me?" "I surprised the guilt hasn't eaten away at you yet" "You know...the guilt of knowing that you murdered somebody" "She was a beautiful girl too Neutron"
Jimmy's heart started beating fast, he was breathing heavy, he closed his eyes he could still remember that night.
*FLASHBACK*
Paramedic: "Wait, is.is his head bleeding!?" "It is!" "Quickly, get him over here!"
The paramedics grabbed Jimmy away from holding Cindy and dragged him over . He was still crying.
Paramedic: "Lay him down! Hurry!" she got out a sterile patch and wiped his skin around were his eye was bleeding
Jimmy: "OWWWW!!!!" he yelled as the cringing stinging pain seeped into his head, he reached up to pull her hand off but was stopped by ambulance assistants holding his arms down.
The paramedics brought Jimmy into the amblance and cleaned him up, then they stitched his deep gash on the side of his left eye. The cut went from the end of his eyebrow and then lowered and kind of circled the outer edge of his left eye, like a cresent. Hours later Jimmy awoke, he got up and walked out of the ambulance. He walked over to the scene of the accident. It was about 4 in the morning. It was still very dark out. Jimmy held his face where they stitched him, it throbbed with pain. Jimmy looked over and saw a news crew and news castors making reports he overheard one of them.
Reporter: "Hello, I'm Sarah Hughes and this is action news, we are here at the scene of an accident that happened at about 10:00 last night, were two teenagers were victims to the pouring rain and darkness. Evidence shows that Cindy Vortex was out on a date with her boyfriend and the driver of the vehicle James Neutron. It is said here that they hit a stalled car then bounced off the road hitting a tree and then toppling over and landing on this boulder. Sadly only one of the two teens survived."
Jimmy was hit with a reality check, "he was alive standing, alive, and if only one of the two teens survived and I'm alive than that means that Cindy must be." his thoughts trailed off as he started to cry as he kneeled on the muddy wet ground and put his head down.
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Jimmy stood silent as Nick taunted him, and tried to stop his memories from creeping up on him.
Nick: "Ya know Nerdtorn, All the girls around here should be careful, unless they want to die too, just make sure next time you get a girlfriend she's someone ugly, so when shes gone, no one'll miss her!" Nick and his gang then started to laugh "You deserverd that scar too, now everyone that sees you will know you're a lunatic." He and his friends started to laugh again.
Nick: "Why are you even here?."then he paused briefly "I thought murderers where supposed to go to jail" he added with a sneer.
That was it. After Nick said that Jimmy just wanted to punch him right in the face, and he would have if Sheen didn't see what was happening and run over to stop him.
Sheen ran up behind Jimmy and grabbed his arm from behind. Jimmy's arm was tense and was being pulled back like he was just about to punch. Jimmy was a little bit surprised when he felt Sheen's hand holding back his arm. He turned to see his friends concerned face looking at him.
Sheen: "Don't do it man" he said quietly as he was facing Jimmy
Jimmy looked at Sheen and sighed
Jimmy: "Your right, violence won't solve anything"
Jimmy started to turn around
Sheen: "That's what I wanna hear buddy" he said while he turned with Jimmy and put his arm around jimmy's shoulder in a friendly way.
Sheen had really been a great guy since what happened with the accident. He was always there for Jimmy, whenever he needed to talk. He was always trying to make him laugh, or feel better. Even when he had something else to do, he would hang out with Jimmy instead because he knew that he needed it.
Nick: "Walking away Neutron!?" "You gonna cry?!" he yelled after them as he and Sheen were walking the other way, he gang all started to laugh again.
Jimmy clencthed his fists and went to turn around, but before he knew it Sheen had turned around quicker and was already facing them. He was clearly a little pissed off.
