Chapter 18:
Without anymore questions I got ready. I put on a tight black, thin strapped dress, and tall matching heels. Eyeball drove the car out of town and we went to a nice restaurant about twenty minutes away.
He sat me down and waited for the servers to leave us alone, and I suddenly grew afraid.
"Eyeball, what is all this about?" I asked with a raised brow.
"Jess," He held my hands across the table.
"Eyeball." I said uneasily.
"Just let me get this out, okay?" He said and I nodded. "Jessie, I love you more then life itself. You're the only broad I've ever really loved." I sat silently, preparing myself for the worst.
"Can I just say something first." I said, instantly stopping him. "Eyeball, I love you. No matter what happens, I'll always love you, and there's nothing you or anyone else could do to change that." I started off, getting ready to tell my husband what had happened with Vince.
"Jess, I've got to tell you something. Other then I love you and you, Melanie, and Jason mean more to me then anything, I have to be truly honest." I expected him to say he cheated on me, again, but he didn't. "I've been taking a look at everything, and I have to say that you are the best girl for me." He said, and I instantly felt guilty.
"I slept with Vince!" I blurted out, hot tears forming behind my eyes.
"What?" Eyeball stated, a little taken aback.
"I'm so sorry Eyeball! The other night, and the rain, and oh I don't know." I said, now crying. "I'm sorry Eyeball, I love you. I don't know what I was thinking, it just happened. It was my fault." I explained.
"Well, this makes what I have to say a little complicated."
"What is it?"' I said, in a light voice.
"Well, there's something I didn't tell you, that you need to know. A while ago, I slept with Cherry." A lump caught in my throat. "I'm sorry. I do love you, you have to believe that!"
"Go on." I said, barely able to speak. I wanted him to finish what he was saying.
"Well, here's the thing. Cherry's pregnant." About this time, a bomb could've dropped behind me and I wouldn't budge. I couldn't move.
"How far along is she?" Was all I could think to say.
"About three months." He said shamefully.
"I'm sorry," Was all that came to mind. "I'm sorry for sleeping with Vince, I'm sorry for still loving Michael, I'm sorry for coming back." I started down my list of guilt's. Eyeball was hesitant for a minute. I guess we both didn't know what to say.
"Well then, I'm sorry for beating the shit out of you, making your life a living hell, being the worst husband ever, and most importantly not being able to keep my snake in it's cage." He said flatly, and I smiled. As soon as he saw my grin, he grew one of his own. My eyes started to tear and we laughed a little.
"We are the weirdest couple ever." I said, drying my eyes.
"Yeah, I know. I don't know what I would've done if Chris hadn't come down to yell at me today."
"So Chris did talk to you?"
"More like screamed at me. He punched me right in the eye, and I can't say I blame him." It was then that I noticed Eyeball's eye starting to bruise. "I guess he knocked some sense into me. He told me about Vince and you, and I have to say I was pretty upset earlier."
"You were?"
"Of course. But then I cooled down, and Chris started talking to me about everything, mostly you, and I told him about Cherry and everything I've done to you, and he said I should tell you about Cherry and think of what I wanted to do. That's why I dragged you here."
"So. What do we do now?" I said with my hands in my lap.
"I have no idea. I mean, I want to be there for Cherry and this new kid, but I can't just leave you guys. I love you and Melanie and Jason."
"Eyeball," I paused, thinking for one last second. "Go to Cherry. Be with her. There's obviously something about her if you've kept her around since high school.." I smiled, my eyes still tearing.
"There's something about you too. You're right for me, I know it."
"That's what I thought of you too, but maybe, maybe we've grown out of that. Maybe we're not right for each other anymore. I love you, and I probably always will, but let's stop kidding ourselves, we've grown apart." Eyeball nodded.
"Vince is better for you anyway." Eyeball said.
"Who said I was going to rush into things with Vince?" I said with a furrowed brow.
"It's a little late to 'rush' into anything with him, considering you've already slept with him." Eyeball laughed a little, as did I. I was blown away of how well we were dealing with this.
