Oh my gosh, I was reading my story over so I could review what I wrote
before I wrote Chapter 3 and the end was so sad I almost started to
cry...almost...but thank you all SO much for all the nice reviews!! And I
would like to dedicate this chapter to my best friend Libby, because I know
you want me to Lib! I know you wanted me too, even though you wouldn't say
it! Also my friend Jessica W. for being so enthusiastic about my fic, and
last but not least Jill. Okay n e wayz....on with the fic!
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Jimmy went home and went to sleep and awoke in the morning to his mother's voice calling him from down stairs
Judy: "Jimmy!..Jimmy!, Come downstairs dear!" "Your father and I want to talk to you!"
Jimmy slowly opened his eyes, he didn't answer his mother in anyway. He wanted to go back to sleep, he didn't want to go downstairs and see his mother's disgustingly happy face. He wanted to curl up in a little ball and stay sleeping forever. But he rose from his sleep because of a certain metal dog tugging on his arm that was hanging off the bed while he was laying.
Goddard licked his hand playfully to try to wake his master up.
Jimmy: "Goddard....Goddard stop it" he said while pulling his hand away
Goddard continued trying to wake Jimmy up. First he tugged on Jimmy's sleeve. Then when that didn't work he started barking. An annoying bark, one you wouldn't be able to stand.
Jimmy: "Goddard.....stop barking.." He said still sleepily, Jimmy clearly just wanted to go back to sleep
Goddard: "Bark! Bark! Woof! Yap! Splach! Roof!"
Jimmy: "Goddard.why are you doing this to me." Jimmy was becoming annoyed "Goddard I swear if you bark one more time" Goddard continued his incessant barking and then when it didn't seem to be succeeding he jumped up onto Jimmy's bed and started barking close to his face.
Jimmy: "GODDARD SHUT THE **** UP!!" Jimmy sprang up and startled Goddard, as he quickly sat up in his bed at the same time he yelled he violently smacked his hand onto Goddard flinging him off the bed and sending him coliding into his wall with full force. Goddard yelleped with pain.
After Jimmy realized what he had done, he jumped out of bed and ran over to Goddard on the floor. He knelt down near him.
Jimmy: "Goddard?.Goddard are you okay boy?!" he asked frightened that he might have broken something. Goddard just looked at him, scared, scared of his own master. The one he thought had loved him. Questions like "Why did he hit me?" ran through the metal pup's artificial mind. Jimmy reached over to pick Goddard up but when his hand got close, Goddard backed away as if he was afraid that if Jimmy touched him he would get hit again. Jimmy noticed this and was hurt that his creation, his work, felt he was a threat. He would never hurt Goddard, not even for a million dollars. But he did, and that was a mistake he regretted.
Jimmy: "Goddard..I'm sorry boy.I.I.didn't mean to, it's just with everything that's happened..and the stress I just.." Goddard backed away further becoming more afraid. Jimmy saw the fright in Goddard's eyes and he realized, for the first time he let his pain take advantage of him. All the sorrow and anger he had been feeling at that moment was struck out in one powerful blow. And in doing so, he hurt one of his friends.
Goddard got up quickly and tried to scatter out of Jimmy's room. When he ran Jimmy noticed he was doing so with a small limp. He cursed himself under his breath. "How dare I hurt my own dog" he thought ashamed. "What am I?.." he stood up from the floor and looked into his mirror "Some kind of.....lunatic" he finished as he touched the scar by his left eye, remembering the day before in school when Nick had called him that. He looked away from the mirror mortified at what he had just done to his Goddard. He walked down the stairs in his old worn flannel pajamas, still trying to get the last bit of sleep out of his eyes.
Jimmy walked into the kitchen expecting to see his mother cooking breakfast, but instead she wasn't there. He looked around puzzled. Then he heard his mother's voice.
Judy: "Jimmy! We're in the family room sweetie"
Jimmy followed his mother's voice and walked into the family room, his face dull from sorrow yet somewhat curious.
Judy: "Jimmy, come here honey, your...your father and I have been meaning to talk to you" Jimmy walked over in front of them, they were both sitting on the couch. "Maybe you should sit down" Jimmy looked at them perplexed but ignored it and then sat in one of the red chairs looking at his parents, waiting for what they had called him down for.
Jimmy looked at his mother with an impatient and annoyed face gesturing for her to start talking. Judy noticed this and started talking uneasily, but then gained her regular confidant tone.
Judy: "Jimmy.we-well, you father and I have been talking and ...we think, that it might be best for you.." She stopped unsure if she should continue. Jimmy looked at her, his face now showing interest in what she was saying unlike before. "Well, we think..it might be best for you...if...if you go and see a psychiatrist " she finished uneasily.
Jimmy suddenly became angry and snapped at her
Jimmy: "You think I need to see a shrink?!"
Judy: "No..no no..not a shrink, a psychiatrist...just until you get over this little.um.slump your in" she said trying to reassure him of what he didn't want to hear.
Jimmy almost laughed
Jimmy: "What're..what do you think I am?....Crazy?!" he said a little bit not believing what his parents were suggesting
Hugh: "Nuts, crazy, wacko, loony, over the edge, outta line...you name it that's what we think of you!"
