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The poems 5: Destiny: by ?, Eyes of the Soul by: PCB!, and For Sanity's Sake by: Gerald Lowe, The Smile by: Michael J. Kohler, Jr. And Who am I? By: PCB!

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Emotional Battlegrounds

By: Pink Cherry Blossom

Tigerzlily14

KITTY15

Chapter 2: My Journal



"blah"=Journal entry (actually, the whole chapter! ^_^)

"blah"=poems


Date: 16 December 2002

23:21:46


Hello Journal:


Guess What? My life was a living hell today. Why you ask? Well let me start at the morning. I was waken up at 3 am. 3AM! You know I don't get up until 5. Well, the elders decided that I needed to train more since I'm close magically to Sakura's powers. So I get up, get dress, and get down to the kitchen. It still dark outside, the moon is shining, the stars twinkle and i'm up at 3AM! Then the head elder, you know who, the big B----, well, he decided for me that I will be "sufficient" without breakfast. This was like my wilderness test. You know the one..... oh no you don't. Well, I was like 6 years old. The elders, put me out in the forest near by the mansion. I had to survive 2 weeks with no shelter, no food, no clothing, only my the stuff on my back and my mind. That was harsh. It was a test that was on my becoming to be the stoic, cold, selfish warrior. I was almost eaten by a bear, I didn't know there was bears out there, but I hypothesized that the elders had to do with that. I was so glad after that was finished. I only had 1 meal a day, the rest was trying to survive Mother Nature alone without magic.


That was not the point, but it's background info. Well, we actually went outside today, but then again, it's for training, so it sucked. The elders decided to do an overall test. Endurance, strategy, strength, speed, skills, technique, the whole works. That was torture. I decide not to describe everything, that would be like 100 pages the least. Well, the test, I had a major headache afterwards. The speed test, I had to dodge all these spells that even I didn't know exist, and that ended up me being scarred. The endurance test, I had to see how long I could last against certain moves. For the strategy, I was given ways to defeat an opponent like chess, with 1,2,3 moves. When I missed it, I was electrocuted, I swear, by the end of the day, I was a walking lightbulb. Anyway, the strength test was the usual, you measure your powers physically, mentally, and magically with enchanted equipment. The skill and the technique was put into one. I had to have a sword fight even though I am the best there is, and I'm not being conceited either. I fought for a long time in different subjects: Group, one-on-one, etc. Then there was more, and may I remind you, no food. I got done about 4 pm, and then I finally got to eat, yet it was a small meal. The 'elders' thought it would ruin my diet. I'm 13 years old, I'm growing stronger everyday, and I get a small meal consisting of rice, bamboo shoots, and Curry Beef in a tiny, measly china bowl. Ugh, I'm hungry now, but I'll get to that later. Now we'll go to part 2 today:


Now I went to my room, it's like 4:30 then. I hate to admit it, but I cried, yes I cried. I shouldn't be, but no one cares, and if they do, they don't show it. I have no trust in the elders, I'm like their puppet, I do what they tell me to do. So then I pulled myself together and I chose to follow up with my newest plan. I don't need to explain it because I tell you as I go along. I packed all my stuff together, that was clothes, pictures, my pendent, my notebook, you and some other essential items. I escaped when the elders had a meeting to discuss my future (I know cause I overheard they would from my sisters) and Niang was covering other matters. Everyone else was doing something else, it was perfect at 5pm. So I escaped with one of my skills, teleportation. You wonder why I didn't transport to somewhere else, well the spell only goes up to 1 mile at the moment. So since everyone was busy, I was able to teleport outside the gates without my magic being detected. And then I think, why would the elders teach me this? They're so senile. They know I'm bend on escaping, and I will, but they still teach it, dumb-asses. Well, so I'm outside the gate. I have money and I buy something to eat, I was still hungry from before. I had a good meal of Dim Sum, my favorite. So I leave the restaurant, and then I'm walking down the street until some gang grabs me and pulls me in the alley. They were asking me for money, and of course I refused, I mean I could easily beat them up if they start the fight. The leader, he was caucasian, and had a blood red bandanna , pulled a switchknife. I still had no worry. So when I kicked it out his hand, I starts to walk away, but they grabbed me. I ended up fighting all 16 of them. That's right, all of them. Not one backed down. I'm glad they at least had balls, but then again, I would have understood that they ran away cause they were scared. I mean, if you're groupies are getting beat up by one punk kid, then you should go before you suffer, but hey, that's not my deal, it's all about the pride and the honor at stake. I rambled off again, so then finally, I finished them. They didn't suffer badly, maybe a couple of bruises but that's it. I started to walk away until I reached the end of the alley. Then guess what? I ran a police officer. My luck. Then I tried to use my spells, sleep, confuse, everything, as long as I didn't hear it. It didn't work. I could see a shield around him. It had to be Niang's doing, just in case. Dang, she's good. So I even resorted to hand-to-hand combat, but that didn't work either. Dang she's REALLY good! So I ended up at the police station. He questioned me about the fight and I told him it was self defense, but I could tell he was skeptical. Then he saw my back, I lied and said I was spending the night at a friend's house. That's when he knew I lied. He recognized me as the Li kid, (wow, what a title!) and I was to stay at home, he knew about the magic even if he had none. Still, I wonder, how Niang tricked the elders to believing the 'evil' story, she must be REALLY DAMN good. I don't feel a dark aura, but I guess the elders do unless there is something I don't know. Off the topic again, well then I admitted that I ran away. He asked me way. I gave him the short bit, you know the training, and then I told him about my Niang. I claimed it was child abuse. I even had tears pouring down my cheeks. He didn't believe me, he listened, but then said it was a cruel trick. I tried to convince him, but he was being ignorant. I can't believed I cried, but it helped tell the story, and that was for nothing, just to resurface ugly memories. So he took me home, and thankfully Wei answered the door. He said it was okay and told him everything except for the child abuse. I wonder why that is, I'm getting suspicious... Wei promised not to tell, so it ended up good. I went upstairs and told Wei I won't be there for dinner 'cause I wasn't feeling well. That was a lie, but I wanted to be by myself....


