Disclaimer: Chobits isn't mine. It's by Clamp.
forever yours
By miyamoto yui
Chapter 7 – in my name, for my sake.
As I got closer to Hibiya-san's apartment complex, I took out a handkerchief. It was the light violet one that Yuzuki had ironed for me just two days ago because I was starting to have a cold.
Though she tried not to bluntly tell me to take care of myself, she knew that I was already starting to have a cold. All this activity wasn't helping it either, though I tried to pretend that there was nothing physically wrong with me.
Rubbing my hands on it, I held it out, noting that I had stained it so much that I didn't know if it could be cleaned at all…
As I entered the gate once more, there was Yuzuki sitting on the steps with a tilting of her head. She was staring at some birds that had all made a congregation with all their chirping on the grass. Her hands were folded over one another.
Inside my mind, I wanted to scream, "What the hell is wrong?! My girl doesn't have anything wrong. I'm looking at her and she is as she has always been."
"Ah, Minoru-sama," Yuzuki smiled as she looked at me. She got up and nodded her head.
"Hello, Yuzuki," I greeted back as Hibiya-san exited the threshold with a broom in her hands. "Ah, I was about to sweep. Hello, Minoru-kun!"
"Hello again," I said as I shook my head in disbelief.
Weren't they supposed to be in the room researching? I don't understand what's going on…
Maybe the logical part of my brain had escaped for sure and I was just paranoid.
For a girl that always smiled at me, even if it pained her…
"Please stay here for a moment, Yuzuki-san," Hibiya-san said as she patted Yuzuki's shoulder. She then turned to me and took my hand to lead me back to her apartment.
Again, she gave me tea as I tell her why I was delayed in coming. She nodded understandingly as she sighed while hearing my story about my grandmother 'kidnapping' me temporarily and wanting me to find a bride immediately.
"She is just concerned," Hibiya-san responded as she sipped some of her tea. "That's all."
I looked straight into Hibiya-san's eyes and put my cup down. "I understand, but I like my life the way it is."
"But what about Yuzuki?" she asked as her eyes become concerned mixed with pity. "You must understand that she feels confused about what is going on. She will blame this on herself, in time."
"I've been telling her that I've chosen her and I shall stand by her no matter what happens," I answered confidently. "If anyone wants to kill me, taking her would be their best shot."
Hibiya-san sighed as she continued, "Have you asked her about how she feels about this? Will you even tell her about what your grandmother did this afternoon?"
"Of course," I answered with a matter-of-fact tone, "I tell her everything."
Hibiya-san then got up and knelt down next to me. Then, she shook her head as she hugged me. "Minoru-kun…"
"What happened while I was gone?" I pleaded, now more than ever worried.
She then let go of me as she said, "I'm worried about her even more."
"Why? Is it the program?"
"I can't get in. It has been masterfully maneuvered. Impenetrable…almost as if Yuzuki had done it herself with such perfection that only she can activate and de-activate it."
"But why would-"
"She is like my two daughters." She then shook her head as she pushed me away while still holding onto my shoulders. "Yuzuki may be closing upon herself. And somehow it was triggered by you."
I pointed at myself in perplexity. "Me?"
"You are her important person," she answered without hesitation.
"As she is mine." I nodded understandingly. But it did not make some sense as I inquired, "Aren't only Chobits supposed to have a 'dake no hito'?"
"The Chobits series is for them to learn like any normal person and adapt characteristics according to what they're taught. They choose their 'dake no hito' and let that person guide them on what to do next. That is what makes the Chobits series so special."
She continued, "Since all persocoms are made from the Chobits series, they have this to a certain extent in which they only serve their master. They are all connected to Chii because they shall never have this trait again. They should not go haywire when they find their 'dake no hito' because after my daughter died, I didn't want another persocom or human to go through the extent of pain I had. Though there are others such as Ueda-san that have fallen in love with their persocom, the persocom is purposefully unable to return these feelings."
"Then why would Yuzuki's program be triggered by me? I would never wish her harm."
