Author's Notes: Um…it's me, CJSpooks, again. Thanks to all those who reviewed, I'm grateful for all the support. Here's the next chapter in "Journal of Robert Goren". This time, instead of an entry from Bobby's journal, it's a letter from Eames to Goren. I hope you like it. Oh, and the lyrics to "Here without you" are from 3 Doors Down.
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Journal of Robert Goren
Chapter 3, Part 1: The letter
By CJSpooks
Eames entered the cemetery, walking slowly…both cautious and respectful. She wasn't really sure how she was to feel right then and there…or here that is. It was a beautiful summer day, sunny and warm.
She was there to visit her partner's grave. She had done so several times before but it seemed very different. It's been about six months since his passing into the other life. Eames had been assigned another partner…though memories of Robert "Bobby" Goren were everywhere.
Eames stepped carefully to the spot. His grave was under a tree, in the shadowy shade. Eames liked this spot…it was very peaceful. Somehow it gave her an extra relief. She stood quietly reflecting on her partner before she spoke, "Hey partner. It's me."
She waited as if she was expecting a response and then went on, "Um…work has been pretty slow lately so I took a day off to come see you." A chill came down Eames' spine. "Gee…it's getting pretty chilly right now for the middle of summer. It's kind of…creepy. But that's not why I'm here, Bobby." Eames went up to his tombstone. "I wrote this for you. I'm usually so good with words…but right now it's hard to say everything I want to say." Eames put her handwritten letter against his tombstone and sat back on the bench facing it.
Little did she know, Goren's spirit, on a little "vacation" from heaven, was wandering around the cemetery that very moment. His eyes lit up immediately when he caught a glimpse of Eames putting something near his grave. He screamed out her name and went to her. As he was about to envelope her in a huge hug, he realized that he couldn't. He was dead. He sighed and looked at his letter. He then began to read.
Bobby,
Hey partner. This is kind of weird…you know, writing you a letter. But, I guess writing helps all the emotions flow and get out all you need to say. First, I'd like to say I hope you're okay…wherever you are. I know you're watching over me right now…always. I know I'm never alone (because I wear the locket around my neck all the time). Oh damn it all…Bobby, my life feels so weird without you. I can't function properly without you. I miss you…we all miss you. I need you here…with me.
Bobby, as I was cleaning out your apartment, I came across your journal. I started reading it. I didn't find any dirty parts…Did you write those thoughts somewhere else? I hope that's okay with you. Don't you come haunt me, okay? Jeez…I'm actually writing like you'd give me a response to this.
I think I've come to terms with your death. I was assigned a new partner by the department. He's not as great as you, but he gets the job done…I miss your know- it- all technique of catching crooks. I know that Deakins and Carver miss you even though you freaked them both out at times. I guess that's all I have to say right now. You know I'll come back soon, I always do. Well, see you on the other side Bobby, I'm not sure when.
Oh, and one more thing…I love you too.
Alex
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Part 2: "Here Without You"/Conversation with a ghost
As Goren finished reading the letter, Eames started to talk again.
"Bobby…I…" –She started to say as tears started to flow.
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
"What is it? Why are you crying, Eames?" –Goren said. Though he knew that she would not be able to hear him.
"It's been too damn long since I've seen you alive."
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
"I'm not the same person anymore. I'm constantly thinking of you."
"I think about you all the time, Eames."
All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
"I dream about you too…of us."
"I did too…I don't think I dream anymore now that I'm dead."
I'm here without you baby
But you're still here on my lonely mind
"I barely remember what your voice sounds like anymore when I think of you."
"Oh God…You're forgetting me already."
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
"Don't get me wrong, Bobby. I'm not forgetting you…"
"Sure sounds like it to me."
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me
"I can barely remember what your voice sounds like when I think of you…that's because I can hear it clear as a bell in my dreams. You're with me there…every night."
"Oh…I imagine that you are with me in heaven as well."
The miles just keep on rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
"You know, so much time has passed."
"Almost a year. I hope you're adjusting well to the new circumstances."
I heard this life is overrated
But I hope it gets better as we go
"I wish I had all the time to tell you everything…about the cases I've been on, my thoughts on my new partner, how everything is going in general…but I guess I'm talking to myself. I wonder if you can hear me."
"I can hear you. I'm right here."
Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
"Anyway…I have to go soon…but I have to tell you something important."
"What is it?"
"Um…remember that night several months before you were killed?"
"Which one?"
"You know…the one when we…"
"Oh that, what about it? You can't here me…so you'll tell me anyway."
"Bobby…this is a weird thing to say to a dead man. And, it's hard to begin with…"
"What? Tell me or…excuse the expression, "die with all the suspense"."
"Bobby. I'm pregnant. You're the father."
"What! You're pregnant! Oh my God!"
"I have to go now…I love you."
"I love you too…wait! Don't leave me!"
Eames started to walk away. Goren jumped in her path to stop her. It was useless, because she went right through him.
End of Chapter 3
To be continued…
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