Sheen: "Nick? Why don't you do something that would be useful for everyone and shut the hell up!?" "Better yet, why don't you just go strait back down to hell were you belong?!" "Or you could just stay back a few more grades..ya know? Make a career out of it" he said with a smart-alecky tone. "Oh yeah, I forgot, they only let complete dumbasses stay back twice right? Then he turned back around with Jimmy looking at him surprised but more than less thankful for Sheen sticking up for him.
They both started walking down the hall to their next class
Jimmy: "You know your gonna get your ass kicked right?"
Sheen: "Right. Nick only wishes he could take me" he said smiling, Jimmy shook his head and smiled. Sheen was practically the only that could make him smile now a days.
Jimmy: "Well, thanks"
Sheen: "You'd do the same for me" he added with a smile
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It was study period and Jimmy was walking to the Library
Jimmy walked along silently with his things, heading for the school library, then by accident he bumped into someone.
Jimmy: "Oops, I'm sorry" he said as he turned around to help her pick up her things. The girl he bumped into was Libby. When he noticed this, his face became sad again. He tried to pick up all her things for her but was stopped.
Libby: "No, I'm okay" She knelt down and grabbed all her things. She stood up quickly and didn't even look Jimmy in the face. She turned and started to walk away fast, her high-top shoes making a clanking noise as she walked.
Jimmy: "Libby, Libby please" he said as she was walking away. When she heard his faint call she stopped slowly.
Libby: "What is it?"
Jimmy: "Libby, why can't you forgive me?"
Libby turned around and walked back to him
Libby: "Jimmy..I..well, I know it wasn't your fault..but.my girl is gone, and I.I.." Her voice started to weaken and her eyes started to water. "I.just don't know what to think anymore" Jimmy felt the stinging pain of guilt inside of him as he watched Libby's tears. " I loved her like a sister Jimmy" "And there is no one to blame..I.just wish that instead of her is was yo-..." she stopped herself in mid-sentence when she realized what she was saying. Jimmy's face was painted with hurt. "Jimmy.I.I.didn't mean-" she said trying to make up for what she last said, she wasn't teary anymore, she was more concerned for what she made Jimmy feel. Jimmy's voice was hurt and cold. "I know what you meant." He turned around quickly and started to walk away fast, leaving Libby speechless behind him.
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Another school day passed and Jimmy was making his long trek home. As he walked along the downtown sidewalk within view was the Retroville Memorial Cemetery. He saw it and started to walk its way. By now the weather had become a light drizzle, it was foggy out and cloudy, but it was still cold. Jimmy hugged his jacket to himself trying to warm himself up. He reached for the tall black metal gates of the Cemetery and grabbed the handle with his hand. The handle felt like ice, it was cold and raw from the winter weather. He pulled it open hard. It creaked and groaned when it was being dragged open. He slowly walked into the cemetery, walking up the almost muddy dirt walk. His feet making a crunching sound against the earth, when he stepped as his rubber shoes rubbed against the rocky pebblely road.
Jimmy was walking with his head down and his hands in his pockets, he passed the owner's house. He was outside with his wife fixing and triming the yard. They really kept the place looking nice. It wasn't dilapidated, the grass was cut and it looked neat, but still dreary and lonely. He went to wave and smile at Jimmy, Jimmy looked up and gave him a small forced smile, and then put his head back down.
Owner's wife: "Is that Jimmy again?"
Owner: "I'm afraid so"
Owner's wife: "Oh, the poor dear, he's been here almost everyday for five months"
Her husband simply shook his head sadly and went back to tending the yard.
Jimmy arrived at the gravesite. The tombstone read "Vortex" across two big pinkish stone hearts smushed together so one heart was over lapping the other. Underneath the stone and beside it stood many flowers, pink carnations and a small rose bush the Jimmy had planted there one day. The roses were feeble and dying in the frosty weather. Jimmy walked up to her grave, close about 2 feet away from it and started to talk.