So now, here I am, writing in you to keep my thoughts. Oh, sorry about any wet spots, those are my tears, I shouldn't be crying, but it's nice to let your emotions go sometimes. They say time heals all wounds, and I wonder if that is true....


My life sucks. It's now 1 minute to midnight, and I can't sleep. I'm glad Niang hasn't called yet. Decided to post some of my favorite poems, plus one that I wrote.


Destiny...
Is it something that has been pre-determined?
If that is true, then what sort of guide is destiny for humans beings?
They meet as if they were drawn together by some magnetic force
and separated as if pulled apart.
Meeting, separating, and meeting again;
each time it occurs, a new bond is formed.
If that is what destiny is,
then each new encounter
is what guides you on your journey.
Destiny is the beginning of all actions

By: Anonymous


I like that one, it's meaningful, and I know it's true cause I've been placed in the tangled wed called fate my whole life. I always wonder what it in store.....


I like this other one, it's so pretty, yet meaningful. It captured my eye when I read it...


Amber Eyes. Light Brown and penny-colored. T

he exact shade of dried leaves in autumn.

Not too brown, not to gold. Transparent yet solid.


Emerald eyes. A shade as rare as jades.

Bright and Glittery, full of the essences of life's greenery,

a mixture of not only one color.


Blue eyes. Not like the sea, nor the sky.

Like the ocean's tide crashing onto the beach during a warn summer day.

Fluent yet choppy.


Hazel eyes. A practical rainbow, not one the same.

Like a painted canvas of Mother Nature.

A combination of ones outside world reflected as a mirror.


Brown eyes. Light or Dark, no matter, both luscious like chocolate.

A yearn to crave after.

Like wood yet not so rough, more like silk.


Gray eyes. Ones like storm clouds on a winter day.

A misty yet clear shade that's not dull like it's name,

more lifelike, like the wind.


Red eyes. Ruby and sentimental.

Like a fire to warms one's heart,

Yet to color to attract the unwanted...


Even with the varieties of shades and tints,

one's eyes are the window to a soul.

All show emotion like water, clear and tranquil,

even if they are gold like the sun, or red as a cherry on a sundae.


The eyes are exquisite, they define character and virtue.

A look in one's eyes can make all the difference in your day.


By: Rachel C.


That was very deep. I wrote one myself a couple of days ago. I just wrote it 'cause I like it. It helps a lot....


What's the use of dreaming,

when all you do is wake?

Polished reality could be gleaming,

It's just the chances you take.

I ask about love and all it's meaning,

But I realize it is what I make.

I search for the perfect soul,

Carefree and Beaming.

I'm longing to be wanted,

For sanity's sake.


By: Your Truly


It reminds me of Sakura, but it's just a poem of my thoughts. I have two more I pasted that I like.


The joy a smile can bring

Is like the warmth of the spring

When you see a beautiful person smile

It makes you feel like going the extra mile

When a person makes you smile

It's usually makes them feel worthwhile

When the love of a smile comes and sings

There is no telling how much joy that it brings

By: Michael J. Kohler, Jr.


This one also reminds me of Sakura, her smile always made me blush...


This last one I wrote. I found the layout elsewhere. After this, I'm going to sleep hoping for a better tomorrow....


I am Syaoran Li.

I feel depressed when

Someone controls me against my will.


Yesterday I was tired.

Tomorrow I'll be terrified.

But today I am thoughtful.


Being "me" is a horrible thing

Because my life is a bitch.


I am "up" when I survive my training.

I am "down" when my day is all wrong.

I need my sentimentals

To keep me sane.

Without my memories, I am thoughtless

But with my dreams and hopes, I can survive this HellHole.


By: Yours Truly


I am done. I hope I can survive. I had this long, and i will. I'll write in you when I get the next chance, Sorry about the tears again. I'll keep you updated.


Till Then..........

Yours Truly,

Xiao-Lang Li

A/N: That was sweet! Our pets are sick, and PCB cause something, so the two of use have to go. You can meet out buddies in crime next time. R&R!