"I don't know if Vince is right for me either." I said, secretly wishing Vince was right for me, but very unsure.
"He is. He deserves you. The guy has had a crush on you since you first came here." Eyeball explained.
"What?"
"Yeah. But like the asshole I am, I had to fall in love with you and made a move before he did." Just then, I knew I was supposed to be with Vince.
"Oh man." I said aloud in realization.
"So. Is this it?" He said, almost solemnly.
"You mean, is the infamous duo, Jess and Eyeball over?" I smiled, knowing I'd miss Eyeball.
"Yeah." He said, not wanting to make eye contact. And then I knew he'd miss me too.
"I think so." I said, my eyes starting to tear again. I really did love Eyeball, and I knew he loved me too. But both of us knew this was it, and neither could breathe, not to mention speak.
"Well." He started after a long moment of silence.
"I love you," I said, and he instantly looked up at me, and smiled.
"I love you too." He said, and I got up.
"Goodbye Eyeball." I said with a smile, pushed in my chair, and started to walk away.
I headed towards the exit of the restaurant, and look one more look at my husband. It's funny that everything was messed up, and now when we decided to break it off, I find myself not wanting to leave him, although I know it's the best thing for both of us. I went out and left the restaurant.
The dark sky was decorated with millions and millions of stars, and the chilly breeze felt wonderful. Even though I still loved Eyeball, with all my heart, I had to let him go. Just like I had to let Michael go. Eyeball caught up with me outside.
"Jess, wait." He said, and a part of me hoped he wanted to be with me still and that'd we'd have moments like this, forever.
"Yes?" I said softly.
Eyeball took my face in his hands and kissed me like he had never kissed me before. This kiss was beautiful, sweet, one of those kisses you rate all of your other ones to. This kiss was perfect, a kiss that I'd remember until the day I die. He released and stared into my eyes. He gave me one last short kiss and then let go.
"God, I'll miss you." He whispered. I held his hands for a minute, then let them go.
"I'll see ya." I said, as I tried to contain more tears.
"Not if I see you first." He whispered, then turned his back, and walked away.
Without anymore questions I got ready. I put on a tight black, thin strapped dress, and tall matching heels. Eyeball drove the car out of town and we went to a nice restaurant about twenty minutes away.
He sat me down and waited for the servers to leave us alone, and I suddenly grew afraid.
"Eyeball, what is all this about?" I asked with a raised brow.
"Jess," He held my hands across the table.
"Eyeball." I said uneasily.
"Just let me get this out, okay?" He said and I nodded. "Jessie, I love you more then life itself. You're the only broad I've ever really loved." I sat silently, preparing myself for the worst.
"Can I just say something first." I said, instantly stopping him. "Eyeball, I love you. No matter what happens, I'll always love you, and there's nothing you or anyone else could do to change that." I started off, getting ready to tell my husband what had happened with Vince.
"Jess, I've got to tell you something. Other then I love you and you, Melanie, and Jason mean more to me then anything, I have to be truly honest." I expected him to say he cheated on me, again, but he didn't. "I've been taking a look at everything, and I have to say that you are the best girl for me." He said, and I instantly felt guilty.
"I slept with Vince!" I blurted out, hot tears forming behind my eyes.
"What?" Eyeball stated, a little taken aback.
"I'm so sorry Eyeball! The other night, and the rain, and oh I don't know." I said, now crying. "I'm sorry Eyeball, I love you. I don't know what I was thinking, it just happened. It was my fault." I explained.
"Well, this makes what I have to say a little complicated."
"What is it?"' I said, in a light voice.
"Well, there's something I didn't tell you, that you need to know. A while ago, I slept with Cherry." A lump caught in my throat. "I'm sorry. I do love you, you have to believe that!"
"Go on." I said, barely able to speak. I wanted him to finish what he was saying.
"Well, here's the thing. Cherry's pregnant." About this time, a bomb could've dropped behind me and I wouldn't budge. I couldn't move.
"How far along is she?" Was all I could think to say.
"About three months." He said shamefully.