Judy: "Hugh!" she elbowed him as she said it "No, of course we don't think your crazy honey, we just think that you should be able to talk to some one while your going through such a difficult time in your life"
Jimmy: "Mom, for your information, I do not need anyone to talk to!" "Because there is nothing wrong with me" "Okay?" "I am fine" "I can't believe you guys actually think I need to go to one of those windbags"
Judy: "Jimmy we think it would be best for you"
Jimmy: "Mom, you two don't know anything" "You don't know what I need because if you did, you'd keep your mouth shut and just leave me alone!!" Jimmy then stood up and started to walk away
Judy: "Jimmy please! We're just trying to help you!" Jimmy: "You really want to help!?" "Fine" "Than just shut up and stay outta my life!!" he ran up to his room and slammed the door leaving his parents downstairs still completely lost within their sons tangled web. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Weeks went by of his mother trying to convince him to go to the psychiatrist then one day at supper he finally caved in.
Jimmy: "Ya know what mom..if it'll shut you up, I'll go" he said surrendering to his mothers suggestion
Judy: "Good, this will help you, you'll see" she said seeming happy and caring
Jimmy: "I don't need help" he muttered under his breath
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Saturday, at the psychiatrist
Jimmy: "I can't believe I have to waste half of my fuc-.." he stopped when his mother gave him a glare "My whole FREAKING Saturday here" he restated
Judy: "Jimmy! Lower your voice"
Jimmy: "What's it matter?" he complained "They already think I'm insane, so what's the difference" Jimmy groused all the way into the office
Judy went up to the receptionist and told them Jimmy had arrived, then she sat back down next to him in one of the chairs and picked up a "Martha Stewart Living" magazine and started reading it.
Receptionist 1: "That Neutron kid is here" she said quietly to her co- worker so no one else would hear.
Receptionist 2: "Isn't that the one who got in the car accident a few months ago?"
Receptionist 1: "Yup"
Receptionist 2: " Is that him!?" "Wow, he's a cutie." she said as she looked around at all the patients from behind the desk.
Receptionist 1: "Ya.why is it always the cute ones that have to go nuts?" she complained
Jimmy sat silently over in a chair by his mother, he kept looking out the window like he was nervous. The office was many shades of maroon, the cotton shades where maroon, the rug a little darker, the lights where dim and it was quiet. The only signifigant light source in the whole place was the one big open window that let light flood in like a cave opening, below the window where cars and the street and people busy, walking around, living their lives...happily. Jimmy looked and spied a certain group of people, it was a woman and her two children, they were walking down the street probably shopping, but they were laughing, and smiling. Jimmy was filled with jealousy, he wanted that happiness back. He wanted Cindy to be able to feel that happiness. Then he saw two more people, a man and a woman they were fighting.
Jimmy made a disgusted face. "How could they be so stupid" he thought "One second and there life could be ruined" "They are probably fighting about something nonsensical...what fools" "They should be happy to be alive"
Jimmy was so caught up in his own thoughts that he didn't even notice that one of the receptionists was calling him. Receptionist 1: "Mr.Neutron?" "Mr.Neutron the doctor will see you now"
Jimmy shook out of his trance and uneasily followed the receptionist to the doctor's office.
Jimmy was lead into an office, the walls were made of cherry wood, there where books everywhere. Jimmy smirked to himself because he had read most, if not all of the books that were on the shelves. There were degrees from numerous colleges and universities on the wall. Jimmy sat on the big long couch/chair in one corner of the room. There was a desk with a big chair behind it. Jimmy asumed that seat was for the doctor. He stared looking at the room until he heard the door knob turn and looked over and saw the door open and a man walked in. He walked over to Jimmy, he was tall, not as tall as Jimmy though, he had white-grayish hair and looked like a rich Englishman. He had small glasses that seemed to make his little face seem round.
Jimmy looked up at him suspiciously.
Man: "You must be James" the man extended his arm for Jimmy to shake
Jimmy: "It's Jimmy and..I presume that you must be the doctor?"
Man: "Yes, I am, my name is Dr. Edmund DeCalitpto" "But you can call be Eddie"
Jimmy: "Nice to meet you" he said as he shook the mans hand
Eddie: "Now, Jimmy...tell me a little about yourself"
Jimmy: "Well, I'm seventeen, and my parents are freaks, and they think I'm depressed" he said very bluntly
Eddie: "You seem very sure that your parents are trying to hurt you" Jimmy decided right off that he didn't like this "Eddie", he was too..too..he couldn't explain it..strange.
Jimmy: "You seem very sure you know what I'm thinking Mr.DeCalipto" he replied smart-alecky even though he didn't mean to.
Eddie started scribbling things down on his notepad. Jimmy became irritated by this. Jimmy disliked the fact that some one with an IQ probably 500 times lower than his was going to tell him what to do, when he didn't even want any help.
Eddie: "Tell me about your friends Jimmy" Jimmy paused and thought what to tell him before he spoke he didn't want anything he said to be turned around and shot back at him in a negative way.
Jimmy: "My best friend Carl, is basically my human guinea pig for all my experiments" "Sheen is overly obsessed with a doll, Libby won't talk to me.." He went to continue but Eddie stopped him and asked some questions of his own.
Eddie: "This Carl, now why do you experiment on him?"
Jimmy: "Um...because?" he said cluelessly
Eddie: "Do you feel the need to...unleash your anger on him, through experimentation?"
Jimmy: "What?!.No!" "What anger?!" "I'm not angry!" he said becoming frustrated
Eddie: "Now.Libby, is this girl special to you?" he said ignoring Jimmy's frustration
Jimmy: "No!.no.well, shes my friend..or she was.." He said trying to explain things
Eddie: "Why did you two break up?"
