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An: Edited chapter two! Chapter Three coming soon!
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Lily stumbled back, more than a little shocked.
"Wha.what was that for?" She murmured quietly.
Remus's mouth fell open. What was that for? WHAT WAS THAT FOR? For a moment they both stared in silence, before a thought came.
"You're not North Star are you?"
She slowly shook her head, and Remus felt his face grow hot. Whether it was from embarrassment for the impulsive kiss, or anger that North Star had told another of their letters, he didn't know. Maybe it was a little of both, but either way he didn't want to stick around to find out. Shoving his cold hands into his cloak he turned for the castle.
"Remus, wait!," Lily blurted out in a rush, "I...I didn't mean to make you think I was her. I'm sorry. I don't even know what's going on, she refused to tell me. She just told me a minute ago that someone would be here, waiting for a North Star, and she didn't want him to think she wasn't coming. She got a detention in her last class, and couldn't come."
Remus froze, every inch of his body went numb, then tingly. Did he dare to think it,
"Her last class...was it potions?"
Lily gulped. "Um...I'm not sure. She said I'm not to tell you who she is."
Remus rounded on her, bringing himself to his full height. "I'm serious, Lils, are you talking about Bella?"
Her muscles visually tensed, and her eyes refused to meet his.
"Maybe."
A guilty smile appeared on her face, as if she couldn't hold the secret a moment longer. Her eyes finally met his and he knew. He knew that he would not find his beloved star out here, under the heavens because Bella was in detention.
* * *
"But he kissed me."
Bella warily shrugged for the tenth time that day.
"So what? It was meant for me, I don't see what the big deal is. It was just a misunderstanding. He doesn't even know you were with James."
"I guess, but..."
"No buts! No more buts, I can't take another but. He meant to kiss North Star, not you, it was an honest mistake. And besides, if you bring James into this who knows what will happen? James might end up angry with the both of you, when there's no point."
"No point in what?" Sirius asked, rambling up beside them, "Because if you're talking about asking me to the Halloween dance, then you're right - there's no point. I already have a date."
Bella felt her eyes widen, and her heart jumped in excitement. "Halloween Ball? When?"
"Going on a whim, I'd say...um...around Halloween," Sirius said, trying to suppress the laughter that was shaking Lily, "And they try telling us you're one of top wizards in seventh year."
She decided against her first impulse to hex Sirius right there, she didn't want to get another week of cauldron scrubbing detention.
"No, I mean is it before we leave for vacation? Please tell me it's on before vacation! I have to go home - it's my little sister's eleventh birthday and I just can't miss seeing her owl."
"Sorry, Bella. Hogwarts Express leaves on the 30th, this is only for those who stay behind. Why can't you just stay here for vacation? Owls aren't as exciting as a ball."
"I can't, her birthday's the day after Halloween. The only way I could make it back on time was if I apparated..."
Lily and Sirius smirked, sharing a knowing look.
"If learning to apparate is anything like your first time on a broom, I wouldn't suggest you try it," Lily said, again failing miserably to suppress a laugh. For the second time in as many minutes Bella decided against hexing a friend. It had taken her a while to master the broom, she'd never tried it before coming to Hogwarts - she was terrified of heights. And just to add to that fear, her first time on a broom saw her thrown off, ten feet off the ground. Her friends had all found it highly amusing, especially Lily, who took to flying easily despite being from a muggle upbringing.
"Of course I wasn't going to try it. Besides, it's illegal."
"Since when has that stopped us?"
Ignoring Sirius, she continued, "I guess I'll just have to miss the ball..."
"But this will be out last Halloween Ball," Lily whined, "Remus will be so disappointed!"
Sirius let out a choking noise, "I knew it! It had to be you, the way he's been all grinny and blushy and...damn, not another couple. Seeing James all lovesick is bad enough, but now knowing Remmy is, too..."
"Oh, shush," Lily cut in, "I do recall you saying something about a Halloween Ball date...now tell us who she is before I turn you into a toad."
* * *
"But Lils will be so disappointed!" Remus burst out when James told him the news.