Jimmy: "Cindy I...I.just miss you so much sweetheart." "Why..why am I here and you aren't?!" "I just can't understand it" "I wish you were here with me" "Life hasn't been the same, and it never will." "I don't even know what to do anymore." "I'm so alone.....I'm scared without you." Jimmy paused because his eyes were starting to water again. He sniffed and wiped the forming tears out of his eyes with his hand.
Jimmy: "Cindy.I'm lost without you" "Without you.life has no meaning" "I want you with me" Jimmy again stopped talking for a few minutes, like he was deep in thought.
Jimmy: "Every time I.I see a flower or something beautiful I think of you." "I always think of you, I'd never forget you." "Your mom and dad miss you so much Cin, everyone does, if only you could see, see how much everyone cares" "Libby won't talk to me, today she told me she wanted me dead.instead of you of course..I would too if I had the choice." "I still love you" he stopped again and then started talking, his voice almost sounding angry.
Jimmy: "How could God do this to me!?" "Why did he do this to me!?" "What did I ever do to deserve this much pain!?" "What did you do to deserve this?!" "Cindy you are beautiful! You were perfect and had so much ahead of you!" "Why am I being punished,....I...I. just miss you so much."
Jimmy: "Cindy you were a gift from God..now you are a gift to God." Jimmy then walked closer to her stone, he knelt down in front of it. "My baby, my baby, he took you away...I'm so sorry Cindy" then he started to cry. "I'm so sorry" "It was my fault..I.I.didn't see the car I swear" "I swear I didn't" "I.I feel so guilty" "I can't even smile and laugh that much anymore..because how could I be happy without you beside me?" "I am so sorry...can you ever forgive me?"
He stayed there until the afternoon grew late and darkness appeared in the sky. He walked home solemly and entered his house. He ran up to his room and slammed the door so hard it made Judy and Hugh down stairs shutter from the bang. Jimmy got into his pajamas and got into bed. He layed his head down and got ready for a deep nights sleep beholding a most peculiar dream.....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yay! Chapter 2 is done!!! Okay, I know its still pretty sad, but don't worry it will have a happy ending ^^ please R/R ^^ Happy Holidays!!
*~Cindy V.~*
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Jimmy held Cindy's lifeless body in his arms. He squeezed her tightly and couldn't stop crying, he cried and cried and cried.
And then all of a sudden he awoke in a cold sweat. He sat up in his bed. He was having that dream again. The one that came back to haunt him every night, well, every night since the accident at least. Actually, it wasn't a dream, it was a nightmare. Jimmy was wide awake. He looked over to his clock which read "3:04" in big digital, lime green, blinking numbers, gleaming through the darkness of his room. He put his head in his hands and touched his face, he realized he was really crying, he let the tears stream down his face. He got out of bed and walked downstairs to the kitchen, Jimmy opened the fridge door and got out the only thing he considered "help" when he had this dream, this problem, this memory. The horrible memory that his nightmare beheld. That night, the worst night of his life, was replayed again and again and again in his sleep, haunting his unconcious mind. He slowly trudged over to the table with a six pack in his hands. He slunk down in the seat and popped open the first can, drinking it quickly and then opening another. Jimmy continued this until he was finishing his fifth one and became drowsy. He sluggishly walked over to the fridge again and put what was left of the six pack back inside. He made his way back up the stairs and to his room where he quietly cried himself to sleep.
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At 6:00 AM
Jimmy looked over to his beeping clock. His slammed his fist down on the top of it to get it to stop making the infernal noise. He grogely opened his eyes all the way. He didn't want to get up. He didn't want to go to school or get ready. But despite what he wanted in about ten minutes he stood up from his bed and walked over to his dresser to get a pair of clothes. But before he knelt down to open the little cabinet he stopped when he saw his reflection in his vanity mirror. He looked disgusted at himself, if anybody else had looked they would have seen a young seventeen year old boy, with bedhead hair, slightly tired, in the midst of a beginning hangover, with an unusual scar near his left eye, but instead Jimmy saw a monster. He took his attention off what he was looking at and grabbed an outfit. He made his way to the bathroom and got ready. After he had showered and gotten ready he made he way down the stairs to the kitchen.