Jimmy: "What?! We never broke up because we NEVER went out!" he replied shocked
Eddie: "Ahhhh yes, denial"
Jimmy: "Libby was never my girlfriend!!" he snapped back angrily that Eddie didn't understand him
Eddie: "It's okay to think that, but don't you think, deep down you should admit your feelings towards her?"
Jimmy: "Libby and I DO NOT like each other you moron!" "We were never involved"
Eddie: "Why do you feel the need to call me names?" he asked calmly
Jimmy: "Because you won't listen to me!!" "Libby won't talk to me because I....I....I..killed Cindy!!!...in the car accident!!" he then started to cry "I did it!!" "I did!!" "I'm am SO SORRY!! "I didn't mean to!!!" "I..I...didn't see the car!!" "I swear!" "I swear I didn't!!"
Eddie: "Calm down Jimmy, I know.I know ..it's okay" he went to pat Jimmy on the shoulder but Jimmy backed away and stopped him
Jimmy: "No! No you don't know!" "You don't even know me!" "You just expect me to come in here and spill my guts to you! So you can brand me as some kind of psychopathic freak and I'll be put on medication for the rest of my life!" "Well, that's not gonna happen!!"
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About one week later
Jimmy: "And...and there is one thing..that bothers me.a lot."
Eddie: "And what is that Jimmy?"
Jimmy: "The nightmare..it's horrible"
Eddie: "Tell me about your nightmare Jimmy"
Jimmy: "Well, Cindy and I get in the car.....and..and we start to drive.and then we get past the sign that says "You are Now Leaving Retroville"..and..then...we start to fight." Jimmy stopped for a moment trying to gain enough courage to be able to tell some one about his dream. "And then...I look at her to yell at her..and we crash" "And I hold her in my arms..and...she.." "And then it just keeps replaying over and over and over again" "It's horrible" "I have it every night...every night." he said reflecting on the terrible nights he had because of this nightmare
Eddie: "Well, it seems to me, that if you stood up to your fears in your dream, than maybe you would stop having it"
Jimmy stood there and pondered his words. Then it was time for Jimmy to depart from his office, he left and walked home. There was snow on the ground and it was a chilly day out. He got home and put his snow jacket in the closet and walked into the kitchen. The day grew late and night crept up on Retroville.
Judy: "Jimmy dear, don't you think that maybe, you should start inventing things again?" she asked him as she put the dinner leftovers in the fridge.
Jimmy: "Mom, I stopped that, It used to make me happy...now nothing can" Yes. That's right, after the accident Jimmy stopped inventing, his lab had been sitting desolate and barren for months, never opened. He said that as he looked at his steaming hot chocolate, as he sat at the kitchen table twirling the marshmallows with his finger.
Judy sighed
Judy: "So, what did you talk about at therapy today?"
Jimmy: "It's confidential"
Judy shook her head at her son's dismay, he would never tell her anything anymore. Jimmy decided it was late and headed up to bed. He got on his pajamas, shut the lights and his door and got in bed for another miserable night's sleep. Jimmy laid awake in his bed, for hours not wanting to go to sleep to experience that horrible dream again. Jimmy thought of what Eddie had said.."try to conquer you fear in your dream" Eventually, no matter how hard he tried to stay awake, Jimmy became to tired and dosed off to sleep. He tossed and turned in his bed, groaning and making noises.
*JIMMY"S DREAM*
Cindy: "Your just getting mad for no reason!!"
Jimmy looked out the window, the car was speeding along the highway, Cindy was yelling at him.."here is comes again.the dream, the nightmare" he thought to himself
Cindy: "AND I was right!!"
Jimmy: "Alright Cindy! That's it!" Jimmy went to turn his head, but then what Eddie said rang out in his mind.." "Conquer his fears?" "What did that mean?" Instead of turning his head, Jimmy kept his eyes on the road.
Cindy: "Jimmy! Look out!"
There it was, the car. The evil, Jimmy's enemy.
Jimmy grabbed the steering wheel and swerved to the LEFT not to the RIGHT this time. The car jerked and made a violent turn onto the next lane. After Jimmy did that the he drove around the stalled car and continued driving in the next lane.
Jimmy: "I did it!.I did it!" he cried happily "I did it! I conquered my fear!!" he said to himslef. All of a sudden Jimmy's entire dream went white. He was in a white room. He opened his eyes and tried to see something. He stood up and looked around, turning around and looking at his surroundings. Everything was white. He couldn't understand what was happening.
Jimmy then saw a figure, it was coming closer, first he was scared, then he became curious. The figure came closer and he could almost make out what it was.it was a young woman. She came closer, she was wearing a beautiful white gown.it was long and flowing even though there was no wind. She was beautiful, she looked like an ...angel. She had gorgeous long shiny blonde hair and dazzling, sparkly emerald green eyes. She was walking barefoot, Her hair in a headband. It almost looked like ....Cindy.
Jimmy stood amazed at this girls beauty.
Jimmy: "Cindy?" he said quietly. "Cindy!?" "It was, It was Cindy" "It has to be" he thought
She came close to him and look into his eyes.
Jimmy: "Oh Cindy!" "I..I.."
Cindy: "Shhhhhh" She pushed her fingers to his lips
Cindy: "Jimmy, you are such a good boy" "I didn't want you to be this way" she said in a supernatural sounding voice, the voice resembled that of her own, but it seemed different, almost, eerie.
