Disclaimer in first chapter.
A/N: I decided to write and post the rest of the story, approx. 10 chapters, today, so that my ideas won't be altered by viewing the episode tomorrow. I would still love tog et reviews though, they make my work feel worthwhile.
An Empty Heart and an Un-broken Heart
Fumbling Towards Ecstasy:
"Why did you do that Spike?"
" Cuz I wanted to, and you needed to."
"This is insane."
All the fear has left me now I'm not frightened anymore It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh it's my mouth that pushes out this breath
"Why do I act like your suddenly okay now that you have a soul. Does it erase the fact that you tried to rape me?" Spike looked away. She continued, "Didn't Hitler have a soul when he massacred millions? Doesn't Saddam have a soul? Hell, Hanibal probably even had a soul."
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love
"An yet once again, I find my lips craving yours. I find myself wanting you, and seeking you out. The one 'man' who did the most awful thing to me in my three lives is the one I trust the most. Why the hell do I crave you so much?"
Companion to our demons they will dance, and we will play With chairs, candles, and cloth making darkness in the day It will be easy to look in or out upstream or down without a thought
She was crying again now. " You're my born enemy. It is my title to slay you. You are the slayer of slayers, it's your title to slay me. And somehow this screwed up world brings us together as partners, as lovers? I have so much trouble accepting that." Her voice had slowly crescendoed until now she was yelling.
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love
" But you're the only one who has ever given me any comfort, any peace. With you I can embrace the darkness that was bestowed upon me and live without restraints."
Peace in the struggle to find peace comfort on the way to comfort
"So now I'm tired of hiding it. Damn it Spike I love you." She sat down on the leather couch in the room.
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love I won't fear love I won't fear love...
He sat down nest to her.
"I'm glad you finally acknowledged that. You know I love you to with the whole of my existence, I love you more than the world, more than anything I can comprehend. And I know you know that. So what now?"
"Can you just hold me now?"
He put his arm around her and she scooted into his loving embrace and felt more comfort than any slayer had ever been allowed.
A/N: I decided to write and post the rest of the story, approx. 10 chapters, today, so that my ideas won't be altered by viewing the episode tomorrow. I would still love tog et reviews though, they make my work feel worthwhile.
An Empty Heart and an Un-broken Heart
Fumbling Towards Ecstasy:
"Why did you do that Spike?"
" Cuz I wanted to, and you needed to."
"This is insane."
All the fear has left me now I'm not frightened anymore It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh it's my mouth that pushes out this breath
"Why do I act like your suddenly okay now that you have a soul. Does it erase the fact that you tried to rape me?" Spike looked away. She continued, "Didn't Hitler have a soul when he massacred millions? Doesn't Saddam have a soul? Hell, Hanibal probably even had a soul."
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love
"An yet once again, I find my lips craving yours. I find myself wanting you, and seeking you out. The one 'man' who did the most awful thing to me in my three lives is the one I trust the most. Why the hell do I crave you so much?"
Companion to our demons they will dance, and we will play With chairs, candles, and cloth making darkness in the day It will be easy to look in or out upstream or down without a thought
She was crying again now. " You're my born enemy. It is my title to slay you. You are the slayer of slayers, it's your title to slay me. And somehow this screwed up world brings us together as partners, as lovers? I have so much trouble accepting that." Her voice had slowly crescendoed until now she was yelling.
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love
" But you're the only one who has ever given me any comfort, any peace. With you I can embrace the darkness that was bestowed upon me and live without restraints."
Peace in the struggle to find peace comfort on the way to comfort
"So now I'm tired of hiding it. Damn it Spike I love you." She sat down on the leather couch in the room.
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it I won't fear love and if I feel a rage I won't deny it I won't fear love I won't fear love I won't fear love...
He sat down nest to her.
"I'm glad you finally acknowledged that. You know I love you to with the whole of my existence, I love you more than the world, more than anything I can comprehend. And I know you know that. So what now?"
"Can you just hold me now?"
He put his arm around her and she scooted into his loving embrace and felt more comfort than any slayer had ever been allowed.