"I'm sorry," Was all that came to mind. "I'm sorry for sleeping with Vince, I'm sorry for still loving Michael, I'm sorry for coming back." I started down my list of guilt's. Eyeball was hesitant for a minute. I guess we both didn't know what to say.
"Well then, I'm sorry for beating the shit out of you, making your life a living hell, being the worst husband ever, and most importantly not being able to keep my snake in it's cage." He said flatly, and I smiled. As soon as he saw my grin, he grew one of his own. My eyes started to tear and we laughed a little.
"We are the weirdest couple ever." I said, drying my eyes.
"Yeah, I know. I don't know what I would've done if Chris hadn't come down to yell at me today."
"So Chris did talk to you?"
"More like screamed at me. He punched me right in the eye, and I can't say I blame him." It was then that I noticed Eyeball's eye starting to bruise. "I guess he knocked some sense into me. He told me about Vince and you, and I have to say I was pretty upset earlier."
"You were?"
"Of course. But then I cooled down, and Chris started talking to me about everything, mostly you, and I told him about Cherry and everything I've done to you, and he said I should tell you about Cherry and think of what I wanted to do. That's why I dragged you here."
"So. What do we do now?" I said with my hands in my lap.
"I have no idea. I mean, I want to be there for Cherry and this new kid, but I can't just leave you guys. I love you and Melanie and Jason."
"Eyeball," I paused, thinking for one last second. "Go to Cherry. Be with her. There's obviously something about her if you've kept her around since high school.." I smiled, my eyes still tearing.
"There's something about you too. You're right for me, I know it."
"That's what I thought of you too, but maybe, maybe we've grown out of that. Maybe we're not right for each other anymore. I love you, and I probably always will, but let's stop kidding ourselves, we've grown apart." Eyeball nodded.
"Vince is better for you anyway." Eyeball said.
"Who said I was going to rush into things with Vince?" I said with a furrowed brow.
"It's a little late to 'rush' into anything with him, considering you've already slept with him." Eyeball laughed a little, as did I. I was blown away of how well we were dealing with this.
"I don't know if Vince is right for me either." I said, secretly wishing Vince was right for me, but very unsure.
"He is. He deserves you. The guy has had a crush on you since you first came here." Eyeball explained.
"What?"
"Yeah. But like the asshole I am, I had to fall in love with you and made a move before he did." Just then, I knew I was supposed to be with Vince.
"Oh man." I said aloud in realization.
"So. Is this it?" He said, almost solemnly.
"You mean, is the infamous duo, Jess and Eyeball over?" I smiled, knowing I'd miss Eyeball.
"Yeah." He said, not wanting to make eye contact. And then I knew he'd miss me too.
"I think so." I said, my eyes starting to tear again. I really did love Eyeball, and I knew he loved me too. But both of us knew this was it, and neither could breathe, not to mention speak.
"Well." He started after a long moment of silence.
"I love you," I said, and he instantly looked up at me, and smiled.
"I love you too." He said, and I got up.
"Goodbye Eyeball." I said with a smile, pushed in my chair, and started to walk away.
I headed towards the exit of the restaurant, and look one more look at my husband. It's funny that everything was messed up, and now when we decided to break it off, I find myself not wanting to leave him, although I know it's the best thing for both of us. I went out and left the restaurant.
The dark sky was decorated with millions and millions of stars, and the chilly breeze felt wonderful. Even though I still loved Eyeball, with all my heart, I had to let him go. Just like I had to let Michael go. Eyeball caught up with me outside.
"Jess, wait." He said, and a part of me hoped he wanted to be with me still and that'd we'd have moments like this, forever.
"Yes?" I said softly.
Eyeball took my face in his hands and kissed me like he had never kissed me before. This kiss was beautiful, sweet, one of those kisses you rate all of your other ones to. This kiss was perfect, a kiss that I'd remember until the day I die. He released and stared into my eyes. He gave me one last short kiss and then let go.
"God, I'll miss you." He whispered. I held his hands for a minute, then let them go.
"I'll see ya." I said, as I tried to contain more tears.
"Not if I see you first." He whispered, then turned his back, and walked away.