Cindy: "Jimmy, I want you to be happy" "Please, stop grieving over me"
Jimmy: "But Cindy..I..I just miss you so much" he went to reach for her, but she backed away.
Cindy: "No Jimmy, you have to stop this" "I know you love me" "But you can't live your life wishing for the past to change"
Jimmy: "But Cindy" he then started to cry gently, he missed her so much, and now that she was in front of him, he couldn't bear not to touch her but she wouldn't let him.
Cindy: "Jimmy you are so sweet, that's why you're here"
Jimmy looked up at her confused
Jimmy: "What....do you mean?"
Cindy: "That's why he let you stay, it wasn't your time"
Jimmy was confused he didn't know what she was saying to him
Cindy: "I've been watching you Jimmy" "You have changed" "You have to stop being miserable" "You are a magnificant person, and you are very important" then the ghost like Cindy's face turned sad and emotion almost passed it. "I..miss you too" "I love you Jimmy, I miss you so much" "One day we will be together again"
Jimmy looked into her eyes they started to water.
Cindy: "Jimmy I...Jimmy" she seemed as though she couldn't say to him what she wanted to
Jimmy: "Cindy, can't you tell me when?"
Cindy: "We are all prisoners of time Jimmy"
Then her white face started to become sad again, Jimmy saw tears start to stream down her face, he went in closer to her and wrapped his hand around her waist. He was crying too. He brought her in close, she felt so weak. He leaned his head in and they kissed, and when they did ,white beams of light started to shine everywhere like magic.
*END JIMMY'S DREAM*
The bright light from Jimmy's window shone down on his face and woke him up in a start. But when he opened his eyes he almost thought he heard a voice it sounded like Cindy's "We'll be together some day Jimmy" it said. Jimmy was amazed. He got out of bed and looked around he realized it had all been a dream. He never really saw Cindy again, but it felt so real, maybe it was?
Jimmy went to the mirror
Jimmy: "It was a dream.." he said completely stunned "It was all a dream!!" he shouted sadly/angrily. "Why does this happen to me?!" "My mind tricked me into thinking I saw her!" "I never will!" "Shes gone forever..." "She's....gone...forever" he said finally realizing what that meant.
Jimmy's eye twitched. He walked over to the window, he looked out it as the early morning sun trickcled down his face.
Jimmy: "I can't wait anymore..we will be together Cindy" "Today" he said with determination. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Jimmy waited through the day until it was dark outside. The night was cold.
Jimmy: "Mom! I'm going out"
Judy: "Alright" she said surprised that Jimmy was going out since he never did anymore. "When will you be.." But before she could finish her sentence Jimmy charged out the front door slamming it behind him. "Back?" his mother said puzzled
Jimmy walked down the icy sidewalk with a look of determination on his face, it was dark outside, about 11:00. He trudged along without saying anything, breathing heavily.
Someone spied Jimmy in their car and decided to follow him.
Jimmy didn't notice the car following him. He finally got to the bridge that crossed over the town River. He walked to middle of it and just looked at the water for a long time. Then he reached into his pocket and pulled out a small gun. He put it to his head near his right temple and closed his eyes tight.
Jimmy: "I am not going to be a prisoner of time Cindy" "We will be together soon" he took the gun and pressed it to his head hard. He started to tighten his index finger, making the trigger more apt to making the gun go off, he was just about to pull his index finger taut when out of the nowhere came
Voice: "JIMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Jimmy quickly fumbled the gun and turned around startled and surprised
Voice: JIMMY!! JIMMY!! DON'T DO IT!!!
Jimmy looked around frantically trying to find who was speaking to him, and then he heard the clanking of high-top shoes coming towards him. He turned around and saw a terrified looking Libby a few feet in front of him.
Libby: " Jimmy! ...thank God..." she said as she came closer to him, out of breath from running.
Libby had tears in her eyes and she was crying
Libby: "I forgive you Jimmy!..I forgive you." she ran up to him and embraced him in a huge hug
Jimmy realized what he was about to do to himself and started to cry, he dropped the gun to the cold wet tar ground and squeezed Libby back tight.
Jimmy: "Thank you Libby" "Thank you"
Libby was crying into his chest and he had his head on hers, they were locked in a tight hug, crying in each other's arms.
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Jimmy and Libby went to a small café and went to have a cappacino. They are sitting together at a table.
Libby: "What were you thinking?"
Jimmy: "I....I.....don't know.." "Something just pushed me over the edge"
Libby: "I am so glad I found you"
Jimmy: "Me too" then Jimmy smiled at her, she was surprised he did and smiled back
Jimmy and Libby sat quiet
Jimmy: "I don't know how I'll ever be able to thank you"
Libby: "Just..forgive me, for being so ignorant to you Jimmy, it wasn't you fault"
Jimmy started to think of something, then he started to think out loud
Jimmy: "That's not what she meant..." "We are all prisoners of time".."What did she mean?".."Think Jimmy..think.."
Libby: "Jimmy what are yo' talkin' bout?' she asked him while looking at him strangely
Jimmy: "Think..think..." "I KNOW!!" he shouted happily "I know!!!" "We are all prisoners of time!!!" "That's what she meant!!" he was shouting so happily, he was almost laughing. Libby looked at Jimmy like he was going insane. Jimmy seemed so happy.
Jimmy got up and ran out
Libby: "Na-ah! You ain't goin' nowhere without me!" she got up and ran after him.
