Coward 4
Barry's a great guy. I'm lucky to have found him. I'm not getting any younger. I don't want to be alone. I just wish it was Bosco standing at the front of this church waiting for me. Wishes don't get you anywhere. I can't believe this is happening.
Please look at me, Bosco. Don't look at me, Bosco. If I look at you I might not be able to do this. Barry's a great guy. He must be. All these years I knew Bosco was behind every time some guy didn't call me after the first date. I'm lucky to have found Barry. I can't let anyone know how miserable I am.
I'm not his type. I know that. I'm not blond or super model thin. I'm old enough to be a grandma. I had Emily when I was younger the Emily is now. Look at her. She's so beautiful. I can't believe she made all the dresses. I never even knew she liked to sew or draw. Bosco knew and got her that contraption. I don't even want to know how much that thing cost. The music starts and I see Emily walk down the aisle.
All these years he's been there for me. "We're partners" was his reason for doing everything. Moron, I can't wait any longer for him. If he doesn't want me, that's his loss. Anyway, I'm marrying a great guy. I'm lucky to have found him.
After Fred died, Bosco stopped telling me about the women in his life. It was like he closed a door. Part of me was happy not to have to listen to his graphic descriptions, but I know he's no boy scout. He had to have had other women. Maybe he was just waiting to get me and the kids taken care of so he can get back to his life. Those nights when he found his way to my room were just loneliness. Every time he climbed out of my bed in the middle of the night, it broke another piece of my heart, but I couldn't ever turn him down. I love him, but I can't take the heartache anymore. Why won't he even look at me?
I have to make him look at me. If he doesn't say anything, then that's it. I'll know. "Bosco, help me with my veil. You're supposed to be my attendant." He looks sad, but he doesn't say anything. We were just partners to him I guess. "Thanks, Bos, for everything." He never met my gaze just turned around with a nod and headed down the aisle. That's it. No more wishes, it's time for reality.
"Are you sure you want to do this, mom?"
No, of course not, is Charlie reading my mind? My heart is shattered into a million pieces, but at least I won't be alone. With Emily almost done with college and Charlie leaving in August, I wouldn't have anyone. Bosco would eventually find someone wouldn't he? Then where would I be? "Why wouldn't I want to? He's a great guy. I'm lucky to have found him." My mantra he's a great guy I'm lucky to have found him. "It's time, baby, let's go."
As we walk down the aisle, I can't look at Bosco. I know if I look, I won't be able to go through with this. So I paste on a smile and stare at my "Great Guy." He is a nice guy. He'd have to be or Bosco would have run him off. If Bosco approves of this guy, I guess I'm lucky to have found him. Smile and walk all the way to the front of the church, Faith. I don't think the kids like him. Charlie idolizes Bosco and Emily; well I don't know what to think of Emily. She's changed so much. I don't know what she thinks. She made me a beautiful dress though. Maybe that means she approves.
The minister starts speaking. "Dearly beloved, we are gathered her today because Faith has decided to settle for another loveless marriage." I must be hallucinating. The minister did not just say that because no one looks surprised. My chest aches. I can feel heat from Bosco standing at my side. I don't know if I can do this. "If any man here can show reason why these two should not be joined in matrimony, let him speak now or forever hold his peace." What am I doing here?
"Faith, I'm in love with you."
Am I still hallucinating? Did Bosco just say he's in love with me? Everyone is looking at him. He must have said it. Maurice Boscorelli just told me he loved me.
Maurice Boscorelli waited until I was standing at the front of a church surrounded by our friends and family to tell me he loved me. I'm going to kill him. Emily didn't design this dress with any place to put my gun. I'm just going to have to strangle him - or kiss him. It's a toss up.
Barry's a great guy. I'm lucky to have found him. I'm not getting any younger. I don't want to be alone. I just wish it was Bosco standing at the front of this church waiting for me. Wishes don't get you anywhere. I can't believe this is happening.
Please look at me, Bosco. Don't look at me, Bosco. If I look at you I might not be able to do this. Barry's a great guy. He must be. All these years I knew Bosco was behind every time some guy didn't call me after the first date. I'm lucky to have found Barry. I can't let anyone know how miserable I am.
I'm not his type. I know that. I'm not blond or super model thin. I'm old enough to be a grandma. I had Emily when I was younger the Emily is now. Look at her. She's so beautiful. I can't believe she made all the dresses. I never even knew she liked to sew or draw. Bosco knew and got her that contraption. I don't even want to know how much that thing cost. The music starts and I see Emily walk down the aisle.
All these years he's been there for me. "We're partners" was his reason for doing everything. Moron, I can't wait any longer for him. If he doesn't want me, that's his loss. Anyway, I'm marrying a great guy. I'm lucky to have found him.
After Fred died, Bosco stopped telling me about the women in his life. It was like he closed a door. Part of me was happy not to have to listen to his graphic descriptions, but I know he's no boy scout. He had to have had other women. Maybe he was just waiting to get me and the kids taken care of so he can get back to his life. Those nights when he found his way to my room were just loneliness. Every time he climbed out of my bed in the middle of the night, it broke another piece of my heart, but I couldn't ever turn him down. I love him, but I can't take the heartache anymore. Why won't he even look at me?
I have to make him look at me. If he doesn't say anything, then that's it. I'll know. "Bosco, help me with my veil. You're supposed to be my attendant." He looks sad, but he doesn't say anything. We were just partners to him I guess. "Thanks, Bos, for everything." He never met my gaze just turned around with a nod and headed down the aisle. That's it. No more wishes, it's time for reality.
"Are you sure you want to do this, mom?"
No, of course not, is Charlie reading my mind? My heart is shattered into a million pieces, but at least I won't be alone. With Emily almost done with college and Charlie leaving in August, I wouldn't have anyone. Bosco would eventually find someone wouldn't he? Then where would I be? "Why wouldn't I want to? He's a great guy. I'm lucky to have found him." My mantra he's a great guy I'm lucky to have found him. "It's time, baby, let's go."
As we walk down the aisle, I can't look at Bosco. I know if I look, I won't be able to go through with this. So I paste on a smile and stare at my "Great Guy." He is a nice guy. He'd have to be or Bosco would have run him off. If Bosco approves of this guy, I guess I'm lucky to have found him. Smile and walk all the way to the front of the church, Faith. I don't think the kids like him. Charlie idolizes Bosco and Emily; well I don't know what to think of Emily. She's changed so much. I don't know what she thinks. She made me a beautiful dress though. Maybe that means she approves.
The minister starts speaking. "Dearly beloved, we are gathered her today because Faith has decided to settle for another loveless marriage." I must be hallucinating. The minister did not just say that because no one looks surprised. My chest aches. I can feel heat from Bosco standing at my side. I don't know if I can do this. "If any man here can show reason why these two should not be joined in matrimony, let him speak now or forever hold his peace." What am I doing here?
"Faith, I'm in love with you."
Am I still hallucinating? Did Bosco just say he's in love with me? Everyone is looking at him. He must have said it. Maurice Boscorelli just told me he loved me.
Maurice Boscorelli waited until I was standing at the front of a church surrounded by our friends and family to tell me he loved me. I'm going to kill him. Emily didn't design this dress with any place to put my gun. I'm just going to have to strangle him - or kiss him. It's a toss up.