I looked from side to side almost feeling numb once more.
"She is so advanced that she has figured out many things that normal, everyday persocoms could never achieve. Yuzuki is wanting to forget so that she can save you…even if caused her so much pain."
Too many things were running through my head, making me so dizzy.
Yuzuki pushing herself to show me something she didn't know she already had…
I then asked, "But how did you come to this conclusion though you couldn't penetrate through that activated program?"
"Yuzuki's 'alternate personality' talked to me while your Yuzuki was in standby mode. She told me that it was useless to try because she had started her own self-destruct mode."
"What?!" I shouted in shock.
"I couldn't tell you over the phone…" she said with sorrowful eyes.
"She wants to return my feelings…" I mumbled to myself. "…and she's dying at the same time."
Hibiya-san patted my head. "I'm sorry that's all I can say for now."
I then bowed my head before Hibiya-san. "Thank you so much for taking care of her. I shall try to tend to her at home."
"I'm sorry, Minoru-kun." That's all she could say to me.
As I got up, I shook my head. "Please don't apologize, it's not your fault. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have ever found out these things. When I had checked her, that never happened to me."
"If it weren't for me, many wouldn't suffer knowing how insufficient they were," she honestly told me. "My husband just wanted to make me happy with children I could never happen."
"If it weren't for you, no one would know what happiness really was either." I nodded my head. "Myself included."
Then, we looked out the window to find that it was raining very hard, but we had been so focused on our conversation that we had ignored everything. She then handed me an umbrella. I blinked as I looked at the end of the hall trying to find Yuzuki.
"Yuzuki! Let's go home!" I called as Hibiya-san walked with me while patting my shoulder.
When we got to the front, we opened the door to the small porch to find that Yuzuki wasn't there.
And in her place, my bloodied handkerchief was left.
"Yuzuki?" I could barely say as Hibiya-san also whispered, "Yuzuki-san?"
As I squatted down to get my handkerchief, I found another substance on the cement. I touched the black substance, my lips tightened as tears came to my eyes as I raised them to watch the open gate swinging a little, back and forth.
I pushed my finger on the cement. To make sure, I smelled the substance as I announced softly, "Oil…"
"Minoru-kun!!" Hibiya-san shouted behind me as I left her umbrella on her porch and ran out of her complex shouting politely, "Thank you for everything!"
As I ran from one block to another, I couldn't find her. I kept on searching and searching from one side of the city to the next. When it was approaching the middle of the night, I ran to the park as my last resort.
I came to the playground not to find her there.
Without discretion, I shouted at the top of my lungs with all my love and hurt, "YUZUKI!!!!!"
Cursing the rain, I cried, "WHERE ARE YOU?!"
"Don't…" My knees sank to the wet cement. Whether I was praying or begging, my eyes stared at the sky as a lightpost looked down at me.
While crying along with the rain, I pleaded for her to return to me as the rain made my cries of pain a part of its pitter-pattering…
We were doing this to ourselves…
We were hurting each other with how much we cared for the other…
Was this called love now?
This infliction that we were dooming ourselves to?
Even so, I would have no one else by my side. I chose that the day I had even conceived of making her…
My voice cracked, "Don't you know how much I need you?"
Shaking my head, I kneeled to the ground for someone up in the heavens to listen to me as I repeated once more, "If anyone wants to kill me, taking her would be their best shot."
What was worse was that she had done this all by herself…
In my name...
Because she was learning to love me back…
As a woman.
As a human woman…
Tsuzuku…
--
Author's note: Well, um, this arc is actually going a bit faster than I thought it would. I'm sorry for the delay, but many things have been going on. I also didn't know what I would do with the middle of this story, for I had the beginning and the end set up already. I was just confused as to how I would integrate the 'program' and discriminations that would be experienced by both Minoru and Yuzuki. Though I've stated some already, I needed to put some more, to make readers more 'enlightened' as well as myself.
