Contains Smut!
"How do you get off on this?" Steve asked, looking down at the restraints around his ankles.
It had been two months since Eddie had tied him up for the first time. After that it became a recurring thing. The more they did it, the more at ease Steve became.
Yet there was one thing he couldn't understand. How was any of this arousing?
Eddie laughed from where he was settled between his spread legs. His head resting on Steve's thigh. "This isn't about sex, this is about comfort and safety. I want you to be completely comfortable before I tie you up and make you scream my name."
Steve felt his face heat up and his stomach drop. The thought of Eddie fucking him made him dizzy with want. An embarrassing moan escaped his lips. He squirmed beneath Eddie and bucked his hips up, jostling Eddie's head a bit.
"Easy baby" Eddie calmed him. His head moved off Steve's thighs, while his hands gently massaged them.
Steve let another whimper, "Eddie it's been two months. Why won't you fuck me?"
Eddie let out a soft laugh at that. He moved his body away from Steve's thighs and hovered over him, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips. "You never asked darling. I told you that we'll do things at your pace. So if you ask me to fuck you, I will."
"I want you to," He pouted. "But I'm scared you'll think I'm a freak. Scared that if you see the real me, you'll be disgusted."
He cupped his cheek and pressed a soft, loving kiss to Steve's lips. "I could never be disgusted by you baby. Nothing about you disgusts me. As for the freak bit, you've got the wrong guy if you think I'll judge you like that. Stevie I've been called a freak my whole life, I'd never do that to you..." He paused, "unless you have a degrading kink, then I definitely will."
He bit his lip, mulling over Eddie's words. "Ok. I'm ready but we need to talk about something first. Will you hold me?"
"Of course darling. Just let me untie these." He did. Instantly laying down and settling on top of Steve once the restraints around his ankles were undone, his arms wrapped around his waist. "I'm listening, you can speak whenever you're ready baby."
Steve cleared his throat. He was consumed by a sudden need to get away, to be alone. Drink until he stopped thinking about this. He wanted to tell him. He was dying to just open up and show Eddie every bit of his soul, but he was fucking terrified of rejection. He really, really, really, really, really liked Eddie and he didn't want to lose what they had.
Whenever he thought about what Eddie's face would look like when he found out, he got the same twist in his chest that he used to get when he thought about Nancy and the Halloween party. Deep despair.
He was just laying there with his boyfriend in his arms when he finally he prepared himself to let the words spill out. He didn't feel a wave of relief, or horror. He just finally realized.
He realized that Eddie - His lovely boyfriend who had been nothing but patient and understanding - would not hate him for something he couldn't control. He never chose to be born in the wrong body, to be assigned a gender that simply wasn't his. He never asked for it. Eddie would understand.
God. He hoped Eddie would understand.
"There's something about me that you don't know. I uhm- I'm-"
Eddie moved his head slightly so that he could press gentle kisses to Steve's chest.
Steve knew Eddie could feel his heart rabbiting in his chest and that the kisses were his attempt at calming his boyfriend. It worked to an extent, serving as a reminder that Eddie was still there, that he wasn't going anywhere. Not yet. So he pushed on.
"I'm transgender." The words left his lips in a whisper so soft that Eddie had to strain his ears to hear it.
He stilled for a brief moment. It wasn't long, but it was enough to make Steve's entire body tense with anxiety. Before his mind could run with a million different thoughts, he was attacked by Eddie's lips crashing onto his.
The kiss was brutal and animalistic. It was deep and filled with raw passion. Both of their heads were spinning when he pulled away.
"Babe." He cupped Steve's cheek and pressed a chaste kiss to his forehead. "I know."
"What?! How?! Who told you?!" He spluttered.
Eddie let out a soft laugh, "nobody told me darling. We have been making out and grinding on each other this whole time and I'm the only one with a boner, at first I thought you just didn't like it but the way you're moaning and how absolutely flushed you are right now told me otherwise. And I uh— I saw the scars when we were in the upside down. At the the time I wasn't sure if the scars were what I thought they were, but I kind of figured it out when I mentioned sucking your dick and you freaked out. That confirmed my suspicions." He bit his lip, "and before you ask, no I didn't toss my vest at you because I didn't want to see your scars. I did it because you and Nancy were staring at each other like you were two minutes away from fucking right then and there and I needed to get you two to snap out of it. Also I might have been a little jealous but that's a topic for later."
Steve looked absolutely flabbergasted. "How did you know what the scars were? Why didn't you say anything?"
"One of my band mates is trans. He showed us his scars some time after his surgery." He ran his fingers through Steve's hair while he spoke. "I didn't say anything because I wanted you to be comfortable enough to share it with me in your own time."
