Numb
Bakura13: Lucky me...I have enough motivation to somehow write a songfic! And
the first victim is Ryou!
Ryou: WHAT?! No! Spare me, please! ;-; *sniffles*
Bakura: Quiet down, you pathetic excuse for a child.
Ryou: But...but...*starts crying*
Bakura13: ...Smooth move. ¬¬; Now you made him cry.
Bakura: What? It's not my fault that he's a weakling...
Bakura13: *gives Ryou-kun a box of tissues* Any...way, this songfic is written
with the song Numb, By Linkin Park from their third album. It is in Ryou's
point of view, of course. There will be other songfics added to this...story,
if you call it and there will be different ones. When I get through the
characters that I or you want, I will loop through some of the ones that could
be written with more than one song.
Ryou: *blows his nose and sniffles* This is cruelty to the innocent! Mainly ME!
WHY ME?!
Bakura13: o_o;...on with the songfic.
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Why does this always happen to me? Bakura is so cruel to me! He always beats me
when I do not come home on time according to his timetable and he'll beat me
whenever he wants...and so it starts when I enter my house...
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Here I go, I slip into my house quietly, seeing all the lights off. I
know my yami is here...waiting...probably drunk off of his ass too. What does
he want from me? He always takes out his anger and frustration by beating me
physically. It is as if I cannot do anything without him lurking from the
shadows, ready to kill me at any moment...
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
I know he can hear me when I neatly place my shoes at the door and
start walking towards the stairs. I can feel his evil eyes watching me with
every step I take...planning a way to hurt me...I'm trapped in my own house,
with my father away and my darker side acting like he is my master and I am
nothing but a powerless slave...
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
As soon as I set my school bag down, out he comes. Waiting for me...in
my room and he has that evil smirk on again. I bow my head and apologize for
being late...but it is not my fault is it? It's not my fault that I am not as
strong as him...and then I get it. A full force punch right in the face and
gods does it hurt. I fall back into a dresser and hold my face with my hands,
feeling the blood dripping out my nose. Why doesn't he leave me alone?! He
starts kicking me and soon I can slowly not feel my face...
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
'I want to be left alone! I didn't mean for any of this to happen! I'm
sorry! Please forgive me!', I cry out in pure pain as he pulls my head up by my
hair.
He just smirks maliciously and knees me in the chest, making my whole body hurt
even more. He's going to kill me! I know it! I've tried my best to make him
happy but it doesn't seem to be enough!
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Does he not know that he can kill me by beating me so much? Or does he
not care...I'm only a human punching bag who has no emotion or anything. People
assume that we look alike is that he's my brother...I say that we are brothers
but they do not know what happens behind closed doors...what he does to me.
He's trying to shadow me from the outside world and keep me for himself...to
beat and torture.
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
I finally get enough strength to cry out a few words. 'You're hurting
me, Bakura! Please! I've learned my lesson!'
And wouldn't you know it...he stops and cracks his knuckles...he is far from
done. Oh gods, why have I been reduced to this? I have not done anything wrong
to deserve this...punishment...I can't do anything so I just curl up in a trembling
ball and hold back my sobs.
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Nothing will help me...the neighbors won't help me, they can't hear me!
I'm being beaten to bloody death and Bakura won't even give me any mercy!
Doesn't he care?! He's killing me and I have not done a thing to him! I'm being
dragged into darkness and despair by my ankles...and there is no end in
sight...
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
'Please, master!' I cry as I start breaking down. 'I have learned my
lesson and I will never do it again! I promise! I will not talk to anyone and
come straight home to serve you!'
All I get as a reply is my darker side laughing...then a sharp and hard kick
collides with my rib cage as I hear cracking...
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I start crying in pain...what else am I suppose to do? He just keeps
beating me and beating me...I can't feel my legs anymore...too many bruises and
something is broken! For the love of the gods, why won't someone help me?!
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I look up with my good eye flooding with tears as I can feel my black
eye giving me more pain...
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Oh gods no...not again...
'Please, master!' I cry again, my voice wavering. 'I'll do anything you want!
Anything! Just please do not use that! PLEASE!'
My cries are unheard to his deaf ears...he is insane...
And I know
I may end up failing too
He's going to cut me with the knife that he has been saving up! I
squeeze my eyes shut and start crying again as he starts slashing my shoulders.
He's not toying with me! He's trying to kill me! Why won't someone help me?!
I'm going to die!
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I know that he enjoys the taste of my blood...he is just blinded by his
insane nature and he won't stop hurting me! Is he trying to tell me something?
Was this what happened when he was a child to make him so...cold and ruthless?
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I wince immensely as he kicks me as hard as he can, enjoying the sound
of more of my ribs breaking...then he stops. I shake uncontrollably as he walks
off, still laughing.
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I wish someone would help me...I've done nothing wrong...someone has
cursed me with death who literally is my other half...
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I can barely feel the cuts and bruises on me now...I think that my
whole body is numbing slowly...I guess that's a good thing...I won't be able to
feel the unbearable pain that racks through my worthless body...
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
All I can do now is sleep...and get my strength back to take care of
myself until the next beating later tonight...why...does this always happen to
me...
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Bakura13: I always write sad fics and such...I wonder why that happens...but
this is a songfic and my first one.
Bakura: Because you are a cold sadistic bastard?
Bakura13: ¬¬; I'm a woman, you idiot. And that's you.
Bakura: *shrugs* Same difference...
Ryou: Why me?! Why always me?! *starts crying again*
Bakura13: o_o; Oops...someone please review and stop poor Ryou-kun's crying!
._. And maybe he'll calm down enough so I can write the next songfic...