Libby: "Where are we going?!" she screamed as she shouted after him
Jimmy ran down the dark street with Libby close behind, running towards his greatest discovery yet....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 3 is finished!!! Yay!!! It will get happy, I promise!! ^^ Please R/R!! Happy Holidays!! *~Cindy V.~*
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Jimmy went home and went to sleep and awoke in the morning to his mother's voice calling him from down stairs
Judy: "Jimmy!..Jimmy!, Come downstairs dear!" "Your father and I want to talk to you!"
Jimmy slowly opened his eyes, he didn't answer his mother in anyway. He wanted to go back to sleep, he didn't want to go downstairs and see his mother's disgustingly happy face. He wanted to curl up in a little ball and stay sleeping forever. But he rose from his sleep because of a certain metal dog tugging on his arm that was hanging off the bed while he was laying.
Goddard licked his hand playfully to try to wake his master up.
Jimmy: "Goddard....Goddard stop it" he said while pulling his hand away
Goddard continued trying to wake Jimmy up. First he tugged on Jimmy's sleeve. Then when that didn't work he started barking. An annoying bark, one you wouldn't be able to stand.
Jimmy: "Goddard.....stop barking.." He said still sleepily, Jimmy clearly just wanted to go back to sleep
Goddard: "Bark! Bark! Woof! Yap! Splach! Roof!"
Jimmy: "Goddard.why are you doing this to me." Jimmy was becoming annoyed "Goddard I swear if you bark one more time" Goddard continued his incessant barking and then when it didn't seem to be succeeding he jumped up onto Jimmy's bed and started barking close to his face.
Jimmy: "GODDARD SHUT THE **** UP!!" Jimmy sprang up and startled Goddard, as he quickly sat up in his bed at the same time he yelled he violently smacked his hand onto Goddard flinging him off the bed and sending him coliding into his wall with full force. Goddard yelleped with pain.
After Jimmy realized what he had done, he jumped out of bed and ran over to Goddard on the floor. He knelt down near him.
Jimmy: "Goddard?.Goddard are you okay boy?!" he asked frightened that he might have broken something. Goddard just looked at him, scared, scared of his own master. The one he thought had loved him. Questions like "Why did he hit me?" ran through the metal pup's artificial mind. Jimmy reached over to pick Goddard up but when his hand got close, Goddard backed away as if he was afraid that if Jimmy touched him he would get hit again. Jimmy noticed this and was hurt that his creation, his work, felt he was a threat. He would never hurt Goddard, not even for a million dollars. But he did, and that was a mistake he regretted.
Jimmy: "Goddard..I'm sorry boy.I.I.didn't mean to, it's just with everything that's happened..and the stress I just.." Goddard backed away further becoming more afraid. Jimmy saw the fright in Goddard's eyes and he realized, for the first time he let his pain take advantage of him. All the sorrow and anger he had been feeling at that moment was struck out in one powerful blow. And in doing so, he hurt one of his friends.
Goddard got up quickly and tried to scatter out of Jimmy's room. When he ran Jimmy noticed he was doing so with a small limp. He cursed himself under his breath. "How dare I hurt my own dog" he thought ashamed. "What am I?.." he stood up from the floor and looked into his mirror "Some kind of.....lunatic" he finished as he touched the scar by his left eye, remembering the day before in school when Nick had called him that. He looked away from the mirror mortified at what he had just done to his Goddard. He walked down the stairs in his old worn flannel pajamas, still trying to get the last bit of sleep out of his eyes.
Jimmy walked into the kitchen expecting to see his mother cooking breakfast, but instead she wasn't there. He looked around puzzled. Then he heard his mother's voice.
Judy: "Jimmy! We're in the family room sweetie"
Jimmy followed his mother's voice and walked into the family room, his face dull from sorrow yet somewhat curious.
Judy: "Jimmy, come here honey, your...your father and I have been meaning to talk to you" Jimmy walked over in front of them, they were both sitting on the couch. "Maybe you should sit down" Jimmy looked at them perplexed but ignored it and then sat in one of the red chairs looking at his parents, waiting for what they had called him down for.
Jimmy looked at his mother with an impatient and annoyed face gesturing for her to start talking. Judy noticed this and started talking uneasily, but then gained her regular confidant tone.
Judy: "Jimmy.we-well, you father and I have been talking and ...we think, that it might be best for you.." She stopped unsure if she should continue. Jimmy looked at her, his face now showing interest in what she was saying unlike before. "Well, we think..it might be best for you...if...if you go and see a psychiatrist " she finished uneasily.
Jimmy suddenly became angry and snapped at her
Jimmy: "You think I need to see a shrink?!"
Judy: "No..no no..not a shrink, a psychiatrist...just until you get over this little.um.slump your in" she said trying to reassure him of what he didn't want to hear.
Jimmy almost laughed
Jimmy: "What're..what do you think I am?....Crazy?!" he said a little bit not believing what his parents were suggesting
Hugh: "Nuts, crazy, wacko, loony, over the edge, outta line...you name it that's what we think of you!"
Judy: "Hugh!" she elbowed him as she said it "No, of course we don't think your crazy honey, we just think that you should be able to talk to some one while your going through such a difficult time in your life"
Jimmy: "Mom, for your information, I do not need anyone to talk to!" "Because there is nothing wrong with me" "Okay?" "I am fine" "I can't believe you guys actually think I need to go to one of those windbags"
Judy: "Jimmy we think it would be best for you"
Jimmy: "Mom, you two don't know anything" "You don't know what I need because if you did, you'd keep your mouth shut and just leave me alone!!" Jimmy then stood up and started to walk away
Judy: "Jimmy please! We're just trying to help you!" Jimmy: "You really want to help!?" "Fine" "Than just shut up and stay outta my life!!" he ran up to his room and slammed the door leaving his parents downstairs still completely lost within their sons tangled web. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Weeks went by of his mother trying to convince him to go to the psychiatrist then one day at supper he finally caved in.