(* sighs * Aiya, I didn't notice that I had done the draft completely in 'present tense' when I had done this story all in 'past tense'!)
forever yours
By miyamoto yui
Chapter 7 – in my name, for my sake.
As I got closer to Hibiya-san's apartment complex, I took out a handkerchief. It was the light violet one that Yuzuki had ironed for me just two days ago because I was starting to have a cold.
Though she tried not to bluntly tell me to take care of myself, she knew that I was already starting to have a cold. All this activity wasn't helping it either, though I tried to pretend that there was nothing physically wrong with me.
Rubbing my hands on it, I held it out, noting that I had stained it so much that I didn't know if it could be cleaned at all…
As I entered the gate once more, there was Yuzuki sitting on the steps with a tilting of her head. She was staring at some birds that had all made a congregation with all their chirping on the grass. Her hands were folded over one another.
Inside my mind, I wanted to scream, "What the hell is wrong?! My girl doesn't have anything wrong. I'm looking at her and she is as she has always been."
"Ah, Minoru-sama," Yuzuki smiled as she looked at me. She got up and nodded her head.
"Hello, Yuzuki," I greeted back as Hibiya-san exited the threshold with a broom in her hands. "Ah, I was about to sweep. Hello, Minoru-kun!"
"Hello again," I said as I shook my head in disbelief.
Weren't they supposed to be in the room researching? I don't understand what's going on…
Maybe the logical part of my brain had escaped for sure and I was just paranoid.
For a girl that always smiled at me, even if it pained her…
"Please stay here for a moment, Yuzuki-san," Hibiya-san said as she patted Yuzuki's shoulder. She then turned to me and took my hand to lead me back to her apartment.
Again, she gave me tea as I tell her why I was delayed in coming. She nodded understandingly as she sighed while hearing my story about my grandmother 'kidnapping' me temporarily and wanting me to find a bride immediately.
"She is just concerned," Hibiya-san responded as she sipped some of her tea. "That's all."
I looked straight into Hibiya-san's eyes and put my cup down. "I understand, but I like my life the way it is."
"But what about Yuzuki?" she asked as her eyes become concerned mixed with pity. "You must understand that she feels confused about what is going on. She will blame this on herself, in time."
"I've been telling her that I've chosen her and I shall stand by her no matter what happens," I answered confidently. "If anyone wants to kill me, taking her would be their best shot."
Hibiya-san sighed as she continued, "Have you asked her about how she feels about this? Will you even tell her about what your grandmother did this afternoon?"
"Of course," I answered with a matter-of-fact tone, "I tell her everything."
Hibiya-san then got up and knelt down next to me. Then, she shook her head as she hugged me. "Minoru-kun…"
"What happened while I was gone?" I pleaded, now more than ever worried.
She then let go of me as she said, "I'm worried about her even more."
"Why? Is it the program?"
"I can't get in. It has been masterfully maneuvered. Impenetrable…almost as if Yuzuki had done it herself with such perfection that only she can activate and de-activate it."
"But why would-"
"She is like my two daughters." She then shook her head as she pushed me away while still holding onto my shoulders. "Yuzuki may be closing upon herself. And somehow it was triggered by you."
I pointed at myself in perplexity. "Me?"
"You are her important person," she answered without hesitation.
"As she is mine." I nodded understandingly. But it did not make some sense as I inquired, "Aren't only Chobits supposed to have a 'dake no hito'?"
"The Chobits series is for them to learn like any normal person and adapt characteristics according to what they're taught. They choose their 'dake no hito' and let that person guide them on what to do next. That is what makes the Chobits series so special."
She continued, "Since all persocoms are made from the Chobits series, they have this to a certain extent in which they only serve their master. They are all connected to Chii because they shall never have this trait again. They should not go haywire when they find their 'dake no hito' because after my daughter died, I didn't want another persocom or human to go through the extent of pain I had. Though there are others such as Ueda-san that have fallen in love with their persocom, the persocom is purposefully unable to return these feelings."
"Then why would Yuzuki's program be triggered by me? I would never wish her harm."
I looked from side to side almost feeling numb once more.