"So you still want to be with me? You don't think I'm fucking weird or disgus-"
Eddie shut him up with a kiss. This one was a massive contrast from the one he gave him minutes ago. It was soft, warm and reassuring. It made Steve feel cared for.
Eddie broke their kiss when they needed air and pressed his forehead against Steve's. "Of course I want to be with you baby. I've told you before that I don't think you're disgusting. You are the furthest thing from disgusting. You are amazing to me Stevie. You mean a shit ton to me and I mean it when I say nothing is ever going to change my mind."
That broke something in Steve. A sudden sob ripped out of his throat and tears pooled down his cheeks instantly. He knew Eddie wasn't lying to him and it felt fucking great to have met someone who accepted him without any arguments or doubts. Yes the girls accepted him when he shared the news but nothing could compare to the amount of relief that Eddie's acceptance gave him.
He felt like such a fucking idiot for thinking, believing, that his boyfriend wouldn't accept him for who he is. Eddie had been nothing but kind to him over the short course of their relationship and yet he still expected the other shoe to drop. He still expected something to go horribly wrong and screw up everything they were currently building.
Eddie cupped his face and wiped his tears away with his thumbs. "You are my everything Steve Harrington and I'll spend every day of my life reminding you."
"You're too good for me Eds." Steve uttered between sobs. "You're amazing."
"I'm just doing what any good boyfriend would do. You deserve this and so much more Steve." He whispered, peppering Steve's face with kisses.
They stayed like that for a few minutes, both of them basking in the peace that surrounded them. Steve felt like a weight had been lifted off him and Eddie was elated that his boyfriend trusted him enough to be open with him.
"You know how I asked you to fuck me earlier?"
"Yes baby" he laughed at the sudden subject change.
Steve let out a breath and relaxed further into the bed, "I don't think I'm ready for the full thing yet... I've never been-"
Eddie's eyebrows furrowed. "Are you telling me that you - Steve Harrington - have never been touched? What the hell went down between you and those girls that always gushed about having the best night of their lives with you."
Steve let out a laugh and shook his head, "I went down on them, fingered them, fooled around. Never had them touch me though, because... Yeah."
"Oh you pretty darling. You heard all the gushing about how good it feels to be touched but never did it to yourself?"
"I touched myself once but I couldn't do it again because I was disgusted by it." He whispered.
Eddie ran his hands down Steve's chest and settled them at his waist, "nothing to be disgusted about baby."
Steve stayed still for a while, before pursing his lips. "Would you- if I asked-" he bit his lip, "would you touch me?"
"Of course I would. If you're ready." He answered with a soft smile.
A bright red flush covered his face, he nodded instantly. "I have been trying to figure out how to ask you for weeks."
Eddie let out a chuckle, "Do you want me to do it now?"
"Yes. Fuck Eddie, yes please." He whimpered out.
Eddie cupped his cheek again, his face serious, all traces of playfulness out of it. "What are the colours baby?"
"Green for keep going, Yellow for slow down and Red for stop." He answered dutifully.
"Good boy" He pressed a kiss to Steve's lips. "You can colour out anytime baby. If it gets too much or you want to stop at any point, use your colours." Eddie spoke, pressing open mouthed kisses to Steve's shoulder. "It's okay for you to feel overwhelmed and not want to continue because we've just had a very important and sensitive conversation. So if you feel the need to stop, you just say the word and we'll stop, babe. You okay with that?"
"Okay" His voice trembled, "yeah."
Steve let out a soft whimper while Eddie worked a hickey into his skin. He was panting already and Eddie hadn't even touched him yet. Eddie sank his teeth into a fleshy part just below the joining of his collarbones with a renewed fervor. Steve keened high in his throat as he threw his head back into the feeling.
He felt his brain short circuiting when Eddie continued a trail down his chest, stopping at his nipples. He sucked the pink nub into his mouth and twirled his tongue around it, much like Steve had done with him when he found out about Eddie's piercings. He pinched Steve's other nipple between this thumb and pointer finger. Teasing it into a hard peak. He basked in the sounds that fell from Steve's lips with each flick of his tongue. He switched over to Steve's other nipple and followed the same process, leaving his boyfriend writhing on the bed beneath him.
Steve was pushed and prodded up the bed with insistent hands as Eddie crawled further down his body. He mouthed against Steve's abdomen, the muscle fluttering under the skin at the warm puffs of air. Steve's desperate squirming renewed a bit as Eddie's fingers hooked into the waistband of his sweatpants. He bucked and twisted again, trying to grind up and get some sort of friction against his needy body. Eddie's grip was like iron and soon a small patch of skin was exposed where his pants had been pulled ever so slightly down and out of the way.