He could smell breakfast cooking , the smell filled the entire house making it seem warm and cheery.
Judy: "Good morning, sweetheart" his angelic mother said with a big smile on her face as she saw her son enter the room she placed a big plate of scrambled eggs in front of his seat at the table.
Jimmy just looked at his mother without expression. No smile, no frown, just a blank expression. He sat in his eat and started eating, he decided to pour himself a glass of milk, but then started drinking it out of the carton.
Judy: "Honey, please say something"
Jimmy: "What do you want me to say?" he said still not seeming happy, his voice hinted annoyance
Judy: "Jimmy, you know what I mean." "You've barely said anything since...well..you know"
Jimmy bayed her no response and she just let out a sigh. After that Jimmy went from solem to rage filled and stood up in his chair, he stood up quickly making the room spin because of the "few" drinks he had that night.
Jimmy: "What is it mom?!" "What is it!?" "Hmmmmm?!" "What do you want me to do?!" "Huh?!"."I mean I can't concentrate!..I can't think strait!.All I can think about is the acci.." Jimmy started to choke on the word "accident", because of the sensitivity of the subject, but he regained his confidance and struggled to finish his statement. "Is the accident!" "Mrs.Vortex won't even look me in the face anymore!" "I...I.just don't know what to do,..I...I...wish.it where me."
Judy got angry when he son said that. She walked over to him and pushed him down so he was sitting in the chair again.
Judy: "I never want to hear you say that again!" "Don't you dare" "Ever, is that clear James?" "You should be happy and grateful that you are okay!" "It was not your fault, I know that, the Vortex's know that, your father does, Jimmy just try to not think about it, try to move on, you can't live your life this way, I just want you to be happy dear"
Jimmy's eyes began to water but he refused to cry in front of his mother again, instead of tears came more anger to his mothers surprise, more than before.
Jimmy: "Be happy? He said slightly confused "You want me.to be...happy?" then he got an angry tone again as he stood up from his chair and started to shout. "I CAN'T be happy!!" "I can't!.and I won't ever be!!" "Ever!!" "I mean, who do you think you are telling me to go off and "be happy"?!" "HUH!?"
Judy stood shocked at her sons tone
Judy: "Jimmy, don't you ever talk to me that way again" she said giving him a look "The Vortex's are happy you are okay honey!" she said becoming a little more sympathetic. "It was not you fault" "Did you hear me?" she said making sure they were making eye contact. "It was not you fault" she said slowly
Jimmy's wide blue eyes that were looking at hers narrowed and his voice became cold
Jimmy: "You just don't understand mom" "And you NEVER will" he got up from the table and grabbed his things and left out the backdoor slamming it when he turned away, without so much as a goodbye.
He walked around the house to the front of the yard, he looked across the street and saw Rhonda Vortex heading to her car. By chance she happened to look up and see him, Jimmy attempted to smile at Cindy's mom, but before he even could crack his lip, she quickly looked away from him and fastly opened her car and got in. Jimmy looked to the ground sadly and just started the long walk to Retroville High. It was a cold morning, the air was nippy and Jimmy could see his breath. It had been months since that early warm summer night, when the accident had happened. He would have loved to have his car right now, even if the heater where broken at least he would have been inside something, but after the accident the damage done to Jimmy's already dilapidated car was not worth paying to fix. And he couldn't afford anything new.
Eventually Jimmy made it to the entrance to the school, relieved he could exit the cold, he started up the steps, but before he could reach the top he was stopped by two familiar voices calling after him.
