Cruel Beauty
Rating: PG-13
Summery: Alternate Universe. When Ginny was six years old her parents died and she was left in the care of her mother's beautiful yet cruel sister. She raises Ginny with misguided views on love, will Ginny be able to love or is she too late to save?
Disclaimer: Anything that you recognize is not mine
A/N A major thank you to Darcel who reminded me that they aren't allowed to use magic at home. I had forgotten about this rule and I don't really feel like changing it; but if it really bothers you then just pretend that she got a warning from the ministry. Also sorry that the last chapter was a bit slow, but it was more of a transitional piece than anything else. Oh and this chapter contains a lot of diary entries, sorry if this bores you, but I think that they are interesting!
Chapter Fifteen
Mother and Father
There was a time I was happy in my life
There was a time I believed I'd live forever
There was a time I prayed to Jesus Christ
There was a time I had a mother
It was nice Madonna
Dear Diary,
My life is too dramatic. This is my fifth diary this year and I still have four months of school left! But I need to vent somewhere and this seems like a logical choice.
Velena makes me so angry! I hate her with a passion that I never thought possible. She has forbid me to see Arthur! She thinks that just because she is two years older than me that she can tell me what to do. She's just jealous because the boy that she has a crush on likes me instead of her. Ha ha to Velena, she thinks that she is the most beautiful person in school, but if that's true then how come Lucius is always after me, when it's obvious that she likes him.
Speaking of the sliver haired Slytherin. I am so confused about Lucius and Arthur; one day I want one of them, and the next I want the other. Lucius is handsome, wealthy, powerful, and the type of person that I am supposed to be with. But Arthur…he's so kind and open; but he is also poor. He would give a complete stranger the shirt off of his back and there is just something alluring about that. He shares his feelings with the world and he would jump up on the table and announce his love for me to the world if I asked him to. Lucius would probably curse me for even thinking about it.
Is it so wrong to want to be loved? I know that Evansoles don't even believe in the feeling, but I yearn for it. It is the forbidden fruit and I am weak. So I say give me the damn apple snake; I'm going after Arthur.
I put the diary down in shock. My mother was interested in Lucius Malfoy? My boyfriend's father; that practically felt like incest! I felt the incessant need to wash out my mouth as the possibility of Draco being my half brother came to my mind.
But that thought wasn't really rational, if Draco had any trace on my mother in him there was no way that he would have that white hair. I breathed a sigh of relief but my disgust was quickly replaced by confusion; why was Lucius interested in my mother anyway and just how did Draco get this diary?
I skipped ahead a few pages in the diary because the next entries were basically talking about the same things as the first.
Dear Diary,
Lucius and Arthur fought again today. I don't know what to do anymore, I truly care for Arthur, but I feel as though my feelings for him keep getting him hurt. He is no match for Lucius when it comes to magic. The Malfoy's are extremely powerful and it is unwise to take one on; I'm afraid that he is going to get badly hurt or worse.
I don't see why Lucius doesn't just move on to Velena; they really do deserve each other. I used to think that I might be able to have feelings for him, but when compared to Arthur his evilness seems to just jump out at me.
I curse the day that I was born an Evansole. Our family has dark secrets that I do not wish to be a part of it anymore. Velena's threats have gotten worse; she has promised that she will reveal to Arthur all the horrible things that our family has done. He won't want me when he finds out the evil that resides in my blood. Why can't I just be normal?
I checked the dates on the entries and saw that my mother was in her fifth year when this was written. It seemed that she knew pretty much the entire history of the Evansole family. I knew the rules but I had no clue about our past and what evil deeds had occurred. What was Velena hiding?
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I hid the diary deep in my room. I took every precaution necessary to make sure that my aunt couldn't find it.
Summer continued and I read only a few pages of my mother's world each day. I wanted to savor it; it made me feel like I knew her. I felt as though she was confiding these things in me and not a book. By the middle of the diary it became similar to reading some tragic love story. The romance between my mother and Arthur blossomed and to read her descriptions of the forbidden love was amazing. It was all so passionate and like some sort of fairytale.
Discovering her views of Arthur Weasley made me look at the man a little differently. I knew that he was my father, but I never acknowledged him as such. "If people ask, you have no father. And with the one that you did have, trust me, you are better off believing that." Velena pounded that thought into my head the second that I had been put in her care. She was wrong about a lot of things; I had learned this long ago. What made him so bad; the fact that he was poor? Was I really that narrow minded?
