Disclaimer in chapter one.
An Empty Heart and an Un-beating Heart
Sweet Surrender:
".then they showed me a vision. It had thousands of the ubervamps. An army of them, it took all my effort to defeat one alone, how can I conquer thousands?"
"We'll figure it out luv, your good at that, s'one of the reasons I love you so much."
"We just need an super-uber vamp on our side, is all, you know, beyond slayer powers, beyond vampire powers, and of course with a soul and the will to fight for the good side. Should be easy to find right, why don't we look in a Sears catalog and see if we can special order it." she ranted sarcastically.
"Yeah, Sears, that's where Angelus and I picked up our souls you know, it was a two for the price of one sale."
The two warriors smiled wryly a each other. They played with each other's hands for a while, lost in their own thoughts, enjoying their time together. They had spent the night curled up on the motel room bed together, enjoying the presence of their lover.
Suddenly a new thought occurred to the slayer. "Spike, why didn't you turn either of the slayers you killed?"
"Turn 'em? Who would be stupid enough to unleash a turned slayer, she'd be all but invincible." He paused and realized what he just said. "Don't you dare even explore that thought Slayer!" He got off the bed and started pacing around the room.
"Invincable? More power than a slayer, more power than a vamp. It's perfect, this is my way to become part demon like I was supposed to."
"What about a soul and the will to fight for the good side, you know vampires don't do that pet, or have you forgotten?"
"You do."
"I'm in love with the most righteous person in the world, how could I not."
"Well I'm in love with the most soulful, even before Africa, vampire in the world, in history. I'm a slayer, I have to be twice as good as he rest of the world, totally selfless you know! I think enough of that will stay with me! Spike I love you and you love me! You are a vampire! I know you want to sink your teeth into my flesh, it's what your all about, The slayer of Slayers."
"And what about your friends and family luv?" She stopped to ponder his question.
//It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home//
'What friends and family Spike, you're the only love left in my life, and I want to spend eternity with you. Spike please make me a vampire."
She got off the bed and started walking towards him.
//And sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
"I want you to know luv," he started as she reached him and put her arms around him in a sweet embrace. "that I am only doing this because I think you have eight times the soul of any other being that has ever lived. You were a good girl to start with I'm sure. Then you got called as a slayer and had to risk your life every night to save the people of the world, a thankless job. That made you twice as soulful as before. And then you became the first slayer ever to have real friends, family, and a life. That made you twice as soulful as you were just as a slayer. And then you had to be a mom to a teenage girl when you were only twenty years old, that doubles it again. If you have one eight of the soul as a vampire that you do as a human, then the world should be saved, if not, then we'll walk hand in hand into the sunlight."
When he finished his speech, Buffy had tears in her eyes. That was the most beautiful thing anyone had ever said to her. She kissed him softly and pulled her golden locks aside, offering him neck. He kissed it, then morphed into game face and sunk his fangs into the tender flesh.
//You take me in no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees
And sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
When he had almost drained her delicious blood, he pulled back, still in game face and slit his arm with one of his fangs.
//Sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
She accepted the blood hungrily, enjoying the taste of her lover's blood in her mouth. After she had drunken a good amount, she collapsed in his arms, dead.
//And I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall //
Spike lay her down on the fresh cotton sheets, pulling the comforter over her protectively. He wondered what she would be like as a vampire, his vampiress. He hoped she would still be as witty and friendly, and shy. Nobody but Spike thought of her as shy, but he knew better, underneath the tough slayer was a scared little Buffy. Not anymore he realized, now underneath the brave slayer would be a hungry demon.
// I miss the little things
I miss everything about you. //
"Hungry" he thought, " I better go get her some blood." He left the room, she would be gone for about 24 hours he figured.
// It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room//
He hoped he would come back to a woman who still loved him, to a woman that he could still love as deeply as he had loved his slayer, who had once again given up her life to save a world that outcast her.
//And sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give
sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
A/N: Ok, the episode is about to start, I know what I'm doing for the next chapter and how it will go , yeah xanya, but I still dunno how I'm gunna end it. So I hope the new epi won't make me lose all passion for this fic. 2 more chapters.