"She is so advanced that she has figured out many things that normal, everyday persocoms could never achieve. Yuzuki is wanting to forget so that she can save you…even if caused her so much pain."
Too many things were running through my head, making me so dizzy.
Yuzuki pushing herself to show me something she didn't know she already had…
I then asked, "But how did you come to this conclusion though you couldn't penetrate through that activated program?"
"Yuzuki's 'alternate personality' talked to me while your Yuzuki was in standby mode. She told me that it was useless to try because she had started her own self-destruct mode."
"What?!" I shouted in shock.
"I couldn't tell you over the phone…" she said with sorrowful eyes.
"She wants to return my feelings…" I mumbled to myself. "…and she's dying at the same time."
Hibiya-san patted my head. "I'm sorry that's all I can say for now."
I then bowed my head before Hibiya-san. "Thank you so much for taking care of her. I shall try to tend to her at home."
"I'm sorry, Minoru-kun." That's all she could say to me.
As I got up, I shook my head. "Please don't apologize, it's not your fault. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have ever found out these things. When I had checked her, that never happened to me."
"If it weren't for me, many wouldn't suffer knowing how insufficient they were," she honestly told me. "My husband just wanted to make me happy with children I could never happen."
"If it weren't for you, no one would know what happiness really was either." I nodded my head. "Myself included."
Then, we looked out the window to find that it was raining very hard, but we had been so focused on our conversation that we had ignored everything. She then handed me an umbrella. I blinked as I looked at the end of the hall trying to find Yuzuki.
"Yuzuki! Let's go home!" I called as Hibiya-san walked with me while patting my shoulder.
When we got to the front, we opened the door to the small porch to find that Yuzuki wasn't there.
And in her place, my bloodied handkerchief was left.
"Yuzuki?" I could barely say as Hibiya-san also whispered, "Yuzuki-san?"
As I squatted down to get my handkerchief, I found another substance on the cement. I touched the black substance, my lips tightened as tears came to my eyes as I raised them to watch the open gate swinging a little, back and forth.
I pushed my finger on the cement. To make sure, I smelled the substance as I announced softly, "Oil…"
"Minoru-kun!!" Hibiya-san shouted behind me as I left her umbrella on her porch and ran out of her complex shouting politely, "Thank you for everything!"
As I ran from one block to another, I couldn't find her. I kept on searching and searching from one side of the city to the next. When it was approaching the middle of the night, I ran to the park as my last resort.
I came to the playground not to find her there.
Without discretion, I shouted at the top of my lungs with all my love and hurt, "YUZUKI!!!!!"
Cursing the rain, I cried, "WHERE ARE YOU?!"
"Don't…" My knees sank to the wet cement. Whether I was praying or begging, my eyes stared at the sky as a lightpost looked down at me.
While crying along with the rain, I pleaded for her to return to me as the rain made my cries of pain a part of its pitter-pattering…
We were doing this to ourselves…
We were hurting each other with how much we cared for the other…
Was this called love now?
This infliction that we were dooming ourselves to?
Even so, I would have no one else by my side. I chose that the day I had even conceived of making her…
My voice cracked, "Don't you know how much I need you?"
Shaking my head, I kneeled to the ground for someone up in the heavens to listen to me as I repeated once more, "If anyone wants to kill me, taking her would be their best shot."
What was worse was that she had done this all by herself…
In my name...
Because she was learning to love me back…
As a woman.
As a human woman…
Tsuzuku…
--
Author's note: Well, um, this arc is actually going a bit faster than I thought it would. I'm sorry for the delay, but many things have been going on. I also didn't know what I would do with the middle of this story, for I had the beginning and the end set up already. I was just confused as to how I would integrate the 'program' and discriminations that would be experienced by both Minoru and Yuzuki. Though I've stated some already, I needed to put some more, to make readers more 'enlightened' as well as myself.
(* sighs * Aiya, I didn't notice that I had done the draft completely in 'present tense' when I had done this story all in 'past tense'!)