"I know, she didn't want me to go home these holidays as it is, and now with the ball...she'll probably lock me up in her trunk until the Hogwarts Express has departed."
Remus grinned. "Wouldn't doubt it."
A familiar pang of guilt tainted the young wizard's grin. The same guilt that sometimes arose when his lips met Bella's. It had been over a month since he'd kissed Lily, but he couldn't forgive himself. He knew it was silly to beat himself up over it - it had just been a misunderstanding, after all. Though it wasn't so much the kiss that had bothered him, more the fact that he couldn't stop thinking about it. Even now, when he had an odd minute to himself, usually just before he turned during that time of the month, when his thoughts would call to pleasant things to ease the suffering that was to follow, he would remember that cold night, by the lake when he knew he was kissing Lily more than North Star. Lily. He didn't want her exactly - she was his best friend's girlfriend after all, not to mention his girlfriend's best friend, but there was just something about that kiss. Something that he hadn't experienced before, and hadn't since, not even in those secret moments with Bella, hidden away in deserted classrooms or on an empty balcony. Not that he didn't enjoy those moments - he cared for Bella very much, but sometimes he found that it wasn't her he longed for, but for the girl he knew he'd never have.
"There's no way I can get out of Great-Grandpa's 190th birthday, he'd be devastated. I'm his favourite great-grandson, and Mum's been planning a huge party," informed James, "Even if I did miss the Hogwarts Express I'm sure she'd come here herself to collect me."
The two sat in silence for a moment, staring at the flames dancing in the common room fireplace. Remus hated to admit it, but the main reason he found himself so worried about James's upcoming absence was because he often used his friend to keep himself, and his thoughts about Lily, in line.
"Why don't you invite her with you?"
James sighed. "No, her parents won't let her - she asked them last holidays. I guess I'll just have to leave her in your care. You can keep each other company with your stories of heartache."
"Yeah," Remus chuckled hollowly - he'd almost forgotten Bella would also be gone, "Misery loves company."
An: Edited chapter two! Chapter Three coming soon!
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Lily stumbled back, more than a little shocked.
"Wha.what was that for?" She murmured quietly.
Remus's mouth fell open. What was that for? WHAT WAS THAT FOR? For a moment they both stared in silence, before a thought came.
"You're not North Star are you?"
She slowly shook her head, and Remus felt his face grow hot. Whether it was from embarrassment for the impulsive kiss, or anger that North Star had told another of their letters, he didn't know. Maybe it was a little of both, but either way he didn't want to stick around to find out. Shoving his cold hands into his cloak he turned for the castle.
"Remus, wait!," Lily blurted out in a rush, "I...I didn't mean to make you think I was her. I'm sorry. I don't even know what's going on, she refused to tell me. She just told me a minute ago that someone would be here, waiting for a North Star, and she didn't want him to think she wasn't coming. She got a detention in her last class, and couldn't come."
Remus froze, every inch of his body went numb, then tingly. Did he dare to think it,
"Her last class...was it potions?"
Lily gulped. "Um...I'm not sure. She said I'm not to tell you who she is."
Remus rounded on her, bringing himself to his full height. "I'm serious, Lils, are you talking about Bella?"
Her muscles visually tensed, and her eyes refused to meet his.
"Maybe."
A guilty smile appeared on her face, as if she couldn't hold the secret a moment longer. Her eyes finally met his and he knew. He knew that he would not find his beloved star out here, under the heavens because Bella was in detention.
* * *
"But he kissed me."
Bella warily shrugged for the tenth time that day.
"So what? It was meant for me, I don't see what the big deal is. It was just a misunderstanding. He doesn't even know you were with James."
"I guess, but..."
"No buts! No more buts, I can't take another but. He meant to kiss North Star, not you, it was an honest mistake. And besides, if you bring James into this who knows what will happen? James might end up angry with the both of you, when there's no point."
"No point in what?" Sirius asked, rambling up beside them, "Because if you're talking about asking me to the Halloween dance, then you're right - there's no point. I already have a date."