Jimmy: "Ya know what mom..if it'll shut you up, I'll go" he said surrendering to his mothers suggestion
Judy: "Good, this will help you, you'll see" she said seeming happy and caring
Jimmy: "I don't need help" he muttered under his breath
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Saturday, at the psychiatrist
Jimmy: "I can't believe I have to waste half of my fuc-.." he stopped when his mother gave him a glare "My whole FREAKING Saturday here" he restated
Judy: "Jimmy! Lower your voice"
Jimmy: "What's it matter?" he complained "They already think I'm insane, so what's the difference" Jimmy groused all the way into the office
Judy went up to the receptionist and told them Jimmy had arrived, then she sat back down next to him in one of the chairs and picked up a "Martha Stewart Living" magazine and started reading it.
Receptionist 1: "That Neutron kid is here" she said quietly to her co- worker so no one else would hear.
Receptionist 2: "Isn't that the one who got in the car accident a few months ago?"
Receptionist 1: "Yup"
Receptionist 2: " Is that him!?" "Wow, he's a cutie." she said as she looked around at all the patients from behind the desk.
Receptionist 1: "Ya.why is it always the cute ones that have to go nuts?" she complained
Jimmy sat silently over in a chair by his mother, he kept looking out the window like he was nervous. The office was many shades of maroon, the cotton shades where maroon, the rug a little darker, the lights where dim and it was quiet. The only signifigant light source in the whole place was the one big open window that let light flood in like a cave opening, below the window where cars and the street and people busy, walking around, living their lives...happily. Jimmy looked and spied a certain group of people, it was a woman and her two children, they were walking down the street probably shopping, but they were laughing, and smiling. Jimmy was filled with jealousy, he wanted that happiness back. He wanted Cindy to be able to feel that happiness. Then he saw two more people, a man and a woman they were fighting.
Jimmy made a disgusted face. "How could they be so stupid" he thought "One second and there life could be ruined" "They are probably fighting about something nonsensical...what fools" "They should be happy to be alive"
Jimmy was so caught up in his own thoughts that he didn't even notice that one of the receptionists was calling him. Receptionist 1: "Mr.Neutron?" "Mr.Neutron the doctor will see you now"
Jimmy shook out of his trance and uneasily followed the receptionist to the doctor's office.
Jimmy was lead into an office, the walls were made of cherry wood, there where books everywhere. Jimmy smirked to himself because he had read most, if not all of the books that were on the shelves. There were degrees from numerous colleges and universities on the wall. Jimmy sat on the big long couch/chair in one corner of the room. There was a desk with a big chair behind it. Jimmy asumed that seat was for the doctor. He stared looking at the room until he heard the door knob turn and looked over and saw the door open and a man walked in. He walked over to Jimmy, he was tall, not as tall as Jimmy though, he had white-grayish hair and looked like a rich Englishman. He had small glasses that seemed to make his little face seem round.
Jimmy looked up at him suspiciously.
Man: "You must be James" the man extended his arm for Jimmy to shake
Jimmy: "It's Jimmy and..I presume that you must be the doctor?"
Man: "Yes, I am, my name is Dr. Edmund DeCalitpto" "But you can call be Eddie"
Jimmy: "Nice to meet you" he said as he shook the mans hand
Eddie: "Now, Jimmy...tell me a little about yourself"
Jimmy: "Well, I'm seventeen, and my parents are freaks, and they think I'm depressed" he said very bluntly
Eddie: "You seem very sure that your parents are trying to hurt you" Jimmy decided right off that he didn't like this "Eddie", he was too..too..he couldn't explain it..strange.
Jimmy: "You seem very sure you know what I'm thinking Mr.DeCalipto" he replied smart-alecky even though he didn't mean to.
Eddie started scribbling things down on his notepad. Jimmy became irritated by this. Jimmy disliked the fact that some one with an IQ probably 500 times lower than his was going to tell him what to do, when he didn't even want any help.
Eddie: "Tell me about your friends Jimmy" Jimmy paused and thought what to tell him before he spoke he didn't want anything he said to be turned around and shot back at him in a negative way.
Jimmy: "My best friend Carl, is basically my human guinea pig for all my experiments" "Sheen is overly obsessed with a doll, Libby won't talk to me.." He went to continue but Eddie stopped him and asked some questions of his own.
Eddie: "This Carl, now why do you experiment on him?"
Jimmy: "Um...because?" he said cluelessly
Eddie: "Do you feel the need to...unleash your anger on him, through experimentation?"
Jimmy: "What?!.No!" "What anger?!" "I'm not angry!" he said becoming frustrated
Eddie: "Now.Libby, is this girl special to you?" he said ignoring Jimmy's frustration
Jimmy: "No!.no.well, shes my friend..or she was.." He said trying to explain things
Eddie: "Why did you two break up?"
Jimmy: "What?! We never broke up because we NEVER went out!" he replied shocked
Eddie: "Ahhhh yes, denial"
Jimmy: "Libby was never my girlfriend!!" he snapped back angrily that Eddie didn't understand him
Eddie: "It's okay to think that, but don't you think, deep down you should admit your feelings towards her?"