An Empty Heart and an Un-beating Heart
Sweet Surrender:
".then they showed me a vision. It had thousands of the ubervamps. An army of them, it took all my effort to defeat one alone, how can I conquer thousands?"
"We'll figure it out luv, your good at that, s'one of the reasons I love you so much."
"We just need an super-uber vamp on our side, is all, you know, beyond slayer powers, beyond vampire powers, and of course with a soul and the will to fight for the good side. Should be easy to find right, why don't we look in a Sears catalog and see if we can special order it." she ranted sarcastically.
"Yeah, Sears, that's where Angelus and I picked up our souls you know, it was a two for the price of one sale."
The two warriors smiled wryly a each other. They played with each other's hands for a while, lost in their own thoughts, enjoying their time together. They had spent the night curled up on the motel room bed together, enjoying the presence of their lover.
Suddenly a new thought occurred to the slayer. "Spike, why didn't you turn either of the slayers you killed?"
"Turn 'em? Who would be stupid enough to unleash a turned slayer, she'd be all but invincible." He paused and realized what he just said. "Don't you dare even explore that thought Slayer!" He got off the bed and started pacing around the room.
"Invincable? More power than a slayer, more power than a vamp. It's perfect, this is my way to become part demon like I was supposed to."
"What about a soul and the will to fight for the good side, you know vampires don't do that pet, or have you forgotten?"
"You do."
"I'm in love with the most righteous person in the world, how could I not."
"Well I'm in love with the most soulful, even before Africa, vampire in the world, in history. I'm a slayer, I have to be twice as good as he rest of the world, totally selfless you know! I think enough of that will stay with me! Spike I love you and you love me! You are a vampire! I know you want to sink your teeth into my flesh, it's what your all about, The slayer of Slayers."
"And what about your friends and family luv?" She stopped to ponder his question.
//It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home//
'What friends and family Spike, you're the only love left in my life, and I want to spend eternity with you. Spike please make me a vampire."
She got off the bed and started walking towards him.
//And sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
"I want you to know luv," he started as she reached him and put her arms around him in a sweet embrace. "that I am only doing this because I think you have eight times the soul of any other being that has ever lived. You were a good girl to start with I'm sure. Then you got called as a slayer and had to risk your life every night to save the people of the world, a thankless job. That made you twice as soulful as before. And then you became the first slayer ever to have real friends, family, and a life. That made you twice as soulful as you were just as a slayer. And then you had to be a mom to a teenage girl when you were only twenty years old, that doubles it again. If you have one eight of the soul as a vampire that you do as a human, then the world should be saved, if not, then we'll walk hand in hand into the sunlight."
When he finished his speech, Buffy had tears in her eyes. That was the most beautiful thing anyone had ever said to her. She kissed him softly and pulled her golden locks aside, offering him neck. He kissed it, then morphed into game face and sunk his fangs into the tender flesh.
//You take me in no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees
And sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
When he had almost drained her delicious blood, he pulled back, still in game face and slit his arm with one of his fangs.
//Sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
She accepted the blood hungrily, enjoying the taste of her lover's blood in her mouth. After she had drunken a good amount, she collapsed in his arms, dead.
//And I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall //
Spike lay her down on the fresh cotton sheets, pulling the comforter over her protectively. He wondered what she would be like as a vampire, his vampiress. He hoped she would still be as witty and friendly, and shy. Nobody but Spike thought of her as shy, but he knew better, underneath the tough slayer was a scared little Buffy. Not anymore he realized, now underneath the brave slayer would be a hungry demon.
// I miss the little things
I miss everything about you. //
"Hungry" he thought, " I better go get her some blood." He left the room, she would be gone for about 24 hours he figured.
// It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room//
He hoped he would come back to a woman who still loved him, to a woman that he could still love as deeply as he had loved his slayer, who had once again given up her life to save a world that outcast her.
//And sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give
sweeeeeet surrender
is all that I have to give//
A/N: Ok, the episode is about to start, I know what I'm doing for the next chapter and how it will go , yeah xanya, but I still dunno how I'm gunna end it. So I hope the new epi won't make me lose all passion for this fic. 2 more chapters.