Sheen: "Jimmy! Yo Jimmy!" "Wait up man!" Sheen yelled as he jogged up to get to Jimmy's side
Carl: "Hey, Wait for me Sheen!" he said as he trudged up to them both
Sheen: "You look cold Jimmy"
Carl: "No, I think Jimmy is nice Sheen"
Sheen: "I meant, he looked like he was feeling cold"
Carl: "Oh.Well, Jim, you know I'll drive you to school if you want, I mean, all you have to do is call"
Jimmy: "Thanks Carl...it's just.well..I.I just felt like walking today"
Carl: "Whatever"
All three of them entered the big doors that lead to the lobby of Retroville High School they departed in three different directions walking to their lockers.
Jimmy walked to the hall that lead left, he walked by everybody who was busy talking with friends, finishing homework and getting things from their locker, but when he came to the bend in the hallway where he would have turned right he saw Nick and his gang. He started to walk faster hoping that they wouldn't see him. But sure enough, just when he thought he passed them, Nick shouted out to him.
Nick: "Hey look guys, there goes the murderer"
Jimmy stopped in his tracks and turned around
Jimmy: "I am not a murderer Nick." He said as he turned around to face Nick and his posse
Nick: "What do you mean your not?..."he said as he made his way through the guys around him up to Jimmy, Nick hadn't changed much over the years, except his purple lollipop had changed to a cigarette.
Jimmy: "I am not, and you know it"
Nick: "I don't think so Nerdtron, did you ask Cindy's permission to kill her?" "Because unless you did, then you are a murderer in my book"
Jimmy simply stood there.
All of Nicks gang started yelling things out to Jimmy like "Hows it feel to kill your own girlfriend?" and "Isn't it nice to know you completely ended someone's life?" Jimmy tried his best to ignore them but the comments pierced their way to Jimmy's heart.
Nick: "So tell me Neutron, What where Cindy's last words...right before she died?" he said trying to make Jimmy uncomfortable as his gang watched and laughed.
Nick: "What'd look like?" "Huh?" he said quickly, making Jimmy feel awkward.
Nick: "Why arn't you answering me?" "I surprised the guilt hasn't eaten away at you yet" "You know...the guilt of knowing that you murdered somebody" "She was a beautiful girl too Neutron"
Jimmy's heart started beating fast, he was breathing heavy, he closed his eyes he could still remember that night.
*FLASHBACK*
Paramedic: "Wait, is.is his head bleeding!?" "It is!" "Quickly, get him over here!"
The paramedics grabbed Jimmy away from holding Cindy and dragged him over . He was still crying.
Paramedic: "Lay him down! Hurry!" she got out a sterile patch and wiped his skin around were his eye was bleeding
Jimmy: "OWWWW!!!!" he yelled as the cringing stinging pain seeped into his head, he reached up to pull her hand off but was stopped by ambulance assistants holding his arms down.
The paramedics brought Jimmy into the amblance and cleaned him up, then they stitched his deep gash on the side of his left eye. The cut went from the end of his eyebrow and then lowered and kind of circled the outer edge of his left eye, like a cresent. Hours later Jimmy awoke, he got up and walked out of the ambulance. He walked over to the scene of the accident. It was about 4 in the morning. It was still very dark out. Jimmy held his face where they stitched him, it throbbed with pain. Jimmy looked over and saw a news crew and news castors making reports he overheard one of them.
Reporter: "Hello, I'm Sarah Hughes and this is action news, we are here at the scene of an accident that happened at about 10:00 last night, were two teenagers were victims to the pouring rain and darkness. Evidence shows that Cindy Vortex was out on a date with her boyfriend and the driver of the vehicle James Neutron. It is said here that they hit a stalled car then bounced off the road hitting a tree and then toppling over and landing on this boulder. Sadly only one of the two teens survived."
Jimmy was hit with a reality check, "he was alive standing, alive, and if only one of the two teens survived and I'm alive than that means that Cindy must be." his thoughts trailed off as he started to cry as he kneeled on the muddy wet ground and put his head down.
*END FLASHBACK*
Jimmy stood silent as Nick taunted him, and tried to stop his memories from creeping up on him.