Jimmy: "Libby and I DO NOT like each other you moron!" "We were never involved"
Eddie: "Why do you feel the need to call me names?" he asked calmly
Jimmy: "Because you won't listen to me!!" "Libby won't talk to me because I....I....I..killed Cindy!!!...in the car accident!!" he then started to cry "I did it!!" "I did!!" "I'm am SO SORRY!! "I didn't mean to!!!" "I..I...didn't see the car!!" "I swear!" "I swear I didn't!!"
Eddie: "Calm down Jimmy, I know.I know ..it's okay" he went to pat Jimmy on the shoulder but Jimmy backed away and stopped him
Jimmy: "No! No you don't know!" "You don't even know me!" "You just expect me to come in here and spill my guts to you! So you can brand me as some kind of psychopathic freak and I'll be put on medication for the rest of my life!" "Well, that's not gonna happen!!"
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About one week later
Jimmy: "And...and there is one thing..that bothers me.a lot."
Eddie: "And what is that Jimmy?"
Jimmy: "The nightmare..it's horrible"
Eddie: "Tell me about your nightmare Jimmy"
Jimmy: "Well, Cindy and I get in the car.....and..and we start to drive.and then we get past the sign that says "You are Now Leaving Retroville"..and..then...we start to fight." Jimmy stopped for a moment trying to gain enough courage to be able to tell some one about his dream. "And then...I look at her to yell at her..and we crash" "And I hold her in my arms..and...she.." "And then it just keeps replaying over and over and over again" "It's horrible" "I have it every night...every night." he said reflecting on the terrible nights he had because of this nightmare
Eddie: "Well, it seems to me, that if you stood up to your fears in your dream, than maybe you would stop having it"
Jimmy stood there and pondered his words. Then it was time for Jimmy to depart from his office, he left and walked home. There was snow on the ground and it was a chilly day out. He got home and put his snow jacket in the closet and walked into the kitchen. The day grew late and night crept up on Retroville.
Judy: "Jimmy dear, don't you think that maybe, you should start inventing things again?" she asked him as she put the dinner leftovers in the fridge.
Jimmy: "Mom, I stopped that, It used to make me happy...now nothing can" Yes. That's right, after the accident Jimmy stopped inventing, his lab had been sitting desolate and barren for months, never opened. He said that as he looked at his steaming hot chocolate, as he sat at the kitchen table twirling the marshmallows with his finger.
Judy sighed
Judy: "So, what did you talk about at therapy today?"
Jimmy: "It's confidential"
Judy shook her head at her son's dismay, he would never tell her anything anymore. Jimmy decided it was late and headed up to bed. He got on his pajamas, shut the lights and his door and got in bed for another miserable night's sleep. Jimmy laid awake in his bed, for hours not wanting to go to sleep to experience that horrible dream again. Jimmy thought of what Eddie had said.."try to conquer you fear in your dream" Eventually, no matter how hard he tried to stay awake, Jimmy became to tired and dosed off to sleep. He tossed and turned in his bed, groaning and making noises.
*JIMMY"S DREAM*
Cindy: "Your just getting mad for no reason!!"
Jimmy looked out the window, the car was speeding along the highway, Cindy was yelling at him.."here is comes again.the dream, the nightmare" he thought to himself
Cindy: "AND I was right!!"
Jimmy: "Alright Cindy! That's it!" Jimmy went to turn his head, but then what Eddie said rang out in his mind.." "Conquer his fears?" "What did that mean?" Instead of turning his head, Jimmy kept his eyes on the road.
Cindy: "Jimmy! Look out!"
There it was, the car. The evil, Jimmy's enemy.
Jimmy grabbed the steering wheel and swerved to the LEFT not to the RIGHT this time. The car jerked and made a violent turn onto the next lane. After Jimmy did that the he drove around the stalled car and continued driving in the next lane.
Jimmy: "I did it!.I did it!" he cried happily "I did it! I conquered my fear!!" he said to himslef. All of a sudden Jimmy's entire dream went white. He was in a white room. He opened his eyes and tried to see something. He stood up and looked around, turning around and looking at his surroundings. Everything was white. He couldn't understand what was happening.
Jimmy then saw a figure, it was coming closer, first he was scared, then he became curious. The figure came closer and he could almost make out what it was.it was a young woman. She came closer, she was wearing a beautiful white gown.it was long and flowing even though there was no wind. She was beautiful, she looked like an ...angel. She had gorgeous long shiny blonde hair and dazzling, sparkly emerald green eyes. She was walking barefoot, Her hair in a headband. It almost looked like ....Cindy.
Jimmy stood amazed at this girls beauty.
Jimmy: "Cindy?" he said quietly. "Cindy!?" "It was, It was Cindy" "It has to be" he thought
She came close to him and look into his eyes.
Jimmy: "Oh Cindy!" "I..I.."
Cindy: "Shhhhhh" She pushed her fingers to his lips
Cindy: "Jimmy, you are such a good boy" "I didn't want you to be this way" she said in a supernatural sounding voice, the voice resembled that of her own, but it seemed different, almost, eerie.
Cindy: "Jimmy, I want you to be happy" "Please, stop grieving over me"
Jimmy: "But Cindy..I..I just miss you so much" he went to reach for her, but she backed away.