A wet tongue darted out again, swiping once, twice over the flesh before Steve was crying out as Eddie sucked a deep hickey into the seam of skin right above where his hip meets his left leg. He was at such a sensitive spot on Steve's body that he almost sobbed with the sensation of it. He screamed out against the knuckles he had stuffed into his own mouth when Eddie quickly darted up, and sucked the skin of on his other hip. Sinking his teeth into it.
He was too blissed out to realize that Eddie had already snaked his fingers into the waistband of his sweats and yanked them the rest of the way down, boxers along with them. Leaving him in nothing more than socks which were being pulled off by Eddie.
"Need to get these off too" He muttered under his breath while removing Steve's socks "Baby. Are you still okay with this?"
Steve nodded, a soft smile on his lips. He showed no hesitation or resistance to continue, his body felt like liquid honey, soft and boneless. He felt floaty and buzzed out by Eddie's touches alone.
Eddie removed his sweats, keeping on his boxers, before settling back down between Steve's thighs. "Colour?"
"Green" Steve whimpered out.
He felt too vulnerable. Too exposed and for some fucked up reason he liked it. He tried to shift subtly and close his legs a bit, but Eddie was on him before he could even gasp. He shoved his head between Steve's legs and grasped tight at the backs of his thighs with strong hands. He winced as Eddie's nails bit into the soft layer of fat under his skin.
Eddie leaned in, and for a brief second Steve's entire body tensed. He started running his nose down the inner seam of his thigh. Steve's legs twitched inward a bit without meaning to, but Eddie's grip was like a vice, and they ended up right back where he put them.
His breath stuttered out of him in puffs as he stared at Eddie, peering up at him from where he was throbbing and exposed.
Steve's chest was rising and falling at a rapid speed as he looked down at his boyfriend. A smug smirk on his face, as he eyed Steve up from where he was pinned open against the mattress. Eddie pressed a shockingly gentle kiss to the inside of his thigh before ghosting his lips over the seam of his pussy.
Steve gasped and arched off the bed as Eddie pressed another tentative kiss to the top of his pubes, his arm snaked around to pin his hips down. He was concerned, aroused, and so fucking at his mercy that he was entirely unsure how to feel about it. That was until Eddie poked his tongue out and dragged it all the way up to his aching clit before wrapping his lips around it and sucking.
And fuck it felt so fucking good.
"Oh fuck!" He whined as his thighs twitched and spasmed around Eddie's head. Eddie purred into him, the vibration sent a bolt of electricity up his spine, and continued to suck on the bud. He gave the occasional swirl of his tongue and never looked away from where Steve was falling apart at the seams.
"Eddie, please," He begged, propping himself up on trembling elbows to look his hungry boyfriend in the eyes. Eddie dragged him in closer by the hips and ground his face against him.
"Fuck!" Steve gasped as one of his hands flew to his boyfriend's hair, tangling there in a desperate attempt to anchor himself. Eddie pulled off and gave Steve a pointed look, and he didn't need to be told to let go and flop back against the bed.
"Eddie, baby... Please don't stop." That resulted in another suck, and a flick of Eddie's tongue.
Steve was trembling all over.
It was so fucking wrong in all the right ways. But that didn't change how fucking fantastic it felt. The pattern of Eddie's movements was never ever predictable. His tongue swiped, and flicked, and swirled, never staying in one place too long.
"Please-" Steve whimpered, tears burning at the back of his throat. Humiliation burned in him as a new feeling crept up on him. From the pit of his stomach. Twisting, and sudden, he felt his orgasm starting to bubble up.
The jilted rise and fall of his chest quickened as he gasped for breath, trying to pull himself together. He wanted to at least warn his boyfriend before he came all over his face.
"Eddie, Eddie, Eddie," He chanted, his hips bucked and his fingers twisted into the sheets. Eddie doubled his efforts, he shoved his tongue deep in Steve's cunt making his nose rub against the underside of his clit while he pressed up and into him.
"Please!" Steve wailed. He twisted against his grip, scrambled against the mattress.
Eddie was relentless.
Steve's shaky, whimpered breaths, and Eddie's obscene slurping were the only sounds that filled the room.
Steve's thighs trembled around Eddie's head when his tongue moved inside of him with renewed intensity. The slide of Eddie's tongue against him, and a final accidental press of his nose to his clit, sent Steve over the edge. He cried out, humiliated and burning, as he came all over Eddie's face in a blinding surge of pleasure that shook through his abdomen.
Sooo how are we feeling?
I was going to do the reveal in a completely different way, but then I made a last minute decision to keep things good and peaceful between them.
I feel like Steve needed someone to just get him. To just accept that this is who he is without even questioning it or being shocked. I also kind of liked the idea of Eddie knowing but being respectful enough to not mention it until Steve was ready.
This chapter was mostly just a filler but it's finally out and I'm horrible at writing smut so here you go... Here's your crumbs.
Hope you enjoyed it. Don't forget to leave a review.