Nick: "Ya know Nerdtorn, All the girls around here should be careful, unless they want to die too, just make sure next time you get a girlfriend she's someone ugly, so when shes gone, no one'll miss her!" Nick and his gang then started to laugh "You deserverd that scar too, now everyone that sees you will know you're a lunatic." He and his friends started to laugh again.
Nick: "Why are you even here?."then he paused briefly "I thought murderers where supposed to go to jail" he added with a sneer.
That was it. After Nick said that Jimmy just wanted to punch him right in the face, and he would have if Sheen didn't see what was happening and run over to stop him.
Sheen ran up behind Jimmy and grabbed his arm from behind. Jimmy's arm was tense and was being pulled back like he was just about to punch. Jimmy was a little bit surprised when he felt Sheen's hand holding back his arm. He turned to see his friends concerned face looking at him.
Sheen: "Don't do it man" he said quietly as he was facing Jimmy
Jimmy looked at Sheen and sighed
Jimmy: "Your right, violence won't solve anything"
Jimmy started to turn around
Sheen: "That's what I wanna hear buddy" he said while he turned with Jimmy and put his arm around jimmy's shoulder in a friendly way.
Sheen had really been a great guy since what happened with the accident. He was always there for Jimmy, whenever he needed to talk. He was always trying to make him laugh, or feel better. Even when he had something else to do, he would hang out with Jimmy instead because he knew that he needed it.
Nick: "Walking away Neutron!?" "You gonna cry?!" he yelled after them as he and Sheen were walking the other way, he gang all started to laugh again.
Jimmy clencthed his fists and went to turn around, but before he knew it Sheen had turned around quicker and was already facing them. He was clearly a little pissed off.
Sheen: "Nick? Why don't you do something that would be useful for everyone and shut the hell up!?" "Better yet, why don't you just go strait back down to hell were you belong?!" "Or you could just stay back a few more grades..ya know? Make a career out of it" he said with a smart-alecky tone. "Oh yeah, I forgot, they only let complete dumbasses stay back twice right? Then he turned back around with Jimmy looking at him surprised but more than less thankful for Sheen sticking up for him.
They both started walking down the hall to their next class
Jimmy: "You know your gonna get your ass kicked right?"
Sheen: "Right. Nick only wishes he could take me" he said smiling, Jimmy shook his head and smiled. Sheen was practically the only that could make him smile now a days.
Jimmy: "Well, thanks"
Sheen: "You'd do the same for me" he added with a smile
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It was study period and Jimmy was walking to the Library
Jimmy walked along silently with his things, heading for the school library, then by accident he bumped into someone.
Jimmy: "Oops, I'm sorry" he said as he turned around to help her pick up her things. The girl he bumped into was Libby. When he noticed this, his face became sad again. He tried to pick up all her things for her but was stopped.
Libby: "No, I'm okay" She knelt down and grabbed all her things. She stood up quickly and didn't even look Jimmy in the face. She turned and started to walk away fast, her high-top shoes making a clanking noise as she walked.
Jimmy: "Libby, Libby please" he said as she was walking away. When she heard his faint call she stopped slowly.
Libby: "What is it?"
Jimmy: "Libby, why can't you forgive me?"
Libby turned around and walked back to him
Libby: "Jimmy..I..well, I know it wasn't your fault..but.my girl is gone, and I.I.." Her voice started to weaken and her eyes started to water. "I.just don't know what to think anymore" Jimmy felt the stinging pain of guilt inside of him as he watched Libby's tears. " I loved her like a sister Jimmy" "And there is no one to blame..I.just wish that instead of her is was yo-..." she stopped herself in mid-sentence when she realized what she was saying. Jimmy's face was painted with hurt. "Jimmy.I.I.didn't mean-" she said trying to make up for what she last said, she wasn't teary anymore, she was more concerned for what she made Jimmy feel. Jimmy's voice was hurt and cold. "I know what you meant." He turned around quickly and started to walk away fast, leaving Libby speechless behind him.
