Disclaimer: I don't own any of the wrestlers or their spouses. I do own Heather and Brad.



Chapter 3

Starting Over



These last few months have gone fairly well, living here in Florida with my brother and Denise. Jay, of course, is more protective of me than ever, but I guess it's because he cares. I still am afraid of being near alot of guys, with the exception of Jay and Adam. Last night Jay announced that since the latest PPV was going to be 'so close to home,' as he put it, that he was going to have some of the guys over tonight. I just wish I knew how to get out of it.

"Heather?" Jay asked, as he knocked on my bedroom door. "Just a sec." I replied, putting my journal away. "Come on in." "Angel. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable last night when I said that some of the boys are coming over." Jay said, apologetically. "It's okay Jase. I know that none of your friends are like Brad. I'm doing better though, being around guys that aren't you or Adam, is helping me trust again." I said, looking at my brother, hoping he believed me. "Okay Heath. Well just to let you know, the guys will be getting here in about an hour." Jay said, giving me a hug before he left my room. As soon as he was gun, I threw myself on my bed and started crying. I had just done the one thing I could never do, look my brother in the eye, and lie to him.

"Honey. Would you go see if Heather is coming?" Jay asked his wife. "Sure." Denise replied, as she excused herself from Adam's wife, Alanah.

"Heather sweetie, are you coming out?" Denise asked, as she knocked on my door. "Heather?" Denise asked again, this time opening my door. When she did, she noticed the tears, that had not stopped falling since I lied to Jason earlier that day. "Heather, what's wrong?" Denise asked, rushing over to me. "I can't tell you." I said, knowing that I could tell her anything, and she wouldn't tell Jay unless I wanted her too. "Heath, come on and tell me. I can't help you unless you tell me what's wrong." Denise said, matter-of-factally. "I lied to Jay, Neese and he didn't even notice." I said, crying even more. "What did you lie to him about?" Denise asked me, wrapping her arms around me in a hug. "I told him I'd be okay with all these guys here, when, with the exception of Jay, Adam, Chris, Jeff, and Matt I don't know any of them. So the thought of being out there like that scares me." I said, in between sobs. "Okay, you know me and Alanah and Chris brought his wife Jessica, and I think I heard Matt say that Amy is going to be here in a little bit. There's some girls for you to hang with." Denise said, with a reassuring smile. "Besides, Jay won't let any of the guys near you." She finished with a slight laugh.

When we finally got out in the living room, Adam was the first to notice us. "Hey baby girl!" He exclaimed, giving me a big hug. "Hey to you too, Addy." I replied, returning his hug. "How are you doing?" Adam asked, as he released the hug. "I'm doing okay, I'm here." I replied quietly, still taking in all the guys that were there. 'God, did he invite the whole damn roster?' I thought to myself, as I looked around and noticed Mark and Devon talking to Matt and Chris, and Jeff was saying something to Rob, I think I even saw Mark Calloway in the kitchen doorway. 'This is not going to be as easy as Neese said it would be.' I said to myself, as Jeff Hardy walked up to us. "Hey Adam." He said, giving him some weird handshake. "Heather." He said, turning towards me. "It's great to see you again." "It's great to see you too, Jeff." I said, slowly giving him a hug. As I did this, I couldn't see the confused look on Jeff's face or Adam mouthing "let her tell you."

I should probably explain why Jeff and I are so close. See a few years ago, when Jay and Adam along with Matt and Jeff had the very first tag team ladder match, I had been traveling with Jay then and since Jeff and I are close in age we just started hanging out, but when I started dating Brad, I was no longer aloud to talk to Jeff or go on the road with my brother.

After awhile things seemed to be going okay, I mean after all only Jay, Denise, Adam, and Alanah knew why I was really there. I had just sat down to talk to Amy and Jessica, when I heard Brad's voice demanding to know where I was at. "I want to see Heather now!" Brad bellowed at Jay. "I guess I didn't make myself very clear the last time, you are to leave Heather alone!" Jay yelled at him, blocking his entrance. By this time however, Adam and Jeff had walked up to the front door curious as to what was going on. Of course as soon as Adam saw him he exploded, "What in the hell are you doing here?" He yelled, as I walked up behind him. "Heather tell these assholes that you want to come home with me." He said, as he grabbed my arm. When he did this, he squeezed it so tight, I thought he was going to break my arm. Well Jay noticed and said the one thing I didn't want Jeff or anyone else to know. "You are not going to put another bruise on her body, you sick son of a bitch!" Jay yelled, pulling me away from Brad and punching him in the face. When I was away from them, I did the only thing I knew how to do, run away. I didn't even hear Jeff behind me calling my name.