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Dear Diary,
Apparently the fact that I am not the same as the rest of my family is more known than I originally thought. A man approached me today and discussed with me the possibility of me giving him information about my family.
My Evansole pride, reluctant as it may be, kept me from telling him anything. But the mere fact that he thought that I was a good enough person to help him take down the rest of the Evansoles made me so happy. Maybe the evil in my genes is not as permanent as I had thought.
I'm not telling Arthur about my encounter. He would encourage me to turn in my family; release the long buried Evansole secrets. As much as I loathe my family and the idiotic values that we share; they are still family, and I don't think that I can turn my back on them.
The rest of the diary became almost sickening with the love between my mother and Arthur. Believe me when I say that she left out no details when it came to their relationship.
Her feud with her sister continued and by the end of the diary they were no longer on speaking terms. My mother lost her "Evansole pride" slowly; she felt betrayed by Velena's open disownment of her, pending her relationship with Arthur.
She had once felt obligated to protect the family but once she saw that they would not protect her, she didn't see the point in shielding them and their dirty laundry from harm. I finally reached the last entry and it was just after her sixteenth birthday.
Dear Diary,
I'M GETTING MARRIED!!! Arthur proposed to me tonight! I am so excited that I know there is no possibility of sleep in my future. Mrs. Molly Weasley; it has a nice tone to it, don't you think? I am so excited to get rid of my last name. I feel like I'm getting a new chance in life, I no longer have to worry about my former family and all of their rules and regulations.
It doesn't seem fair that you have to wait until seventeen to get married. That means that I must wait a full year before I can fully be rid of my "family." But the mere thought of it will get me through.
I wonder how many children Arthur and I will have? I hope that it's a lot! I have always wanted a big loving family and I know that I now have the chance at it. I am so excited to get the opportunity at parenthood; I know that I will be a great mother! I am going to make sure that my children never have to experience the things that I went through. They are going to believe in love and they are going to get a first hand demonstration of it through their parents!
I felt the unwanted tears well up in my eyes. My mother did get her big family, but it was hardly loving. I wouldn't talk to my brothers and I acted as though I didn't even have a father.
Her words seemed so innocent. Was she really asking for that much, to have a caring family? I felt like a horrible daughter, I was denying my dead mother the only thing that she truly wanted out of life.
I cried for all of the mistakes that I had made in the past few years. I wished that I wouldn't have gotten the reputation as a first class bitch at school. I didn't want to be the person that people hated. I only needed one finger to count the number of people who cared about me. Draco was all I had and there was a time when I felt weak because I had a dependency upon him.
My mother had envisioned a life for me that was full of friends and love. Instead I had taken residence in her old lifestyle, only I wasn't trying to break free of it.
I put the diary away as I dried my eyes. In the hiding spot I saw Maria's black book. I picked it up and gingerly ran my fingers over the cover. I put the diary back with a sigh; I didn't have the energy to even think about Maria tonight.
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The next day I reread the last few pages of the red diary. Each time that I read them and thought about their meaning the more that I realized that I didn't want to be the person that I had become.
I found our magical reference book and flipped to the W's. When I found the address that I was looking for I left the house without even asking permission or letting Velena know that I was leaving.
I flooed to Hogsmeade and walked from there. Once I got past the town the road became dirt and narrow. My legs grew tired from walking and I had too much time to think.
I must have stopped and turned around at least a dozen times. As I grew nearer I knew that this was a mistake, but it was one that I had to make. I needed to do this for myself as well as for my mother. I heard thunder rumbling in the distance and rain began to pour down. "Great," I muttered to myself. As I was walking and wishing that I could perform the drying spell I came upon unstable worn down house that looked as though it could barley stand anymore.
I took a deep breath and walked towards the door. I stood in front of the door for almost ten minutes before knocking. I heard footsteps come towards the entrance and I almost turned around but my feet stayed planted. The door started to open and I prepared myself to face the Weasleys.
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A/N I know that I said we were finding out new Maria information in this chapter but I got so wrapped up in new Molly stuff that I didn't feel like messing with Maria. But I promise that the next chapter is going to have huge Maria segments. Also it may take me a few days to get out the next chapter because it's going to be long since I'm having the little family reunion as well as new discoveries about Maria. Hope that this chapter moved a little faster for you guys, please review!!!
Thanks for the reviews everyone!!! I've decided to just go ahead and write each one of you a thank you because you are such great reviewers!!!!!!! (Plus I'm bored, lol!)
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