Cindy: "No Jimmy, you have to stop this" "I know you love me" "But you can't live your life wishing for the past to change"
Jimmy: "But Cindy" he then started to cry gently, he missed her so much, and now that she was in front of him, he couldn't bear not to touch her but she wouldn't let him.
Cindy: "Jimmy you are so sweet, that's why you're here"
Jimmy looked up at her confused
Jimmy: "What....do you mean?"
Cindy: "That's why he let you stay, it wasn't your time"
Jimmy was confused he didn't know what she was saying to him
Cindy: "I've been watching you Jimmy" "You have changed" "You have to stop being miserable" "You are a magnificant person, and you are very important" then the ghost like Cindy's face turned sad and emotion almost passed it. "I..miss you too" "I love you Jimmy, I miss you so much" "One day we will be together again"
Jimmy looked into her eyes they started to water.
Cindy: "Jimmy I...Jimmy" she seemed as though she couldn't say to him what she wanted to
Jimmy: "Cindy, can't you tell me when?"
Cindy: "We are all prisoners of time Jimmy"
Then her white face started to become sad again, Jimmy saw tears start to stream down her face, he went in closer to her and wrapped his hand around her waist. He was crying too. He brought her in close, she felt so weak. He leaned his head in and they kissed, and when they did ,white beams of light started to shine everywhere like magic.
*END JIMMY'S DREAM*
The bright light from Jimmy's window shone down on his face and woke him up in a start. But when he opened his eyes he almost thought he heard a voice it sounded like Cindy's "We'll be together some day Jimmy" it said. Jimmy was amazed. He got out of bed and looked around he realized it had all been a dream. He never really saw Cindy again, but it felt so real, maybe it was?
Jimmy went to the mirror
Jimmy: "It was a dream.." he said completely stunned "It was all a dream!!" he shouted sadly/angrily. "Why does this happen to me?!" "My mind tricked me into thinking I saw her!" "I never will!" "Shes gone forever..." "She's....gone...forever" he said finally realizing what that meant.
Jimmy's eye twitched. He walked over to the window, he looked out it as the early morning sun trickcled down his face.
Jimmy: "I can't wait anymore..we will be together Cindy" "Today" he said with determination. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Jimmy waited through the day until it was dark outside. The night was cold.
Jimmy: "Mom! I'm going out"
Judy: "Alright" she said surprised that Jimmy was going out since he never did anymore. "When will you be.." But before she could finish her sentence Jimmy charged out the front door slamming it behind him. "Back?" his mother said puzzled
Jimmy walked down the icy sidewalk with a look of determination on his face, it was dark outside, about 11:00. He trudged along without saying anything, breathing heavily.
Someone spied Jimmy in their car and decided to follow him.
Jimmy didn't notice the car following him. He finally got to the bridge that crossed over the town River. He walked to middle of it and just looked at the water for a long time. Then he reached into his pocket and pulled out a small gun. He put it to his head near his right temple and closed his eyes tight.
Jimmy: "I am not going to be a prisoner of time Cindy" "We will be together soon" he took the gun and pressed it to his head hard. He started to tighten his index finger, making the trigger more apt to making the gun go off, he was just about to pull his index finger taut when out of the nowhere came
Voice: "JIMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Jimmy quickly fumbled the gun and turned around startled and surprised
Voice: JIMMY!! JIMMY!! DON'T DO IT!!!
Jimmy looked around frantically trying to find who was speaking to him, and then he heard the clanking of high-top shoes coming towards him. He turned around and saw a terrified looking Libby a few feet in front of him.
Libby: " Jimmy! ...thank God..." she said as she came closer to him, out of breath from running.
Libby had tears in her eyes and she was crying
Libby: "I forgive you Jimmy!..I forgive you." she ran up to him and embraced him in a huge hug
Jimmy realized what he was about to do to himself and started to cry, he dropped the gun to the cold wet tar ground and squeezed Libby back tight.
Jimmy: "Thank you Libby" "Thank you"
Libby was crying into his chest and he had his head on hers, they were locked in a tight hug, crying in each other's arms.
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Jimmy and Libby went to a small café and went to have a cappacino. They are sitting together at a table.
Libby: "What were you thinking?"
Jimmy: "I....I.....don't know.." "Something just pushed me over the edge"
Libby: "I am so glad I found you"
Jimmy: "Me too" then Jimmy smiled at her, she was surprised he did and smiled back
Jimmy and Libby sat quiet
Jimmy: "I don't know how I'll ever be able to thank you"
Libby: "Just..forgive me, for being so ignorant to you Jimmy, it wasn't you fault"
Jimmy started to think of something, then he started to think out loud
Jimmy: "That's not what she meant..." "We are all prisoners of time".."What did she mean?".."Think Jimmy..think.."
Libby: "Jimmy what are yo' talkin' bout?' she asked him while looking at him strangely
Jimmy: "Think..think..." "I KNOW!!" he shouted happily "I know!!!" "We are all prisoners of time!!!" "That's what she meant!!" he was shouting so happily, he was almost laughing. Libby looked at Jimmy like he was going insane. Jimmy seemed so happy.
Jimmy got up and ran out
Libby: "Na-ah! You ain't goin' nowhere without me!" she got up and ran after him.
Libby: "Where are we going?!" she screamed as she shouted after him
Jimmy ran down the dark street with Libby close behind, running towards his greatest discovery yet....
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Chapter 3 is finished!!! Yay!!! It will get happy, I promise!! ^^ Please R/R!! Happy Holidays!! *~Cindy V.~*