Bella felt her eyes widen, and her heart jumped in excitement. "Halloween Ball? When?"
"Going on a whim, I'd say...um...around Halloween," Sirius said, trying to suppress the laughter that was shaking Lily, "And they try telling us you're one of top wizards in seventh year."
She decided against her first impulse to hex Sirius right there, she didn't want to get another week of cauldron scrubbing detention.
"No, I mean is it before we leave for vacation? Please tell me it's on before vacation! I have to go home - it's my little sister's eleventh birthday and I just can't miss seeing her owl."
"Sorry, Bella. Hogwarts Express leaves on the 30th, this is only for those who stay behind. Why can't you just stay here for vacation? Owls aren't as exciting as a ball."
"I can't, her birthday's the day after Halloween. The only way I could make it back on time was if I apparated..."
Lily and Sirius smirked, sharing a knowing look.
"If learning to apparate is anything like your first time on a broom, I wouldn't suggest you try it," Lily said, again failing miserably to suppress a laugh. For the second time in as many minutes Bella decided against hexing a friend. It had taken her a while to master the broom, she'd never tried it before coming to Hogwarts - she was terrified of heights. And just to add to that fear, her first time on a broom saw her thrown off, ten feet off the ground. Her friends had all found it highly amusing, especially Lily, who took to flying easily despite being from a muggle upbringing.
"Of course I wasn't going to try it. Besides, it's illegal."
"Since when has that stopped us?"
Ignoring Sirius, she continued, "I guess I'll just have to miss the ball..."
"But this will be out last Halloween Ball," Lily whined, "Remus will be so disappointed!"
Sirius let out a choking noise, "I knew it! It had to be you, the way he's been all grinny and blushy and...damn, not another couple. Seeing James all lovesick is bad enough, but now knowing Remmy is, too..."
"Oh, shush," Lily cut in, "I do recall you saying something about a Halloween Ball date...now tell us who she is before I turn you into a toad."
* * *
"But Lils will be so disappointed!" Remus burst out when James told him the news.
"I know, she didn't want me to go home these holidays as it is, and now with the ball...she'll probably lock me up in her trunk until the Hogwarts Express has departed."
Remus grinned. "Wouldn't doubt it."
A familiar pang of guilt tainted the young wizard's grin. The same guilt that sometimes arose when his lips met Bella's. It had been over a month since he'd kissed Lily, but he couldn't forgive himself. He knew it was silly to beat himself up over it - it had just been a misunderstanding, after all. Though it wasn't so much the kiss that had bothered him, more the fact that he couldn't stop thinking about it. Even now, when he had an odd minute to himself, usually just before he turned during that time of the month, when his thoughts would call to pleasant things to ease the suffering that was to follow, he would remember that cold night, by the lake when he knew he was kissing Lily more than North Star. Lily. He didn't want her exactly - she was his best friend's girlfriend after all, not to mention his girlfriend's best friend, but there was just something about that kiss. Something that he hadn't experienced before, and hadn't since, not even in those secret moments with Bella, hidden away in deserted classrooms or on an empty balcony. Not that he didn't enjoy those moments - he cared for Bella very much, but sometimes he found that it wasn't her he longed for, but for the girl he knew he'd never have.
"There's no way I can get out of Great-Grandpa's 190th birthday, he'd be devastated. I'm his favourite great-grandson, and Mum's been planning a huge party," informed James, "Even if I did miss the Hogwarts Express I'm sure she'd come here herself to collect me."
The two sat in silence for a moment, staring at the flames dancing in the common room fireplace. Remus hated to admit it, but the main reason he found himself so worried about James's upcoming absence was because he often used his friend to keep himself, and his thoughts about Lily, in line.
"Why don't you invite her with you?"
James sighed. "No, her parents won't let her - she asked them last holidays. I guess I'll just have to leave her in your care. You can keep each other company with your stories of heartache."
"Yeah," Remus chuckled hollowly - he'd almost forgotten Bella would also be gone, "Misery loves company."