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Another school day passed and Jimmy was making his long trek home. As he walked along the downtown sidewalk within view was the Retroville Memorial Cemetery. He saw it and started to walk its way. By now the weather had become a light drizzle, it was foggy out and cloudy, but it was still cold. Jimmy hugged his jacket to himself trying to warm himself up. He reached for the tall black metal gates of the Cemetery and grabbed the handle with his hand. The handle felt like ice, it was cold and raw from the winter weather. He pulled it open hard. It creaked and groaned when it was being dragged open. He slowly walked into the cemetery, walking up the almost muddy dirt walk. His feet making a crunching sound against the earth, when he stepped as his rubber shoes rubbed against the rocky pebblely road.
Jimmy was walking with his head down and his hands in his pockets, he passed the owner's house. He was outside with his wife fixing and triming the yard. They really kept the place looking nice. It wasn't dilapidated, the grass was cut and it looked neat, but still dreary and lonely. He went to wave and smile at Jimmy, Jimmy looked up and gave him a small forced smile, and then put his head back down.
Owner's wife: "Is that Jimmy again?"
Owner: "I'm afraid so"
Owner's wife: "Oh, the poor dear, he's been here almost everyday for five months"
Her husband simply shook his head sadly and went back to tending the yard.
Jimmy arrived at the gravesite. The tombstone read "Vortex" across two big pinkish stone hearts smushed together so one heart was over lapping the other. Underneath the stone and beside it stood many flowers, pink carnations and a small rose bush the Jimmy had planted there one day. The roses were feeble and dying in the frosty weather. Jimmy walked up to her grave, close about 2 feet away from it and started to talk.
Jimmy: "Cindy I...I.just miss you so much sweetheart." "Why..why am I here and you aren't?!" "I just can't understand it" "I wish you were here with me" "Life hasn't been the same, and it never will." "I don't even know what to do anymore." "I'm so alone.....I'm scared without you." Jimmy paused because his eyes were starting to water again. He sniffed and wiped the forming tears out of his eyes with his hand.
Jimmy: "Cindy.I'm lost without you" "Without you.life has no meaning" "I want you with me" Jimmy again stopped talking for a few minutes, like he was deep in thought.
Jimmy: "Every time I.I see a flower or something beautiful I think of you." "I always think of you, I'd never forget you." "Your mom and dad miss you so much Cin, everyone does, if only you could see, see how much everyone cares" "Libby won't talk to me, today she told me she wanted me dead.instead of you of course..I would too if I had the choice." "I still love you" he stopped again and then started talking, his voice almost sounding angry.
Jimmy: "How could God do this to me!?" "Why did he do this to me!?" "What did I ever do to deserve this much pain!?" "What did you do to deserve this?!" "Cindy you are beautiful! You were perfect and had so much ahead of you!" "Why am I being punished,....I...I. just miss you so much."
Jimmy: "Cindy you were a gift from God..now you are a gift to God." Jimmy then walked closer to her stone, he knelt down in front of it. "My baby, my baby, he took you away...I'm so sorry Cindy" then he started to cry. "I'm so sorry" "It was my fault..I.I.didn't see the car I swear" "I swear I didn't" "I.I feel so guilty" "I can't even smile and laugh that much anymore..because how could I be happy without you beside me?" "I am so sorry...can you ever forgive me?"
He stayed there until the afternoon grew late and darkness appeared in the sky. He walked home solemly and entered his house. He ran up to his room and slammed the door so hard it made Judy and Hugh down stairs shutter from the bang. Jimmy got into his pajamas and got into bed. He layed his head down and got ready for a deep nights sleep beholding a most peculiar dream.....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yay! Chapter 2 is done!!! Okay, I know its still pretty sad, but don't worry it will have a happy ending ^^ please R/R ^^ Happy Holidays!!
*~Cindy V.~*